Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in Vi's Blurty:

Wednesday, April 30th, 2003
7:20 pm	Talking about what? Who's talking I am not much for rambling. I don't say much of anything really. I hate talking to people. I just keep to myself. I used to write in journals frequently. Then I realized. I have nothing to say. Writing out my feelings has grown a little futile. What does it matter? I think on-line journals are the cowards way out for me. Whenever I wirte something about someone I am secretly imagining I am speaking to them & letting them no what I feel. Of course in real situations. I burn bridges. Well,more than burn. I pretty much demolish them. I cut off all communication. If they try to talk to me, I don't say anything. Not a word. Sometimes I want to kick myself. I always feel like I should have let them know what I was thinking. By,that time of course it is way too late. It's just that the more I say,the more I dwell. So,I pretty much shut down & move on. No one gets second chances. In all honesty I am not so sure if I care or not. Like this guy Chris that I used to know. If had the chance I would call him a whiny faggot. I hate that word & would never use on any other occasion. I just know it would hurt his feelings. I probably wouldn't stop until he lashed out back at me. Then somehow,I'd feel justified. I want them to hurt like I do. I just don't have the balls to do it. I just walk away. Talking takes way too much. *Sigh* Who knows. One Love. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 25th, 2003
1:27 am	The never ending cycle of bullshit No call. Damn him. Damn him to hell. Why the hell do I go through this? The funniest thing is I don't care. I think I am more angry that I don't care. Atleast,I won't have to find something to wear. Ex bf called & his phone went dead. He didn't call back & now he isn't coming to my party either. This blows. Oh well. I am in a fairly good mood for some reason though. Yea,it sucks that no one ever comes through. But,hey you have to keep the faith. One Love. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
8:51 pm	Waiting for anything... What a fucking boring day. I spent the whole day excersing. There was nothing to clean,so I watched t.v. My niece was asleep most of the time so I didn't have to watch her much. I waited for a call that never came. Sometimes I feel so pathetic. On the bright side, I am going drinking this weekend with my best buds.Good times. (Comment on this)
12:07 am	First time Well,not too much of anything went on today. This is the second on-line journal that I have. I don't really know why there is a need for two. But hey you can never write too much. I guess... Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)