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Good news all around...
For the time being, I am more-or-less over the fact that the Frenchman has not called. I think that I cried him out of my system the other night, and while I may have relapses from time to time, especially when I dwell on things, I am no longer devastated. I also think that I may be getting over my need for relationships. I sat down and made a list of all of the good reasons to be single, and some of them were so convincing that I actually became cheerful (the main reason to remain single was sleeping alone- I hate sleeping with other people! I cannot fall asleep if I am overheated, i.e. if there is extra body heat around, and having someone's bony arms around me is always uncomfortable. I always end up squished against the wall, trying to get away). I also realized that I might like a male *friend.* A pal, the sort of male friend that I had in highschool. Someone to make dirty jokes with, someone to help me exercise my crude juvenile side. This, more than anything else, is what has been missing from my life.
In addition, my order of sterling silver wire has arrived. It is lovely, and I have all sorts of plans for it. At the moment, I am working on two projects at once- one, a red multistrand necklace with a large dichroic glass center bead, and the other, a faceted peridot and freshwater pearl necklace. I have recently come into some money, enough to allow me to leave my job for the semester, and I am going to use some of it to buy beads. I have my eye on some faceted amethyst beads...
Finally, I had a wonderful time at the gym yesterday. I exercised my tired and cramped muscles to the point of exhaustion, and afterwards I had a time in the sauna. After the whole ordeal, I felt as if I were floating. If the weather lets up today I may go again, and not only will I have a little extra sauna time, but I may just try and locate that whirlpool hottub as well... I am even thinking of... going swimming... for the first time in nearly seven years.
For the time being, I am more-or-less over the fact that the Frenchman has not called. I think that I cried him out of my system the other night, and while I may have relapses from time to time, especially when I dwell on things, I am no longer devastated. I also think that I may be getting over my need for relationships. I sat down and made a list of all of the good reasons to be single, and some of them were so convincing that I actually became cheerful (the main reason to remain single was sleeping alone- I hate sleeping with other people! I cannot fall asleep if I am overheated, i.e. if there is extra body heat around, and having someone's bony arms around me is always uncomfortable. I always end up squished against the wall, trying to get away). I also realized that I might like a male *friend.* A pal, the sort of male friend that I had in highschool. Someone to make dirty jokes with, someone to help me exercise my crude juvenile side. This, more than anything else, is what has been missing from my life.
In addition, my order of sterling silver wire has arrived. It is lovely, and I have all sorts of plans for it. At the moment, I am working on two projects at once- one, a red multistrand necklace with a large dichroic glass center bead, and the other, a faceted peridot and freshwater pearl necklace. I have recently come into some money, enough to allow me to leave my job for the semester, and I am going to use some of it to buy beads. I have my eye on some faceted amethyst beads...
Finally, I had a wonderful time at the gym yesterday. I exercised my tired and cramped muscles to the point of exhaustion, and afterwards I had a time in the sauna. After the whole ordeal, I felt as if I were floating. If the weather lets up today I may go again, and not only will I have a little extra sauna time, but I may just try and locate that whirlpool hottub as well... I am even thinking of... going swimming... for the first time in nearly seven years.