Friends Blurty for trish.
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| Monday, November 9th, 2009 |
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having dinner and listening to some music now. dinner is a soup of my mum's that i tried to emulate and music is some old disco stuff. the combination then led me to think about my parents. i don't normally write about my parents, because i never really spent much time with them. in fact, my childhood days were pretty much split almost equally between my parents, my aunt (my mum's elder sister), my cousins (daughters of that aunt), and both sets of grandparents. that meant i learnt about my parents through my relatives more than from my parents themselves. one thing that my aunt and my cousins would often joke about is how my dad and my mum loved going to the discos when they were younger. when i understood music on a more intellectual level, the disco thing became evident – all i had to do was to look through my parents' music collection. to be fair, besides the disco stuff, there was also a lot of folk, rock and pop. they were also largely english songs. some of those songs i remembered watching them play on my mum's guitar, which she had since she was a teen. and the guitar is now mine! also remember getting awed by my dad when he played this on the guitar – and he sang too! then, he got awed by me when i played it back to him one day, without the singing though. i also played a lot of his favourite deep purple and rainbow songs, just to see him grin. haha. even today, on my mum's iphone, this song is on her playlist. my dad would only listen to it on his sound system in the living room. i know that song inside out because of that. it's a great song! anyway, the point is a picture of my mum that my cousins would often bring up, and whenever the picture was spotted by them, the disco jokes would come from all directions. that picture then became somewhat like a mythical thing to me since. as a result, when i got my first scanner, that picture was scanned. when my backup mishap occurred, i thought i had lost that picture. thankfully, the picture was recoverable. and so here's the picture: ![]() until today, i still don't know what the deal is with the picture. maybe i'm too close to the picture to even begin guessing. i'm also trying to look for the picture of her wearing a wreath of flowers around her head, with her big shades, flowery blouse and bell-bottoms. i've seen it before but it has disappeared. i swear she must be hiding it. nonetheless, the picture above brings back lots of memories for me, because i know it was taken at a corner of my mum's parents' house. the house had a garden with a section cordoned off for cheery flowers (which my mum have always loved), a garage in which parked a classic off-white volkswagen beetle, a shed which the fearsome big black dog lived in (which i got chased by too many times, apparently because i always disturbed it), and a breezy patio that featured a rattan rocking chair as well as a rattan spherical chair that hung from its ceiling. my favourite feature of that house is the drain that ran around it, because i could fold paper boats and watch them sail around the house over and over again. also, i'll always remember the high ceilings in the house, because it always made me feel safe and comfortable. and whenever chinese new year came around, the rooms in the house would be filled with relatives. not that i cared because i would be busy on the sunny court in front of the patio – setting off fireworks. my dad would be nearby tuning his sports car, which was sometimes parked in the garden when relatives visited and more space was needed for parking. he would also be playing music from the car stereo, and i would always enjoy the music because it made the scorching sunshine become something more than just heat and light. he would be tuning his car because at that time, he was still into racing with his friends. i remember being seated in the back once when he was racing with his friends. let's just say it was terrifying and i wouldn't like to experience it again. i remember once, i aimed a torpedo-type sparkler at my dad, who happened to be slacking under the tree next to the flowers. luckily, the whistling sound was loud enough for him to notice and he jumped out of the way. it zipped into the flowers and exploded, blasting a bunch of them into shreds. of course, i was laughing away because i saw my dad jumping away. in the end, i got away with just a little warning, because i was only five or something. i did apologise though. :) sadly, all that is no longer and will never come to be again. my grandmother had passed away, and the last time i was in that house, it was to attend my grandmother's wake. the house had also lost quite a lot of its glow from before. also, i always wondered how my mum's father was like. i have never met him before. i think when i do return home one day, i'd like to pay the house a visit – if my mum wants to, that is. |
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| Tuesday, November 10th, 2009 |
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I just had the longest dinner with breaks in between on a $4 Char Koay Tiao. and the best part is i still cannot finish it. Thats how 'thumbs down' i have become.. |
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| Monday, November 9th, 2009 |
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jean-marc just sent me this:![]() i'm now replying with this. |
