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| 11:14pm 07/06/2004 | |||
| it's my birthday. i'm 17. whoopie fuckin doo. now i can go to R rated movies alone. i got some money and odds and ends. nothing all too special. later fuckers | |||
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| 11:14pm 07/06/2004 | ||||
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accomplished| a band! | ||||
| 02:53pm 27/05/2004 | ||||
check them out. we're currently taking a break from shows so they can catch me up on things and so we can write together. i am super stoked!! i gotta go to pratice right now. i'll update later or something. +Mike+ |
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| 03:19am 13/05/2004 | ||||
The End: "He Died With Honor" I feel honored no more The last moments of my life I cried out for mother! You can't speak for the dead They're gone, unlike you They have reached the end I'm so proud now I died for my country For honor I'll never see For Freedom that isn't free It's all at the cost of my life! Where's freedom now? Or democracy? Show it to me Point with your finger please You took away my freedom My freedom to life fuck you and your country You want to die for your land? There'll be no one on the frontlines to hold your hand As you're shot full of holes and you life drains on the floor Take a good look at the sun, you'll never see it again! You can't speak for the dead They're gone, unlike you They have reached the end You've reached the end, and now you're just like me You're dead today and dead forever! Your mouth fills with worms And your secrets the dirt shall keep You have died to protect your life! You have died to uphold your morals! You have died, and now they're all gone! You can't be noble if you're dead You died for a lost cause A cause you will never, ever see You're in the ground and rotting You're dead and you died for nothing! You're dead, mister, you're dead i hope you all like it. and now ask yourself this question: Are you an Ameri-CAN or an Ameri-CAN'T? +Mike+ |
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| 05:08am 07/05/2004 | ||||
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 29. How well do you know me? 29. When's the last time you saw me? 30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 31. Do you think I could kill someone? 32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? |
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devious| yeah... | ||||
| 02:37am 29/04/2004 | ||||
+Mike+ http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/postmortem1331/my_photos |
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| 11:20pm 29/02/2004 | ||||
 Which Evil Criminal are You? Congratulations, you're Elizabeth Bathory! Hailing from sunny Transylvania, your first blood-related incident was when you stabbed a servant girl in the face with a pair of scissors for underperforming. Some of the red spray landed on your hands, and as you washed it off, you noticed that it left your skin fresh and young looking. From then on you were convinced that the blood of young girls was the secret to eternal youth. Rather than killing girls outright by stabbing them or slitting their throats, you enjoy torturing them for weeks on end by pricking them with needles or prodding with sharp spikes - all to bathe in their blood. You've killed over six hundred women, all without raising a peep from the authorities.  Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You? A Rum and Monkey joint. Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You? Must kill, ha ha, ha ha! Death! Playground antics! Cake and cheese! Yes! you're an Insane ninja child! The blast must have hit you particularly strong, because you've gained a billion new superpowers and can take on anyone you want. Even that kid Gunrock-with-nine-arms from down the street. Only problem is, it's driven you completely insane and you now have a thirst for blood equalled only by your thirst for vengeance and peeing in the kitchen bin. No, stop! That's what the toilet's for. Stop I say! |
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| 02:48pm 21/02/2004 | ||||
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| kurt cobain | ||||
| 03:40pm 20/02/2004 | ||||
i dunno how the pics work but check these out: http://www.nirvanaclub.com/pictures/cobain/024_ac045.jpg http://www.nirvanaclub.com/pictures/cobain/cobain2.jpg http://www.nirvanaclub.com/pictures/cobain/kurt44.jpg that's it. i'm out... happy birthday kurt... |
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mellow| it's been a while | ||||
| 02:29pm 10/02/2004 | ||||
+i graduated high school (haha fuckers) +i played guitar +watched some concerts on DVD -woke up -been at home for too damn long -parents have been talking about college shit (way too fucking early) there's nothing much going on in my life cause i don't have a life. there's nothing for me to do. but i made my own hell. no shit, check it out General asshats Hipsters Militant Vegans Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies Emo Fucks River Styx Limp Bizkit River Phlegyas Wiggers The Pope Jesus, God |
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| A Killer Soundtrack | ||||
| 12:14am 31/01/2004 | ||||
