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Monday, December 15th, 2003
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8:13 pm
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1. My name:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:
6. Do I smoke?:
7. What?s my favourite colour?:
8. When you first saw me what was your first impression?
9. My age?:
10. My birthday?:
11. Color Hair?:
12. Color eyes?:
13. Have you ever had a crush on me?
14. Have you ever been jealous of me?
15. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?:
16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?
17. What?s my fav type of music?:
18.What?s one of my fav things to do outdoors?:
19. Am I shy or outgoing?
20.Would you say I?m funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?:
21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:
22. Would you consider me a friend?:
23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?:
24. Have you ever seen me cry?:
25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
26. Are my parents still together?:
27. Do I have a nice butt? (same thing applies as in question..13)
28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?
29. Do you love me? (same thing applies as in questions 13 &27)
AM I???. ?!?!?!?
31. Quiet or loud?
31. Short or Tall:
32.Weird or original:
33. Smart or stupid?
34. Boring or Fun?
35. Attractive or Unattractive?
DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)
36.A psycho?
38.Athlethic?
39. A nerd?
40. A slut?
41. Ghetto?
42. A bitch?
43. Two-faced?
44. Obnoxious?
45. Immature?
46. Mature?
JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
47. What do you think I?ll be when I grow up?
48. A) Do you think I?ll get married?
B) If you do?Who do you think I?ll marry?
49. When is my birthday?
50. Who is my best friend?
51. What song(if any)reminds you of me?
52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
53. If you could rename me, what would my name be?
54. Have you ever had a dream about me?
55. A feature that you like about me:
56. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
current mood:  mischievous
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3 Shine SO bright. ~~~> Count the Stars
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| Sunday, December 14th, 2003
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8:27 pm
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* 10 random favorites
1. Music(mostly punk rock and crap)
2. my SIZZLE*
3. PURSES....i LOVE PURSES!!!!
4. Mac Donalds
5. Marilyn Monroe
6. my bed
7. my friends (all or "get-togethers")
8. going to concerts/shows
9. watching jamie dance
10. being what CHADELLES
9 things you're looking forward to
1. Winter Break in JERSEY!
2. seeing my family
3. hanging out with chad
4. getting a car
5. getting a JOBBBBBB!
6. going to college
7. my next cigg.
8. my next meal
9. the next concert/show
8 things you wear daily
1. my VANS shoes
2. my nipple rings
3. earings
4. make-up
5. a star necklace
6. underwear....?
7. clothes!
8. my *sizzle* rings
7 things that annoy you
1. people who LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. my mom
3. kt
4. not having a car
5. not having a JOB
6. my cat
7. that im NOT good enough or pretty enough.....
6 things you touch every day
1. my self...LOL J/K
2. my hurr
3. cellphone
4. wallet
5. my nipples
6. my bed..
5 movies you could watch over and over
1. nightmare before christmas
2. bubble boy
3. dazed and confused
4. office space
5. jumanji
4 of your favorite toys when you were a child
1. dolls
2. my red convertible barbie car
3. fisher price cook set
4. my teddy bear..i STILL have
3 people you have kissed recently
1. CHAD!!!!!!
2. no one eles worht my time....
3. "
2 of your favorite songs at the moment
1. coldplay - clocks
2. Thursday - signals over the air
1 person you could spend the rest of your life with*
1. Chadelles....but since i dont have that luck... MY SIZZLE!*
alright...OFFICALLY off grounding!!!!!
love you all. it was nice to see the spics back out partying. you know how they got too good for us drunks..lol. love you guys.
Love always,
Sarah*
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2 Shine SO bright. ~~~> Count the Stars
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| Monday, December 8th, 2003
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8:51 pm
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HE CALLED ME! HE CALLED ME! HE CALLED ME! HE CALLED ME! HE CALLED ME! HE CALLED MEeeeeeeeeeeee! WOHOO. Of all the people he could have called when he got back, he called ME! :) So happy.
(btw, i was talking about Chadelles.)
well lifes a doozie. I just got off groundeding, to be grounded AGAIN! YAY! how awesome. Well last weekend i was grounded b/c i didnt come home the weekend before. But whatever, no biggie just one weekend. So then today my mom was like we need to talk....
whats she wanted to talk about:
*my nips are pierced.
*i had megan in the car...
