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[15 Aug 2003|03:36pm]
[ mood | tired ]

My bag has been forcibly packed by Hisoka for our vacation. I kept putting it off, pretending to forget it. I don't want a vacation. I don't want anything right now. I just want to go back to work, to sit at my desk buried in paperwork I won't do and just not exist.
But Hisoka thinks this vacation will do me good so he's packed my bag. Everyone's going with us-- on Tatsumi's orders no less. I really think we'll be in a dumpy little motel outside of a public pool since it was Tatsumi who arranged this whole thing.
I don't need his pity.....
I wonder what would have happened if I'd stayed alive.... and not immeadiately forced Hisoka to slice my lifelines. Would I have been free? No... I was not free from all this in life, I'll not be free now. Never... Why don't they let me go? Why does it hold me so fast and tightly?
Hisoka's calling. It's almost time to go. Maybe with luck I can get a seperate room so I don't affect him. I don't want him to feel this...... I don't want to feel it myself.
Let me go...

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Life in death. [12 Aug 2003|10:26pm]
I'm not supposed to be here writing this. But the doctor's have left me, thinking I was asleep and I snuck onto Watari's laptop.
Doctors you say?
More like mad scientists.
THey want to check me over, examine my body, and make sure everything is in 'order'. I'm working fine now, I was fine.... They just wanted to take me apart. For the last two days, I've been strapped to a table, slowly being dissected like a common lab rat without anesthetic. The bastard who was heading this little proceeding said that I was to be undrugged to be sure all was in working order with me. They needed to check my vitals and signs carefully for any oddities.
I'm still healing from the whole thing. My insides are like water, and my ribcage fragile as paper. I'm bruised all over and my hands are shaking from typing. I'd recount all that happened but what's the point? I'm going to remember it all. I'm never going to forget..... forget the cold touch of my body or the pain I saw in Hisoka's eyes when I made him kill me again.
I don't want to think about it anymore.
The doctors say they want to run a few more small tests tommorrow. I wonder exactly what that means. That's what Konoe said the first time when he asked that I go to the lab for testing... I guess that means another trip on a gurney to the operating room of hell huh?
I really wish I could just die..... Die and not exist anywhere at all. I wish I'd never been born.... created....alive....
I heard Konoe whispering to Watari in the halls this afternoon when the doctors took a lunch break....

"He's never going to be the same again...."

No, no I'm not....


My trust is broken, and so is my heart. No one is to blame here, no one but me. If I find a way.... I'll disappear. Take the one thing important and fade away.................
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nothing seems to go right when you're not having fun. [23 Jul 2003|04:52pm]
God. I've not had an ounce of time to rest since my last entry in here. It's been crazy, but then again Muraki's concerned so why am I surprised?
So far the week has pertained utterly and totally to trying to find the girl Cal from our case. Muraki's abducted her and we've all been left scrambling to find out where she and that lunatic are. I guess though I should start from the top.

Like as in, why Tatsumi is now here with us, keeping an 'eye' on proceedings. Ryo found us out. Well, as in we're lovers. After that, the rest came out as well. Which was bad. It probably wouldn't have mattered so much if Ryo had been close to death and needed to be brought in or something but it's not the case. So the leniancy for this breach of code is going to be heavy on my head. Hopefully just mine, and not Hisoka's too.

Argh.

But at least Tatsumi's being understanding enough to let us finish this case without being hindered.

After that, shortly I must add, Cal was abducted right in our apartment complex. She was headed to get a drink at the lobby and he must have gotten her there. Hisoka was unhinged by it, as was I but we knew we had to find her. Ryo and Dee are helping on their end, taking all this in stride. ^^; I'm surprised. But a good surprised I suppose.

Must go now, Hisoka needs my help with some research.
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Skippy. [14 Jul 2003|06:37pm]
[ mood | angry ]

Anything that could go wrong did today.

Muraki found us. Or rather, found Hisoka. He made the curse come alive, and it damn near knocked Hisoka unconcious from the pain. Cal and Bikky found him in the street, and tried to take him to a hospital but he persuaded them to just bring him to me at the station.
When he found me, he was relieved, I could see it. But that relief was soon disenchanted when Bikky and Cal mentioned his scars. Everyone thought I had made them. That I'd been the one to carve him....

I had to set them straight about it. After calming him down enough I got Hisoka to tell me where it had started. It was near the police hospital just a little ways off from the station. After some deduction, Rose sent out a sqaud to search any and all streets, hospitals, and churches for anyone matching Muraki's description.

