| 6:40a |
Lately I've been sleeping naked, or close to naked. Even though it is by myself, I like the way the sheets feel against my soft skin; it makes me feel sexy. The tv's light was casting a dim, bluish glow on my bare arm yesterday, the only thing aside from part of a shoulder that was sticking out of the blankets, and I couldn't help but be impressed by my muscle tone and definition I've gained these days.
I need to feel this. It's important to me. To feel sensual and sexy. To feel attractive. There are a million beautiful girls out there-- what separates me, makes me different than them? I am having a hard time with this these days... Im just another pretty face lost in a whirlpool of unindividuality. I don't feel special, anymore. |