sorry for not updateing..   
01:30am 24/02/2005
  http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=wins_in_silence  
     

(Dream)

 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!   
03:47pm 27/01/2005
 

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!





wow its really odd how i can remember last year and my brithday how fast this year has went..omfg wow this is strange and i didnt even think about it when i put it in.. im listen to yellowcard and kate gave me this cd for my bday lastyear..aww the only person outta my friends who got me something..aww thanks girl i <3 this cd! all tho theres been many cds that have came out and that ive bought the yellowcard cd still remain my favorite, thanks!





http://profiles.myspace.com/users/12034199 <~thought you might just like that url..hehe
 
     

(Dream)

 
   
06:31pm 22/01/2005
  there were days when these words ment something
but now there just lyrics in a song meaning nothing
-me-
 
     

(Dream)

 
<<**BEST IDEA EVER...POST 30 OF YOUR FAVORITE LYRICS**>>   
09:07pm 18/01/2005
  1. Everybody love you girl, not just me, Wanna to see you happy even if it's not with me
2. Uh, damn right I like the life I live, 'Cause I went from negative to positive
3. im too scared to etch the names, For fear that im the one whos changed
4. Tap on my window knock on my door, I want to make you feel beautiful
5. It started out with a kiss, How did it end up like this?, It was only a kiss
6. I'm in envy of addicts, you're obsessed with stars
7. I took their smiles and I made them mine
8. this is to a girl who got into my head, with all the fucked up things I did, did you know i miss you?
9. ill be your best keep secret and your biggest mistake
10. It bleeds horizontal straight from your wrist, (So scream louder now)
11. you could call me a safe bet that im betting im not
12. drop everything, start it all over, remember more then youd like to forget
13. its times like these when silence means everything, and no one is to know about this
14. As you gasp for air tonight, I'd scream this song right in your face, If you were here, I swear I won't miss a beat
15. Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt, And there's one thing I can do nothing about
16. This wasted so many nights and again, I've wasted so much time on a friend, Too young, too proud to understand, So this is the end
17. why does tonight, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts
18. Go on just say it, You need me like a bad habit, One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone
19. cross out these days, on your calendar, it hurts me so much, and im not quite sure, i care anymore
20. keeping quiet is hard, cuz you cant keep a secret if it never was a secret to start
21. Succeeds getting nowhere, And submits to the substance, That first got him there
22. You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you, And you had it all anyway
23. I wanna hate you so bad, But I can't
24. You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker), for a sweet talker, yeah
25. I hold my tongue use it to assess, The damage from way back when it mattered, But nothing seems important anymore, We’re just protecting ourselves from our self
26. Why can't I feel anything, from anyone other than you?
27. Best friends means you get what you deserve
28. Maybe I should hate you for this, Never really did ever quite get that far
29. and thank god you weren't there, to watch me hit bottom
30. I'll do what I got to, the truth, is you could slit my throat, And with my one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

can anyone guess the lyrics above?

--post in comments if you can name the band or song--

*note*:
theres one band that's lyrics are in here ALOT just cuz they fucking rock!! :)
 
     

(Dream)

 
hot ass song..<3    
01:40am 14/01/2005
  MA$E LYRICS

"What You Want"
(feat. Total)

[Total]
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you want
Just tell me what you want
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you want

[Chours]
Tell me what you want for me
Take a look at what you see
Let me know if this right here
Is something you can have for years
Tell me what you want for me
Take a look at what you see
Let me know if this right here
Is something you can have for years

[Mase]
Now Mase be the man wanna see you doing good
I don't wanna get rich, leave you in the hood
Girl, in my eyes you the baddest
The reason why I love you, you don't like me cuz my status
I don't wanna see you with a carriage living average
I wanna do my thing so we be established
And I don't want you rock in them fabrics
Girl, I will give you karats 'till you feel you a rabbit
Anything in your path, you want you can have
Walk through the mall, if you like it you can grab
Total it all up and put it on my tab
And then tell your friends all the fun you had

[Chours]

