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Adiemus [22 Jan 2005|10:03pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | TV Musical-- Seven Brides for Seven Brothers ] Brr, it's cold around here! Living in PA may have its perks, but this much snow isn't one of them, especially on the weekend. Now, if instead it was during the week, well, that would be a different story! We're supposed to get more tomorrow, so maybe school will be canceled, or at least delayed. *crosses fingers* Sano-san has finally figured it out. Took him long enough, ne? Well, in all his wise morals, he has decided to stick with Heather. Why? Technically she hasn't done anything, just said that she might. Apparently, Dum-Dum has known about this for a little while now. Obviously. *rolls eyes* It's funny, because at first he told me to "get my fucking popcorn ready." Now, it seems that he's settled back down in for the long haul. Sheesh. There's one thing I can hope for in this-- Heather may stop whining and bitching to me. WHEE. Want to know something weird? Daryl's coworker Richard keeps saying he wants to date me! He's never seen me or even a picture of me! Daryl even told him that I'm not exactly Miss Thin, but that didn't deter him, so I told Daryl to take some of my senior pictures down to show him. That'll have him runnin' for the hills. Hopefully. He may be only 23, but I'm not gonna bother. I'll be hittin' college in half a year, so why bother with a relationship now? It ain't worth it. *yawn* I'm kinda tired. Bleh. I cleaned my room today (I'm surprised Hell didn't freeze over), including taking off my closet door. It was just in the way. My room's small as it is, I don't need a door catching on anything and everything. After I was done (or mostly done, as it is), I burned some opium (INCENSE!) to give it a better smell. I don't know why, but my room always smells musty, no matter how much I clean it. It's odd, but since the driveway is right on the other side of my window, maybe it's because of all the exhaust or something. Who knows. I don't mind really-- it gives me a reason to burn incense! Ha ha! I'm bored. BORED. Zzzzzz bored. Really bored. Blah bored. Bleh bored. I wonder if this is how Hawkeye, BJ, Radar, and the others feel sometimes. :P Ah, well, I'll look up Quantum Leap or something. Later. Subject: Adiemus Song: Same title Artist: Adiemus No, I'm not kidding. Look it up. post comment

Ashes To Ashes [16 Jan 2005|01:16am] [ mood | mischievous ] [ music | "Step Up" by Drowning Pool ] I'm ticked... I had a ton of crap typed up and the computer restarted itself... bleh... I'm starting to think either it's possessed or I've completely lost it. Sad thing is? Either is pretty friggin' possible. I even had a few 'graphs dedicated to the COMPLETE AWESOMENESS THAT IS MARILYN MANSON and about how SEXY the guy is. *drool* Yes, I think that Mr. Brian Warner is hott. There are only TWO celebrity voices that make me melt into a puddle of goo-- Marilyn and Vin Diesel. Well... maybe three, if the voice that Alan Rickman does for Severus Snape counts. And get this-- the guy is a friggin' genius. G-E-N-I-U-S. Not only has he figured out how to utterly rock, but he's made tons of dough by dressing up for Halloween and/or a costume ball everyday! How SWEET is that? Even mi madre, who hates Manson, gives him credit for being one helluva intelligent guy. I wonder if I could get his autograph.... If I could, I'd die the happiest girl on Earth. I don't even think a sig from Jon Bon Jovi (whom I also adore to no end) could quite have that effect... Maybe Vin, but maybe not. Hard to say. Johnny Depp would rank up there, but I still think Manson would top him. ^_____^ Speaking of those two... Johnny is using Marilyn for "character inspiration" for Willy Wonka in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. No joke. Marilyn had fun with that concept on Smells Like Children. Go to his/the band's site and read the journal entries. If you don't get it... then don't try. It's one of those things that if you gotta ask... Check out his watercolors, too. (Yes, he paints. He's an artist in more ways than one...) Anyhow... I came up with this list last time from sheer boredom, before everything went black onscreen.... IF HARRY POTTER WENT ROCK-PUNK-GOTH-METAL CAST LIST Harry Potter... Kurt Cobain Ron Weasley... Josh Homme (Queens of the Stone Age) Hermione Granger... Courtney Love Dumbledore... Rob Zombie McGonagall... Wendy O. Williams Hagrid... Slash (Guns 'N' Roses) Snape... Marilyn Manson Draco Malfoy... Spider (Powerman 5000) Crabbe & Goyle... Violent J & Shaggy 2 Dope (ICP) Lucius Malfoy... Sid Vicious (Sex Pistols) Voldemort... Gene Simmons (KISS) Sirius... Eddie Vedder (Pearl Jam) Lupin... Trent Reznor (NIN) How did I come up with that? Err... Well... Never mind... Moving on... I might lop off a few inches of my hair. Part of me wants to and part of me is screaming, "DON'T YOU DARE!!!" So... if I do, I'll get it done tomorrow or Monday by Maw. She works for free. ^__^ I want it done before I go back to school on Tuesday so I can freak 'em all out... again... *drools over Marilyn in towel* Yup, one-track mind. Sue me. I wish someone was online... 'course, it is 1:48 AM... Hmm... I think I'll print some pics of the sexy man and glue them to my locker... ^_____^ I wonder what Beatty-san would say to that... Heh heh heh heh.... Ooo, a Manson message board... LATER! Subject: Ashes to Ashes Song: Same title Artist: Damageplan, feat. Jerry Cantrell Suprised it's not Marilyn? I'm listening to The Punisher ST.... :P post comment

And I Thought I Found Myself Today [14 Jan 2005|10:26pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | "Piece By Piece" by Strata ] Why is it that people always tell me shit that I don't want to know? Sittin' in history class, which is a more or less Do-Whatever-You-Want-Just-Be-Quiet study hall, chit-chattin' with Heather S., you know, just bullshitting around. Guess what she tells me? She might put Sano-san on hold-- you know, like when people are married and they get separated, but not divorced-- so she can go try her luck with her dad's friend... who's 29... she's 17... I don't give a flyin' fuck about who you screw around with, but dammit, you don't do it to someone else when you have an eighteen-year-old boyfriend! And quite frankly, anyone who is friends with Eddie? Hell no. 'Course, Eddie did say he didn't care if she went after him or not. (Big surprise.) The really pathetic part? While telling me this, she was writing a letter to Sano-san saying that she didn't want to come home on prom night and that they should find some place for a little "down" time alone. I'm sorry, but... WTF?! Yeah, I know I've done similar shit before, but only because I had permission to. Jackass #1 said I could kiss Jackass #2 because he got off on that, and it was the same deal when #1 said I could kiss Powder. (Don't ask.) Then #2 later on told me to kiss Tom-Tom because he kind of liked me and it was his fifteenth birthday. It wasn't anything serious, just joking around-- and yes, he did know it-- so it's a bit different. I'm not saying what I did was right. Truth is, I just didn't care. I "loved" (HA!) both #1 and #2, so I thought it was okay. Truth is, I don't know about that situation still. But purposely pulling a fake breakup so you can try to screw some other guy?! And between this Stanley guy and this crap about her still liking TJ (maybe, she hasn't decided yet) is just.... ARGH. Yeah, okay, I love Sano-san, but I've never been jealous of Heather. I know that he and I are as about as likely to happen as it is to snow in Mexico in July. But dammit, right now I just want to beat her head off my locker for being so stupid. Here's Sano-san, sweet guy; ornrey, but not a badass; smart; funny; and completely in love with her. So she wants to pull this? Dear God... what the hell is wrong with her? And I swear, if he knocks her ass up on prom night, then it's his problem. I'm high-tailin' it out of here in August (sooner if I can), so he's on his own. Oh, and get this-- she's convinced that he's going to ask her to marry him, and she's so excited at the prospect. Uh-huh. Anyone else feel like putting her head through the nearest window for being an idiot? No, she's not blonde. Surprisingly. Well... strawberry-blonde-redhead... whatever. Hair color's not an excuse. The really pathetic thing, though, in all of this? It's me. Why? Because I can't go tell Sano-san, because he'll only deny it, hate me, she'll hate me and lie about it, and I'm the bad guy. ME! You know what? Fuck it. It's their own damn problem. I've had it with their little dramas. To paraphrase the Rock... They can take their love life, turn that sombitch sideways, and stick it straight up their candy-asses!!! Fuck 'em all. Subject: And I Thought I Found Myself Today Song: Finding Myself Artist: Smile Empty Soul post comment