We found him in the police hospital, right under our noses, about to operate on Cal's ill father. He was brought in for questioning but all he did was run them in circles. So we had to let him go. But he still pissed me off.

God why won't he just DIE?!

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I wannabe a cowboy baby... [08 Jul 2003|07:24pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

What a day. Work was pretty slow today, but I met my partners today. They are really nice, especially Ryo-san. Who's half japanese! He really doesn't look it, except for around the eyes. Ah well. We mainly did some brainstorming and got together some of the evidence as clues. These guys are completely clueless. I did let on I knew who the killer was-- just so the poor guys would have a suspect and not be fired or anything out of not finding anything.
As it was, Tatsumi's set up my being here as a mere international concern since Muraki's responsible for a lot of deaths in Japan as well as here in America now. And only god knows where else. He made it seem like I'd been one of the most involved with Muraki's case and I would be valuable in catching him here in New York.
I just hope he's right. Hisoka's more use at all this filing and paperwork than I am! Damnit how I wish he only looked a bit older to convince everyone so we could be partners again. I fear for Mr. Laytner and Ryo-san. Knowing Muraki's he's probably going to try something nasty to them, or perhaps the two kids close to them, Bikky and Cal.
At least Hisoka's there to protect them. I just wish those two kids would be a bit nicer to him. He's already gotten into a fight with some guy at school, and was arrested for assault. I had to remind him he needed to control his temper, no matter what. One mistake could blow us out of the water and get us 'deported'. He wouldn't tell me what the kid said to make him so angry, but I'm assuming it wasn't something very nice.
Ryo-san's invited me to dinner tonight. I better go get ready, and make sure Hisoka's resting up. He's tired from all the running about we've done, plus the time difference... I'm getting a little tired myself, but I'm too hungry right now to fall asleep. Tommorrow I've really got to go grocery shopping...

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take the bad with the good... [07 Jul 2003|09:41pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

Well I just finished packing my suitcase. Travel light, so you can bring home more souvenirs. Jeez, I got like a whole list of things to get from the office. Luckily people gave me some money for it all so I won't have to worry much about it. I think Hisoka's gonna have to do the food stuff though-- from the budget Tatsumi gave us, we're going to be living off ramen and water. I'll probably break down and eat whatever I was sent to buy. ;_;
Speaking of Hisoka, he looks really cute wearing shorts and rushing about packing his bags. <3 It's a shame that most American schools don't have uniforms. I think he'd look cute in one... but don't let him know I said that or he'll kill me.

I got all the fake paperwork I needed. I just hope no one sees through this operation. Tatsumi assured me it would be fine, but... I get the feeling something is amiss...... Maybe it's just the perfection of it all. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop and shit to blow up or something... Heh. I should stop worrying.

I really hope I can handle the gun issued to me. I'm not a good shot or anything. Hisoka's much better with stuff like that than I am. Hmm, wonder where the bullets got off to?

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looking down the long end of the tunnel. [07 Jul 2003|06:09pm]
We're being sent overseas.

To New York.

Konoe-san told us this morning that we're being sent out tommorrow morning. Evidentally the shinigami there are having problems with a strange killer. Who wears white, and has silver hair.

I hate him.
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when you wake up... [06 Jul 2003|09:49am]
This morning when I woke, Ruka was gone. She had come to see me at the cost of her own paradise nearly, and she didn't even say goodbye.

I suppose in retrospect it was probably for the better. I may have broken down and wept. Hisoka hates to see me sad so perhaps she understood that and made it quick and painless. Fast. Just like before when we were seperated.

Nothing to be done over it now. Very little a restricted Shinigami like myself can do anyway. Besides she wanted me to be happy so I'm going to try my best to be so. Starting with teaching Hisoka the waltz. After he wakes up of course. It's amazing, I actually woke up before he did.