opening credits: nine inch nails - the new flesh waking-up scene: nirvana - aneurysm average-day scene: nine inch nails - metal best friend scene: misfits - bullet first-date scene: silverchair - miss you love falling-in-love scene: metallica - nothing else matters fight-with-friend scene: pantera - 5 minutes alone break-up scene: queensryche - i don't believe in love get-back-together scene: nirvana - about a girl fight-at-home scene: nirvana - endless, nameless depressing scene: silverchair - untitled sex scene: nine inch nails - closer heartbreak scene: Nirvana - Pennyroyal Tea mental-breakdown scene: Nirvana - Heart-Shaped Box driving scene: iron maiden - running free lesson-learning scene: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication deep-thought scene: Staind - It's Been A While flashback scene: Staind - Ephiphany party scene: Marilyn Manson - mOBSCENE happy/crazy dance scene: Jimi Hendrix - All Along The Watchflower night driving scene: Cradle of Filth - Suicide And Other Comforts realizing what you just did scene: Alice in Chains - Down in a Hole regret scene: Red Hot Chili Peppers - This Velvet Glove long-night-alone scene: Filter - Where Do We Go From Here death scene: Evanescence - My Immortal closing credits: green day - time of your life |
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| 01:44am 20/01/2004 | ||||
LAST PERSON WHO.. *Slept in your bed: fuck you, it's always just me *Made you cry: i haven't cried in years *You shared a drink with: i'm extremely selfish, i never share especially not food *You went to the movies with: my dad, paycheck (good movie) *You went to the mall with: parents *Yelled at you: parents *Sent you a comment on Livejournal: i don't have live journal but i believe that katie was the last to give me a comment *Said they were going to kill you: no one dares to threaten me HAVE YOU EVER.. *Said "I love you" and meant it?: love, what it love now a days besides another word *Gotten in a fight: fuck yeah. i'm male *Been to New York? who the hell hasen't *Been to Florida? yup *Been to California? it's going under water soon and i dont wanna be there when it does, besides the place is fake all over anyways *Been to Hawaii? nope *been to Mexico? never *been to China? fuck no *Been to Canada? it's not a real country and i don't do drugs so there's no reason for me to go *Gotten a really bad feeling about something then it happened? shit happens *hoped you were the opposite sex? that could get interested *Had an imaginary friend? i tried to but he always went away This or that? *Red or Blue? blue *Spring or Fall? spring *Santa or Rudolph? santa, he gives me things but he didn't give me shit this year so it's rudolph this year *Math or English? english *High school or college? college may be better, hopefully *Chocolate or vanilla? either Random.. *What are you going to do after you finish this survey? sleep *What was the last food you ate? chef boyrdee beefaroni *Are you bored? always *How many buddies are on? 18, but it's near 2AM on a school night *Do you have a crush on someone? not now *What book are you reading now? DOOM: End Game *Favorite board game? Candy Land, it's simple *Favorite magazine? Guitar Magazines *Worst feeling in the world? knowing that there's no bread in the whole fuckin house, i mean god damn, who ever has NO fucking bread in their house? *What is the first thing you think of when you wake in the morning? fuck, the dream is over once again and i'm spit back into reality *How many rings before you answer? i never answer *Future daughter's name? i dunno *Future son's name? trent About the opposite sex.. *honestly, what do you notice first?: eyes *must-have personality trait: isn't stuckup *hair-curly or straight?: straight *hair-long or short?: doesn't matter *thing you hate most about 'em?: most of them are concieted *thing you love most about 'em?: they feel soft, they're warm, and make me realize i'm alive, and then like a motherfucker i wake up again from a dream DESCRIBE YOUR.. *Wallet : its got a chain and an iron cross on it *Hairbrush: i've got a comb and it'a black, respect *Toothbrush : blue *Jewelry worn daily: my skull ring, dog collar on my wrist (i've got big wrists and normal bracelets don't fit), and an earring *Pillow cover: dark blue and light blue *Blanket: plad blue *Coffee cup: yuck, fucker! *Sunglasses: i always lose them *Shoes: nike *Favorite top: band shirts *Cologne/Perfume: BOD spray *CD in stereo right now: i don't use my stereo but i'm listning to Thursday *Piercings: ear *What you are wearing now : shorts and an ozzy t-shirt *Hair: greasy WHO or WHAT (was/is/are).. *In my head: tons of voices *After this: sleep *Eating: my tongue *The person you wish you could see right now: the people from millstone/allentown *Next to you: my computer *Some of your favorite movies: pretty much any zombie movie, and anything that has loads of violence *Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month : getting out of my house More random, I guess.. *If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: an individual who doesn't know what color he is and refuses to realize he's white and lives 5 minutes down the street from me, he's not from the ghetto and u know who i'm talking about and theres someone else but that's been taken care of *Do you like candles: a wate of fire *Do you like hot wax: not in that ricky martin livin la vida loca music video