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Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in
TwinkleTot's Blurty:
| Friday, December 24th, 2010 | |
| 10:30 pm | Happy Birthday Mom! This is officially the last entry I will ever write about you. I am putting you on the delete from life list. It's the only way I'll ever fully move forward. I cannot love you, and I cannot care about you, because its killing every fiber of my being. I'm already translucent. From here on, I can only care about myself and the people who really do care about me. I honestly don't know if you do or not, but I will tell myself that you don't for probably the rest of my life. I am going to meet someone new, and they are going to love me, and I'm going to welcome them with open arms. I'm giving myself no other choice. I will be happy, I will be loved, I will be efficient and successful, and it will be without you. There are no other choices. |
| Thursday, December 16th, 2010 | |
| 12:46 am | i want to barf...i just don't know what to do with myself. |
| Friday, November 5th, 2010 | |
| 10:35 pm | you could be happy and i wont know but you weren't happy the day i watched you go is it to late to remind you how we were? but not our last days of silent, screaming blur you could be happy i hope you are... do the things that you always wanted to without me there to hold you back, dont think, just do... |
| 10:31 pm | somethings got to break you down... |
| Friday, October 29th, 2010 | |
| 10:16 pm | I am a part of your soul, boy When you say you're gone I have to reach my arms out straight to you Cause I know we are through So go away, yeah Go away And leave me on my own Go away, go away Leave me on my own Finally it all makes sense I could keep this all from you And I can make a statement, based on truth But then it all comes tumbling down Down down down So go away, yeah Go away And leave me on my own Go away, go away Leave me on my own So go away, yeah Go away And leave me on my own Go away, go away Leave me on my own I am holding I am holding I am holding I am holding I am holding I am holding I am holding You So go away, yeah Go away And leave me on my own Go away, go away Leave me on my own So go away, yeah Go away And leave me on my own Go away, go away Leave me on my own Honey, leave me on my own Leave me on my own I miss....... |
| Saturday, August 21st, 2010 | |
| 1:48 pm | I'm trying to figure out what I want. |
| Monday, June 14th, 2010 | |
| 1:26 pm | I cannot wait til wednesdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy |
| Monday, January 18th, 2010 | |
| 11:49 pm | Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff |
| Wednesday, April 29th, 2009 | |
| 11:53 am | i will never remember to look here for this... www.plasticland.com. amanda, remind me to look here for this. hahaha |
| Sunday, March 8th, 2009 | |
| 9:55 pm | I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I know you won't ever believe me, but I do love you. So much more than you could ever realize, honestly. I don't deserve you, I never have. I was bad for you from the beginning. I'll never be able to look at you again. I'm so sorry. |
| Sunday, December 28th, 2008 | |
| 7:23 pm | i cannot do the smurf. i miss you dammit. you suck. should've known With a boy like you Your middle name is always I'd always love you Uh-huh yeah And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf And i can hate your girl I can tell ya that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf And i can watch tv I can shuffle off to buffalo I can do a back bend I will not call you back And i can start a book I can make some mac 'n cheese I can sleep twelve hours You'll never see my eyes And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf And i can hate your girl I can tell ya that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love You'll never see my eyes I will not call you back I cannot do the smurf I cannot fall in love I'll never fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf |
| Wednesday, December 17th, 2008 | |
| 11:18 am | Ugh. I hate that I can't blurty when I need to. When I can blurty, I don't need to. I need to start saving money so that I can get the internet and so that I won't spend so much. I'm doing terribly in that department right now. I've got to pee |
| Thursday, April 17th, 2008 | |
| 10:46 am | |
| Tuesday, February 12th, 2008 | |
| 10:47 am | |
| Monday, February 11th, 2008 | |
| 10:52 am | |
| Monday, November 5th, 2007 | |
| 12:58 am | for some reason, i like standing outside with you at one point i hugged you, and i looked up...i had to smile because i could see stars. they weren't very bright, but they still made me smile. that was really sappy...... |
| Tuesday, October 16th, 2007 | |
| 10:42 am | trainwreck when i try to think of things to say to you, things to explain to you, tell you what i'm feeling a train going 70 mph veers off the track and all the cars smash into each other. they ignite, but when the smoke clears you're what's left. my life feels like a big trainwreck. sometimes. i'm okay right now. give it another week and we'll be back downhill. my legs hurt........ i need to go find another job on friday. but im totally liking the one i have. why can't she just give me full time? she has the open spaces dillards pays 8.50 an hour. i would like that a whole lot more that 6.55. wouldn't you? |
| Thursday, October 4th, 2007 | |
| 10:43 pm | i really hate myself right now and i want to die. that's the truth. i don't know why. i'm about to have a panic attack. i don't want to be here right now. i want to be somewhere else. i don't want to be scared anymore. i'm going to throw up. |
| Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007 | |
| 12:15 pm | Let this go Maybe if my heart stops beating It won't hurt this much And never will I have to answer again to anyone Please don't get me wrong... Because I'll never let this go, But I can't find the words to tell you I don't wanna be alone, but now I feel like I don't know you One day you'll get sick of saying, that everythings all right And by then, I'm sure I'll be pretending, just like I am tonight Please don't get me wrong, because I'll never let this go But I can't find the words to tell you I don't wanna be alone, but know I feel like I don't know you Let this go, let this go But I'll never let this go But I can't find the word to tell you I don't wanna be alone, but now I feel like I don't know you And I'll never let this go But I can't find the words to tell you, that I feel like I don't know you |
| Thursday, September 27th, 2007 | |
| 2:01 pm | Tell me where our time went And if it was time well spent Just don’t let me fall asleep Feeling empty again Cause’ I fear I might break And I fear I can’t take it Tonight ill lay awake Feeling empty I can feel the pressure Its getting closer now Were better off without you I can feel the pressure Its getting closer now We’re better off without you Now that I'm losing hope And there’s nothing else to show For all of the days that we spent Carried away from home Some things ill never know And I had to let them go I’m sitting all alone Feeling empty I can feel the pressure Its getting closer now Were better off without you I can feel the pressure Its getting closer now Were better off without you Without you Some things ill never know And I had to let them go Some things ill never know And I had to let them go I’m sitting all alone Feeling empty I can feel the pressure Its getting closer now Were better off without you Feel the pressure Its getting closer now You’re better off without me |