I think I'll go make breakfast for him.
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What is a name? [10 Jun 2003|07:47pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Yesterday was pretty bad. I lost my temper. And sadly, a co-worker of sorts was on the wrong end of it. It's rare I get like that. Even with Muraki I've hardly ever gotten so mad I couldn't see straight. But when Takara began to post pictures up at work-- of me, of Hijiri....of Hisoka.....
I could just feel my blood boiling.
What was worse, was that Takara had been working for Muraki. It seems his clients range from harmless, but perverted lonely counts to raving, definitely not harmless lunatics. He thought it was funny. Funny that I was angry about him taking pictures of Hisoka...
I had to leave, when he came into the office, but he got in a few quick words at me that sent me over the edge before I could get away in time.
Hisoka says he deserved to have me practically rip his rib cage out like I nearly did. But still. It was... a rather disturbing thing for me when I finished. I felt so numb. So tired. I only did that one other time, and it was a long, long time ago. I went home to get cleaned up, and Hisoka tagged along. Konoe and Tatsumi were too taken aback (well Tatsumi really, Konoe was probably just uncertain if I'd turn on him too.) to stop me or punish me then. (though Tatsumi did leave a bill on my desk for cleaning and repairs.)
Hisoka came home with me, because he was worried. I can't blame him. Who wouldn't after seeing me like that? But...I was fine. Just... shaky. I'm anxious. I want to go to earth and stop Muraki... but yet I'm busy doing all this research with Hisoka.... I'm edgy.

Nervous.

The evening got better after I'd showered. One, because Hisoka and I showered together. I know he doesn't like to, because he's ashamed of his body (he changed back to his normal self just when we got home.). But I hope he knows that I don't care about that. I love him, not his body.

We talked a little after getting dressed again. It was nice. Just sitting there, listening to his hushed voice. He made my troubles, and anxiety all but slip away. It was rather cute, because I gave him kitten as a pet name. To which he was offended, but I told him he could call me whatever he wanted in return.

"Tsuzuki... I guess."

Then I knew. It was time. Time to let go of the past and go on with my future. So I told him.

"Asato. That's my name. Only you can call me that."


And call me it, he did. He cried it out into my shoulder, trying to muffle the pleasure he felt was too shameful to express in sound. He did that practically all night. I should feel embarrassed, but I can't really scrounge up the urge to do so. It just....felt right. There was nothing shameful in it, just beauty. Warmth.

I'm really glad he's my partner... Because now I have a friend, and a kindred soul to call to when I need it, and he I.

I wonder if we'll do it again tonight?

I can only hope.

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[07 Jun 2003|02:16am]
[ mood | tired ]

Muraki, Takara. Hand in hand. Not much else to say really. Too tired lately to do much else than let the ocean current pull me.
I get so tired of this.... So tired of fighting against a tide I can't win against.
To top it off Hisoka's pissed off about the pictures. I can't blame him. But like I said, I'm too tired to do anything about it. The part about Muraki taking my pictures is new, but I expected it of him.
Nothing much to do about it anyway, except go to earth and find the skuzzball and nail him. To a cross that is. Bastard.
It's really late. Or is that early?
I can't sleep, despite being tired.
I need to cut back on my caffiene I think.

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[03 Jun 2003|10:49pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Blah. Tatsumi called us today cause we didn't go in. I was too annoyed to deal with him. Don't know what's wrong with me lately. I shouldn't get upset when Hisoka is....well, HISOKA. I know he puts his foot in his mouth sometimes, hell we all do.

But yesterday was just a bit hard to understand him much. First he was mad, because I knew someone was video taping me, but couldn't DO anything about it because I didn't know how or when it happened all the time. I couldn't help but hide my tears from him. I just wanted to stop talking about the whole matter, because until now I'd pretty much convinced myself into forgetting about it.

But I never expected Hisoka to get up and LEAVE... I didn't see him the rest of the day either. He sent me a note via Wakaba, saying he was sorry but over not being able to get over his fears of sex, and that I couldn't get over what he couldn't get over.

That made me angry. And a bit sad. I do understand. Especially about that now. Why does he think this? I don't understand THAT. I was upset that he just walked away... So I wrote on the back of his note my response, taped it to his door, and went to bed with a horrendous headache.

He came home late that night, so both of us slept in. Me with a migraine, him from being up too late. Hence Tatsumi yelled at us. I don't care. I'll deal with it tommorrow. I don't care anymore. About much anyway. I just want to go to bed again. I've been drifiting in and out of sleep. It's getting near that time again.

Maybe that's why I'm so moody lately.... Probably.