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as much as i enjoy the company of my friends in school, it can get pretty unproductive once the distractions snowball. not that i don't have distractions at home. for example, instead of simply buying lunch and finishing it in ten minutes as i usually do in school, i'd probably spend an hour cooking, eating, cleaning and all that jazz. of course, there is my music collection at home. after this tune, i'll be back to work. i promise! |
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we had a long talk last night. everything seems beautiful when planning for the future. but in the hour before i finally slept last night, my lousy shadow tapped me on my shoulder. "it will all fall apart," it said. "every thing you touch." that always foreboding message has never failed to materialise before. not that i have ever let it stop me from going for what i want, but the catch is that i will surely shatter at some point, and i'll find myself questioning the naiveness every time. there was a point last night where i wanted to share that exact thought, and even thought of dismantling everything before it even gets to start. the last time i tried the latter, it didn't work. in fact, it only caused a lot of hurt to everybody. that was some years ago, and i have never done something that stupid since. what can i say? do i blindfold myself again? how many times must a fool fall before he realises that he's already dead? silly, but i don't think i can not try. fever of a hundred and three and if you wanna stand and say fight well i can do this all night i've got the weight of the world on me not tomorrow not today i'll do it anyway you like something's coming over me fever of a hundred and three you've got one chance take it something's coming over me i've lost all feeling i can't even fake it something's coming over me fever of a hundred and three we've got no second chances something's got a hold of me it's our one chance take it ready? laser? let's go. |
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| Sunday, November 8th, 2009 |
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we'll get it right it's the last chance to forgive ourselves |
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whole night of drinks and nonsense. sat around for the past hour and a half to recover. really need to reduce the drinking and the smokes. finally was arsed to listen to muse's new album, the resistance. been a week so far, and i think i have a grip on the album now. an okay album. not very original. the influences rose to the surface too often for my liking. it's the same problem i have with their previous releases, save for a few gems here and there. however, i'd say that exogenesis symphony is easily the best thing muse has ever done. well, it is at least next to stockholm syndrome, i think. haha. even though it's quite clear where the pieces stemmed from, i still love them. by the time it got to redemption, it is simply magic. got to sleep. |
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| Friday, November 6th, 2009 |
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on some days, we are meant to be gods. and gods we are. |
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| Thursday, November 5th, 2009 |
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said my piece today. life these coming few months will be all up in the air. had some beer in the evening. failed in abstinence. came home feeling low in energy for some reason. maybe too much smoking. sat around for a couple of hours before showering just now. suddenly, i feel motivated to play a dj set. looking forward to tomorrow's masterclass with park chan-wook. |
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a brand new keyboard:![]() got into school in the morning and decided i need a keyboard for the project, so i went to ask the technical support people. couldn't find them, but i bumped into luis instead and so i told him what i was up to. went back to my studio and continued working. vicky then appeared at my door, saying that she heard about my cooking. found out that she had wanted to come over on sunday but she had already cooked roast at home, so she stayed home instead. she then asked me how i made the food, which i thought was quite hard to explain in proper context unless we were in a kitchen or unless she had at least tasted them. in the end, i said that i'll cook for everyone again one day, and she can come over then. while she was still in the state of joy, i suggested she bring me some of her funky cakes too. in the midst of our excitement for another dinner party, one of the technical support people appeared, holding a brand new box containing the keyboard i asked for! woohoo! turned out that luis had subsequently bumped into one of the techies and so he asked them for the keyboard on my behalf. that is why he is one of my amigos. vicky pranced off back to work, as i watched the keyboard get unwrapped and connected to my system. in a matter of minutes, it was blinking and all ready to be abused. ".. and there you go!" thanked the techie and the first thing i did was to make a bunch of noise. jean-marc dropped by for a short while and we jammed a little. haha. we also had lunch at the pub, and i was proud of myself for not ordering any alcohol. much later, i realised i forgot to ask vicky about her halloween get-up from last friday. was pretty impressed with the paint job – top effort and quality! |
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| Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 |