Black Hole Sun [14 Jan 2005|08:26am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Don't know, I'm asleep. ] Quizzes and whatnot because I'm just SO FRIGGIN' BORED!! Tired, too. And I have two periods of it to boot. Bleh. I've probably taken these before, but... I'm bored... so there. :P Itachi Which Naruto character do you fight like?(pics) brought to you by Quizilla I think I should be suprised by this, but oddly I'm not... Too tired. -_-6 69 What is your anime sex position?(images) brought to you by Quizilla Mmmkay... YAOI HENTAI (results contain pictures) Whats your HENTAI??? brought to you by Quizilla Yeah, THAT'S a real shocker. *rolls eyes* Kakashi: Cool, you're Kakashi. One of the most popular characters in the entire series. You're a pretty happy guy, who doesn't let things get him down. And when people mess with those that matter to you, they better back off, or they're in deep trouble. .:What character from Naruto are you?:. (20 results with pics) brought to you by Quizilla Wheee... He's one of my top 5 favorites... cool... You are Uchiha "The Bastard" Sasuke! Loosen up, will ya? Which Naruto character are you? (Images, not that obvious) brought to you by Quizilla Well... that's kinda... weird... Must... Not... Fall... Asleep... Must... Not... Fall... Asleep... Must... Not.... Fall.... Zzzzzzzzzzz..... Subject: Black Hole Sun Song: Same title Artist: Soundgarden post comment

Tell Me All Your Dreams [11 Jan 2005|08:29am] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | The Punisher ST ] Sano-san gave me a sketch today of Kurasaki Ichigo, or rather, laid in my locker while I was getting things out. He had walked up and poked me (as usual), but I was tired, cranky, and sore. I told him to go away, but then he laid it there and told me to at least look at it. What was on it besides the sketch? This: "I tear my heart open And I sew myself shut My weakness is That I care too much Our scars remind us That the past is real I tear my heart open Just to feel..." --Drako *sigh* This is starting to become too much for me. All of it, not just him. This crap about being able to afford college, mi madre's repeated threats of suicide just to pay for this or that, all this angst about Sano-san, these damn midterms that start tomorrow... Had I the energy I'd have put my head through the nearest window by now. I know I'll survive it all. I always do and always will, until the day I don't, and then it won't matter because I'll be dead. Sad thing is that day comes closer with every breath I take. I don't know what to do about Sano-san. I love him, I do, but I don't want to hurt him. When I leave come summer, that's going to be it. The end. Fin. Finalé. Owari. "That's all there is, there is no more..." And yet, no matter what I say or do, he won't let go. That's what it all is when you come down to it-- he just will not let me go. I've already let go of him a long time ago. Didn't realize it until recently, but I have, and I can't and don't want to change that. If you love someone, you have to let them go. I should've known... he never did love me. He won't let go and I won't back down... Both of us are so stubborn we'd argue with Devil on whether Hell was hot or not. I want to make him understand somehow. Doesn't he know that whenever I'm near him, it feels like my heart is being ripped out? And then he goes and confuses me by all but begging me to stay with him... I don't know. He says I'm just a friend. Doesn't he get it that I can't do this "friends" thing anymore? Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for anything I can get, and he's an awesome guy-- obviously, or else I wouldn't have fallen in love with him. It's just... unrequitted love is one the worse pains out there that one can bear. The weight of the world is on your shoulders, or rather, the emotion of the world is. I'll do a sketch later and answer his poem... somehow... Somehow... Subject: Tell Me All Your Dreams Song: This Moment (?) Artist: Tim McGraw post comment

There's No Place For Us [07 Jan 2005|08:14am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | "Like Toy Soldiers" by Eminem ] These are just ramblings of mine... Poor Sano-san. He knows I've been sad lately, but doesn't know why. I can't tell him, because he'll probably just trivialize the matter or just say that there's nothing you can do about it, just forget it. I want to and I wish I could, but I can't. All of your school life everyone hypes up senior year. To be honest, it's not that great. It's nothing but one big hassle, there to drive you even further off the deep end. And the thing they really don't tell you is how much you're gonna miss your best friend when you leave for college or they do or whatever the case may be. That's what has me so upset lately. Sano-san is my best friend, at times my only friend, and we're the closest I have ever been with a friend. We understand each other so well, it sometimes scares me, yet we're also a bit of mystery to the other. He's my moral support, my sanity support, the shoulder I cry on, the guy that makes me laugh, the one... the one that I love. And he knows it, too, but nothing can be between us. For one, he doesn't feel that way, and for two, well... there's no time. I'm already missing him, and I still have half a year to go. *sigh* I wish I could take him with me. It would be possible, he's taking online courses, but impossible because of Heather. If they're still together, then that's where he belongs-- with her. And it's not the fact that he'd be with her that upsets me, it's the fact that I know... after this year... and after I leave... I'll never see him again. "They say you can never go home again. Well, this time I have to, even if it's just to visit an old friend." Oh, how I wish that opening line from the Feed Jake video was true. I want to tell him. I really do. But I'm so scared that he'll just waive it off, saying you can't change that. I know I can't change that. It's not what I'm out to do... I just need some reassurance, some strength, some care, some hope... Anything. Because once he's gone, the only anchor I have left in my life is gone. There's no one left for me anymore. I can't make friends. I can't stand most people, and they can't stand me. Few get me, most don't even understand me. I can't blame them, not really. I don't even understand me, how can they? I was lucky with Sano-san, but a friend like that comes once in a lifetime... and now I'm about to lose him. And it's not just that, either. If I tell him, it's going to lead me down a path to questions I don't want the answers to and a truth I don't want to realize anymore. I want to ask him: Why is it that everytime I try to run away from you, you come and drag me back? Do you love me, even if it's just as a friend? How can I tell you goodbye? Am I worth staying for? Are you worth trying for? Do you hate yourself for what you taught me all those summers ago? Why? Did I ever have a chance? And finally... Will you let me love you? I'm so scared. Just truly and honestly scared... of everything. LOOK ME in the EYES and tell me THAT WHAT YOU SEE doesn't SCARE YOU... Subject: There's No Place For Us Song: Who Want To Live Forever Artist: Queen Feed Jake by Pirates of the Mississippi I'm standing at the crossroads in life, and I don't know where to go You know you've got my heart babe, but my music's got my soul Let me play it one more time, I'll tell the truth and make it rhyme And hope they understand me Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep If I die before I wake, feed Jake, he's been a good dog My best friend right through it all, if I die before I wake Feed Jake Now Broadway's like a sewer, bums and hookers everywhere Whino's passed out on the side walk, doesn't anybody care Some say he's worthless, just let him be But I for one would have to disagree And so would their mama Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep If I die before I wake, feed Jake, he's been a good dog My best friend right through it all, if I die before I wake Feed Jake If you get an ear pierced, some will call you gay But if you drive a pickup, they'll say 'No, he must be straight.' What we are and what we ain't, what we can and what we can't Does it really matter? Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep If I die before I wake, feed Jake, he's been a good dog My best friend right through it all, if I die before I wake Feed Jake Dust In The Wind by Kansas I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky It slips away, all your money won't another minute buy Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind Who Wants To Live Forever by Queen There's no time for us There's no place for us What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away from us Who wants to live forever Who wants to live forever....? There's no chance for us It's all decided for us This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us Who wants to live forever Who wants to live forever? Who dares to love forever? When love must die But touch my tears with your lips Touch my world with your fingertips And we can have forever And we can love forever Forever is our today Who wants to live forever Who wants to live forever? Forever is our today Who waits forever anyway...? post comment

