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Sunday, September 14th, 2003
2:06 pm
if you loved me should love me here too...
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Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
6:58 pm
why do things have to get soo....frusturating
why cant i just lean on someone and take a load off
someone just love me
without the baggage
someone just hold me
without having to worry
without having to worry me
do i even capture your attention anymore?
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Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
8:20 pm
damnit...i wanna play guitar
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Monday, September 8th, 2003
5:50 pm - thirsty
It seems like no one is ever happy. No one can just sit back and think about how good things are. The people around me can just be so damn negetive allthe time. If it's not one thing thats wrong its another. We live in a complaining society.

-sigh- Just be happy!
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Sunday, September 7th, 2003
2:33 pm - gooo friends
YAY ali brought me balloons! that made my day.

im so glad that my great boyfriend has called to make sure im alright....oh wait...that didnt happen.

but its ok because ali loves me more!
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11:39 am - fuck
first off i would slowly like to say happy berfday joshua!! slow left handed rant.

i have a splint on my right hand bc i was i fell on my arm at work. YAY! I was there till 4 in the morning. Its really deppressing. I cant even put my hair up. I really hope its only for a week. I dunno what im gunna do about school.

and bleghfsdf. :o(
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Saturday, September 6th, 2003
11:28 am - Remember that the only things we need sometimes are chilly nights and warmer thighs
I woke up this morning and just opened my window to let all the morning in my room. It looks like such a cold day outside. I know that If i step out, I'll be sadly dissapointed.

One of my most favorite things in the world, is the first day of winter. A cold front comes in the night before, and you step outside and quickly run back in for a sweater. It's my most favorite feeling. I need that change in weather. I'm so sick of the heat, and the bad skin and hair that comes with it. I love how every tan, anorexic girl gains at least 5 pounds and all the tans fade and we all accept each other somehow. Winter unshaven legs lol. And everyone is so cold and just trying to keep warm, and it's just so nice, such a giving time of year.

It's so far away.

current music: saves the day
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Friday, September 5th, 2003
10:59 pm
I feel so completely estranged from my friends sometimes. It's a really crappy feeling. People I thought I would always always be right by my side, I hardly even feel i know anymore.

Prehaps it's just when my moods differ from theirs, it's when i feel so left out. Like I'm left out of some great high feeling that everyone else is on.

I do it to myself though. I am in a seperate world with him. One that I feel like no one else likes. A world that I love more then anything.

I'm just not there sometimes. I feel like my levels and everyone elses are completely changing. I'm off, everything is off. Just by a little bit. But enough to make everything feel unbalanced.

I'd love to explain all and everything, but it's an online journal...that everyone reads (or so it feels like). I feel like I can't say anything anymore.

I dunno, it was just a shitty way to end a good night I guess.

In other news.

I'm completely fed up

With school

More to come after this brief pause for sleep.

current music: Bach/Yo Yo Ma-Cello Suites CD
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Thursday, September 4th, 2003
9:45 pm
dude so ive been slamming my brains with HW today.

totally got my John Deer lunchbox, fucking HOT! and im so gunna use it and yea i dunno, im just really ammused because my day was reallyyy long with HW. I can't believe i actually did it too. Woot. (well not all of it i need to do spanishin the morn.) But im getting used to the whole, working, thing. GROSS.

I dont like school. But I like you!
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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
10:58 pm
-sigh- work was slow today. I visited Jon at home then he visited me at work. Sometimes i really feel like i don't deserve such a great guy. You couldn't find a better one, i swear. He makes me so happy. I missed us a lot.

Didn't finish the homework I was supposed to have done. I'll have time during lunch though. Progress reports soon kiddos. I ate like 50000 tons of icecream. -fatty- BUT I'm supposed to go to the gym with brad tomm. Yayyyy... I am feeling FAT and SASSY.

grossss i'm goin to bed.
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