[Mase]
Hey Mama, won't you come here to Papa?
You don't like the way your tata's lookin at Shada?
In a 600 ain't no smokin' cigada
Come over here, I think I see your baby faddah
Here ya go the number to my casa
If you in a rush you call me manana
Whatever you need girlfriend, I got the whole enchilada
Just the way you like it, Mase gon' do you propa'
Girl, I can tell you was meant for me
I can tell by the way you was sent to me
While I'm on tour trying to make them centuries
And they ask who your man, you better mention me
If you don't you know you got a problem
Said you want no beef girlfriend don't start none
And it just so happens that I'm seeing cash
Cuz you messed up a lot just trying to be fast
And I ain't gonna ask who smashed the E-Class
Pull up to the crib with the whole front crashed
Now you wanna laugh, good thing that's the past
If you ever lie again, girl, that will be your last

[Chours]

[Mase]
Now the more you treat me royal I adore you
That's why I don't mind doing these things for you

You did things for me I wouldn't believe you did
That's why I always want to keep you here
In a year or two, girl, I could see you with my kids
Girl, you make a thug want to get a legal gig
It's only right we spend our lonely nights
Gettin' crazy biz till we awake the kids
Don't get too loud, got respect for you honey
To keep it all real, you come second to my money
And can you be my ghetto love prophecy?
Everybody love you girl, not just me
And I know that you really care a lot for me
Wanna to see you happy even if it's not with me

[Chours-until fades out]
 
     

(Dream)

 
lyrics 101..   
11:13pm 13/01/2005
  Taproot
Poem


overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
in an hour i'll be ok
i pray this pain will go away permanently someday
I'VE seen more than...
I should have to...
I'VE seen this on my own

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain,
i hope you'll be ok someday,
so i can say that you moved on in the right way...

WE'VE seen this and
WE'VE breathed this and
WE'VE lived this on our own...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...
your own...

BREAK...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


GlassJaw
Ape Dos Mil


Ya its over
You can bet in mid-october,
I will still be ranting 'bout early may.

Yeah he's a winner,
He's a goddamn sinner.
While he dines I'm on the wrong side of the day.
And I said, "I don't understand why I'm fumbling after"
You're the reason I cannot forget this season

Or the letter when she first referred to eight.

It's all calypso.
But it's not easy to know.
You walk around with your shoulders down frowning,
But it's not easy to know.

It's over.
You can bet when mid-october end's I'll still be ranting 'bout most early may.

Yeah, he's a winner.
He's a goddamn sinner.
While he dines I'm on the wrong side of the day.
And I said, "I don't understand why I'm fumbling after"
Yeah, you're the reason I cannot forget this season,
Or the lesson how an ape shall not kill ape.


And I said,
It's all calypso.
But it's not easy to know.
You walk around with your shoulders down frowning,
But it's not easy to know.
It's just a tango.
But it's not easy, you know.
I walk around with my horns out now,
But it's not easy to know.

I'm..
I'm going under.


You can't trust a man who's a governor
Ape can't trust man.
You can't trust a man with a gun at all.
Ape can't trust man.

How can you heal?
If you don't ease back the blame.
Knowing you're right, won't you heal?





~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




BOX CAR RACER
I Feel So



Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I


'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world

For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I LOVE EVER FUCKING WORD OF THIS SONG!!


The Used
Poetic Tragedy



the cup is not half empty as pessimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere

and submits to the substance
that first got him there

than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
I feel....
then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 
     

(Dream)

 
...   
08:47pm 11/01/2005
   
     

(Dream)

 
more more and oh more.. i love these damn things!   
06:19pm 08/01/2005
 






 
     

(Dream)

 
   
08:18pm 07/01/2005
  the cup is not half empty as pescimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up

a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
is just a tragedy

so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there

than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy

he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
I feel....

then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
 
     

(Dream)

 
   
09:12pm 02/01/2005
 
music: -----
why is that i can just seat here and cry and know your the one thing i miss but yet i dont want -- if i hurt you im sorry .. trust me this isnt easy to do!! grr this just doesnt get me any were.. looking at your picture and feeling nothing -- being with you and feeling nothing -- dreaming about you and feeling everything, than wakeing up and wishing you were beside me-- maybe im depressed over nothing maybe its cuz my heart is broken -- i know your happy but why didnt i get my last kiss... *crys* DID YOU KNOW I MISS YOU!! -- i never stoped loving you i just stoped showing it..at least your happy -- even tho sometimei just wanna say goodbye i dont and i keep on going what the fuck for? -- can anyone answer that one for me...ya ~GOODBYE~
 