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[03 Jun 2003|08:39am]
[ mood | horny ]

Am I really that obvious?
Everyone at work thinks I got laid again. But I didn't... ~~ Not really at least... Well....sorta....argh. I can't help it. Hisoka tastes sweet. XD And I'm a sucker for sweet stuff he knows that...
Hisoka's blushing a lot lately. It's kind of surprising because he hardly did before... Maybe his body is finally caught up with his mind. GAH. Tsuzukinohentai! *Shakes head furiously*
I better go finish up my paperwork. I don't wanna make Hisoka mad, seeing me all daydreamy. He might get embarrassed and not let me again. ;_;

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Watari's mistake.....or was it blessing? [01 Jun 2003|10:22am]
[ mood | giggly ]

Wow. I'm pretty.... weirded out right now.

Why? Well Watari was sick yesterday. So much in fact he could barely walk to the lab straight. He should have stayed home but he's used up all of his sick days. So he had to come in. So after lunch when it was time to go back to the lab for work, he needed help. Hijiri tried to help him, but he isn't too much of a crutch because he's so skinny. I told Hisoka to help them, since I was busy discussing some things with Konoe. So he did, without too much argument...

Hijiri and Hisoka walked into the lab with him, preferably to get him to a cot to rest, before he went home. However, they didn't walk out. They came flying back out. Evidentally Hijiri knocked over some test tubes, and caused a chain reaction for an explosion.

Which resulted in some interesting changes. Hisoka's body now looks 21, or 22. Hijiri's looks 19. It made them age to the way they are supposed to look. I can't say I'm unhappy, because I know how much looking 16 bothers Hisoka at times. This could be a really good thing for him.

Hisoka's chin is now at my eye level.

So yeah, it's a very good thing. *Chuckle* I don't know if the effects will last very long, but I hope that they do since Hisoka seems to be enjoying it. He keeps teasing me about being taller. Which I counter that he's uncute. Which is true. Hisoka's not cute anymore...

He's beautiful.

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a promise ring... [30 May 2003|02:19pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

I gave Hisoka a ring. Not an engagement ring or anything, as some people at work teased us today, but a promise ring. It's pretty simple, just a silver band, with "I love you, this I promise Hisoka" on the inside. Nothing too expensive.
He's not been sleeping well recently because of dreams about his death. It's all my fault too, for making him feel an experience similar to Muraki's touch. I couldn't do anything to help him either. He just would loose more and more sleep from them. So I thought maybe if he had something around his finger, that he could feel, it would be enough to drag him out of the dreams and back into our shallow reality.
Afterall, we are the ones who do this to ourselves. At least I know I do. Sometimes I just let the depression and sorrow swallow me up, because I'm too tired to do anything else. Maybe, just maybe, knowing how I feel will help him. I hope at least.
Watari's sick. Has been for a few days. Hijiri's taking half days, to take care of him, and to do both their work. It's sweet of him. I wonder if Hisoka would nurse me back to health if I ever became ill. <3 Hee hee, probably really grumpily he would. Hisoka doesn't have a good bedside manner.
Things are really quiet lately. Muraki's casefile is getting thicker though. Hisoka and I have been gathering information about him and found it coming out of our ears. Hisoka's really good at hacking, which is good because I completely suck at it. :\ I'm much more on the field type of work. But anyway, we're getting plenty of information and ties to him on the crimes. It's like he wants us to find it though. Soon, something has to snap and we'll be able to make a move.
I just hope it's not going to be yet another Kyoto all over again.

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dreamy [29 May 2003|08:04am]
[ mood | happy ]

Sometimes I wish Hisoka weren't an empath. I was stupid to think I could keep this away from him. But my depression sinks into the house like blood through veins whenever I get like that. Hisoka knew I was sad yesterday, and was determined to find out what was wrong so he could fix it. So of course it was inevitable what happened last night...
God, I didn't want him to know. Know how much I wanted him. I went to bed early, without dinner. He came in, and demanded I tell him what was wrong. I told him he didn't want to know, and I doubted he'd want to fix it. Wrong answer. He got really angry at me, and stomped off for a while. That made me feel worse, which in turn brought him back to my room because the emotions were choking him most likely.
He told me not to do this to him. To not shut him out. I had to tell him I realized. So I did. I told him I wanted him, and I was keeping a distance right now because I knew he wasn't ready for this, and didn't want to do it. He called me a liar. Which isn't true. I told him before I was fine with waiting, but I countered, then I didn't have people shoving my face in the fact that we weren't doing anything, AND I didn't have Watari and Hijiri making me feel pretty left out. I couldn't help that I wanted him, needed him like that.
That seemed to satisfy him enough, and he told me he wasn't scared of me... I don't know why I asked, but I asked him if he would trust me enough to try... And he did.
It was sweet, and slow. I tried hard not to go too fast, despite the fact I was hungry for him. He seemed to do fine, with kissing and petting. He even let me go as far as lie on top of him, and then....well. Do it orally. But when the time came for me, he froze up, and had a panic attack.
It was enough to reinforce my barriers to the point that I knew I had to stop feeling like this not just for him but for both of us. He really cannot do this. And it's all Muraki's fault. He felt really ashamed about it all, but he has nothing to be sorry about. He tried, that was enough for me. So I promised him we wouldn't do anything more unless he wanted to.
He was pretty grateful after that, and snuggled against me.
I teased him then, that we probably shouldn't go that far anyway, at least not till we were married. I know he smiled, I felt it against my chest. I need to work on that, getting him to laugh and smile freely. At least around me. Frowns just don't suit him, even though that's all he wears.