kinda way *Do you believe in forgiveness: yeah *What do you want done with your body when you die : i want to become real famous and at age 27 commit suicide with a shotgun blast into my mouth and join that club in the sky (handrix, joplin, cobain and morrison who all died at age 27) and have an open casket so everyone can view my pain and then be burned into ashes and have my ashes spread into every ocean poisoning them all *What is the latest you've ever stayed up: i stayed up for a couple of days at a time just because i could *What is your biggest regret: moving away from my life i feel kinda dizzy and light headed right now and i think it's due to a gas leak somewhere in my house but oh well. i got a new jackson guitar. it's a real dark green (not the color i wanted) and the guitar store is ordering a new one in black but for now i'm borrowing the green one. pretty good but it needs a couple modifications (new pickups, change the nobs so i have 2 volume knobs and 1 master tone knob and thus removing the "boost" feature which sucks anyways) and then it'll be a really kick ass guitar. |
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| 06:45pm 10/01/2004 | ||||
Another Informal Love Song: You Will Buy Into This Make Me Filthy Rich Package It In Shiny Plastic My Emotions Are Wrapped Inside Cellophane They Are On Sale For You A Song Written For Two Written For You From Me To You And You Will Buy Into This Eternal Bliss I Aimed It Straight, So I Won't Miss No Bullet Is Fast Enough So I Can Leave You Alone No Knife Is Sharp Enough To End All of This Haunted By My Dreams Filled With Lies They Leave My Sad Truth Behind This Has Been Left For You Nothing Is Left For Me I Am Your Shame! My Fragile Form What Was Once Will Never Be Again Take Me With You To Your Happy Place Show Me What It's Like To Smile Again Everytime I Think of You I Die Inside Everytime That I Look At You I Cry Inside I Aimed It Straight, So I Won't Miss It's Hard To Miss When You're This Close I Hope You Love The Color Red The Barrel's In My Mouth And With A Flash of Light I'm Gone! Comment and tell me what u think or what u think i should change or whatever. |
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| 05:19pm 05/01/2004 | ||||
LAYER ONE -- name: mike aquavella -- birthplace: old bridge, jersey -- current Location: forest hill, maryland -- eye color: blue -- hair color: brown -- height: 5'9" maybe -- righty or lefty: righty -- zodiac sign: gemini LAYER TWO: -- your heritage: a little bit of everything -- the shoes you wore today: nike -- your weakness: food -- your fears: not being able to control my anger and killing stupid people -- your perfect pizza: plain -- goal you'd like to achieve: be a rich rock star and rule the world LAYER THREE: -- your most overused phrase on AIM: fuck off -- your thoughts first waking up: dammit, i still didn't die -- your bedtime: 11 - 2 -- your most missed memory: millstone LAYER FOUR: -- pepsi or coke: neither -- mcdonald's or burger king: mcdonalds -- single or group dates: how should i know? -- adidas or nike: nike -- lipton ice tea or nestea: neither -- chocolate or vanilla: tiwst -- cappuccino or coffee: yuck, fuck you LAYER FIVE: -- smoke: smoking will kill you, sounds like a good idea to me. i should start a new bad habbit -- cuss: fuck you -- sing: yeah -- take a shower everyday: if i'm going out somewhere -- have a crush: love sucks -- do you think you've been in love: fuck you -- want to go to college: yeah -- like(d) high school: yeah, at least the 1st half of it -- want to get married: yes -- believe in yourself: hardly -- get motion sickness: nope -- think you're a health freak: take a good look at me -- get along with your parent(s): yeah as long as they don't ask dumb ass questions that there's no possible way for me to know the answer -- like thunderstorms: i sit in a baby pool during storm and just wait and hope... -- play an instrument: guitar, bass, drums, pots and pans LAYER SIX: in the past month... -- drank alcohol: alcohol sucks but yeah i tried it and i came to the same conclusion -- smoked: nope -- done a drug: nope -- had sex: fuck you -- gone on a date: once again, fuck you -- gone to the mall?: yeah -- eaten an entire box of oreos: nope -- eaten sushi: fuckin disgusting food -- been on stage: nope -- been dumped: nope -- gone skating: nope -- made homemade cooies: no -- gone skinnydipping: u ever watch that seinfeld episode when some chic saw George naked after coming out of a pool or something and he told Jerry to tell his girlfriend that coldness causes shrinkage, well it's winter now so take a guess if i did that or not -- dyed your hair: never -- stolen anything: nope LAYER SEVEN: ever... -- played a game that required removal of clothing: nope -- if so, was it mixed company: nope -- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope -- been caught "doing something": i told here not to open the door, it's locked for a reason, but did she listen, nope! -- been called a tease: nope -- gotten beaten up: who'd wanna take me? -- shoplifted: nope -- changed who you were to fit in: fuck trends, all posers should be hung by their fuckin neck ties LAYER EIGHT: -- age you hope to be married: 30's -- numbers and names of children: kids suck -- describe your dream wedding: there shall be several sacrifices, black