Ella Es una Casa del Ladrillos [05 Jan 2005|06:49pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | "Hot in Herre" by Nelly ] The subject shall be explained a little later on... Today was... interesting. First off, the biggest BS this side of the running of the bulls in Spain. Our glorious dictator-- err, I mean, principal-- is having a conniption fit the size of Vince McMahon's ego over our formal pictures for the yearbook. The girls' drapes aren't the "right style" or "aren't formal enough", and the guys are getting it to with "not wearing a proper tie" or "no formal jacket" and other crap like that. C'mon, we friggin' pay for the yearbook with our own money, you'd think we could set the "formalness" of the pictures! Yeah, okay, wear your Sunday best or whatever you want to call it. Fine. But what's with this crap about not being "formal enough"?! I mean, c'mon, WTF?! Anyhow, continuing on... Today in Spanish class, we went over some vocab, including the word for bricks, which is ladrillos. Well, considering my class is about as crazy as Klinger from M*A*S*H, Andrew (or "Pablo") started singing "Brick House" by the Commodores... in Spanish. *shakes head* Only my class... Then, in history class, we were talking about how the Amish are the only population in the U.S. that still have outbreaks of polio. Somehow in our conversation, Andrew (yes, the same one) ended up being chased by an Amishman with a buggy whip. Wait, it gets better. Later on, we were talking about how the Klan had a resurgence after WWII, and (again) somehow, that Amishman with the buggy whip became an Amish Klansman with a buggy whip driving a white buggy and chasing Andrew. Okie-dokie. Not asking. (And I was there!) Then, several periods I applauding Juliana for knowing what crack was... (Looooong story. Let's just say that she's "special". ^_~ Ever heard of the blind leading the blind? Well, in the case of she and Ashley, it's the blonde leading the blonde.) Last class of the day, gym, was just as amusing... kind of. We were playing volleyball, and it was the third game. I managed to serve ten points (Rock on! \m/), but finally screwed up and it was the other team's turn. They served and Betsy bumped it... straight into the rafters, where it managed to get wedged above the air unit. It was one of the "good" balls, too! Miz Palmer made us do 200 jumping-jacks while jogging, but we were so giggly that I don't think any of us did fifty! Afterwards, Chelsi and I tried to leave to go to our lockers before the bell rang, but Miz Palmer stopped us and made us come back, which is odd since she's let us go before. Who knows, maybe one of the Regime members (the administration) said something, since we do have to pass by the office to get there. Ack... it was aggravating, yet amusing day. Add to that the fact that midterms are next week, and, well... school sucks. ^^;; Subject: Ella Es una Casa del Ladrillos (She's a Brick House) Song: Brick House Artist: The Commodores (or Andrew, in this case) post comment

It's All In My Head [04 Jan 2005|08:15am] [ mood | hot ] [ music | Various ] It's sooo friggin' HOT in this school! I hate PMS. -_-6 I was going to report something yesterday, but didn't have time, and now I've forgotten. (Figures.) Oh, yeah, yo recuerdo... I spent Saturday night at Sano-san's house. He played NASCAR Thunder 2003 with Ronnie while I had an "interesting" religious talk with his mom. Whoo. We all had so much fun that none of us went to bed until 5 AM! ^^;; I don't know, though... I didn't spend much time talking with him. Earlier that day he, Nny (his brother), and myself were all in his room (it's like our living room). FLCL ST was playing, he was jammin' on his guitar, I had my headphones on, and Nny was playing a noisy round of Final Fantasy on the GameBoy. >_< I'm surprised his mom didn't come in and beat all our heads with his guitar! (She had a headache.) Granted, none of it was overly loud... It's cooling down now. In about... oh... say ten minutes or so, I'll be freezing. Gah. I should've taken my PMS med this morning! I forgot. TT_TT Speaking of that, Saturday night when Ronnie and Sano-san took me back to my house to gather stuff for the night, I searched high and low for that bloody PMS med for Wendy (S's mom) and her headache, but COULD NOT FIND IT AT ALL. I searched my room, my bathroom, the kitchen, and mi madre's bathroom, but came up with NADA. Here, last night, I was complaining about not having any, and mi madre goes into my bathroom and comes back out with it. Apparently, she had it hidden. Wait 'til I tell Sano-san... sheesh. Great, now my nose is running. Wonderful. *sigh* PMS and being sick do NOT help me. Plus... my jeans don't fit... WAAAAH Subject: It's All In My Head (Oh, how I wish...) Song: Over and Over Artist: Nelly feat. Tim McGraw (Yes, you read that right... I saw it on VH1 this morning...) post comment

Hope Dangles on a String [30 Dec 2004|08:34pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | "Tears in Heaven" by Eric Clapton ] The deathtoll for the tsunami is 117,000 and climbing. *sighs* Wish I wasn't so poor. Then maybe I could pledge some money and help out. Maybe this, maybe that, but either way I can't. No good deed goes unpunished. I wonder... what great good have we done to deserve this? There's no peace anymore, so it's certainly not that. It's become so bad lately that I'm starting to think that "goodwill towards men" has ceased to exist entirely. I wonder. Two nights ago, Jerry Orbach died. I miss him already. We had the same birthday-- October 20th-- though, obviously, he was considerably older than me at 69. Poor guy. Yahoo!News thought him so unimportant that you had to shuffle through the entertainment news to find a listing at all. He was a stage actor, for cryin' out loud! A wonderful singer, and well-loved as Det. Lennie Briscoe on Law & Order. I can't even bring myself to watch the show since I heard. Suddenly... life doesn't seem so great. I wish Sano-san was here. I could really use a good shoulder to cry on, because everything comes in threes... and I'm just holding my breath for the next knoll of the death bell. Hear the tolling of the bells- Iron Bells! What a world of solemn thought their monody compels! In the silence of the night, How we shiver with affright At the melancholy menace of their tone! For every sound that floats From the rust within their throats Is a groan. And the people- ah, the people- They that dwell up in the steeple, All Alone And who, tolling, tolling, tolling, In that muffled monotone, Feel a glory in so rolling On the human heart a stone- They are neither man nor woman- They are neither brute nor human- They are Ghouls: And their king it is who tolls; And he rolls, rolls, rolls, Rolls A paean from the bells! And his merry bosom swells With the paean of the bells! And he dances, and he yells; Keeping time, time, time, In a sort of Runic rhyme, To the paean of the bells- Of the bells: Keeping time, time, time, In a sort of Runic rhyme, To the throbbing of the bells- Of the bells, bells, bells- To the sobbing of the bells; Keeping time, time, time, As he knells, knells, knells, In a happy Runic rhyme, To the rolling of the bells- Of the bells, bells, bells: To the tolling of the bells, Of the bells, bells, bells, bells- Bells, bells, bells- To the moaning and the groaning of the bells. --The Bells by Edgar Allan Poe Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional Hope dangles on a string Like slow spinning redemption Winding in and winding out The shine of which has caught my eye And roped me in So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing I am captivated [Chorus] I am Vindicated I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear I'm right I swear I knew it all along And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself So clear Like the diamond in your ring Cut to mirror your intentions Oversized and overwhelmed The shine of which has caught my eye And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated I am certain now that [Chorus] So turn Up the corners of your lips Part them and feel my finger tips Trace the moment, fall forever Defense is paper thin Just one touch and I'd be in Too deep now to ever swim against the current So let me slip away [3x] So let me slip against the current and let me slip away [4x] [Chorus] Slight hope It dangles on a string Like slow spinning redemption... Finding Myself by Smile Empty Soul I don't care anymore if I let you down I believe that I need to be free I'm so used to my life with you around I don't know anymore....the real me And I thought that I found myself And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you All these tears that I've cried You must be tired of taking care of me but Its what you do best and I'm a liar cause really its what I need And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you Someone like you Someone like me Maybe its change that set you free Free.... And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you Subject: Hope Dangles on a String Song: Vindicated Artist: Dashboard Confessional post comment