     

(Dream)

 
   
04:19pm 02/01/2005
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(Dream)

 
   
03:53pm 02/01/2005
  FEAR BEFORE THE MARCH OF FLAMES LYRICS

"On The Brightside, She Could Choke"

as he's dying in his dreams
i hope you're choking in your sleep
try and breath
justice push this pillow
try and breath
try and breath

my sweet
i wish you the best and you'll sleep
dragging it back into my dreams
(you did this all to yourself)

you left him sweating summer nights facedown
foreplay with the streets
the salt to garnish his wounds
and you just danced your way home
paint your walls with his insides and hang his life above your bed
paint your walls with his insides
try and sleep now

as he's dying in his dreams
i hope you're choking in your sleep
try and breath
justice push this pillow
try and breath
try and breath

my sweet
i wish you the best and
you'll sleep
dragging it back into my dreams
(Lay your head down try and rest)

i bet you love this...
now peel his skin dear, peel back his skin...
and he'll just smile....
but he's only smiling to deny the pain
i bet you love this....
i bet you

one last breath
i'll watch you, i'll watch you breathe your last

one last breath
i won't even close my eyes
 
     

(1 Dreamer | Dream)

 
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01:00pm 02/01/2005
 




 
     

(2 Dreamers | Dream)

 
   
09:11pm 01/01/2005
  Im numb to you - numb and deaf and blind
You give me all but the reason why
I reach but I feel only air at night
Not you, not love, just nothing
 
     

(Dream)

 
   
09:04pm 01/01/2005
  NEW FOUND GLORY LYRICS

"So Many Ways"

There must be so many ways to say goodbye
I'm breaking up again
But just when I thought I could hear her voice
It echoes in my head
I'm sorry if I say the wrong things
I'm sorry if you feel that I don't want you anymore
But how can I believe any words that she says to me
When everything comes out wrong
She's built and torn down anyone that gets close to her heart
To her heart
There must be so many ways to say goodbye
But I can't seem to think of one this time
So many ways to say goodbye
Even if she isn't mine
I'm still losing my mind
She's calling me again
But I was so convinced I'd never hear her voice
She says hello
How can you ever breathe without me
Cause I can see this happening all over again
I think I want it to
How can I believe any words that she says to me
When everything comes out wrong
She's built and torn down anyone that gets close to her heart
There must be so many ways to say goodbye
But I can't seem to think of one this time
There must be so many ways to say goodbye
Even if she isn't mine
I'm still losing my mind
She's built and torn down anyone
She's built and torn down anyone that comes close to her heart
To her heart
There must be so many ways to say goodbye
But I can't seem to think of one this time
So many ways to say goodbye
Even if she isn't mine
I'm still losing my mind
 
     

(Dream)

 
I LOVE THIS FUCKING SONG!!   
08:47pm 01/01/2005
  SOMETHING CORPORATE LYRICS

"Konstantine 2001 (Welcome To The Family Version)"

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But damn you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
please don't think that this is easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, what I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no No,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
I know you miss me in your living room
Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

...My Konstantine
 
     

(Dream)

 
   
12:33pm 29/12/2004
  Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you
 
     

(1 Dreamer | Dream)

 
wow   
12:19pm 29/12/2004
  wanna hear something funny? i only like that eminem 'toy solider' song when im high other wise i hate it.. ya the video came on so i thought id post that.. lol  
     

(Dream)

 
   
12:01pm 27/12/2004
 






(i really like this pic..well i love all of them..lol but ya)

 
     

(Dream)

 
   
11:13am 26/12/2004
  omfg my mom really isnt talking about kelly and how she has issues..omfg shes crazy wtf is up with my mom she talking to me right now im like 2 feet away from her and she asking me what my problem is wtf .. gr lol im typing this as she talking to me.


amy lees hot!!!!



shes carzy lol

-listens to evanescence cover of thoughtless-


ooo the gay issues is abotu to come up..yay!!!!






i might forgive people easly but my mom just keeps going on and doing what shes says really plicks my last never and like she pushes the worng buttons..

fuck the sorry!
 
     

(Dream)