|
|
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
|
8:48p
Yes I have missed four days of schools simply because I'm going insane and have bad allergy problems at the moment. Yes I know... that is a wimpish thing to just stay out of school for 4 days for, but lets remember how much i hate it. Tons of makeup work and things to learn fastly... oh well. I need another break, perhaps I will just get cancer and die and get it over with. Of course that is how i will most likely die. Cancer. Skin cancer. Just because it runs on my family and I already had precancerous cells. My moles and my light frecklish skin... all signs of my unavoidable death. Ever since I got checked out for that stuff last year... about this time... I'm never been the same in the way I feel about life. Now... I'm just waiting to die. I don't have to do suicide... my body is killing itself just fine thank you.
Yeah, lets just start this entry with perhaps the most depression intro. Indeed.
I'm really not depressed as that seemed to be. Sometimes it does fell like I gave up hope on life and just stopped living it. Sometimes i just go watch tv mindlessly and fall asleep. I'm unmotivated. Uninspired. I feel like a good charlotte song. lol. I need to find a reason to just get up and go change this laziness. I'm unhappy and only I can fix that. How exactly do I. Maybe I should just eat broccoli. That is a lovely food. I had some today. It was very green. I'm fighting school. It just drains me so much. It stresses me out. I haven't drawn a picture in so long. I haven't written any stories or love sick poems or poems of rage. I feel out there. Maybe the tv did it. OR the microwave... I have been using it a lot when heating my thing i can't spell. Hm.
My brain is about to bust. I should go now. AND everyone really pisses me off. but occasionally i love you all.
current mood:  crappy (1 comment |comment on this)
|
|
|
|