*bad "progress report"
*my hickey i had a WEEK ago
and some other shit. so im grounded again, nice knowing you all. LoL. god this is gay.
nothing eles is really going on.
bored and such.
ok im outtie!
bye
Sarah*
current mood:  lethargic
current music: ocean avenue - YellowCard
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1 Shine SO bright. ~~~> Count the Stars
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| Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
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6:57 pm
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i dont know why i thought i was special to him
or why i had a chance
all i was, was a trick to him
he was ashamed of me.
he deind whatever we did to everyone
told his friends i had no chance
and i should stop trying to "be with him"
but told me "he really liked me".
why must he lie to me?
what did i do to him?
the way he....
wishpered sweet nothings to me
played with my hair
touched my leg
held my hand
his lips touched mine
the way he CONVINCED me he liked me
and told me what what everyone said was a lie
but it turned out
he was the one who was lying
but i must admit he was good,
b/c he got me
he fooled me
he made me cry
and cry over and over
he made me think i was pretty
or had a chance with him
all he wanted to do was to use me
for his drunk amusment
and he ended up hurting me
then he put me back when he was sober
and waited for another drunk night
and the sad truth is
like they say....
he could slit my thorat
and with my last ounce of breath and energy
id apoligzie for bleeding on his shirt
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH RIGHT NOW!
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2 Shine SO bright. ~~~> Count the Stars
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| Monday, November 24th, 2003
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9:37 pm - why am i NOT good enough to be with him?
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WOW its been a while. I think since Halloween. Um since then hte only thing that sticks out is i got my NIPPLES pierced!!! OUCh OMFG it hurt.
Geez lifes been crazy, and emotional rollar coaster.
Its been fun tho. Ive been doing alot, pretty much the same shit but some more. I went to the panthers game last friday with JOEY, NICK, and Cali CHRIS. that was SO much fun. I havent had so much fun ever in my life. those are the coolest guys. We meet up with chadelles afterwards. we went to laudys house, drank and hung out till like 4:30 in the morning.
Saturday my life went down the shitter. guys are gay and very confusing. but from what i did realize, i DO like chad ALOT! and i think he likes me, b/c he told me, but who knows. i was doing fine until dana HAD to talk to him, and im not mad at her, but it was non of her buisness, and i wish she never said anything, b/c im worse now then i was even close to before. i cant stop crying, i just want to die. and i feel i have no one any more. ive drifted some much from everyone, and since dana and kt are butt buddies and shit i have no one now. i just wanna die. i dont know why i like him, i just do, and its SO confusing now, i dont know what to think or who to trust. i just want everything back to normal when chad and i were JUST friends, and megan was my best friend, and that was all i needed and had. shes the only person i ever felt i could trust completely besides jamie. i miss them so much. but its so hard to see your 2 best friends when both of their parents dont liek you, and its sucks. i miss you two SOOOO much. i wish i had you guys right now with me, to talk to and help me.
I cant stop crying.
I wish kt would stop calling me, and leave me alone, i wish i was a good student, i wish for once i could make my mom proud, and say "thats my daughter" and feel so proud of me. I wish i could be So bueatiful, and and stop crying, i wish megans parents didnt hate me, i wish i was nicere or loveable, or more like jamie. i wish she could relazie all the potential she has and realzie how prtetty she was. I wish i could realzie it, and love myself. I wish everyone got along. I wish chad did like me and this sad label of whatever kind of a "relationship" we have could be easier. I wish i was like all the other pretty girls in my class. Had their bodies and pretty faces, and wonderful smiles. I wish i wasnt me. I wish my parents are together, and i have a wonderful family, my younger sisters who i wish i could fight with all the time, and then fall alseep on the couch watching tv with. (we alwasy do it) I wish i had acar so i could drive my fat ass outta her, i wish my mom trusted me, i wish i had a job, i wish all these wishes could come true, and id be the happiest girl on the planet.
OK well i have to go dry my tears alone, and try to sleep and not think of what a loser i am. i havent felt this bad in a while, and it sucks. i feel as if nothing will get better. help me please
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5 Shine SO bright. ~~~> Count the Stars
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| Monday, November 3rd, 2003
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3:37 pm - Worlds SLOPPEST KISS. LMAO.
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WOW this weekend was GREAT!
It started Thursday CHAD picked Jamie and I up from school, and took us to Mac Donald's, we met up with Shwartzy, then took Jamie back to school (for band, what geek) Then we went to Dana's and met up with Kt, Dana, and ALEX! Then off to the mall, we saw Jeff and Tony. Then Chad shwartz and I left. I went to PAMS PARTY! It was SO much fun. So many people were there. WBV, All Absences, login (who ate over like 15 mini wieners), Daniel EARL! mike from LWS, and Sandy came too! YAY! WBV did great as always. Pam got us beer, so me and Chris got somewhat buzzed and my little cute sandy was buzzing too. :)
Went home passed out.
"were the banner bitches" -Annie and Sally RFF!
