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wow im accualy updating... wierd huh??
well..me and crystii are no more... i dont know how to feel... i feel abandoned ,lost and empty... but should i move on??... i think thats what she wants... but i dont think i can... its much harder then i thought... love is soooo strong... ive never experianced such a strong emotion...scary...on top of that... my friend allen died... on a fukin jet ski...
im goin to his service and burial on tuesday and wednesday...god i wish life was back to the same way it was before...even when it was shitty... it wasnt this bad...i miss it all... i never knew what i had till it was gone...and im tired of this self pity.. i need to be stronger.. i need to put my head up and stand up for once and take care of shit that needs to be done.. and thats just what im gonna do... im gonna look forward.. see if things will werk with crystii.. im tired of feeling down.. i need all this shit to be gone
ill do what i can... im only human right??.... ok well for now i recamend whating old school... shits great...
i leave you now...
<3 i miss that feeling
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