roses, black dresses... j/k about the roses -- how do you want to die: self inflicted shotgun wound to the head or in my sleep -- where you want to go to college: communtiy college, it's cheaper -- what do you want to be when you grow up: rock star for lack of a shittyer word -- what country would you most like to visit: germany LAYER NINE: in a guy/girl.. -- best eye color? brown eyed girl -- best hair color? brunette -- short or long hair: doesn't matter that much. not so long that she looks like cousin It -- height: little shorter or same height -- best weight: thinner than me, it's not that hard -- best articles of clothing: tubesock -- best first date location: pants, lol j/k -- best first kiss location: once again, pants. or maybe neck or you could be classy and just aim for the lips and hope for the best LAYER TEN: -- # of drugs taken illegally: none -- # of people i could trust with my life: they're too far away -- # of CDs that i own: too much metal for my own good -- # of piercings: ear -- # of tattoos: i'll get one on my arm -- # of scars on my body: 1 or 2, as u know, i don't leave my house much -- # of things in my past that i regret: birth is a bich mother fucker using bands spell out your name... M Metallica I Iron Maiden K Kittie E Evanescence A AC/DC Q Queen U U2 A Alice In Chains V Van Halen E Eternity Void L Led Zeppelin L Lynyrd Skynyrd A Anthrax +Mike+ |
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| 11:47pm 25/12/2003 | ||||
here's some lyrics to make you think: "Addiction's held you back But you don't care 'Cause you're on a high again And it's not fair Consuming alcohol While I gotta drive Take a hit from the drugs you stole And try to survive Since your life was over You haven't yet been sober You have held me back so long Everything you do is wrong" -Silverchair - Pop Song For Us Rejects "I'm just another body down Internal bleeding round and around And all I can think of are ways to die alone And all I can think of are ways to die alone A portrait of my skeletal gain Left selfish and hungry so feed me the pain Escape reality with new pain Then let the cycle start again And all I can think of are ways to die alone And all I can think of are ways to die alone Dream of content, a pain filtered farm All I can say... Dreams are bad when all they do is leave the truth behind Dreams are bad when negativity's a state of mind Dreams are bad when all they do is leave the truth behind Dreams are bad" -Silverchair - Untitled |
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| 05:28pm 12/12/2003 | ||||
change sucks major donkey balls, but oh well. i was at wal mart last night and i got some movies, namely the shining, full metal jacket, mortal kombat, and the exorsist. i rented Dawn of the dead (sequal to night of the living dead) and some other movie i don't remember the name of. maybe dreamcatcher or something like that. fuck it... change... sometimes change is good, i personally have never seen change being positive. so for me change is always bad. especially in people. u get used to someone acting 1 way for 16 years and all of a sudden they change. u find out things about them that you wish were not true. you find out things about them that they themselves would never tell you. those drunk rat fuck sons of bitches. haha and they have the nerve to write "Love, so and so" in your yearbook. Love... another overused word. a word that once had meaning and now it's used as just another word in the dictionary just like the word "God". and it's funny... the people that over use the word "Love" and "God" are usually the same people. such as "oh my god, i love you soo much!" fucking cunts. they don't mean it. and as of now, love doen't mean shit. sex has lost its meaning. but who's to blame? i'll take the blame. i don't have anything else better to do anyways. a word to the legally dumb... "play your guitars and write your songs drink yourself to death and as you take your last dying breath you'll realize you were never as good as me" -me nazi punks, fuck off! |
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| 10:29am 10/12/2003 | ||||
i watched this move called "Power." it's about some albino kid that has these weird-ass powers. he can like control electricity and read peoples minds and thoughts while touching them. it was alright and i needed to pass the time for i didn't sleep. i've been awake since 3 P.M. Tuesday. i might sleep later, or i may not. but that's the way of the world, now isn't it? it either is, or it is not... someone told me once... sometimes it's good to be happy i get worried when i'm happy... because i don't know how long it'll last or when i'll be happy again and that brings me down "i miss the comfort in being sad" it feels weird I want to go back to just being curled up in a ball in my bed listening to music all day "it's not that i don't care, it's just that i simply care too much about people" "Life, death Flesh, famine Virgins, innocent? Whores, semen humans, safe?" -me why are we here? what purpose do we serve? We are a virus Spreading from place to place We destroy our environment And move on We don't care if the planet dies Nor do i care i think it's odd how pleasure is so temporary and destruction is eternal living scares in that whore of mother nature Even she is not as beautiful as she seems she is yet another