Never Say Never [28 Dec 2004|11:16am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | "Broken" by Seether w/Amy Lee ] Whew, do I owe a big update or what? Holidays... gotta love 'em. You have to, or else you'd end up hatin' them. Me, I about halfway between the two. I like holidays-- gets you a few days off-- but I hate holiday week, especially Christmas (or whatever you celebrate) week. Man, oh man, they're ain't nothin' on! Just Christmas movies out the wazoo and holiday specials. Sheesh. Sorry, but I'd rather sit and watch my normal shows, thank you very much. I'd like to sit and watch NCIS, House, and Law & Order: SVU on Tuesday, not repeats or some dumb special. Don't get me wrong, there are a few Christmas movies that I like: the claymation ones (they rule), one or two versions of A Christmas Carol, and occasionally any movie that has an actor I like in it, such as The Santa Clause with Tim Allen. Other than that, I hate Christmas movies. Hate 'em, hate 'em, hate 'em, HATE THEM. Why? Because, when I'm on vacation, I want nothing more to do than to sit on my bum on the couch and watch the shows that I don't normally get to see. Instead, I get to watch Christmas movies. ARGH. Which makes me wonder... why aren't there ever any Hanukah (sp?) movies? Or Kwanzaa movies? Speaking of Kwanzaa-- and I can't believe this-- some kid in the Beakman & Jax section of the comics last Sunday asked if Kwanzaa was a real holiday or if it was just made up. WTF?! I bet THAT went over really well with those of you who celebrate Kwanzaa. I did like Beakman's answer, though. He said that all holidays are made up, even Christmas. That we chose the 25th of December to celebrate Jesus's birthday because we don't really know when he was born. And that's true... mostly. Waaay back in Roman times they had a celebration on the 25th (or therein abouts), so the middle-aged Christians (they weren't the early ones or the late ones, so they're middle-aged :P) said, "Hey, let's put it there and slip it in under the Roman radar. They'll never notice!" And they didn't. Maybe they had too much eggnog, but whatever it was Christmas was born (forgive the pun) and the Romans eventually became Christians. See? Subliminal messages (and holidays) go a long way! Anyhow, according to all these experts on the History Channel, Jesus was probably born in the spring, since the Bible mentions it being near lambing time or something like that. Man, can you imagine having all these millions of devoted followers that love you and adore you... and can't even get your birthday right? That's gotta suck. Note To All Christians: I'm not making fun. I'm just stating my point-of-view, which is probably wrong anyhow, so don't get your knickers in a twist. Now... where was I? Oh, right. I made out like a BANDIT this year! Here's some of the stuff I received: --The Ninth Gate --When Time Expires (gotta love cheap scifi movies! Plus, it has Richard Grieco!) --Quantum Leap: Complete First Season (\m/ Rock on!) --The Chronicles of Riddick --Spiderman 2 --Soul Calibur 2 --Guiness Book of World Records 2005 (It's their 50th Anniversary, too!) --The Punisher Soundtrack (I'm listening to it right now!) --a SHWEET TV/DVD/CD/TAPE combo! Hell yeah! --some SERIOUS bath stuff. --a couple of cool books to read ... and a lot of other awesome stuff. And one of them has led to me to a very interesting question. Is it "chocolate orange slices" or "orange chocolate slices"? Hmm. I'll have to ask mi madre when she gets home. She and Daryl bought them for me, so maybe she'll know. The holidays weren't too bad overall, I suppose. There were a few major downers, like the fact that my cousin Mason will have to have surgery to remove a worm behind his right eye. Yes, I said WORM. He's almost completely blind in that eye-- he can only see light and dark-- because of that, which probably explains why he's so clumsy. Poor kid. He's only five years old. The pathetic thing is that his pediatrician didn't notice this at all during his full physical exam for his last surgery! The specialist doc said that it has been there for at least six months! The kid's last surgery was only a few months ago and they should have caught it! The only reason it was caught this time was because he had a regular eye exam and the eye doc couldn't see into his right eye at all, and it led to this mess. Poor kid. The really bad thing? He might lose any chance of sight in his right eye. On the international scale, Yahoo!News is putting the death toll at 44,000 across 11 nations as a result of that 9.0 magnitude quake and the tsunamis it created. The number is expected to go up, too. I wish I could help somehow. They say the people over there are starving and resorting to looting just to feed themselves and their families. Hell, if I could, I'd box up everything in my fridge and send it to them. I can't blame the humanitarian agencies-- their used to "small" disasters, you know? Something this big... damn. On a personal scale, though, the holidays weren't all that bad. (I just wish I could help those people.) Nobody fought (much) and it was pretty peaceful. I know that these spells of happiness don't last very long, so I'm left wondering when the volcano is going to explode. I wonder. Subject: Never Say Never Song: Same title Artist: Queens of the Stone Age post comment

My December [20 Dec 2004|08:34am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Anything loud & pounding ] Song lyrics, that's all. NUMB by Linkin Park I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless Lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure Of walking in your shoes [Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is another mistake to you I've Become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do Is be more like me And be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly Afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you [Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow] Every step that I take is Another mistake to you [Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow] And every second I waste Is more than I can take And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me With someone disappointed in you My December by Linkin Park This is my December This is my time of the year This is my December This is all so clear This is my December This is my snow covered home This is my December This is me alone And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was something I missed And I Take back all the things I said To make you feel like that And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was something I missed And I Take back all the things I said to you And I give it all away Just to have somewhere to go to Give it all away To have someone to come home to This is my December These are my snow covered dreams This is me pretending This is all I need And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was something I missed And I Take back all the things I said To make you feel like that And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was something I missed And I Take back all the things I said to you And I give it all away Just to have somewhere to go to Give it all away To have someone to come home to This is my December This is my time of the year This is my December This is all so clear And I give it all away Just to have somewhere to go to Give it all away To have someone to come home to Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Green Day (FUCK) Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go. So make the best of this test, and don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life. So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind. Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time. Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial. For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life. It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life. It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life. Voodoo by Godsmack Candles raise my desire Why I'm so far away No more meaning to my life No more reason to stay Freezin' feelin', breathe in - breathe in I'm coming back again I'm not the one who's so far away When I feel the snake bite enter my veins Never did I wanna be here again And I don't remember why I came Hazing clouds rain on my head Empty thoughts fill my ears Find my shade by the moon light Why my thoughts aren't so clear Demons dreamin' Breathe in - breathe in I'm coming back again Golgotha Tenement Blues by Machines of Loving Grace I am the city I am the park I am glow in the motherfucking dark I am shocked and I seethe I don't want to believe No more Golgotha tenement City of sores Give me your tired and your wicked Give me your dollar whores Down on the boulevard children are sold to pave the way For your streets of gold Streets of gold I am the chosen one The Best Things by Filter Got a green light, got a green light, yeah But I'm going nowhere Got a green light, got a red light, yeah No cop, no stop, I don't care Every one of you could be the same Every one of you could play the game Got a green light, got a green light, yeah But you're going nowhere You know the best things in life aren't for me You know the best things in life aren't for free Got a new life, got a new plight, yeah And it's going nowhere On a mountaintop, like a pin drop, yeah No God, no thought, I don't care Every one of you could be the same Every one of you could play this game Got a new life, got a new plight, yeah And it's going nowhere You know the best things in life aren't for me You know the best things in life aren't for free Got a new find, got a new crime, yeah And it's going nowhere Like a global bath, like a car crash, yeah No cop, no stop, he don't care Every one of you are just the same Every one of you will play this game Got a new find, got a new crime, yeah And it's going nowhere You know the best things in life aren't for me You know the best things in life aren't for free Living Dead Girl by Rob Zombie Rage in the cage And piss upon the stage There's only one sure way To bring the giant down Defunct the strings Of cemetary things With one flat foot On the devil's wing Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Raping the geek And hustling the freak Like a hunchback juice On a sentimental noose Operation filth They love to love the wealth Of an SS Whore Making scary sounds Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Psyclone Jack Hallucinating Hack Thinks Donna Reed Eats dollar bills Goldfoot machine Creates another fiend So Beautiful They make you kill Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Crawl on me Sink into me Die for me Living Dead Girl Blood on her skin Dripping with Sin Do it again Living Dead Girl Blood on her skin Dripping with Sin Do it again Living Dead Girl Subject: My December Song: Same title Artist: Linkin Park post comment

