| thank you |
[30 Jan 2009|06:01pm] |
thanks for the rain god.
i needed it badly.
it has stopped hurting :)
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| talk rot |
[30 Jan 2009|09:23pm] |
due to the chinese new year period aka when-are-you-getting-married questioning session, i've had several discussions with boys and girls about this boring topic.
actually they weren't even discussions. i merely sat there uhm-orh-yeah-maybe-ing. why? because everyone's views will differ according to their circumstances, background, experiences and blah blah blah.
so instead of wasting my saliva or brain juice trying to out-talk, i may as well agree to whatever they say. because one fine day, my opinions may just be steered towards the same direction. in addition, i've always stuck to this rule my guru told me - never preach unless you are asked to.
ah well, i've been very unfairly labelled. i'm just gonna peel of the cheapo sticky labels these people stick all over me. call me whatever you want. i'm actually from outer space, only fellow aliens can understand me perfectly. *beep beep* my mates know who they are.
i know what i truly want. and when it happens i will know. for now, i'm just watching things happen around me. interesting to watch human behavior! i'm just so tempted to put my money on a psychology degree. too bad, i ain't no rich kid!
i was very angry with some events around me for a day and a half. still too much ego in me to bow down and pretend nothing has happened. but yeah (of late, i think my speech is similar to vicky pollard's. haha). i'm gonna put on my helmet and just whack.
if money falls from heaven, i'd like to pack myself off to taiwan for a week. haha. but india looks more important to me.
i've decided too, that come what may, i will start my self-imposed sentence to 3 years in labour camp. I LOVE NATIONAL LIBRARY CAN?! i really do. but more so for their literature books :P
and hor. i need to confess something here. I LOVE MY SISTER. i've realised i've wronged her on many occasions by thinking of her as selfish or whatever petty nonsense i can think of. she actually brings me comfort when i'm in a rage. she calms me down, she lets me know i'm important, she makes it known that she doesn't want me to leave her. and haha, i risk sounding damn materialistic but i just felt very good hearing it from her. she said "jie, when i get enough money, i'll buy you an LV bag as well" and we know how much they cost.
not that it's making me feel her acknowledging my generosity towards her in my better-off days, but rather, i feel that maybe only she truly understands what i'm going through right now. and possibly how far i've progressed from being a spoilt brat to someone who can live within her means and strive for what she wants independently. not to mention the shit i have to put up with now and then from the people around me.
for now, i'm appeased. no complaints. but it doesn't mean i won't ever complain. i know myself only too well :P
i think the rain did help. i mentioned in the afternoon that the rain would do me some good.
mere priya!
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