By the way, I'm at work now. And guess what I found out? Tatsumi is playing broker for all those people at work who are betting money on Hisoka and I having sex. Wait till I find him......... *veinpop*

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feeling the cold.... [28 May 2003|08:35pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Damnit. I wish I didn't feel like this. Didn't feel do goddamn lonely. Hisoka loves me. I should be happy it's even that. But no, I have to WANT him. Long for him. Love him like that...
It's so frustrating, that I can't help but cry.
And I was stupid and took that damn quiz someone dropped in my mailbox.

goodbye
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.


What kind of kiss are you?
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Wow. Says a lot about my fucking life doesn't it?

I'm going to bed now. If I go out of my room, I might just break down. I'll be okay.... I just....have to pull myself together tonight. I'll be ok tommorrow.... I will.......

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feeling the cold.... [28 May 2003|08:23pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Damnit. I wish I didn't feel like this. Didn't feel do goddamn lonely. Hisoka loves me. I should be happy it's even that. But no, I have to WANT him. Long for him. Love him like that...
It's so frustrating, that I can't help but cry.
And I was stupid and took that damn quiz someone dropped in my mailbox.

goodbye
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.


What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Wow. Says a lot about my fucking life doesn't it?

I'm going to bed now. If I go out of my room, I might just break down. I'll be okay.... I just....have to pull myself together tonight. I'll be ok tommorrow.... I will.......

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Why is it everyone can't mind their own buisness?? [28 May 2003|08:41am]
[ mood | lonely ]

My back is still hurting. No surprise there. It's not as bad as before though, thankfully. It's finally getting better!

Yesterday was pretty normal and slowpaced. We caught up on work, and no one had any problems. Well. Okay. The minor problem of people being nosy about me and Hisoka kinda got on my nerves but other than that it was fine.
Seems everyone in the office is placing bets on when we'll sleep together. Terazuma is delighting in pissing me off, using Hisoka as a way to make me blush. And what's worse, Wakaba thought my back being sore was because Hisoka had-- argh. You know what to me. She gave me KY as a gift too. Lucky for her she got the hint to leave, and Hisoka added yet another dead pencil to the stack in his drawer.
I got a little mad and had an outburst, yelling at everyone to just stop it cause the teasing was just rubbing my nose in the fact that we WEREN'T doing anything. No one bothered me about it for the rest of the day after that. I couldn't help but feel a little left out though, cause Watari and Hijiri are... well, rather lovey dovey nowadays. I know if I tried kissing or touching Hisoka two things would happen: 1. People would tease us and Hisoka would get mad, and 2. Hisoka would get mad and either shove me away or slug me.
So I just don't do it. It's hard enough to get him to cuddle at home. He's not very public about his affections, and though I understand, it feels sort of....cold. I probably shouldn't be feeling like this... I'm going to try and ignore it, and hope that the feeling passes. I don't want to make Hisoka feel bad about this, I know he loves me. But to him, he never had sex that was tender or loving, so he doesn't really understand what I mean when I say I want him.
I just have to bear with the chastity, and show him little by little. I think he can learn. But he's not ready for it yet. I guess until then it'll be cold showers for me each morning. *sigh*

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itai..... [27 May 2003|08:32am]
[ mood | sore ]

Owwww.....
my back hurts. *Cry* A lot. Watari did his best to throw it back into place, but Hisoka landing on me like that last night really messed it up. It should be healed in a few more days, but Konoe said I HAD to go to work tommorrow. Oh this is gonna be painful. I just wish my head was all that hurt. At least I could move around then...
At least 003 is gone. Or rather, back to being a nice little bird. Tatsumi took him to the upper heads of the divisons and there was a bit of a trial. It was decided that 003 was to remain as he was. After all, only his purest and kindest intentions are allowed to filter through in this form. And that is to be by Watari's side and to stay in his company.
I think that's all 003 ever wanted. Was to be with Watari. It's just too bad that he had to change into such a bitter, nasty person. But I guess that's due to his blood afterall. *shudder* We found out that he is an uncle of Muraki's. God that was creepy.
But it's over now. And we can get on with our lives I guess.
I swear though....