Friday was HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Got picked up by red-haired Jamie, Beatle, and KT, picked up Dana. Then we went to Alan's, why everyone was out getting shit for the PARTY Kt and I stayed at Alan's and cleaned his whole house! Mopped and everything! His house look GREAT! Then we decorated it. OMG we did so good decorating. It looked So hot. Then Dana and I went to Dana's got ready to go back to Alan's for the party.
Our costumes looked SOOOOO HOT!
My boobs looked friggin huge, more then usual! Chad loved it.
DANA looked So damn HOT! She was like a "dark angel"
Sam picked us up in his NINJA costume! LMAO how funny!
*mushi mushi e chu ba* {whats up baby}
Joey was Jeremy but he looked more like Juan.
Kt was an adorable fairy.
Ana and Stephanie were hot hula girls.
Login was LUMBERJACK login.
Nick was a cowboy.
Chris was HARRY POTTER!
Pam was a girl and Bam was a LADYBUG! LOL
Tracy was a HOT fairy.
Aj was Kosmo from the FAIRLY ODD-PARENTS. LMAO. they looked great together.
Meggy was some hot gothic girl.
That's all I really remember.
IM so mad I totally forgot to take pictures. DAMN IT DANA! lol. Yeah I spent most of the night out front handing out CUPS and CONDOMS! yes, I was the condom lady, thats how I got SO much beer, everyone's like give the condom lady beer! :) Meggy was calling me BOOBALICIOUS all night, telling people that was my name. LMAO. Oh Man.
And MY buddy JOSE gave me his beer bong turn. I was SO happy bout that. Love ya MAN!
Then some gay ass fight broke out, ruined my party. FUCKING DUMB ASS KIDS! Apparently I punched some kid who was pushing my friend. and then Alan almost got into a fight, I tryed so hard to stop that. I got his dad to get him and take him inside, then Chad and I left before the cops came, and I made sure swhartzy got Dana before he left, he did. We went back to Chad's Drank MORE. then passed out. Unfortunately i didn't get a chance to go uh...rock climbing, with Chad. :(
Saturday - Dana, Chad, and I woke up went to Wendy's got some food, then to Alan's to help clean. Then we went to Beatles Hotel Party. That's was fun at first, I was even supposed to stay, Chad and i were SUPPOSED to go back to his house and "play" wink wink. But he got to drunk and I was like ur not drinking tonight. So we stayed, and EVERYONE else left, except for Alan, Chris k, and Jamie w. It was really gay towards the end of the night. but i didn't care i just passed out and yeah slept with Chad, in the same bed! nothing else! lol. *blushes*
Sunday - we all went home. I came home and slept all day.
Today I was supposed to go to school, but I wasn't happening, so I slept even more. Talked to Chad. and yeah nothing else.
OK now, in my last journal I had wrote something along the lines of ME feeling used by one of my friends. And I guess Little miss Ive got to be center of attention in everyones life took it upon her self to ASSUME it was about her! Well, CHARITY! its not. So next time you decide to think something I say is about you, HOW bout YOU think first. mmk? and say to UR self, maybe this doesn't invole me! Just try it, it might work and help you get over ur self.
i believe that Sarah thinks i used her. pfft! for what? i mean honestly what have you ever done for me that i couldn't do for myself? and you feel really special or important or something cuz you think everything revolves around you. well guess what hun..it doesnt!
WOW if your not the BIGGEST hypocrite Ive ever met!?!?!? The honest truth? what could YOU have ever done for me that couldn't do for MY self. The answer? NOTHING. Ive NEVER in my life met someone So involved with their self as much as you. Who thinks their suck hot shit, and "ACT" all depressed. And how much SHIT you talk about EVERYONE.....
*a little warning to everyone who thinks charity Montgomery doesn't talk shit about them, its a LIE. She's a LIAR, and a shit talker. No matter who you are she's talked shit about you."
Its funny b/c when you speak you think people are laughing at what you say but their NOT. Their laughing AT you, Because everyone knows how fake you are. And the only reason why no one says anything is because the last thing anyone wants is your friggin DRAMA filled life involved in their non-drama lives. So do us all a favor and just stop, being so gay and childish. GROW UP. life is so much better when ur not trying to impress people 24/7, and being so immature. You'd have a lot more friends, instead of the "tribe". (4 people).
HAH.
OK well yeah I have to go get ready, I think Chad is going to come get me when he gets off work. YAY!
Love always,
The condom LADY,
Sarah.
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| Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
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8:20 pm - I gotta POOP.
