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[20 Oct 2009|08:22am] |
so much for sticking to timelines!!!
good attempt though. i feel less guilt.
the main reason why i spent two days struggling with two question papers on stats is because i never practised once. and lessons have stopped for more than a month now.
the symbols, curly-wurlies all look so alien.
took me a while to piece them together. things were easier when i did my second paper. except that it was 10pm yesterday! and i was supposed to have done up my lyrics and research for my sociology paper!! ROAR!
and partly cos i slept twice. yesterday.
today, i'm gonna stretch myself a little more.
have gotten myself a stats tutor and will sit through revision with my tutor till 9pm. then back to reading up on behavioral theories :P
regi said the more i sleep the worse my eyebags are. so i'm gonna try and reverse the order. let's see if i have sparkly eyes when i deprive myself of sleep.
am feeling terribly guilty that i chose to abandon my plans to go back with regi to his hometown. and i'm feeling kinda bad that our schedules won't match till january.
this morning. regi asked how come it feels like i'm getting smaller (in circumference!). and i'm feeling it too. even XS feels huge on me. i've gone from size 10 to size 6. quite horrific.
and i look so gaunt.
i'm sitting in my boring old office chair, staring at a mass of uniform, brown tables and people without expressions on their lifeless faces.
what would i do if this was my last day on earth?
really.
how am i gonna spend every day?
so many things i want to achieve, so many things i think i want to achieve but don't really want it as bad anymore too.
so how?
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