More job hunting tommorow   
09:49pm 09/07/2003
mood: tired
music: Morning Musume - The peace!
Yay i'm updating.

Lets see yesterday.. I went to polo Mike came to pick me up and take the bus with me there, its only one bus and it drops you off right infront of it, very convinent if i get a job there, which hopefully i shall considering i applied to about 8 places in there!
I would really love to work at the explorer store, its all colorful and filled with different toys. And there's slush puppies, i love those drinks! Mmm.. i always get the lemon lime kind. Puchiko last time got the cotton candy kind and said it was good! I perhaps may try it. But i still love the lemon lime, i like sticking to the familar, rather dull that way but.. BITE ME.

My dad is still his typical asshole like self. Yesterday when i phoned my mom to tell her i would be coming home later then expected of course he was listening in on the other line, he doesn't trust me at all after he found out about Puchiko and I, what a big mess that was, and if we had the slightest thread of a relationship to begin with, he completly ruined it forever on that day he fliped out and wanted to kick me out of the house. He completely went blistic, and now he is only happy if i'm stuck at home all day being miserable.
Well tough for him, I'm not giving up on puchiko, my happiness will not be sacrified for his selfish closed minded asshole ways.
I shall see her again tommorow, just as I did yesterday, and it felt so good to be able to hug her again, though she is a little naughty sometimes. She likes to lift up my shirt over my stomach and kiss my belly button, i think she rather likes my stomach, but she was going to do it right infront of these little kids with their dad while we were sitting on a bench, and i sorta had to move away a bit and hold her head going "no puchiko not infront of the children!" and she went "theres children?" *looks to her side "oh." it made me laugh because she didn't remove her hand from beneath the shirt she just waited until they weren't looking and kissed it anyway.
And she did that again right on the escolater (sp? You know those automatic stairs) and there was an old lady behind us along with mike, and i went "puchiko behave," but it made me laugh anyway.
We also ranted about how society sucks, and trying to fit into it to please this perfect image that it destroyed from the begining sucks. Society shouldn't play sherades anymore, making it what its not is a waste of time.

Tommorow i must also get Lola a b-day card and a gift, she turns 18 on the 19th. And hopefully i shall go to her party! Which will be the first birthday party that i have ever gone to! I'm thinking of going to spencers to pick her up a card and gift, their cards are simply halirous, and i love their novelty/gag gifts, Lola would apperciate it! But i'm getting her a Real gift as well so it all balances out!
Unfortunately puchiko will not be at her party.. on the 15th she is going to calgary with some buddies for about 6 day.. well basically a week.. i'm going to miss her to death. But hopefully i can see her right when she gets back, she also said she would phone me during her trip so that it will be eassier on me.

You know you learn to really apperciate the beauty of Disney movies once your old enough to understand the full concepts of the story.
11:33pm 03/07/2003
mood: sleepy
This might come as a huge shock for some..
I don't have a penis, so please stop spaming my mail box with advertisments to inlarge my non existing penis.. it would be greatly apperciated, mari would love you in a plutonic way.

In other news..
I put in 3 job applications yesterday at polo for clothing stores, (one was a lingerie store) so i hope they phone me back cuz i want a job!
I was able to finally see puchiko yesterday, from not being able to see her for about 3-4 days so it was reallllyyy good, and i was so happy to see her cuz I missed her dreadfully.
My dad's a huge asshole and still won't let me do anything, but i'll show him.

My bro may go see a movie next week and i'll pretend to go with him, but have him drop me off at puchiko's house instead.

I had some random asshole guy message me yesterday and make crude sexual comments at me, i'm suspecting its one of yendy's friends, this chick i don't really talk to cuz she scares me, and likes to talk about her dating and kissing her cousin..eww -.-

yesterday must of been popular Mari day because i had so many messages at the same time while online.
Puchiko, Mike, Totchi, Garyn, April (new girl, garyns friend she messaged me cuz garyn said i was funny) Ruby, Kei, and then april invited me into one of those chat rooms and there were 13 users in there that kept talking so it was very hard to keep up with everything. But I do remember talking to this guy and joining in on his Pie rave.

That is all i have to report.
whats with the sex talk?   
01:03pm 23/06/2003
mood: bored
music: Dir en grey - Cage
Yesterday I got sorta annoyed at Mike, I didn't really mean for it to happen though ._. I couldn't help it. He just gets under my skin sometimes with his questions, we were talking on msn, it lead to him asking me when was the last time I was over at puchiko's house. I told him friday. And the first question he asked was "so did you guys do anything?" refering to, if we did anything sexual. Thats the first question he always asks if he knows I have gone over ot her house -.-
I get rather tired of it, I don't like to feel like i'm an explotation, or some sort of masturbation material for him.
It's my personal life, I don't know why he expects me to tell him anything about it, if i want to say something I will. Surely sometimes perhaps i will say I kissed her, but I don't like speaking of anything really beyond that, its my own buisness.
I just don't like getting asked that question, i get it a lot from others, it seems as though they don't think that puchiko and I have a real relationship, that its solely based on sexual relations. Some even assume that her and I already had sex o.o; I just sorta have to sit there and go "what are you talking about? If we did have it, i certainly was not aware of it!" point is sex is not important to me. I love to cuddle and talk.
And I get annoyed with people who just seem overly into the sex part, as Mike does, partically everytime he sees his girlfriend they have sex, really thats not bad for them at least, but I mean why must you boast about it? Its the first thing he will mention to me after he gets back from her place.. why do i care? He seems so proud of that fact all the time, I just wonder how much of a relationship they have, he seems to put to much emphasis on the sexual part of the relationship, as well as gives me uneccessary details about him and her, that should just be private with them.
Its fine for some, who are comfortable with expressing their pirvate lives.. but I mean you should at least express it to someone who does the same, and is comfortable with it, not with those you know that really rather not hear about it, and ask things from those who you know just won't say anything.

Or am I just being the stupid one?
08:17pm 22/06/2003
mood: sleepy
music: sexy 8 - shiawase desu ka?
Another Journal to add to my collection, looks like i have to maintain about... 5 journals now x.x
but thats ok! I made this one here to be able to view shin-chan's journal, cuz she is cool! And she mentioned it to me, so why not?
I know I probably won't update here dreadfully often, and if I do it will be a bunch of random things that don't really matter, I'm not one to put my real self in these things anyway.

In other news i'm almost done castlevania: aria of sorrow for gamboy advanced, I love video games, and I love vampires. THough this game lacked that whole vampire type essence but its ok.