| pain pain |
[23 Apr 2008|02:48pm] |
i woke up very late this morning, and with a throbbing
headache and a very sore throat.
eewww...the worst combination ever. my body finally gives
in, after all the weeks of lousy sleep. i'm aching all
over :(
pain pain. gimme a massage.
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| HENG AH |
[21 Apr 2008|10:50am] |
i was late for yoga practice yesterday. so i joined
the rest without doing my warm-ups. then half way
through, i heard the sound "piak! piak!"
sharp pain followed. i realised my shoulder dislodged
and went back on its own. ouch! plus, i haven't been
doing yoga for at least 3 months. between transition
of postures, i feel like i'm shifting a cow. yes,
that's the weight of my heavy arse.
i better go practice some more. hopefully i won't lose
my arm.
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| shopping |
[16 Apr 2008|02:29pm] |
in case i forget.
1. black frames
2. bookcase
3. audio technica headphones (green)
4. adidas jacket
5. converse sneakers
6. a bag
7. some happening clothes
8. a trip to the dentist
9. a massage - a package if i can afford it
10.something for someone
i hope i won't blow too much. oh yeah, and something for mummy too.
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[08 Apr 2008|10:42am] |
Truth cannot be understood through proof.
Anything that can be proven can be disproven also.
Truth is beyond proof or disproof.
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| i am a girl |
[02 Apr 2008|12:55pm] |
i need to remember that i am a girl:
i must comb my hair every day.
i must not be sloppy.
i must be mindful of my language.
i must cut my nails nicely.
yeah. i am a girl.
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| perfection |
[01 Apr 2008|02:44pm] |
i'm wondering when my constant quest for perfection in everything i do,
will lead to my fatal end.
quote an example:
i spent two weeks writing and editing my essay non-stop.
i wrote and erased over and over again because i just
cannot be satisfied with whatever i wrote.
then i read a few other essays done by my classmates.
in comparison to mine, i felt theirs were exact copies
of the materials i'd gone through. they failed to reference
their work, lacked supporting points and wrote half the
amount of required words.
then when we received our results yesterday. they got Bs.
i got a B+ (with a "very good attempt").
why not A for me?
this high expectation has demoralized me. i just feel like why
the hell do i need to put in so much effort, especially
when the end result for everyone is going to be the same?
or rather, am i particularly more stupid than the rest?
so i had to work doubly hard?
it depresses me. it makes me feel scared.
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| who took my pear? |
[01 Apr 2008|08:15am] |
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i took my pear out from my lunch box.
i didn't want it to turn bad because my box of food was hot.
so i left it on my table and ignored it while i got "busy" doing
research on the internet.
it was time for lunch when i remembered my pear. i started looking
around for it. couldn't find it.
who took it? that person could have asked me.
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okay. i've managed to solve the mystery.
turns out my idiotic colleague took my pear to hide away.
she forgot about it completely until this morning.
luckily the pear still tasted nice. but i can't help feeling
how contaminated it has become. i wonder how many fingers have
actually molested my pear.
still, it was a nice eat.
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| WOOHOO! |
[31 Mar 2008|10:47am] |
i got my promotion!
next pay day my treat to movies!!!
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| priorities |
[26 Mar 2008|05:09pm] |
if you wanna do something together.
priorities must be on same level or not?
is it necessary? or can things work out when we all don't think the same?
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[25 Mar 2008|07:55am] |
today, i looked at a bird's feet.
they looked like over-sized flip flops to me.
kinda cute.
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| scaredy cat |
[24 Mar 2008|10:30am] |
this is so stupid.
i'm feeling scared already.
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| scared |
[20 Mar 2008|01:27am] |
suddenly i feel scared again.
i wanna cry. there are some people i'm starting to miss.
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| kiss my ass |
[17 Mar 2008|08:10pm] |
"The Communist Party is like the parent to the Tibetan people, and it is always considerate about what the children need," Zhang said last year. He later added: "The Central Party Committee is the real Buddha for Tibetans."
some random Hu said that.
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| my mates and a surprise for me |
[15 Mar 2008|04:08pm] |
i managed to find my primary school mates on facebook.
now that i look through their photo albums, i've came to realise they are actually
very sweet and nice people. much nicer than the ones whom i've chosen to hang
out with. yeah, the ones who betrayed me, tried to beat the crap outta me when
i chose to leave their so called gang (i left because i felt a great sense of
humiliation. as a full-time lian, i was supposed to be out terrorising people, not
apologising to some random group of kun-tong poh in hum zhi-ness). for the full
story on the incident that happened at fire, please contact me on msn.
that aside, i suddenly feel very sorry for not being nicer to these people. the only
time i communicated with them was when i wanted their biscuits and chocolates.
sometimes, i also spoke to them when i forgot to complete my homework. i would
ask them for theirs to use as references.
i wonder if they hated me for being the tyrant i was at school. i wonder if their
hatred for me contributed to my popularity. maybe they hated me so much they
voted me for class president, house captain, go on stage to lead the school in the
singapore workout.
i'm very egoistic, so i'm just going to say sorry here. hopefully one day they'll
google and find this post and get all teary and sibeh touched.
another thing, my mum told me she's organizing a "surprise" birthday party for
me. i'm very surprised because she tried to surprise me by telling me she wants to
surprise me.
last year she did the same thing. she also told me it was a surprise party.
on my birthday, i saw this group of people i've never met before. but never mind,
i sat there waiting for my friends. i asked the rest to eat first.
then one of them asked, "who's birthday is it today?"
erm...i said it was mine. it was getting weird. i had to keep smiling.
then i asked my mum, "mummeeee, where are the rest? why aren't they here?"
"äll come already ma! still waiting for what? faster eat la!"
walau. my birthday party. i knew no one at the party for ME.
this year will be the same lor. because when i asked her who's coming, she didn't
give me the guest list (like my house is so @#$%ing big). she said "all your friends
la! want me to tell you how many times."
sibeh sian. i don't feel loved lor. she invite her own friends lor. the food she's
cooking is her favourite also.
i feel like crying. so pathetic. i'd rather go jurong east and eat bibim bap and sing
a song for myself.
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| traumatised again! |
[14 Mar 2008|10:57pm] |
i opened an attachment which came with an email today. and i saw the grossest picture.
it's of the same standard as Mi Li Ye's butterfly episode. so instead of hearing or seeing butterflies
fluttering around me, i feel like worms are crawling under my skin. it's so bad that i have felt this
crawling sensation for the entire day. my face feels like a mosh pit for all kinds of worms i can think of.
i'm so traumatised and the image is so ingrained in me. even my thoughts have manifested. along the
way home, i saw a dead lizard which is blotted to 3 times its normal size (probably due to the rain) and
a dead cockroach that looked alive.
can someone tell me how to get rid of this image? i want to totally erase it and live in peace.
in the mean time, god! please help me. i've been a very good girl. i don't deserve this.
p/s: my dear friends, whom i value more than myself, please do not send me pictures of creepy crawlies.
you can send me ghost or whatever. but i don't like spineless stuff which are smelly and yucky.
but if you do insist on sending me, i will not hesitate to erm, terminate our friendship for one day.
i'm seriously warning you guys!
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| baby boy |
[14 Mar 2008|01:07pm] |
during lunch, i told my colleagues that i'm pregnant.
they all said: "you should abort. unless you are married then you can keep the baby."
aren't babies meant to be kept? unless they have some health defects which will affect the quality of their lives.
but still, the thought of delivering a baby scares me. but i love babies. :)
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