05:05am 16/02/2004
 
mood: giddy



welp. you knew it was coming! i'm moving to lj, usually i say what my journal is gonna be, but i'm not this time! if you wanna know email me - swtprettyfrogiie@yahoo.com. peace out homies.

`Alexis <3

 
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Quizzes!   
11:48am 13/02/2004
 
mood: pissed off



Here are some quizzes! I haven't posted any in a while.



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`Alexis <3

 
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02:45am 12/02/2004
 
mood: loved



SHAWN: so you ever gonna like me again??
ME: like you, how?
ME: cause i do like you!
SHAWN: i know you like me,but do you LIKE ME LIKE ME??
SHAWN: do you get it??
ME: i like like ray! but he has a gf =/ so me liking like you has potential!
ME: lol yes.
SHAWN: so you saying theres a chance??
ME: maybe!
SHAWN: ok
ME: but at the moment, i really like ray <3
SHAWN: no problem
SHAWN: i understand
ME: aww, good ;]
SHAWN: im not saying now ,i mean when ever you want im here if you stillw wanna give me a chance in the future.


RAY: haha <3
RAY: i REALLY like you too, lex.
RAY: just give me a minute.
RAY: i'll come along eventually.
ME: okay.
ME: <3
RAY: don't lose hope in me, yetr!
RAY: -r
ME: haha, i wont ;D


i showed the conversation with me and shawn to ray. because i really like ray and well, i never told him i really liked him? i mean, we always say i <3 you! or i love you! but i guess its always in a joking manor. so it was my way of telling him that i really do like him!.. a lot. and im really happy with what he said back.<3 anyway, a lot of shit has gone down lately, but im not even gonna update about it cause its all pointless, so ima start off new now! and maybe ill start updating more often. but i think i might be moving to lj, cause thats where ray is at, and well, i wanna be on his friends list so i can read his journal XD.

`Alexis <3

 
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09:39am 30/01/2004
 
mood: aggravated
music: Limp Bizkit - Drown



you dont PHYSICALLY have to be FORCED to have sex with someone for it to be rape right? i mean, no means no right? then if someone continues to nag on you about it, and make you feel bad and shitty, isnt that some form of rape cause you've already said no and they shouldve respected that??? or is there just nothin fuckin wrong with that? hmm.

`Alexis <3

 
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01:16am 29/01/2004
 
mood: sleepy
music: Limp Bizkit - Almost Over



k before i start writing about anything i just wanna tell everyone that they should OWN the limp bizkit cd because its badass. so anyway. i didnt really do anything today, until katie called me and she wanted to hang out, then we ended up driving past this dudes work like twice, which is like on the other side of town, its where i used to live, howard. then when we didnt see his car there we rode past his house and it wasnt there either, then we headed back, but thennn she spotted his car at the 4 way stop, he was the second car on the left side of us ;x lol so then i told her to hurry up and go back ;x cause i wanted to see what he looked like..cause hes so "hott" ;x we didnt make it in time for me to see him but we went back and drove past there seen his car then left and went to the mall. which is WAY on the other side of the town, and when we finished there she got on the highway and im like 'uh where are you going -giggle-' lol cause i knew where she was going =/ so yeah we drove past his house AGAIN. its like she got off on that or some shit ;x ahh crushes. arent they great? =D so this is the deal with them. they used to work together, and she got like idk what its called but she took his job? and he got fired. then she was telling his brother in law, who also works there that she had the b iggest crush on his an yadda yadda yadda, then he was telling her that he had a crush on someone who worked there too. and she was like 'who' and he was like 'well do you want me to give you his number so you can call him and ask him'? and she said like why cant you just tell me and so he was like ' do you want ME to give YOU his number so YOU can call him' or w/e ;x making it obvious you know? =x so i guess this friday he was suppose to ask her out. but she doesnt know if thats gonna happen cause of the whole her taking his job thing =/ hm. this is so exciting though heh ;x i hope he still does ask her out, shes like well not obsessed with him, but shes crushin hardcore for this dude ;x and its so cutee =D anyway, i went to see my uncle in prison today, he wanted me to bring up some tobacco for him. so he told me how to do it, so like i had to get balloons and some tobacco shit and i had to fill the balloons up with tobacco, just enough so that he could still swallow the balloons you know? then i had to get a package of m & ms and put the balloons in there, seal it back up and then put it in my shirt, then bring it up to him, and hed act like he was eating the m & ms right? but he was swallowing the balloons. so then later he could spit, puke them up, then sell the tobacco. and m & m package because theyd think it was from their vending machine. heh. mhm. hes done that before though, with my cousin, so he knows what hes doing, i hope? hmm anyway i guess ima go to bed now i just got bored and wrote in here, im not really in the greatest mood. i havent talked to someone all day, and i miss them. ah well. goodnight.<3

`Alexis <3

 
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05:42am 26/01/2004
 
mood: giddy



haha okay so i lied ;x i didnt go to bed earlier ;/ but now i really am. heh. its almost six and i got a hott date at 10 am tomorrow ;x or i mean today.. woo bye ;x