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so marianne and i decided to start drinking from 5 pm. jean-marc joined us, and soon, we migrated to the pub. more people joined us. had dinner there because we were famished. my drunkenness got cleared off by the food. then, a mini spectacle happened. marianne almost got into a fight, with not one person, but two. for some reason, jean-marc and i just kept laughing, while listening to music from his iphone. we left soon after. funny day. as tom put it: "did i just walk into a nuclear war here?" head still pounding a little. need sleep. |
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| Monday, November 2nd, 2009 |
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last week, jean-marc and i booked the IMAX 3D version of avatar, showing in december. the trouble – as we discovered later – is that it falls on the same night as the school's christmas party. that means a few things.. 1. we will not be playing in the 'live' band – there goes our 'live' cover of the doctor who theme. 2. i won't be the dj – been promised more subwoofers and full lighting support if i do too. 3. our friends will hate us – it's the party to end our two years at school. in a way, i don't mind missing the party, especially since i'll probably still be recovering from a mega party in mid-december. the remaining trouble is that we got two spare tickets for avatar – "for any hot babes to join us". since the party will be on the same day, it may be hard to rope schoolmates in for the movie. now, to figure out how to magically disappear on the fateful day. *puts on ninja cap* |
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nobody remembers peter howell – except for us, his students. we watched this last night, and laughed so hard. don't get me wrong though. a lot of us respect that guy. he is like a grandfather to us, so it's really awesome to see him do his thing at that time. there was a short riff he played in the video that bowled me over. unfortunately, only jean-marc knew what i was talking about. haha. it's getting harder and harder to meet peter in school while keeping a straight face, having seen him in his younger days. he looks exactly the same too, but now with grey hair. i still keep forgetting to ask him what he sang into the vocoder for the doctor who theme. hmm. |
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two weeks ago, we watched thirst. funny film. magnificent ending too – such departure feels so good in a penetrative way. last week, as i was smoking and dazing off in the living room after having woken up from a long deep sleep after my last day of mixing, raul appeared – and got shocked because he didn't notice i was there – and told me that he has news that will make me very, very happy. cynicism overwhelmed me, but i shoved it aside and asked what news would that be. "you know the director of the films you like? old boy, mr vengeance.." before he could finish his sentence, my eyes widened and i exclaimed: "oh my god.. he's coming!" "yes!!! he is!!! isn't that cool???" "yes, raul! yes! very cool!" since pumping a few fists at that moment, i have mostly forgotten all about it until now. this friday, park chan-wook will be giving us a masterclass. after that, two other people also told me that i will be very happy to hear a certain news, so i played along but i just couldn't feign an overjoyed reaction. "aren't you happy???" "yes, i am." "you don't seem happy." "i'm too cool." |
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here i go loosing control watch me slip down the rabbit hole happiness is the state of mind that i try to listen from time to time stop the world, stop the world, stop the world i wanna get off |
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sunday. spent a few hours cooking from about 4 pm. 7 pm came, and the wolves appeared while i was still cooking the meat balls. but housemates couldn't be there: dario had to work and raul had to attend a birthday dinner. meat balls were ready and added to the meat platter. announced and the kitchen got congested. within 20 minutes, the food was all gone. last proper food thing seen on the table was ice-cream and baguette. then came the alcohol, smokes and junk food. lots of music and laughs. for a while, i went into a little trance. everyone had a really late night the night before, so the place was cleared out at around 2 am. silent apartment. could feel the air move. we were too spaced out to clean up or even shower, so we just laid around smoking up more and listening to music. only possible effort was to have a change of clothes. finally fell asleep at about 6 am. strange dreams. woke up to a sunny monday. relaxed but still buzzing a little. living room is still dense with the smell of smoke. spent an hour cleaning up the apartment. all spotless and sparkling now. am dreading the lugging of the bottles and cans to the recycling station. shower soon. |
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| Friday, October 30th, 2009 |
