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[26 Jul 2009|05:34pm] |
i'm not sure if this is laziness or just pure detachment or simply wanting to get away from the buzz.
used to love being on msn because all my friends are within my reach.
now, i don't bother logging on and it helps even more when my mac's been having problems with my msn.
terrible first gig for momo. hilarious and pathetic to me. nonetheless, it does not make me feel any weaker. it just makes me wanna mushroom further. spread my spores further. something like that. me trying to be lyrical here is puke-inducing.
been whining about not having fever for the longest time, well, i've just had my fix. six fucking days of fever. i'm surprised i'm not a moron yet after all the head burning. 3 courses of antibiotics have weakened me. i wake up with puffy, red eyes these days - signs of allergies from godknowswhat. so no hanging out in crowded places or travelling (epic sigh!). good too....it'd control my expenditure and keep me in check for the next 6 months.
i've finally started school! i wished i started earlier. somehow felt that i've whiled away my time for too long. the 7 months break felt like forever. yes, yesterday's time in class once again confirmed even in places of higher education, you still get idiots for classmates. idiots are everywhere! i just need to love idiots and accept them as a part of my life.
still trying to figure out what's the best route home from school. bloody wait for the bus made my entire journey back home almost 1.5hours! maybe for the next 3 years, i can claw myself an express tunnel back home.
nothing much really.
weekend afternoons spent in school, daydreaming with R, cooking, jamming, reading and slow walks.
took a peek at my timetable again and realised, there's no way i can have an active social life anymore. and strangely, that's just the way i like it. i actually quite like being a hermit who ocassionally appears whenever she likes.
one day, will i be forgotten? lol. part of me is getting ready to fade away, yet another echoing voice is telling me to give life another shot, and that there is so much more excitement out there. bullcrap i think, outside is just buzz buzz buzz. nobody really knows what they are doing. they just buzz around.
i don't know.
shit half my sunday is gone.
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