`Alexis <3

 
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"LOVE: knowing what state your SO is from."   
02:00am 26/01/2004
 
mood: tired



ME: im goin to bed.
ME: talk to you tomorrow ;]
ViO: you have my permission.
ViO: of course.
ViO: i'd die without talking to my lexie.
ME: i know you would. but no need for dying, ill be back!<3
ViO: you better be.
ME: oh, i will be.
ViO: good, then we agree!
ME: yes.
ME: goodnight.
ViO: goodnight. <3
ViO: ::tucks her in::

Auto response from ME: sleeping.<3


heh. wasn't that cute. ;] weird how things turn out. hm. anyway. like i told him, i'm goin to bed ;x i just wanted to post that because i thought it was kinda sweet mk? i'll maybe update tomorrow with a reaaaal update ;] goodnight<3

`Alexis <3

 
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11:10pm 23/01/2004
 
mood: worried



lmao. ugh. ;(

`Alexis <3

 
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together, me and you could be somethin special.   
03:17am 19/01/2004
 
mood: bouncy



supp. i found myself a new icon :x yeah, my other one was old soo. i didnt make it i took it from someone heh i dont remember who, oops? ;x anyway, ill probably make one thatll match my journal tomorrow or somethin but im too lazy to do that right now =) so like ive been in the best of moods the last couple days, idk why ;x well i do know why heh ;x <33!@ but like seriously, i dont think ive been in this much of a good mood in a LONG time, or this happy, im just really content with things right now, and i like the way things are going an whew yeah =) anywayyy ;x ima go write an email then head to bed, cause i DO have school tomorrow, and its already 3 and im not sleeping OR tired lol mk? so goodnight<3 :x


`Alexis <3








i like you :x<3!@ :p





oh yeah, btw these are just 2 songs that i like + the lyrics :d read them or not. idc, i heard them on the radio and wanted the lyrics to post on here mk? k bye ;x


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03:07pm 17/01/2004
 
mood: okay



woo ;x i just got home from chucky cheeeeseee. we were there for almost 4 hours ;/ well since 1030 and we just got home ;x that place gives me a headache ;/ so yeah ima go take a nap now so ill feel better later =] bye!

`Alexis <3

 
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11:46pm 16/01/2004
 
mood: crushed



ughh i should be sleeepinggg but when i lay down i cant get comfortable cause i have a cold an all and now that im crying and in a bad mood im sure that wont help, words can really hurt people, specially when its the truth right?. i`m sorry, everythings my fault. ugh man okay hm anyway. i should go lay down, i have to go to chucky cheese tomorrow ;x for my nephews and cousins bday soo yeah, goodnight.

`Alexis <3

 
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06:53pm 12/01/2004
 
mood: scared
music: me myself and i



gah. i called ask a nurse today, and like i was explaining to her what was going on with me and like she told me that i should see the doctor immediatly cause i could be internally bleeding? COULD BE. she dont know. idk im scared. i started crying to my mom even heh. so tomorrow ill probably be going in. even though I dont want to but i kinda have to eh? =/ but like she asked me if i had pains in my stomach but i told her that i didnt, cause i didnt, but afterwards i started to, idk maybe its just a mental thing, or nerves idk. or sometimes i do have pains in my stomach, not pains but like it feels sore? idk. and when i sneeze sometimes thatll set it off idk errr. idk im really scared though. k enough about that. i got a new background. its natalie portman. ahh. shes so beautiful =) i wanted paris hilton but i couldnt find any good pics of her so mhm. k im going now, bye.


`Alexis <3

 
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=) enough said.   
05:40am 11/01/2004
 
mood: good
music: Limp Bizkit - Behind blue eyes. - good song =)



A girl like you gets what she wants, when she wants it, you`re so out of my league. I show you no emotion, don`t let you see what you`re doin to me. I imagine the two of us together, but i`ve been living in reality. Fear of rejection, kept my love inside, but time is running out, so damn my foolish pride. I don`t care if you think i`m crazy, it doesn`t matter if it turns out bad, i`ve got no fear of losing you, you can`t lose what you never had. Now i`m gonna confess that i love you, i`ve been keeping it inside, feelin i could die, but if you turn away, baby thats okay ; atleast we had a moment before you say goodbye, you can`t lose what you never had. Rules are made for breaking, nothing ventured nothing gained, i`ll be no worse off then i am right now, and i might never get that chance again, baby, fear of rejection kept my love inside. told my heart that i didn`t want you, but i lied.


uh huh.<3


`Alexis <3

 
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03:19am 11/01/2004
 
mood: energetic



yayayay. packers play in exactly 12 hours! isn`t that exciting? =x k well ima go play a game now since im not tired at all yet since i just got home an all, soo bye!