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![]() SGD100! (price from Mikelz) Only 1/6, the scale tips towards the expensive side. ![]() 30 cm Tall Authentic likeness of Simon Yam as “Lord Godless” An exact replica of the full body armor suit as seen in the movie featuring two armor helmets and lion shoulder armors 4 Interchangeable gloved hands Body (TBC) Features 15 points of Articulation Figure Stand FS-200 2009 New exclusively developed & designed packaging box set SGD210. (price from Mikelz) The problem with action figure replicas is that if the toymaker screws up just a little bit the whole thing looks cheesy. but holy cow! this one looks damn like Simon Yam la! Alas he looked like he is shrugging his shoulders. ![]() 30 cm Tall Authentic Likeness of Aaron Kwok as “Striding Cloud” Movie accurate costume including detailed partial armor suit - armor plated belt, armor shin, forearm armor and shoulder armor The Sword of Ultimate Superiority 8 interchangeable gloved hands RM-1 Body (Newly improved Ankle Joints) Features 15 points of Articulation Figure Stand FS-200 2009 New exclusively developed & designed packaging box set SGD210. (price from Mikelz) This is a classic example of a cheese replica. The action figure doesn't look like Aaron Kwok at all.. more like Leo Ku in a 80's rock band. ![]() 30 cm Tall Authentic Likeness of Ekin Cheng as “Whispering Wind” 2 Highly detailed outfits (2 tops with one pair of black pants) and includes a chest armor, shoulder armor, forearm armor The Snow Blade RM-1 Body (Newly improved Ankle Joints) Features 15 points of Articulation 8 interchangeable hands (2 gloved) Figure Stand FS-200 2009 New exclusively developed & designed packaging box set SGD210. (price from Mikelz) Not too bad.. ![]() 30 cm Tall Authentic likeness of Nicholas Tse as “Heart” Movie accurate costume detailing including chest, shoulder, shins, arm and forearm armor 6 interchangeable gloved hands RM-1 Body (Newly improved Ankle Joints) Features 15 points of Articulation Figure Stand FS-200 2009 New exclusively developed & designed packaging box set SGD210. (price from Mikelz) Nicholas Tse abit flat here. or is it fat? lol |
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| Thursday, October 29th, 2009 |
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still awake and listening to tunes. hope i'll revert back to normalcy. |
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| Wednesday, October 28th, 2009 |
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monday morning. was mixing with a legend – graham heartstone. he mixed pink floyd the wall, blade runner, aliens, eyes wide shut, superman, many bond films, etc – many of them nominated for best sound. really good to know we agree on so many levels. to have his reassurance on a lot of the things i was doing also made me feel like i haven't been on the wrong track at all. was also fun to mix with him, because we laughed at the same things. monday evening. always knew it was a bad idea to walk past the school bar in the late evening, but i had to because i needed to test my mix in the cinema. a few free beers came my way and after more beers and magic, i stayed at the bar and never returned to mix. only had a small lunch for the whole day, so every drop was potent. haven't hung around the bar for a long while now, thanks to work, but that night made me miss it. apparently, i now hold the title of "the best dj at the nfts". how grand. *flexes muscles* also, i walk and move like a vampire? how does a vampire walk and move? tried asking why, but the answer was: "don't know exactly, but you just do." eventually, there were only a few of us left. got one last round before the bar closed. we also resorted to music blasting from my phone. then, topics moved to the existential. haha. drunk bozos trying to be talk like gods. last thing i heard before hitting paradise: "are you going to be okay?" at least the music and the company were good. think i said a bit too much though. woke up yesterday morning with a bad hangover, and starving. not a good state to be in for my final day of mix. took a hot shower. the same voice i last heard the night before then came in text, asking how fragile i was feeling. was actually feeling pretty bad but didn't want to make her worried, so i simply said that last night was a bad idea considering how little food i had. went to marks & spencer for a baguette and sat in the mixing theatre for a good half an hour to slowly down my baguette. after some chatting, i finally started mixing at about 11 am. was still feeling pretty drabby. only really recovered at about late afternoon. finished mixing at about 4 am last night. stayed till about 7 am to tie up some loose ends. there are still a couple of secondary mixes to be made out of that mix, but i decided to do them another day, so i pedalled home. fell right into bed after checking my emails. during my cycle home, i realised i miss the cold, misty and dim mornings – that silence in the world is always enchanting. also remembered that i had so many of those mornings last year, mostly from parties and many from late night mixing. and to wake up in the night only to do it all over again holds some kind of magic. the most livid part of that memory would be the smiling, laughing faces that drank, danced and collapsed not far from my very own body, feet and hands. it was cold but we were warm. makes me glad that i haven't forgotten that i only have one life. this year, we mostly never made it to the mornings, and usually already collapsing by 5 am, before the sun comes up. of course, there were also the few big parties in london, which lasted till mornings, with enough sunlight to feel the new day but not enough to burn our eyes out. got up at about 5 pm just now. had a funny dream and ming was in it. went online, and ming was on msn, so i told him about it. also, it seems like ming might migrate to the galaxy of apple computers. feel a little guilty for planting the poisonous apple in him, opportunity given when his computer started acting up recently – but hey, only the best for a friend. didn't go to school today. sun was almost gone when i woke up. this is how i remember the uk. |
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Friends Blurty for trish.
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