And Raise My Face To The Sky And Jump In [18 Dec 2004|10:50pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | "Represent, Cuba" by Orishas, feat. Heather Headley ] GUESS WHAT?!?!?! I got accepted... ...to not one... ...but two... ...COLLEGES!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I was accepted to both Shippensburg (PA) and Slippery Rock (PA). I'll probably go to the latter, since the entrance fee is cheaper. ^_~ No, really, it just seems that I would like Slippery Rock a whole lot better. But now I have a new problem... I'm not quite sure I sould sign up for English (Professional Writing) or remain undecided. I want to study English and become an editor or something akin to that, but I also love history and might major in that. Minor in it, at least, but I also want to take Japanese courses. Ack. So confused. Oh well, one step at a time. I now have to scrape together $90 for the entrance fee or whatever it is. Still, I'm excited. =^_^= Today was cool for two reasons: that and the Christmas dinner at Karen's. It was so cool seeing everyone together-- Maw, T, Karen, Billy, Amanda, Ben, Kenny, Misty, Eli, Mason, Mommie, Daryl, and myself. (And Abby, Remy, and Annie, the two dogs and cat, respectively.) I think that's the first time everyone has been together for a happy occasion in years. (I'm not counting the sad ones, like funerals. That's just too often anymore.) It was so totally cool. Plus, Misty and Kenny brought their Christmas gifts for everyone (even though they weren't supposed to), and I got this awesome lavender bath set. Body butter, body mud, lotion, loofa, and scrub brush. SWEET. And yesterday I did my presentation for English class on punishment and torture in the Renaissance and was able to snag a 94% on it! YES! So totally worth having to dress up for school (GRR)! At least I was wearing slacks and not a skirt. *relieved* I did miss gym, though, so I'll probably have a B this time 'round for that, but I can live with that. I'd make it up, but all the classes she has during my study hall are nothin' but lil' kids, and there ain't no way I'm puttin' up with a locker room full of seventh graders. NO, NEIN, IIE, THERE'S JUST NO WAY. Maybe next week. Well, not too much more to say. Too tired/wired/weird/rushed/etc. to write more. Later. Subject: And Raise My Face To The Sky And Jump In Song: Alive Artist: Raiko post comment

(s)AINT [14 Dec 2004|08:07am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Blah blah blah ] Any crap I feel like putting up. XD (s)AINT by Marilyn Manson I don't care if your world is ending today I wasn't invited to it anyway You said I tasted famous, so I drew you a heart But now I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art I've got an F and a C and I got a K too And the only thing missing is a bitch like you You wanted perfekt You got your perfekt But now I'm too perfekt for someone like you I was a dandy in your ghetto with A snow white smile and you'll Never be as perfekt whatever you do What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT I am a bonetop, a death's head On a mopstick You infected me, took diamonds I took all your shit Your "sell-by-date" expired, So you had to be sold I'm a suffer-genius and Vivi-sex symbol You wanted perfekt You got your perfekt But now I'm too perfekt for someone like you I was a dandy in your ghetto with A snow white smile and you'll Never be as perfekt whatever you do What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT I've got an F and a C and I got a K too And the only thing missing is a bitch like you I've got an F and a C and I got a K too And the only thing missing is a bitch like you I am a dandy in the ghetto with a snow white smile Super-ego bitch, I've been evil awhile I am a dandy in the ghetto with a snow white smile Super-ego bitch, I've been evil awhile What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT What's my name, what's my name? Hold the S because I am an AINT Well gosh golly gee, how'd you figure that? You, m'boy, are Radar O'Reilly. Which MASH Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla *laughs hysterically over the picture* What Funny Buddy Icon Are You? by xfactor1987 Username: You are (a): Quiz created with MemeGen! What is Your Destiny? by Valcion Name Color Birthday Destiny Defeat of your archnemesis Date when you fufill your destiny January 20, 2023 Quiz created with MemeGen! *rubs hands together* Ooo, sounds nice... now... who's my archnemesis? *blink*blink* What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight Name: Gender: Your looks: Short silver hair. Your best friend: Friend? You're the Dark Loner. Your powers: Control of shadows. Your beloved: A villain. Your occupation: Magical girl. Your ending: Tragic...everyone dies. Quiz created with MemeGen! *sigh* Story of my life... Your best match is Snape! Which Harry Potter Guy are you Most Compatible with? brought to you by Quizilla With Which Harry Potter Male Are You Most Sexually Compatible? brought to you by Quizilla I think they're trying to tell me something... Severus Snape, Potions. Harry Potter Quiz: Which Hogwarts Professor Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Subject: (s)AINT Song: Same title Artist: Marilyn Manson post comment