bringer of death she is no better than the humans i don't feel like a human i feel above them i feel stronger, more intelligent but any test in stregnth will show i'm weak any IQ test will show i'm no Einstein so what am i? and what is the feeling i feel? i feel like this is only temporary i was made for something bigger as the blood boils in my veins i am cursed to walk this scortched earth only human... For those parents who blame music, and video games, and movies and television for corrupting the youth (us). they are damned right. i hate to say it but they are right. but u know what? i wouldn't have it any other way. i'd rather think for myself then be fed anymore of their bullshit. did u really think they would of told you the truth about santa and the easter bunny had it not been for our ever growing knowledge of the real world. we can tell what it right and what is wrong better than they ever could. and they won't let go. goodbyes were always too hard for them. but the true criminal here is the media. not varg. the media makes murder look so good, so right, and who's to say that it's wrong? given the right circumstances. varg should not be punished for the murder of Euronymous. that rat cunt deserved to die. and no better way than the way Varg accomplished it. he took a pretty damn long knife and chased Euronymous through the streets while Euronymous (as eye witnesses report) was screaming like a woman, and it ended with varg stabbing Euronymous through the head with the knife under a street lamp. varg said it was so incredibly difficult to pull the blade from out of his head. the blade went all the way through but Euronymous deserved it. if varg didn't kill him, Euronymous would of killed varg and we can't have that. FREE VARG! |
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| 07:10am 10/12/2003 | ||||
well, another exciting couple of days. i went to this seminar with my mom yesterday about some fucking eye disease. my mom made me go cause my grandma was supposed to go but didn't and my mom didn't want to sit alone. so i went. an hour and a half later, i never thought i knew so much about shit as a did then. 5 minutes later, if u asked me what happened in the past hour and a half of my life i would have no fucking clue. i got Terminator 2 on DVD... again. damn, this must of been the 3rd time i've bought the movie, talk about a die hard fan. but that movie taught me so much about life. for example, when i'm 12 years old, i can ride a shitty dirtbike through the streets of California while, listning to guns 'n' roses and while hanging out with that redhed-ed from salute your shorts. i also learned to use words like "fuck", "shit", "dude fag", "dick wad", or combinations such as "chill out, dick wad". good stuff. you know, my grandpa from florida was visiting a couple of months ago and he told me something. he said "don't get old michael, don't get old." now... 2 things were going through my mind, i hate when people call me michael but he send me $100 for holidays and up to $300 when we meet in person so i let it slide. #2 is what he said about getting old. i don't intend on getting old. i'll let you figure this part out on yourselves. i went to Outback Steak House for some dinner and i got a damn good 20oz. porterhouse steak. i thought my mom owed me that after that shitty and boring seminar. then i went to barnes and nobles and i got 2 books. Metallica "Nothing Else Matters" which is a story all about their songs and what they're about, good stuff to know. and the second book i've been wanting for some time. it's called "The Lords of Chaos." it's all about Christ Rapeing Black Metal, burning churches, satanism, muder, suicide and all sorts of things i LOVE. (Evil grin) +Mike+ "getting away with a lie is like getting away with murder it's fucking amazing" -me |
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yeah... well i guess i fell victem to this journal trend as well. since this is my 1st entry i'll catch u up on things. i left jersey, and there's not a damn thing i can do about it. i with there was, but there's not, and that sucks major ass-pipe. i'm now home schooled so that's alright. it brings me more and more out of society. day by day i slip away from the world that you know. a world that once in a while i wish i was a part of. but at least where i am i have the best company in the world, myself. With ADD, my mind will never shut up wether that be a good thing or bad thing, i don't know. all i do know is that it's a bitch to go to sleep at night. that's why i wake up in the afternoon and go to sleep when everyone else is waking up. i've got a whopping 1 friend in this place. he's cool as hell, crazy guitar player. he made me stop slacking off at guitar and play my ass off. yeah... i got a new guitar, an Epiphone les paul which brings the grand total to 11 guitars. i got a new amp, mesa/boogie! that's all i'll say about that. i got a whole shit load of new guitar pedals, and i replaced all my shitty ibanez pedals so that's good. more recently i got my amp to get the sound i've always wanted so that puts a crimson grin on my face. so basically, i sleep all day, do 20 mins of schoolwork, and play guitar all night. i spent 10 minutes on this thing so thats enough for now. +Mike+ |
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