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working closely with the aged has been very helpful to me.
it not only improves my sluggish blood circulation because of the frequent shocks i get, but also, stretches the threshold of my very very sensitive eardrums.
i also get to improve on my EQ. because i not only have to be sure that i react in the right way, and am able to handle people, who are affected by the old who are hard of hearing(and practically screaming the house down). even the calm, pious and polite spew expletives. it's an amazing sight. it never fails to marvel me how one can create such an impact. it's like a tsunami. stand too close and you get swept away.
thus, i am convinced that my spiritual practises have done me an immeasurable amount of good. i am very certain that in the near future i would be able to gain enlighten at work instead of a boddhi tree a-la buddha.
as of now, i'm looking through my check list. i've achieved:
1. patience (i am able to wait for a significant period of time, during which my documents reach her crystal hands, lay around on her table without my knowledge, while she decides when is the auspicious time to pass them on to me. usually it happens around 4.55pm. 5 minutes from knock off time. i sit and wait for my time to come and then fight to finish my work in 5 minutes.)
2. purity of speech, mind and actions (i am able to not curse and swear in various languages, not show any vulgar signs at any incidence of displeasure, not do shadowless kicking actions behind her back)
3. tolerance (i am able to remain grounded and collected even when her showers of saliva come raining down on my porcelain smooth face, her lips threaten to touch my virgin body, her thunderous roar stretching my little eardrums to their limits)
4. unwavering faith in the highest power (many times, she has reduced me to a negative-thinking wreck, on the verge of quitting or walking out of the office. but today, i am very certain that nature would know how to take care of/destroy her.)
5. control of my emotions through useful utilisation of the breath (everytime i feel my blood moving a little faster, or my eyes getting crossed, or i feel that blood is threatening to spill out from my orifices, i take a long deep breath, and all is back to normal)
6. compassion for all sentient beings (through the countless times we go through the cycles of samsara, all our karmas bear fruit at different times, i've come to understand that sometimes, it is very difficult to get rid of her past imprints as a cow, lion, donkey...whatever)
7. accepting people as they are (maybe her favourite phrase has been so stuck in her being, it's impossible to get rid of "i don't know and i don't want to know". everyone is gifted with a mantra to guide you through life. that's hers. and i respect it with a thousand recitations of OMs. it has brought her thus far and earned her the reputation of earning the most amongst all and doing the least. which is very clever. one day through the power of the highest force, she will have to accept and understand that i'm a human with a working brain, not a cheap dog who does everything on command.)
8. honesty (yes. i have learnt not to lie to my bosses and superiors that all is okay and i'm surviving well. i have also learnt not to tell her that i'll do her work for her. honesty indeed pays. once people know of your integrity, they worship you. i'm being worshipped now, because i'm the only one at work who dares tell her the truth. i'm starting to feel like god already)
9. being courageous (when the buddha meditated, even when threatened with a crazy elephant charging his way, he remained calm. i too, am like that now. even when she's screaming into my ear insisting that she is right, when she's not making sense, and while the rest are scared and running in circles, i remain centred, and still am able to multi-task. entering orders and writing this entry at the same time. even when my hair is faced with the possibility of getting destroyed by her acidic saliva. i remain calm. i know my hair can always grow back. i am like super mario fighting the dragon in the dungeon. i have no fear of falling into hot hot lava or smelling the dragon's breath. her breath is also pretty powerful)
i have yet to achieve number 10. which is to be conscientious at work. i shall go off to finish my work now.
OM SHANTI SHANTI SHANTI
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