Satellite [10 Dec 2004|08:13am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | None. TT_TT ] Just some memes. Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... delicious Your hugs are... gentle Your eyes... sparkle like the stars Your touch is... irresistable Your smell is... exotic Your smile is... hypnotising Your love is... everlasting Quiz created with MemeGen! Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer Your first full name Your personality rates a 8 your best quality is youre easy going your worst quality is you worry too much this is because youre true to yourself Quiz created with MemeGen! What will your Funeral be like? by rashock Username You will die by: Your mother warned you not to run around with scissors in your hand. You die by some freak accident. Can't really say it was pretty, your Funeral is a closed casket. Death Date: December 16, 2045 Number attending your funeral? 38 How much will you leave to friends and family? $771,667 Quiz created with MemeGen! What does your t-shirt say? by rejektedrockstar Name Age Fav. Color Gender FemaleMaleI dunno... Ta-Da Quiz created with MemeGen! What will your last words be? by cum_on_bitch Your LJ username Your real name Your sex Your age Your last words will be... "sex?!!?" Quiz created with MemeGen! How people rate you by misssmanson name face: 71% body: 59% clothes: 49% personality: 24% madness: 27% ambitions: 8% in bed: 56% Quiz created with MemeGen! Which Celeb Will You Make Out With? by w00t4ewan Username Pick a Number 12345678910 Sexual Preference StriaghtGayLesbianBiPansexualOther You'll Make Out With: They'll Think You: need practice You'll Date For __ Years: 6 Until They Cheat on You With: Chance You'll Get to Third Base:: 71% Quiz created with MemeGen! SNAPE?!?! HELLS YEAH!!!! Become a God or Goddess. by zerogirl Name: God/Goddess of Love Element: Wind Animal Companion: Crow Weak against Earth Weapon: Hammer Quiz created with MemeGen! The Theme Song To Your Life by hoodedturtle Name: Your Theme Song: Kiss - Hard Luck Woman Quiz created with MemeGen! what band will you get gang-banged by? by hulahoopwoundss what band will fuck you (a lot) bane date it will happen May 7, 2009 you will meet them at their show (you fucking groupie) how many STDs you catch 0 money you make from the video $241,802 name Quiz created with MemeGen! Blind date with a hot anime guy ^.^ by Originality Name Age Lucky Number Favorite color Date === Where the date is Japanese Steak House First thing date says to you "Hurray! My date's as hot as I am!" Last thing date says to you "Sorry about the whole noodle thing." Quiz created with MemeGen! KAIBA?!?! HELLS YEAH!!! What Does Your Inner Anime Character Look Like? (For Girls) by Rose Lover User Name Age Height Fav. Colors Fav. Anime Show What you look like Role Hero Quiz created with MemeGen! Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless Name: The Sorting Hat places you in: Slytherin (Green and Silver) Subject you are naturally best at: Charms Your favorite book: Unfogging the Future by: Cassandra Vablatsky Pet you bring to school: Winking Owl You are most known for: The weird animals you try to keep as pets. Quiz created with MemeGen! Seduced By A Hogwarts Proffessor (Preferably For The Girls, no Harry Potters please) by dezthewicked Name: Which Male Proffessor: Proffessor Severus Snape Where: In His Chambers What Pick-up Line Does He Use?? "Fancy a F*CK?" How Does He Do It? He fixes both of you a potion with many suspicious ingredients...but the high it gives you is unbelievable. What Was it Like? *licks lips...it was DELICIOUS! Quiz created with MemeGen! OH, HELLS YEAH!! And yes, "Ace" is one of my many names/nicks... Mm-mmm good... Gotta love Severus... Subject: Satellite Song: Same title Artist: Jose Moreno (I think) post comment

Watch The Wind Blow By [08 Dec 2004|02:21pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | "Let's Go" by Trick Daddy feat. Twista & Lil' Jon ] Just a few quizzies. (This is the second time I've attempted this... hopefully it'll work this time.) First time I took this quiz I came out as Hawkeye, but this time I was more truthful. ^_~ Welcome to the 4077th. What M*A*S*H Character Are You? Yes, I was truthful this time. Frightening. This lame quiz has determined you are most like Henry. Which Original M*A*S*H Chracter Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Apparently none of the quizzes can agree on anything... You are like Corporal Walter Eugene "Radar" O'Reilly. You love animals and more often then not consider their company better then that of humans. You love your family and the values you have learned growing up. You are what some would call a goody-two-shoes. You look up to people with a strong personality and while outwardly timid you have a very strong personality as well. You are often soft spoken but when pushed to the edge can be just as hard edge as the next guy, but that just doesn't happen very often. Which M*A*S*H character are you like? brought to you by Quizilla All correct except for the goody-two-shoes thing... I'm usually the one helping to wreck the havoc. And I do hate people. I once had to threaten to spike the punch and lace Michelle's baby's bottle with LCD to get out of her wedding! Sheesh. (And yes, I would have done that. He's a relative, I'm allowed to.) Who will give you an orgasm? by leslie13 Name Age Virgin? So, who will make you moan? Orlando Bloom How? Kisses...just kisses. Will it be good? You'd rather be with your dog. Percentage of people who smiled when they saw this: 9% Quiz created with MemeGen! At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter Your school name Your name Your job will be Trashman You will be worth $459,771 Everyone will think you Used to have a crush on them Quiz created with MemeGen! Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel Name Your Husband Is You Met in a fish and chip shop You Have 10 children You Live holland In a basement You And Your Partner Are Best Known For your commitment Quiz created with MemeGen! What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852 Name Birthdate You killed With a On April 23, 2014 Quiz created with MemeGen! Your Sex Icon by xo wildxfire ox Username Girl/Boy Your Sex Icon Quiz created with MemeGen! Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su Name: Hair: Dark and cut short. Clothes: Simple, comfortable, everyday clothes. Powers: Psychic powers Special Features: Bunny ears and tail Sidekick: A wise-ass little demon. Attitude: Psychotic and damn proud. Weapon: Wrist blades Quiz created with MemeGen! Which Depressed Icon Is You? by drunkaholic Name Age Your Icon Quiz created with MemeGen! Subject: Watch The Wind Blow By Song: Same title Artist: Tim McGraw post comment

A Party For Two [06 Dec 2004|08:12am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Flipping Through Channels ] Well, I think it's finally happened. I've lost touch with Sano-san. I didn't go to his birthday party, though that was because he didn't tell me it was a birthday party. He just said, "Come over Saturday." I told him I couldn't, I would probably be sleeping (and I was), so he just said, "Okay." And that was it. No mention of a party or anything. Figures. And now... all I want to do is avoid him. This month sucks enough with Robert coming back (I still have to figure out how to avoid that disaster), but now because of him... it sucks even more. I do see him, though, in Physics. (Oh, joy.) Today I'll just demand my #5 back, and I don't care if Heather still has it, she should have finished it by now. (It's been several weeks.) It's ONE manga, you don't take weeks to read ONE manga. I also need to get that Spawn tape out of his locker... better yet, I'll order him to put it in my locker. I feel sick. I was hungry this morning so mi madre threw me one of her low carb bars. Now my stomach is killing me and I'm tired. I feel like throwing up. How did Ryan put it? Voy a vomitar. Blech. The bathroom scale is scaring me. Eek, when did I gain so much weight?! Granted, I was never Miss Thin, but damn... I need to diet. And none of that Atkins crap, it makes me too sick, like I have morning sickness or something. I need to find something else that'll work. 'Course, I'm a friggin' genius for starting a diet in DECEMBER when it's FREEZING. I don't know how I'm supposed to exercise. Maybe I could filch mi madre's Pilates tape and alternate using that with my gym class or something. I don't know, I'll figure all that out once my stomach doesn't feel like it's filled with napalm. ... That makes me think of Mythbusters. XD I like Adam. He's funny. And can juggle. Heh heh. You are BRANDON DICAMILLO! The right-hand man to Bam Margera, and a comedic genious. You are always thinking, and you are never afraid to just say things. You do a lot of the things that no one else would think of, always inventing something. Whether it's a new rap, a new idea for a movie, a new character, or just a new thing to laugh at...you really are setting the comedic trends for you and your friends. People enjoy being around you because of it, but you like to lay low most of the time. Who's your Viva La Bam character?? brought to you by Quizilla I couldn't resist. Heh. Andrew said that's a good result, so I'll take his word for it. I've only seen three or four episodes, so I don't really know. ^_^ I even took it again and changed my answers a bit (there was two possible answers for me for a few of the questions) and I still came out the same guy. Guess that means I really am him. Cool. Well, g2g. My stomach still feels like it's full of napalm. Subject: A Party For Two Song: Same title Artist: Shania Twain w/Billy Currington (The only reason I listen to it right there!) post comment

