| hypocrisy |
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i'm truly behind the saying - birds of the same feather flock together.
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| what to eat? |
[21 Aug 2009|01:18pm] |
my aunty bought some dish - think it's pig trotters with black sauce and vinegar (vegetarian one) for me when she found out i had worms.
it's supposed to cleanse the body of impurities and also to get rid of excess wind. mainly for ladies who've just given birth.
after i ate that, my appetite has been earth-destroying. i just want to eat all the time.
and today, i'm lucky.
i have my muesli bars, a box of bee hoon, a piece of brownie, and some longans.
but the problem is...what to eat first?
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| i should have checked earlier |
[19 Aug 2009|09:28am] |
Moon in Aries
The Moon in Aries makes an individual energetic, impetuous and impulsive. Even if at times he or she might seem calm and cool outside, inside they are full of fidgety urges. Quite unexpectedly for those around them, and sometimes even for themselves, these people can suddenly get involved in an adventure, make a decisive step, or go to the other side of the globe under the influence of a bright new idea.
It is simply essential for the Moon in Aries to somehow release the energy of this hot-headed sign, and so it is quite common for an individual with this Moon to go into sports (REAL sports, not chess!).
Moon in Aries people see life as a permanent battle or competition. Even if everything goes smoothly, without effort, their Moon in Aries will find something to struggle for.
Since the Moon rules unconscious reactions, people with the Moon in Aries react very quickly and automatically. Later, when they become more conscious of their actions, they may regret what they've done, but, alas, patience and prudence are not their strong points.
If their life is too stable and dull, Moon in Aries individuals might protest against this, and this can show as health problems - possibly inflammatory disorders of digestion or an allergy. The Moon is also associated with skin, and the skin may become reddish, with pimples or a rash. Moon in Aries can also be prone to headaches, sleeplessness (especially when overworked or overexcited) and eye problems.
To get rid of stress, Moon in Aries needs to somehow spend excess energy - to have a run, to punch someone (if not physically then emotionally), or break something.
It is not easy for Moon in Aries to be a parent. It just cannot be unobtrusive and steady. Its pedagogical style is more like a cavalry charge, and a slap on the wrist can be its main argument.
Moon in Aries people often think of their mother as an active and energetic person, and the main thing which she taught them in life is not to be idle and that they should pursue their goals.
Housekeeping may serve as a safety-valve for these people, especially for women. They have plenty of energy for cleaning, repairing, cooking, but this happens in bursts, and if something isn't completed until the end of such a burst, it will be abandoned until the next time. Normally, the Moon in Aries can be a good cook (if it doesn't burn something in a haste), but everyday cooking is seen as humdrum and boring.
*now to adjust
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| my terrible head |
[19 Aug 2009|08:28am] |
i want to saw off my head.
because i think it is the root of all evil. it makes a very innocent and happy person like me all messed up.
and also, with my head as an accomplice, i often am too quick to dish out my views or so-called advice (i say so because most often people think it's crap).
therefore, from today onwards, i'm going to live without my head.
not like people will give a shit anyway.
everyone just wants to hear what they want to, and see what they want to.
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| oh! how they fly away |
[18 Aug 2009|08:09am] |
every day on my way to the bus stop, i see lots of interesting objects strewn across the grass.
for sure, fallen leaves are a standard.
then u see the ocassional cap, one side of a slipper, newspaper, etc.
lately, i see boxers, nighties, bras, and a swimming float (LOL!).
can't be the typhoon sweeping across unnoticed while we sleep away. prolly the creator of those knick-knacks has a very good understanding of aerodynamics.
or is there some mardi gras party that i'm unaware of? how come they don't state that on the notice board?
tsk.
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| beautiful angel |
[12 Aug 2009|03:11pm] |
SOMEONE SAID I LOOK LIKE AN ANGEL TODAY!!!
wahahahahahahahahahah! so hairpeee!
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| red bombs |
[07 Aug 2009|03:01pm] |
i like attending happy events, like weddings.
i like to see my friends happy and soak in the joy.
but i dread the ang bao part.
am i a cheapo?
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[02 Aug 2009|08:09am] |
woke up late so aneh and i decided to cab down to cathay for lunch before i start school.
Went to this jap restaurant with the concept of marche.
Was waiting at the table when an ah tiong waitress came along.
She looked at aneh and said :"here's your she take."
