Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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12:35 am
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Tomorrow we're putting my dog to sleep. Hes been with us for 18 years and is now suffering from cancer. He can't walk he hasn't bark he knows we're there and he knows we're calling him he just can't move. Just looking at him in so much pain makes me bawl my eyes out. My eyes are so red. At work tonight all I could think about was him. I love my dog so much. I'm starting to miss him now. Hes sleeping next to me right now. His head is in my lap. I put his bed next to my bed because I just want to hold him. I don't know what I am going to do without him. The 4th was the 18 years he has been with us. The 5th is I guess the end.
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Monday, June 20th, 2005
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1:10 pm
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Well I'm in the new dorms at UT. Its going to be awesome. I'm in the Rocket Marching Band. They have alternates... I have the fear of being one of those so I'm memorizing my music and hopefully thats lower my chances of ever being an alternate because they use lyers... Yeah I know.... I hate lyers and I can see whats in front of me when I use them causing me to run into people and into other things. lol. I went to Rocket Launch (yeah it sounds really weird but its my orientation) I met some pharmacy majors (but no music majors) OH COME ON! lol. I met Holly who is like me only a bit crazy and totally sporty. She was in band but isn't going to do marching band this year. And I met Jake... Jake was an interesting character. Oh yeah... Different. He wanted me lol. He was in engineering and he kept saying that all engineers are hot because of their minds... Okay I won't disagree or I won't agree lol.
I met an upperclassmen named Rob. Hes in computer engineering and can't wait till I'm up there. I'm like WHOA! hes adorable and he makes me laugh. 2 things that I really love in a guy. Oh yeah :-D
oh yeah... I'm leaving August 12th... Then I have band camp.. Yes I know... Band Camp... Heck yes lol
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Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
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9:05 pm
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Well... Thursday was my last day of High School... THANK FRIGGIN GOD! I saw the new Star Wars last night and it was awesome! I couldn't believe how awesome it was.
For those who are wondering, my graduation party is June 5th at 4:30... after Graduation... 4:30 bitches be there.
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Sunday, April 24th, 2005
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10:48 pm
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Well... I got into the school of Music at UT... I tried out on March 19th. I thought I totally screwed it up but I guess I was wrong. My dad called the university 14 days after I was supposed to recieve word if I got in or not. My mom was all bubbly when she found out. She wouldn't tell me on the phone the night of the pharmacy gig... so I was nervous when I came home she was like "Oh by the way your dad called the university and guess what" yeah thats how I found out lol.
I am also in the UT Marching Band. :-) I get to be there a week before everyone else and its a band camp lol. thats sad when I say it. I'm just worried about college now... I passed everything and I'm ready to graduate... hopefull econ won't screw me up. All I want is to be in UT now. I love it up north. Its so peaceful and away from everything.
oh, the police inspected my truck for drugs... oh yeah... I'm high on life not on drugs.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
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9:04 pm
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Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracey took all the kids o the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair
Andhis mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine with a row of Xs and he had to ask his father what the xs meant
And his father tucked him in at night
And wasalways there to do it
Once on a piece of paper with blue lines he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn" because taht was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of it's new paint
And the kids told him that Father Tracey smoked cigars
And left the butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go to see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it
Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question:" because that was the question about his girl
And thaat's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look
ANd his mother never hung it on the door because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracey died
And he forget how the end of the Apostles' Creed went
And he caught his sister making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed or even talked
And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do
And at three AM he tucked himslef into bed his father snoring soundly
That's why on the back or a brown paper bag he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was all about
And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen
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Thursday, December 30th, 2004
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4:01 pm
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I got 3 more college letters.. this is what I got so far
I have been accepted to the University of Michigan (boo) of course they would accept me.
University of Iowa :-) but I'm not going there
University of Toledo- My first choice so I'm going there
and I'm waiting on Wright State... though I'm not really waiting. UT is the way to go for me
current mood:  creative
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Monday, December 27th, 2004
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11:26 am
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I got into UT... class of 2009 *grins huge!!!*
current mood:  bouncy
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