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hey hey hey
HALLOWEENS sooooooooon!!!!! YAY! i FINALLY got my costume. Im gunna be like a sexy(?) bat woman or something like that. Danas gunna be a "dark" Angel, Ktsa gunna be a fairy, Chris is gunna be HARRY POTTER! and Sams gunna be a NINJA! LMAO. Kt got him like ninja stuff today.
I got the HOTTEST wings! :D
Today was a half day cuz of midterms, so kt dana and I left after or frist midterms. Went to Maccy Ds. then to Laudys house. Chilled there, layed in bed. Its was fun. Kt SUCKS at resident EVIL. LoL.
So yeha on HALLOWEEN big ass party to STUBBYS(alan) house!, 2 bucks to get in, 2 kegs, MUST dress up! EVERYONE go! its gunna be SO fun. :)
hah we dont have enough money for the kegs yet. damn it. lol. well get it no worries. lol. we always get the money for beer. lol.
wow its really gay whne you know someone for almost 4 years and like they like "use" you i guess. like they get what they want and then pretty much stop talking to you. so thats gay and im sorta disappointed in that person. but whatever, i guess i should be use to it. :(
haha, dana and i are on the phone with alan. hes so weird. lol. hes telling the most lamest story about halloween candy. ugh. what a nut.
CHRIS got his HARRY POTTER coat thing. its so cute. lol.
Haha i think its so gay how some people just dont grow up. not mentioning names, but like seriously, to like be calling people "gayness" and shit like that is so inmature. i dont understand some of these KIDS. and thye have the same old jokes like "the tribe" and like "homes" and shit. wowo that was so 9th grade, grow up, ay?.
PAMS party is gunna be so much fun, live bands and shit. yay.
Chad might be picking me up from school tomorrow. YAY! *rock-climbing* :)
ok well im gunna go now. love ya all. bye.
Sarah*
"barah wasnt bear material" lol Joey.
current mood:  creative
current music: headstrong - trapt
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| Thursday, October 9th, 2003
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8:19 pm - jamie (this buds for you...i mean update)
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hahah.
we had a parade in school today. Jamie through colored papers over the balcony. It was FUN. Im SO happy that jamie and i are hanging this weekend. Its gunna BE SOOO much FUN. im so excited.
Lets see.....lots of drama with the kids a school. dramas gay.
I party all of the time with the "fellas" {chris, joey, chad, shwartz}
"Hello, this is Sol, i need some help. My lumpy bumps are hurting me now. They sting. when i ouch them ----ouch---- they sting alot."LMAO. Kt man.
I went to the beach last saturday with joey, megan, dana, and JAMIE. i got so sunburned. Im peeling now. yummies. we went swimming in the pool.
I got 3 weezer cds. CHRIS IS THE BEST I LOVE HIM.
Sandy man when you gunna come hang out with us?
MEGAN feel better hunny, we need our jew back!
Jamie...im gunna kick your ass tomorrow at the flagpole. ;)
ANA you meix slut.
Pam ur gay and smell.
jess ur a SLUT!
got some pics for you. bye!
Sarah ROO!
isnt she SO cute!? i love you JAM!
me and my "rapest" stubs.
current mood:  content
current music: rufio-dont hate me
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| Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
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9:41 pm - the stars will cry....
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2:52 pm - thats cute
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| Tuesday, September 30th, 2003
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9:52 pm - NEW-NESS!
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Hey everyone!
I got a new JOURNAL!!! Well Dana and I. Its www.blurty.com/users/sizzlinspoonerz
hehe YAY! im still gunna have this journal cause its my baby even tho ive been neglecting it. Sorry Journal. So yeha lifes been good lately. Sarash been good lately. Just doing same old shit. Going to chris house, hanging out with the boys, being with my sizzle. My SOULMATE!
Ok well words are getting short.
*Sarah*
AKA barah
current mood:  lazy
current music: thrice - silhouette
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| Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
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7:00 am - FILL ME OUT
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1. I ....Sarah.
2. Sarah is .....
3. Sarah needs .....
4. I want to .... Sarah.
5. Sarah can .... my .....
6. Someday Sarah will .....
7. Sarah reminds me of .....
8. Without Sarah.....
9. Sarah can be .....
10. Meeting Sarah is .....
11. Worst thing about Sarah is .....
12. Best thing about Sarah is .....
13. I am .... Sarah.
14. I think Sarah should ....
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Ok hey.
God people suck. Everyones being So gay lately. But lately with one little execption (being megan) ive been happy, sorta, little things here and there bother me and get me upset but the big picture is great. I have the coolest friends ever. Dana, Chris and Joey are like my cloesest friends right now. I love them to death. I can TRUST them, their awesme people.