Huh? What did i take?
After a few nano-seconds i realised that it was my grilled shitake mushroom!!!
That was something. Overall, pretty decent food and the special mix green tea was awesome.
oh and i just realised i got worms....so effin itchy! Makes me wanna insert a bomb up my ass. I could not sit still in class and when my lecturer asked me how i should present my graphical data, i gave my most stupidest reply.
"trish, one unit equals to five. Half unit is X 2 so it should be!"
"2.5!"
So smart. The worms have gone to my brains. I just couldn't hear anything when it was itching so bad.
Was supposed to go jam after class but timo preferred vomitting. So i caught ice age with aneh.
Funny!!! Loved it.
Then we checked out a few stores and settled at tea cosy for some cakes and tea (duh!).
We went for cake platter and grilled mushrooms, i had raspberry with mint tea, he had some frothy latte thing.
the setting and cutlery were oh-so-english! raaspberry cake was smashing! our mushrooms were filled with melted parmesan cheese and topped with sundried tomatoes. Slurp!
then we went to check out the sheets and fabric at spotlight. I ooh-ed and ah-ed until the itch came back again.
So we went home....
Such a downer. and i had this terrible urge to smoke.
Okay. I'm going for a facial with mum now, then off to cat's baby shower!
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| i don't know |
[26 Jul 2009|05:34pm] |
i'm not sure if this is laziness or just pure detachment or simply wanting to get away from the buzz.
used to love being on msn because all my friends are within my reach.
now, i don't bother logging on and it helps even more when my mac's been having problems with my msn.
terrible first gig for momo. hilarious and pathetic to me. nonetheless, it does not make me feel any weaker. it just makes me wanna mushroom further. spread my spores further. something like that. me trying to be lyrical here is puke-inducing.
been whining about not having fever for the longest time, well, i've just had my fix. six fucking days of fever. i'm surprised i'm not a moron yet after all the head burning. 3 courses of antibiotics have weakened me. i wake up with puffy, red eyes these days - signs of allergies from godknowswhat. so no hanging out in crowded places or travelling (epic sigh!). good too....it'd control my expenditure and keep me in check for the next 6 months.
i've finally started school! i wished i started earlier. somehow felt that i've whiled away my time for too long. the 7 months break felt like forever. yes, yesterday's time in class once again confirmed even in places of higher education, you still get idiots for classmates. idiots are everywhere! i just need to love idiots and accept them as a part of my life.
still trying to figure out what's the best route home from school. bloody wait for the bus made my entire journey back home almost 1.5hours! maybe for the next 3 years, i can claw myself an express tunnel back home.
nothing much really.
weekend afternoons spent in school, daydreaming with R, cooking, jamming, reading and slow walks.
took a peek at my timetable again and realised, there's no way i can have an active social life anymore. and strangely, that's just the way i like it. i actually quite like being a hermit who ocassionally appears whenever she likes.
one day, will i be forgotten? lol. part of me is getting ready to fade away, yet another echoing voice is telling me to give life another shot, and that there is so much more excitement out there. bullcrap i think, outside is just buzz buzz buzz. nobody really knows what they are doing. they just buzz around.
i don't know.
shit half my sunday is gone.
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| house of cards |
[16 Jul 2009|07:59am] |
tried to recover from my nonchalence towards music.
as advised by many...i drew my brains out with a syringe and stopped thinking.
so i sat in the dark, put on my headphones and started meddling around on youtube. watched several good clips from tokyo jihen, but not striking enough.
then i decided to just go back to what i liked to listen in the past. so i decided on radiohead. been listening to national anthem pretty much :) although it draws me to it, it doesn't make me think about it or miss it.
alas, random clicking brought me to house of cards. i actually have the entire rainbow album, but i've just been too lazy to load it unto my ipod. i'm so lazy these days if you tried to attack me i would not retaliate.
love the vocals for the song. it's just a preference. i think i just love all things weird and ghostly. if you can do a mean falsetto, i'm yours. i found house of cards to be haunting, yet spiritual. i sat there feeling like it was eternity.
then i thought to myself, i wanna be like that. technically i may not be gifted, but i want to give it a shot (many shots, in fact). i'm glad the drive is back.
here's house of cards for you.
