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yup. my b'day night was fun. would have been more fun if that idiotic jeremy had come! anyway, i had a no. of tequila shots and lots of drinks sponsored! my friends were like b'day girl drink up! i couldn't say no ! but still i didn't get high or anything. so weird! but imagine this? i actually puked! looks like alcohol doesn't take an effect on me man. so anyway, riff and snake came down! it was rocking man! we were like at one corner of the dance floor just dancing and doing stupid stuff! haha! it was fun. then went to centro. and that really really and i mean really sucked! the place is like so dead. and the music really sucks. well that's just what i thought about it. my cousin loves it tho. really can't figure out why? this week is jam packed with activities! mon-hrc, wed-zouk, friday-sos and sat-poison. very bad for my dad's wallet. heh. our new lecturer is kinky man! he's always bringing up sexual examples! his favourite word is dildo! so we figured he might be gay. heh. kinky. i need to start on my projects. arg. the thought of it brings me down, low low in my seat. ah.
i sometimes wonder, what would happen after life? do we become roaming souls? or do we just vanish? or do we go to heaven or hell as man has perceived? or do we choose a new family to be in, thereafter having our memories erased? or are we just assigned new parents and we start all over again? or do we go through a 'session' with God to see who has failed and who has passed greatly and it would be finalised whether we have to be sent back to do it all over again? or we take the place of God. imagine, God retiring and passing u his crown. now it's your turn to rule the world. heh. amazing. sometimes, i think, i can't wait to die because i wanna see what happens and what God looks like. or find out for sure whether he REALLY does exist. or to find out if there really is a heaven and a hell. so many questions unanswered? so many question marks. it's extremely intoxicating. don't u think?
then again, i don't wanna leave yet. i've got lots of dreams to fulfil. i've got a family to take good care of. good friends to be with. many more nights to club til i drop. many more fags to take. many more tears to flow. many more chocolates to eat. many more vivek oberoi movies to watch. many more times of lazing around. many more times to taste the precious sustenance my mum & grandma make. many more times to tease my beautiful grandma. many more times to upset my dad. many more times to get irritated by my little bro. many more times to laugh at what my cousin will come up with next. many more times of hanging out in ghim moh with riff & everyone. many more hours to spend talking to jeremy. many more times of attending lectures. many more times of critisizing anorexic girls. many more times to listen to aaliyah's great music. basically, many more times to embrace my life. what can i say? i'm lovin it... pa da pa pa pa! gross man! i hate that commercial! nite nite now.
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