And We Share All Our Secrets She Knows Everything That Is On My Mind Lately Something's Changed As I Lay awake In My Bed A Voice Here Inside My Head Soflty Says Why Don't You Kiss Her Why Don't You Tell Her

SEPTEMBER 13, 2003 @ 01:40PM mood  ::  hm. music  ::  Hanson - End Of The Line We almost lost her. 3 :: comments

AUGUST 30, 2003 @ 01:58AM mood  ::  hm. music  ::  Hanson - Dirrty Angel. Angel. Angel. We went to go visit Adrianna today. We held her hand. I was almost in tears when I felt her hand for the first time. I could tell Angel was nervous too. I'm scared ;x. Mr. Carter, please don't cut off my balls. Thank you very much. New layout and icons coming soon ;x 5 :: comments

AUGUST 16, 2003 @ 01:08PM mood  ::  uh. music  ::  Hanson - Love Somebody To Know The uh, baby was born. Yeah...she's...well, not doing to well. Adrianna Daniella Trousdale. Born: August 9th, 2003. Yeah...Angel and I are very upset ;x. I'll edit later, with more feelings. 10 :: comments

AUGUST 7, 2003 @ 03:46PM mood  ::  um. music  ::  Nelly Featuring P. Diddy - Shake Ya Tail Feather I love my baby's momma. 2 :: comments

JULY 29, 2003 @ 07:50PM mood  ::  mad. music  ::  Kelly Clarkson - Thankful Angel got pregnant...by me. I just feel so bad. I don't want to loose Angel. I hope she'll forgive me. *looks down* I really do. [[ OOC: I might not be around much this week. ;x. I might be on my OOC screen name a little. If you want, you can IM me on that until I get on chris like what. OOC Screen Name: ITZdreamAC . <33 . Casey . ]] 2 :: comments

JULY 25, 2003 @ 02:17AM mood  ::  love. music  ::  Hilary Duff - So Yesterday Hm. Angel and I are together . <33 . Hm. I don't remember last night. ;x. Hm. Angel's just amazing. ;D. comments

JULY 19, 2003 @ 12:59PM mood  ::  ok music  ::  TLC - Damaged *strolls into his room with a slight smiles on his face, he stands infront of his mirror dancing a little, taking off his hate, he has yet to spike his hair, he picks up the gel and other hair products he uses, then desides he doesn't feel like spiking his hair today, he walks over to his computer, logs onto his journal, begins to type* Last night was a lot of fun. I was with Angel. Sometimes I really miss her touch, her everything. I'm trying really hard to make her feel better. I don't know if there is a lot I can do. We talked a lot, and I bought her some ice cream. I hope she will get through this. No one really talks to me. *laughs* Just IM me on chris like what *checks over his update, nods with satisfaction, clicks update, runs outside to get a tan* 10 :: comments

JULY 15, 2003 @ 05:13PM mood  ::  amused music  ::  Frankie J - Don't Wanna Try *He walks into his room, he takes off his hat, looks into the mirror, sees his perfect spikes are now not so perfect, a slight frown appears on his face, he shrugs it off, goes over to his computer, logs on to his journal, thinks for a few moments and begins to type* Yup, I'm Christopher Ryan Trousdale. Formerly knows as "the spikey haired kid from the boy band of 12 year olds, Dream Street." First off, I am 18 years old. Shocker huh? *laughs slightly, shakes his head* I'm more than that I think. After five years, the dream is gone. "We had the future in our hands, now there's no way to carry on, the dream is gone." *shrugs* It's a big mess. I really don't want to get into it. All of the guys and I have parted and gone our separate ways. It didn't go the way I wanted. We parted because of a law suit. I stayed with our producers. I have a awesome solo career now. I think I am better off solo anyway. Last year I did a remake of the song "I'm Gonna Make You Love Me," with Swedish girl group Play. I had a lot of fun. The girls and I are really close now. Recently, I did a remake of the Grease hit song "You're The One That I Want," with Nikki Cleary. I had a great time doing that too. What's with me making remakes? I'm going on tour with Aaron Carter soon. I won't be on all the dates though. IM me sometime on AIM chris like what . *reads over his entry a few times, clicks update, gets off his computer, lays down on his bed, thinking of the Dream Street days...* [[ Ah, sorry guys about the previous entries. I have a lot of them and a lot of comments because I was in a community a really long time and just recently left it :x ]] 8 :: comments

JULY 5, 2003 @ 05:43PM mood  ::  fuuuck music  ::  Hanson - This Time Around veofjkeifh go fuck yourself. comments