If anyone.... ANYONE.....teases me tommorrow that I threw my back out by doing stuff with Hisoka, I'll kick their ass. Cause I hardly did anything. Hisoka couldn't handle anything now anyway. T_T Moooou. itai... my back.... ; ; I really am a jii-san.........

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wasting our time away... [21 May 2003|08:06pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

Hisoka and I had a major argument yesterday before work. Remember how I said he told me when he thought I was asleep that he loved me? Well, I didn't want him to know I heard, so I avoided him the whole day. Why? When he confronted me about it, I told him that I didn't think he knew I was awake, and didn't think he was ready to tell me yet. And I knew if I hung around him too much he'd know I'd heard and then he'd be embarrassed.
He snapped at me, wondering why he would know, if my walls are so impenetrable at the moment. I responded that all I wanted to do was kiss him, and kiss him hard. Because I was happy. I thought that would have been the end of it, and he would have understood it as I was just trying to let him decide on his own...
"Kisses can be another way to lie." Was his response.
That had hurt. A lot. I was really angry the moment the words left his lips. But instead of shouting back at him, I just left, going to work. I didn't want to hurt him, even if he'd just hurt me. I decided it would be better to let him think it over, and if he didn't get a clue, no one could help him, not even me.
Needless to say, I was pretty much useless conversationwise the entire day. Hijiri tried to cheer me up, but I wasn't feeling too socialable. All hell broke loose later on in the day, when the Gushoshin twins took inventory of the lab and managed to make something explode.
A ton of smoke and one frantic Watari later, it turned out the explosion caused both Gushoshin twins to turn human, and 003 to turn back to his original form.
003 was a human a long time ago by the way. I didn't really like him much. He was assigned to be Watari's partner, and from the get-go it was a disastor. He would make Watari do all the work, while he loafed about getting the glory. At the time Tatsumi was my partner, not the secretary. If it'd been up to Tatsumi, he'd have been fired long ago.
But back to the bird, he treated Watari like shit. Worst part was, everyone but Watari knew it. Anyone who Watari showed interest in romantically, 003 would seduce away. Anyone interested in Watari, would get turned away fiercely. He was the one that told me Watari felt something for me to. The cruel bastard thought I'd think less of Watari or something. All it did was make me not like him much. He is pretty much right below Terazuma.
The stupid pervert even tried to seduce me before that too. Tatsumi gave him a good kick to the head for his trouble.
Wow, that was a lot to rant about......... And that's just the past!
But today, he's back to his old self again. Everyone here wishes he were a damn bird again. Cept maybe Watari. Even Hijiri doesn't like him. Why? Well 003 caught on that Watari likes Hijiri. Back to his old tricks again. Of course. He cornered Hijiri alone in the copy room, while Watari was helping cleanup in the lab. 003 had him against a wall, looking ready to kiss him, molest him. It really made me mad when I came in and saw it. It must have brought back memories for Hijiri he didn't want to think about from Muraki.
I was angry. I needed a target anyway.

The copy room's window needs to be replaced now. I socked him so hard he flew right out of it. He seemed unruffled when he got back up, but I swear I really will pluck his feathers if he ever does such a thing again. I don't know if Hijiri told Watari or not...I didn't, because I thought maybe Hijiri would like to do it. Someone's got to burst that bubble Watari's got around him... It's probably the only way we'll get 003 the cute, kind owl back, and get rid of 003, the nasty, mean molesting pervert.

After I finished teaching 003 a lesson, I went to the library. I'd been researching up on the clone of me, and Muraki the whole day. Hisoka found me there, and apologized. I found I couldn't be mad at him. And he said my walls are broken down again. Like I thought, they came up because I thought he wanted them up. Now they are down because he wants them down.

So now we're officially a couple.

It's nice.

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