`Alexis <3

 
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11:47pm 09/01/2004
 
mood: okay



<3 don`t you just love being wrong =) i dooo. heh. goodnight everyone =)

`Alexis <3

 
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04:44pm 09/01/2004
 
mood: discontent



gah. i just got off the phone with devon a few minutes ago. he really wants me to give him a second chance, and i wanna give him one, but see, it would just be because i want a relationship, but idk if i want one with him? cause right now i want one with someone else, but uh thats not mutual anymore, cause i guess i take too much time? idk. im really trying my hardest though. but i always feel like im being pressured and everything needs to be NOW NOW NOW, and god. im not used to being that way - taking risks on being hurt again is just something i dont know if i wanna do, i wanna make sure its right, and make sure itll really work out an laksfj yep. why am i even thinking about it still when i know its all done and over with? fuck man. ugh =/. sorry my entries are all drama. they wont be when i finally get things right in my life, i promise. on another note. I have a new sn =) its lexie ownz. Its gonna be buddy list only so haha fuckers =) leslie made it for me yesterday cause i said i wanted a new sn. im always switching sns :o i cant keep anything for over a long period of time. it either gets sick of me, or i get sick of it. thats how it usually goes, and see im sick of writing in this thing now. so bye. :o


`Alexis <3

 
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RAWWWWRRRR!!!   
01:11am 09/01/2004
 
mood: weird



oh wow. i just had like a major mood swing =x idk why im gonna update about it, but it was really weird. like i was in like a blah kind of mood, thinking that i cant do anything right, and all i do is mess things up or whatever. cause i want something i cant have, or well i can but the 'i cant do anything right, all i do is mess things up', yeah. thats when that all comes into place. but anyway i went from that kind of mood to like a really happy one, idk wtf happened? but i was laughing at the stupidest shit. and no i wasnt high :o) or was i.....=x and i wanted to make rice krispies and i did that, and to remind you, this all took place between midnight-1 am sooo. lol. and stupid things i mean - i play this game called sumo volleyball all the time, and it just accured to me that there were fat sumo people in a thong flying all over the place going HUAH, and i was laughing so hard at that. =/ then 2 fast 2 furious was playing, and i was laughing at "SLAP THAT ASS!" lol ahh. and i was laughing at the girl who says it cause shes so funny looking, she looks like a polished face china doll. or somethin.


awwh dont you just love pushing peoples buttons. =) cept people you care for =x then they dont speak to you <^> but this is amusing bye!->

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10:29pm 08/01/2004
 
mood: frustrated



hahahaha. devon and his "ONLINE GIRLFRIEND" broke up :x na na na na na hahaha. okay. and its funny cause i went over there tonight and he was all trying to make things with me and him work, being all sweet an shit haaa man. :( hes so fucking cute when he tries :x lol k thats all i have to update about for now :x bye! have a good night everyone <3


salkfjaslfdjilskjflasjfdlovelsdfjlaskjfyousldkjfa;sdf <33


EDiT: what i meant by that is, that its cute how he tries too late, and when i finally get over the fact that he had a girlfriend and that i couldnt be with him, he comes around and tells me they broke up and that he wants to give 'us' another shot or wtfe. k, i just wanted to clear that up for yall :o) i wouldnt want anyone getting mad at me or being confused or anything. night.


`Alexis <3

 
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har har har.   
08:23pm 08/01/2004
 
mood: stressed



hm. i`m thinkin about making my journal friends only, idk though. i made a journal at livejournal a couple days ago just for the hell of it, i didnt know you dont have to have a code or pay now? hm. so i just might use that one, idk. anyways, im gonna post a convo with me and leslie from earlier cause i think its cute haha :x then im going over to devons later, i think? hes not home yet though so iuno. er okay bye


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01:10am 08/01/2004
 
mood: refreshed



You have torn and broke down the person i was, and for that I HATE YOU. Everything about you fucking sucks. Someday though, i will build myself back up and be a better person then i was before. But until then i will remain thinking that you are the lowest form of FILTH on earth and you really should just do us all that favor of ending your life today, as you wish, what, everyday? lol. Yet you wont do it because you are F.A.K.E. Everything about you has FAKE written all over it. Man you even have to be fake when it comes to love, why? its beyond my comprehension. I want to thank you though, because you have taught me a great lesson on love, I may not know exactly what is it yet because of you, but i now know everything that love is not, and from what ive learned, i can have love with someone else in another level and it will be so much better. but as far as everything you put me through, you have no idea how much i hate you for that. I hope you die. Every night before i go to bed i wish to god that you would just fucking die. why would i wish such a thing? BECAUSE I HATE YOU. You are just a waste of space, a waste of a human being, waste of oxygen. you are NOTHING, absolutly nothing. i bet if someone cut you up right now they would find NOTHING. You are empty inside. And youre so fucking suicidal its pathetic, you want peoples attention..well baby, you got mine, do us all a favor and TAKE THE FUCKING KNIFE AND SLIT YOUR WRIST. SLIT YOUR NECK. Do whatever sucidal bitches do GOD FUCKING DAMN. and when you do finally die, ill find out. :d ill be the one bringing the party hats and the cake, not no flowers or baskets or wtfe, well maybe a DEAD BLACK flower to symbolize the color your heart really was.


as for everyone else, yall have yourself a good night :d

`Alexis <3

 
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