I don't wanna be your friend
I just wanna be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
And fall off the table, get swept under
Denial, denial
The infrastructure will collapse
Voltage spikes
Throw your keys in the bowl
Kiss your husband goodnight
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Fall off the table, get swept under
Denial, denial
Denial, denial
Your ears should be burning
Denial, denial
Your ears should be burning
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| exchange |
[15 Jul 2009|04:36pm] |
i gave you an apple, and said i love you.
you gave me an orange, and said you loved me too.
you looked at the orange, and found it dimpled and less brightly colored than the apple you gave me.
does that mean i love you less?
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| marinated |
[10 Jul 2009|11:39am] |
my marinated mushroom rocks!!!
roar!!
please tell me if u wanna try some :)
i didn't take pics of it cos i think they can be improved further - taste n aesthetics.
shall buy myself more spices and cheese (so pricey! ): )
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| it's a rainy day |
[24 Jun 2009|03:43pm] |
i'm cold
i'm hungry
i'm tired
i'm not seeing well
i'm shaking inside
what a perfect person for this lovely rainy day.
i would like to garland you with a necklace threaded with my tears. i would like you to feel how heavy it is. but i'm sure you feel the same way too.
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| quit talking |
[22 Jun 2009|09:02am] |
talk is too damn cheap
show me what needs to be done instead
i can't stress this enough can i?
if i suppress any longer i may just burst.
keeping it in check now.
still wondering how one start painting so many pictures at one go, and not realise that the paint may not be enough to complete all the works?
strange.
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| mee day |
[19 Jun 2009|02:24pm] |
after trying for a week, we finally made it to the kopitiam on time.
i had mee tai bak. awesome stuff - full marks for the fried onion pieces.
for lunch, as usual it's friday. fridays are for mee soto.
a tad too oily. but equally amazing :)
for dinner, a trip down to bugis must always end at fortune centre. every time i crave for something warm, it's the vegetarian fish head bee hoon (made of deep fried seaweed balls) i lust after.
3 meals of mee.
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[17 Jun 2009|01:34pm] |
how come the words and actions don't quite match?
i think i should speak out less. it may work against me if i say further.
i'm just very confused.
i may just choose to let it flow through my ears.
i am slowly disbelieving again.
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| it's friday! |
[12 Jun 2009|02:18pm] |
every week there's a friday.
but i'm not sure why i'm so excited today.
maybe it's cos i've always liked the idea of travelling. especially friends and me love. oh not forgetting the ramly burgers i'd be stuffing myself with. not to forget the endless smoking as well :)
now i'm clearing the clutter on my desk...filing them away! feels so good to see everything in their place. if only my bedroom is this clutter-free :(
this weekend is for fun and rest. when we get home, we're gonna start revamping our den again.
have fun u guys!
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| mad world. |
[05 Jun 2009|03:21am] |
i can't help looping this
this song is drawing me like some of the songs i loop daily for months.
i just found it..i'm sure many of you must know this.
i dunno how to describe the feel of this song...i wish i can come up with something like this.
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world
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| impatience |
[01 Jun 2009|08:06am] |
there's this desire in me to put everything back to where it used to be.
maybe it's this major shift in my life.
this fucking impatience to get everything moving.
i'm scared because i don't even like the songs that i write anymore.
makes me just wanna burn everything up.
what if this is the end of it all?
somehow, even i feel that nobody is interested anymore. the second voice in my head tells me that people are no longer interested. they are just being diplomatic.
i'm a little confused.
a little muddled.
and fuck, i think i'm a lousy yoga teacher. my classes have been cancelled twice in a row (haha!). so much for wanting to go into it full time.
i am looking for a baseball bat now. i wanna whack everything out that i do not like to see. that includes myself.
beating myself into pulp will not be an easy task though.
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| my neighbour |
[26 May 2009|01:15pm] |
just yesterday i told mr neon noise that an old lady got crushed by a reversing trailer just near my house.
i got more details of it today from my "inquisitive" mum - who is soon getting initiated into the market aunty's club.
turns out the lady is my neighbour. she walks with a limp so she couldn't have escaped fast enough.
if i didn't hear correctly, her body was broken right up to the neck. or her head is totally smashed.
such a horrible way to leave for such a sweet old lady. she shared soil with me when my cactus was dying. she allowed me to cut some of her pandan / curry leaves whenever our kitchen ran out of them; i got lime from her too.
now that i know it's her, i feel like crying. i was probably one of the last few to have said bye-bye to her that morning :(
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