| Just testing a new journal. |
[21 Jun 2011|05:03pm] |
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New journal. I don't remember how to change stuff in here at all. So it looks pretty dumpy. I'm feeling in a mood for writing so here I am. I can type faster that I can write too, so I'm better off. I'm going to post this just to see what happens. Lets see how we look...
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| Kinda looks like crap, but it works. |
[21 Jun 2011|05:20pm] |
I'm at work now, alone. I've been having some trouble with Kevin and quite frankly, he's making me afraid. He needs to talk, some things need to change but not to be worried he says. Of course I'm going to worry. How can he not expect me to. I mean I guess everything is going to be okay because he said that, but it still freaks me out. I don't know what to do with myself.
We are going to get tattoos after work today. That should be fun. He said he's going to try to seem more upbeat. I wish i just knew what was wrong with him. he seems to go though these phases where he is totally depressed and "the world sucks and everything is so bad" "Why can't I have the answer for everything?" he says. It just worrys me so. Then I wonder if I'm doing anything wrong, or making him unhappy in anyway.
I'm really enjoying this. I should really get back into blurty lol. It is so much easier to type than to write. so much faster.
But I digress. I just want to see him smiling again. I want him to be as happy as I am. I have such a bright outlook on our future. I wish he did again too. He used to talk about it like it was going to be so great. I miss his real smile. His cute little dimples. ^_^
He really is great, he just has to have faith in himself again, and in us. We will see what happens though. He said we would have coffee or something tomorrow and talk about it.
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