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[01 Jun 2009|08:06am] |
there's this desire in me to put everything back to where it used to be.
maybe it's this major shift in my life.
this fucking impatience to get everything moving.
i'm scared because i don't even like the songs that i write anymore.
makes me just wanna burn everything up.
what if this is the end of it all?
somehow, even i feel that nobody is interested anymore. the second voice in my head tells me that people are no longer interested. they are just being diplomatic.
i'm a little confused.
a little muddled.
and fuck, i think i'm a lousy yoga teacher. my classes have been cancelled twice in a row (haha!). so much for wanting to go into it full time.
i am looking for a baseball bat now. i wanna whack everything out that i do not like to see. that includes myself.
beating myself into pulp will not be an easy task though.
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