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[06 Feb 2009|01:37pm] |
i'm really glad i managed all 3 session at NUS without adam - my teacher and mentor.
for the longest time, uni kids scare me. i've always felt that i wouldn't be able to connect with them because of our intellectual differences. in short i feel stupid and am afraid that i can't hold a decent conversation, much less to teach them.
well, yesterday was particularly enlightening. for once, i saw every single person as equal. it didn't matter that the room was filled with scholars from different countries. and they couldn't care less about my background. all they knew was that i'm the teacher. i command, they follow.
there were a few moments of awkwardness but thankfully, i managed to break the ice. haha even found a justice fan from france :) i promised to use justice for my next class too. but i think i may be able to negotiate for a session with prodigy too.
not to be too drama-mama but it just felt a little magical? that the whole class - many of whom were strangers just became friends.
sriram and venkat are the organisers. pierre is an exchange student from france. after class, sriram was totally bummed out and went straight to his room. seto, venkat, pierre, erm one other girl (haha! i'm bad with indian names) and i went to a cafe to eat. we talked about football, cricket, venkat's flying kicks, seto's surname, wrestling...ahaha.
then venkat said it was sriram's birthday the next day but they were gonna crash into his room and give him birthday bumps. i heard they were gonna bring some sticks and beat him proper. pierre then said he's living in the same cluster as sriram and offered to sneak the gang in.
another inclusion into the group! hahah.
i wonder how sriram is feeling after all the beating. too bad i had to go home. but i sent a flying kick through venkat.
tonight is mrs this. i'm feeling a little weary. more likely from worrying about my finances. i'm gonna suffer till march from overspending. gotta avoid all phonecalls after this week unless i strike toto.
oh and teaching is not so scary anymore. i used to need adam around and i'd stutter a lot. i felt real good when the kids said they wanted me back for weekly sessions :)
too many options now.
1. i've been offered to go to india for training - fully sponsored. that'd mean putting off my studies for a while. i'd also need to stay there for about a month. quite unlikely for me to do so unless again, i strike toto.
2. go study and finish it off fast, then go to india.
3. don't study, get a higher paying job.
4. strike toto - at least a few hundred grand. then i don't have to worry about my housing loan.
life's filled with too many options. but i've made my choice. i'm determined to make it happen.
that is to strike toto.
and to show you guys how determined i am, i've already bought my tickets.
good luck to me :)
*i re-read my entry and have realised how random i am. the paragraphs are so unrelated. haha. no wonder.
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