If You Want It You Can Get It Let Me Know [01 Dec 2004|06:36pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | None at the moment.... ] Well, today was... something. I tried earlier to update, but the wind was blowin' so friggin' hard that the power kept flickering off and on. Still kept us at school, though. I find it amusing (if annoying) that after this happened once or twice, Beatty-san then sent an E-mail out saying that this might happen. Well, DUH. The really eye-rolling thing was that Miz Adams had just said this when she called everyone in the library to attention by saying that she had just received an official E-mail from Beatty-san. I said, "Batt'n down the hatches!" She ignored me and proceeded to read the E-mail, which basically said just what she did, yet she seemed in awe of it. Sheesh. I suppose I should back up to this morning. Mi madre left for some required class or something at 6:30, so she woke me up then instead of my normal 7. T was to come and take me to school, so I wasn't worried or anything. I got up, made myself a cup of coffee, and then chilled out in front of the TV to watch music videos. 7 came and went... then 7:15... 7:30... 7:40... 7:50.... Finally, T shows up at 7:57. The late bell rings at 8:01, and I live ten minutes away from the school (in this weather). I get to school and stop in the office, where I stupidly ask, "Am I late?" Candace's mom (it's Lori or Lauri or something like that) just nodded. I signed the sheet and asked, "Is homeroom?" "No," she says, "it's first period." Eh heh heh... *sweatdrop* Oops. I managed to get to first period study hall and then to the library (where the E-mail fiasco happened), so it wasn't all bad, but... sheesh. The day goes on... dragging slowly and painfully... and I do mean painfully. In English (third period) we finally got most of our papers back from the previous marking period, including our "Cantebury Tale"-- we had to write one-- and I only about half-noticed the grade. (I was busy looking through senior pictures that people kept giving me. I now have Andy's, Andrea M.'s, and Sano-san's.) Well, Miz Twombly's talking and I'm ignoring her, trying desperately not to fall asleep where I sit, and finally she says that unbeknown to us, the tale paper was actually a contest. Therefore, she tells us, that only one person got a 100%. I stop, look at the front of paper, and proceed to glare at her, praying to any and every god that she DID NOT SAY MY NAME. Guess what? She did. *face fault* I gave her the dirtiest look I could muster, which probably wasn't much considering my veritable lack of energy. She didn't notice and tried to hide myself behind my papers. Didn't work. Now, if I had, say, the worst grade of the class, I wouldn't have minded. I probably would have waved that like a banner without a care. But instead I got the best, and thanks to that I got several dirty looks of my own. ARGH!!! Because of that, I snapped at Sano-san at lunch before I skidaddled down to Señora's to watch Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark. I apologized in Physics, but he shrugged it off. He had apparently already read the message I had sent him via THP.com about how sucky it was that I had no one to talk to. No hard feelings and all, which is thankful, but I think over the weekend something has changed. I still care for him, and on some level still love him, but I feel disconnected from him... from everyone, really. Everything just seems so... trivial, you know? Maybe not. Between Honey Graham dying, that suicide scare on THP, being alone, and taking care of covering everybody's tracks... and putting up with aggravating relatives... well, I just did a lot of bitter growing up over the weekend. I don't like it, but it's too late to go back, no matter how much I want to. Uh-oh, I got sidetracked, didn't I? Sorry. Here's a bit of humor. After Mr. Hoffner's class I just go down the hall, so I dropped my books off in Miz Schriver's room and went to the bathroom. As I was leaving it, two lil' girls (seventh or eighth graders) came in. The first one said, "I'm dyeing my hair red this weekend!" The second says, "Really? What color?" DUH. This falls under the category that includes the question, "What color is George Washington's white horse?" Anyhow, onto Physics class. Today we tested our scotch-tape-and-index-card creations. Sano-san's and mine was the lightest and the biggest, ironicly enough. We then took them down to the weight room where we would find out how much weight each could hold. Ours only made it to 585 lbs., which was the least. (We had an A anyhow, so it didn't matter much.) The big shocker of that class? Jim, Josh, and Ty's wedge-shaped creation (the only one-- everyone else, including us, had a round- / cylinder-shaped one) held the most weight, EVER! They broke the record of 700+ lbs! Theirs held just over half a ton of weight before finally collapsing! That was cool. And the fun pretty much ended there. I read a new manga that Sano-san had bought called Ragnarök. It was pretty good, but I'll need to read the next volume or two before I'll get into it. Other than that, the day sucked from there on out, 'til I got home and read my new Shonen Jump and U.S. News. (There's a mix, ne?) It was odd being back at school after so much happening these past few days off. I guess I'll get used to it again eventually, probably just in time for Christmas vacation in three weeks. (Yay.) Well, that was a lot. I'm kinda typed out, but I can't end without a few quizzies! (Yes, I am addicted. Have you noticed much?) You're Lorne! Which Angel character are you? brought to you by Quizilla You're a Spike-a-holic! Are you a Spike addict? brought to you by Quizilla Ugh, Buffy should be shot. I hate her and Sarah Michelle Gellar. I didn't even watch BtVS, I watched the MUCH BETTER, MUCH COOLER, MUCH FUNNIER, MUCH GREATER show, ANGEL!!! More hotties galore! ^_~ You are Hisui, the striking angel of wind, who when finding the one she truly loves, will stop at no lengths to remain with him. What Anime Angel are you? brought to you by Quizilla Well, honey what did you expect? With all the big hair flying everywhere and your colorful fashion sense, you couldn't be anyone but Grace! Which Character from Will and Grace Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Must... refrain... from telling... mi madre... this... SHE HATES GRACE! (But I knew I'd either be her or Jack, so... yeah...) Jack! Your true Will & Grace Personality brought to you by Quizilla What I'd tell ya? Like mi madre says, if I was gay man instead of a straight girl... I'd be Jack. XD You're Jack! You're fun, hyper, and always a great friend! Will & Grace Personality Test brought to you by Quizilla Well, that'll be it... I'm tired... -_-zzz Subject: If You Want It You Can Get It Let Me Know Song: Let's Go Artist: Trick Daddy w/Lil' Jon & Twista post comment