JULY 2, 2003 @ 08:38PM mood  ::  ok. music  ::  Play - Honey To The Bee Things are doing much better. Kaley understands. It means a lot to me. A few days ago Anais and I told my mom. She seems fine with it. Though is a little depressed. Being that she'll have more than 2 grandchildren. *shrugs* I saw Angel today. I haven't seen her for a while. I'm glad I got a chance to talk to her. *smiles* I miss Kaila Amariah. *laughs* I changed my layout, and I just miss her. New layout and icons. EDiT//: 'Cause I'm bored and I have nothing better to do. LAST TIME I am going to bitch about the pregnancy. I don't get why I am upset. I should be happy, keeping Anais' spirits up. She was always so...happy. Now, she seems depressed. It's just all my fault. Don't try and tell me it's not, it is. This all could have easily been prevented. I went to the park with Angel. She well...told me something. I kinda like her too. I just...girls. I should just stay away from them. I just cause harm. 2 :: comments

JUNE 30, 2003 @ 12:47AM mood  ::  uh. music  ::  Hanson - Last Train I guess I need an explination for my mood. Anais is back, with some shitty new. *shrugs* I guess it's not shitty. Alright, Anais and I fucked. :/ I was feeling shitty after my birthday. She recomended to go get drunk. Well...when you get drunk, you do things you never should. Like, not use a condom. So yeah, the out come of this situation, Anais is carrying my child. Did I ever think of being a Dad at 18? Hell No. Did I joke about it? Yes. I guess I got what I was saying. I'm being a man. Well, trying. I'll be the one making 2 in the morning trips to where ever Anais wants something from. I'll be the one at the bedside when she gives birth. I'll be the one who she yells 'Fuck you for getting me pregnant bastard.' I'll be her everything in this situation. Damn. I'm...just...uh. Maybe she's just punking me again. I don't think it is though... EDiT//: I just hope I can be a better father than my real dad. I hope I can be like my dad. I really do... EDiT 2//: All I want is some support from my friends. I haven't really gotten a chance to talk to you all about...this. Except Katie and Kaley. Katie, wow. She just knew what to say to make it seem like it just wasn't a mistake. She made me feel less shitty with the things she told me. I...am just thankful I have her as a friend. Truthfully, I am scared. Scared at of my fucking mind. Wondering what could happen to Anais if something does not go as planned. I need to talk to her. Kaley...*shakes head* I...just thought you would support me. But instead you make me feel like I killed somebody. Making me feel like a bad person. People make mistakes. Some mistakes are bigger than others. You can't trust me? I'm not the type of guy who would purposly get you drunk so I could mess with you. That was not the case that night. I don't even remember half the night. 6 :: comments

JUNE 28, 2003 @ 05:32PM mood  ::  uh. music  ::  Hanson- Underneath I thought I had everything figured out, all my feelings. I guess I don't... 4 :: comments

JUNE 26, 2003 @ 08:13PM mood  ::  uh. music  ::  Hanson - Penny And Me Uh, Girls. I never understand them. So, I wrote this. ( Read more... ) I hope you understand all this :/ Forgive me. 12 :: comments

JUNE 23, 2003 @ 09:07PM mood  ::  amused music  ::  Hanson - Misery Lindsay is being a bitch loser. She won’t tell me who she “wants to be bad with.” It’s annoying. It’s not me. Why the fuck would she want to get bad with me? Not that I won’t mind of course. Every time I am single, I just feel kinda weird around girls. I feel like some are coming on to me and stuff. I don’t want to hurt them. Yes, I have girl issues. I still do not know what the fuck I want. If I want a relationship, or get bad like Lindsay wants. Relationships are good. They make me feel like I am worth something. That there is one good person out there for me. Getting bad is good too. You can fuck around with girls and not feel like an ass. There are just some girls who can’t get bad. They need a relationship to keep them coming back. I think I should just try flings. I’ve had a lot of relationships. Not a fling yet. [[ new layout, I’m trying not to be a whore about it but please don’t steal my picture. it’s hot, I know. The film on my camera got messed up and the pictures became double-exposied. I love them. Now I sound like a fucking whore. Sorry. I love you. lmfao . <33 . Casey . ]] 6 :: comments

JUNE 22, 2003 @ 12:25PM mood  ::  lost. music  ::  O-Town - Craving How come I always think too much? EDiT//: I broke up with Katie. *shrugs* I just don't know what, or who I want. I always feel like a jerk. I don't know. I just can't take drama. I've had enough. I'm fine though. It's nice to talk to Lindsay again. 7 :: comments

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