| my mates and a surprise for me |
[15 Mar 2008|04:08pm] |
i managed to find my primary school mates on facebook.
now that i look through their photo albums, i've came to realise they are actually
very sweet and nice people. much nicer than the ones whom i've chosen to hang
out with. yeah, the ones who betrayed me, tried to beat the crap outta me when
i chose to leave their so called gang (i left because i felt a great sense of
humiliation. as a full-time lian, i was supposed to be out terrorising people, not
apologising to some random group of kun-tong poh in hum zhi-ness). for the full
story on the incident that happened at fire, please contact me on msn.
that aside, i suddenly feel very sorry for not being nicer to these people. the only
time i communicated with them was when i wanted their biscuits and chocolates.
sometimes, i also spoke to them when i forgot to complete my homework. i would
ask them for theirs to use as references.
i wonder if they hated me for being the tyrant i was at school. i wonder if their
hatred for me contributed to my popularity. maybe they hated me so much they
voted me for class president, house captain, go on stage to lead the school in the
singapore workout.
i'm very egoistic, so i'm just going to say sorry here. hopefully one day they'll
google and find this post and get all teary and sibeh touched.
another thing, my mum told me she's organizing a "surprise" birthday party for
me. i'm very surprised because she tried to surprise me by telling me she wants to
surprise me.
last year she did the same thing. she also told me it was a surprise party.
on my birthday, i saw this group of people i've never met before. but never mind,
i sat there waiting for my friends. i asked the rest to eat first.
then one of them asked, "who's birthday is it today?"
erm...i said it was mine. it was getting weird. i had to keep smiling.
then i asked my mum, "mummeeee, where are the rest? why aren't they here?"
"äll come already ma! still waiting for what? faster eat la!"
walau. my birthday party. i knew no one at the party for ME.
this year will be the same lor. because when i asked her who's coming, she didn't
give me the guest list (like my house is so @#$%ing big). she said "all your friends
la! want me to tell you how many times."
sibeh sian. i don't feel loved lor. she invite her own friends lor. the food she's
cooking is her favourite also.
i feel like crying. so pathetic. i'd rather go jurong east and eat bibim bap and sing
a song for myself.
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