And Let The Wind Decide Where I Go [29 Nov 2004|01:11am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Anime. Lots of it. ^_^ ] I know it's late and I should probably be trying to catch some Z's, but I just found a TREASURE TROVE of PotC quizzes all in one nice, neat, tidy little place. Which means, you guessed it-- QUIZZIES! I really need to get a life. -_-6 You are his... Determined Nose-Wrinkler. You're one of those people who don't like to give up. You're also one of those people who screws up their faces when being stubborn or determined. ((Snicker)) Which Facial Expression of Jack Sparrow's Are You? brought to you by Quizilla *walks away whistling innocently* *hides red hand* You've got yourself Captain Jack Sparrow! Mmm, rum and dirtiness! On Pirates of the Caribbean, is your mate Will or Jack? brought to you by Quizilla Sad thing is I didn't rig that one at all... (not that it would be hard.) You are Captain Barbossa. Undead, longing, and dead-set(Note the pun) on lifting the curse. Your ship is full of creepy dudes, but the whole "we turn into skeletons in the moonlight" is pretty neat. Good job. What "Pirates of the Caribbean" Character are you? (With Images) brought to you by Quizilla Err... O_o6 Captain Jack Sparrow helps you get your horn on! Boys in eyeliner = heaven for you! Drinks all around! What Character from Pirates of the Caribbean Serectly Fancy? brought to you by Quizilla Hmm... Note To Self: Buy Sano-san some kohl.... >:3 Obsessed Pirate Fan. Wow, someone like ME! ^_^ You hum the soundtrack and annoy people with what seems like endless POTC trivia. You are constantly quoting the movie or thinking about it. Don't feel embarrassed by your obsession, obsessed is what the lazy call the dedicated. ^_^ Send me any questions or comments! Pirates of the Caribbean: How obsessed are you? brought to you by Quizilla ::shows off badge:: You betta' believe it! You're Drunk Jack. You adore your Rum Which of Jack's (from Pirates of the Caribbean) multiple personalities are you? brought to you by Quizilla Could use some right about now.... You are... 'Wait, this is supposed to be a punishment?' Yeah, I'm a little confused, too. Stuck on a beautiful deserted island with a shitload of rum and Captain Jack Sparrow... What's not to like?! If you want to leave this place, you are CRAZY! What random made up thought from Pirates of the Caribbean are you? brought to you by Quizilla CHEERS! You've Got Captain Jack Sparrow's Eyes! You've Seen So Much Of The World, And Lost Many Friends And Dear Posessions. Which 'Pirates Of The Caribbean' Eyes Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla Interesting, considering my eyes are about half gold/brown. (They're hazel-- green and gold.) Good stuff, you are "Wedding? I love weddings! Drinks all around." You're the life of the party and nothing gets you down, not even certain death at the hands of your zombie nemesis or the Navy. Come to think of it, realism isn't your strong suit... Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you? brought to you by Quizilla Can't think of any weddings... maybe I should have gone to Michelle's-- the did hand out free wine or champagne or something like that. (It has alcohol and can make me blissfully happy, what do I care about what it is?!) You are destined to marry Jack and it's likely you'll tie the knot on some beach in the middle of nowhere, where he has some rum stashed away for the guests (and himself) to feast on. Thanx 4 takin this quiz!! Make sure you try my others and leave a message!! Pirates of the Caribbean: Who will you marry and where will you marry them (For the girlz) brought to you by Quizilla TAKE THAT, ELIZABETH! Being smart comes to u easy enough...but sometimes ur not all there... "But please, stay here, and try not to do anything stupid." [Will points his pistol at Barbossa] Barbossa: "You've only got one shot and we can't die." [Will jumps on the edge of the ship and put the pistol on his chin] Will Turner: "You can't. I can." Barossa: "Who are you?" [Jack puts himself between Will and Barbossa] Jack Sparrow: "No one! He's no one! Distant cousin of my aunt's nephew. Twice removed. Lovely singing voice though. Eunuch!" Pirates of the caribbean (the many faces of jack) brought to you by Quizilla Ah... okay? You are.... Will's sword fetish! Spending hours at a time in a hot confined room with sharp pointy objects really makes you happy. Maybe you should listen to Jack and get a girl. Or just...get out more. I don't think all that sweat is from working at the forge, mate. Which Pirates of the Caribbean Character's Unhealthy Fetish are YOU? brought to you by Quizilla *no comment* Well, that's it. I'm tired. It is... 2:02 AM... ish... and I have that stupid English project to finish. (What a crapload waste of time that is.) Later. Subject: And Let The Wind Decide Where I Go Song: Alive (Translated) Artist: RAIKO post comment

Time Marches On [26 Nov 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | "Blue" by Mai Yamane ] I knew it, yet I don't think I still believe it.... I'm on the verge of crying, yet I can't feel.... Black Friday was, indeed, blacker than most. My great-grandmother died a few hours ago. I knew she would, I knew it yesterday and the day before, yet... yet I still... I don't know. I hate knowing these things, even though I accept them. I don't like knowing when people are going to die, yet I do. I know many things I can't, by all reason, know, but I do. At least by knowing I can keep them comfortable as best I can. I burned a prayer last night to ease her pain and I can only hope that it worked. I can only hope. I don't know what any of the plans are... I know now is not a good time to ask mi madre. I will find out soon enough. I need to talk to Sano-san, but it was too late for me to call tonight and he's not online. Maybe Ryan is and I can talk to him... I doubt it, but it's worth a try. I've been through so many deaths. How much more can I take? Subject: Time Marches On Song: Same title Artist: Tracy Lawrence My Old Friend by Tim McGraw My old friend, I recall The times we had hanging on my wall I wouldn't trade them for gold Cause they laugh and they cry me Somehow sanctify me Their woven in the stories I have told And tell again My old friend, I apologize For the years that have passed Since the last time you and I Dusted off those memories But the running and the races The people and the places There's always somewhere else I had to be Time gets slim, my old friend Don't know why, don't know why Don't know why, don't know why My old friend, this song's for you Cause a few a few simple verses Was the least that I could do To tell the world that you were here Cause the love and the laughter Will live long after All of the sadness and the tears We'll meet again, my old friend Goodbye, goodbye Goodbye, goodbye My old friend, my old friend Goodbye, goodbye Carry On by Tim McGraw Mama went to sleep one night and never woke up Daddy cried a tear into her old coffee cup Now all he wants to do is drink the hurt all away If Mama was here I know what Mama would say Carry on Carry on What don’t kill us makes us strong Carry on Little sister’s husband ran off with her best friend Left her and the babies all alone again It hurts to know the hurt that she’s going through But I know that she’ll do what she’s gotta do Carry on Carry on What don’t kill us makes us strong Carry on Nobody ever said that life was gonna be fair You’re never gonna get nowhere by running scared If you look down deep inside you’ll find the faith to make you strong Oh, oh carry on I try to walk the sunny side of the street Don’t let no shadows tangle up my feet There ain’t no troubles that we can’t rise above With a handful of faith and a heartful of love Carry on Carry on What don’t kill us makes us strong Carry on Carry on What don’t kill us makes us strong Carry on Carry on Carry on Carry on Live This Life by Big & Rich Met a man on the street last night He said his name was Jesus Met a man on the street last night Thought he was crazy 'til I watched him heal a blind man I watched him heal a blind man Now I see I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Then I will walk, yes walk with patience through that open door I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Met a girl in a chair with wheels But no one else would see her Met a girl in a chair with wheels Everyone was so afraid to even look down on her And she spread her little wings and flew away I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Then I will walk, yes, I will walk with patience through that open door I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Live here anymore Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Met a kid on a bridge last night Contemplating freedom Met a kid on a bridge last night And he said,"I'm tired of this maddening life and I'm ready to go meet Jesus." I said,"He's a friend of mine, met him just last night, and it's all right Yeah, it's all right." I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Then I will walk, yes, I will walk with patience through that open door I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go I'll live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore Live here anymore Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Met a Man on the street last night He said his name was Jesus Met a man on the street last night When I'm Gone by 3 Doors Down There's another world inside of me That you may never see There's secrets in this life That I can't hide Somewhere in this darkness There's a light that I can't find Maybe it's too far away... Maybe I'm just blind... Maybe I'm just blind... [chorus] So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything in me Wants to be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I could I'd give up everything If only for your good So hold me when I'm here Love me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared You won't always be there So love me when I'm gone Love me when I'm gone... When your education x-ray Can not see under my skin I won't tell you a damn thing That I could not tell my friends Roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone Part of me is fighting this But part of me is gone [chorus] Maybe I'm just blind... [chorus] Love me when I'm gone Love me when I'm gone When I'm gone When I'm gone When I'm gone One Last Breath by Creed Please come now I think I’m falling I’m holding on to all I think is safe It seems I found the road to nowhere And I’m trying to escape I yelled back when I heard thunder But I’m down to one last breath And with it let me say Let me say Hold me now I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking That maybe six feet Ain’t so far down I’m looking down now that it’s over Reflecting on all of my mistakes I thought I found the road to somewhere Somewhere in His grace I cried out heaven save me But I’m down to one last breath And with it let me say Let me say Hold me now I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking That maybe six feet Ain’t so far down Sad eyes follow me But I still believe there’s something left for me So please come stay with me ‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me For you and me For you and me Hold me now I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking post comment

Blah, Blah, Blah [26 Nov 2004|05:40pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | TV ] Working again... kinda... Introspective Sensitive Reflective You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. But your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you require. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time; you rarely become bored. http://www.psicologi-psicoterapeuti.it/test/introspective.html Congratulations, Lacey! Your IQ score is 129 This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. Dominant Thinking Style -- Kinsmen Dominant Working Style -- Kinsmen Dominant Emoting Style -- Realist Subject: Blah, Blah, Blah Song: This Is The New Shit Artist: Marilyn Manson post comment

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