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Tuesday, July 15th, 2003
2:09 pm - Strange dreams
I dreamed last night that he was at a mall with me, faceless, and then we were shopping at Hong Kong Marketplace. But there was an escalator and we were at Universal Studios, in the parking lot, or at the Beverly Center, and he turned and I recognized him. Then, he grabs my shoulders and says, "you're the best worst friend I've ever had" and kisses my forehead. Then he starts laughing and wraps me up...he even had the pretty neck I want to put on a chopping block, and had lost that angelic hair. And he says, "I think we should speak." I laughed because it was so ridiculous to not speak to him. and then he was very young, around 16, and so was I and we ran up the escalator to get food that he was going to cook, and I was shouting the names of dishes after him. I woke up and cried that the dream was gone. I had a real friend in that dream, whoever he was.

current mood: awake
current music: Kool Keith

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Monday, July 14th, 2003
1:56 pm - Crazy times and crazy measures
I took the bus there. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be, but I had to wait a long time before they'd let me leave. The walls were blue. It was like waiting in the nurse's office in elementary school...strange noises and smells, wishing your mom was there to take you home. young women weeping with the news of an accidental pregnancy, or some curable or incurable STD. Wait, that's not elementary school. If anything, the hours I spent there calmed me down. At least I don't have *this*. At least I don't have *that*. And I didn't cry about it. I cried so much last week when it was supposed to happen, that I think I just don't care anymore. I set everyone free last week. It was nice, to be alone and ok.

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