Please help me understand why everyone is trying to hurt dana? Im not pointing fingers but, according to my caculations this has nothing to do with Ana, Stephanie, Sam, or MEGAN. So why people are getting involed in something between PAM and DANA blows my mind. People you all know dana, shes NOT like the way pam is making her sound.
Me and Megan arent friends anymore, i mean since she feels its cool to tell everyone our buisness why not post it here. I mena all you guys are hearing is her story which makes me look like tha bicth. THANKS megan. Best Friend MY ASS! I honestly like think MEGAN is just jealous. Jealous of the fact that im not with her 24/7 anymore. WELL fucking news flash. Im NOT going to sit around and hold my breath till you invite me somewhere or till your parents say you can hang with me. YOUR parents are WACK! they even called allison and told her she was a bad influence? HOW? so didnt make SAM do anything wrong, and your the major ass pothead in that family, long beofre alison was moking so what fucking wrong with your parents? i think their "wackness" is rubbing off on you! All you had to do was just let me be the other day, BUT no you had to go off on one of your fucking "oh lets anaylize sarah" ordeals and fucking drive me insane. Its not cool how you try and anaylize me all the time. You cant even control your fucking brain and thoughts so how dare you try and tell me im fucked up or not having a bad day. You wouldnt have known since i didnt talk to you all day!!!! DUH! And you tell everyone like allison and Jenn and im sure fucking millions of others our buisness. Its not their buisness what happened! So stop telling people. Your obviously NOT a trustworthy person. You can even keep a fucking secret. I told you one secret that was so important you dont tell, and you tell the first person you saw that next day!?!?! WTF!?!? So this is it megan? take it or leave it. Im finally happy. If its so bad im happy then dont be my friend, but im sick of this bullshit. same fight every month. its has to stop. its not worth it anymore.
WHooooo thank god thats off my chest.
Tracy is like the COOLEST girl ever! shes SO sweet. AND PRETTY!
All i want is my MSI cd and my SUBLIME shirt back. IS that too much to ask for?
Cheer up my SIZZLE (DANA)! you are too cool to worry what these dumb ass kids think or talk about you. None of them are worth your time. You have who you need. im always here for you.
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I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is
current mood:  cranky
current music: beautiful
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| Saturday, September 13th, 2003
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1:52 pm - Sarah and Dana = SIZZLES 4-ever!!
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WOW its been a while. Sorry journal. ill try more often to update, ive been lacking alot.
UM my live has been chaning SO much lately. But its So good right now.
Forgive me if my typing is bad i think i might still be drunk....not sure. BUT its possible. LoL
Hmmm..whats going on lately? Nothing really. My best friends B-day just pasted. HAPPY B-DAY MEGAN. Also my buddy ALEX! Happy B-Day SEXY! Last night was fun. We must chill again!
Yesterday Chris and Rob picked up me and Dana at 6 30 in DA morning and we skipped school and went to chris, dennys, back to chris, slept, cleaned, and wacked off in my camper. LoL. it was fun, but chris was moody ALL day its really annoying. Then Joey came by after me and Dana made like a hundred signs to hang up around Chris room. LoL. Then Joey, Dana, and me went to pick JAMIE up at school! *GET A CAR!!!*Free hand jobs!* LoL the ride was SO much fun.
HAHAHA dana dressed like Avril. It was great. Me and Chris are going to get her to sing Complicated one dya but the whole band has to learn the song. Its gunna be great.
Then chad, shwartz, alex, (ugh) KT came over...and much more. Got some beer. Drank. It was nice. Then alex took me and kt to the mall, we were So drunk. ANd i saw everyone. I was like Miss Popluarity. It was fun. Kt started some drama, SUPRISE. NOT.
I cant stand KT anymore. She calls me like 20 time in ONE day. Half of those times shes crying. Its So annoying, and i dont want to sound like a bad person but dude it gets so old, especially when you know shes a liar and does this shit JUST for attention. BG&T(G&(@#&RB^&T@$%G##G^)%B^RGIUWYR*OY#$CN Fg4 bv87t683 G^ T B <~~~Random scribbles or ANGER and Annoyence!
So ana and dale are like "hooking up now" its cute, they make a cute couple. as long as anas happy, i just hope she doesnt like leave me for him. lol.
I wish jamie was happy, i just dont know what to do. she seems to need a friend, and i feel im not helping her as well i want too, but its hard she doesnt reslly talk to me or tell me whats wrong. i wish she would so i could TRY and help her. So the greatest person i know. She my best friend.
JAMIE FELL BETTER, you deserve nothing but the best!
Im not allowed to go to Brand New. That really sucks. Im very upset. JAMIE have fun!
Damiens coming over my house tomorrow, were gunna hang out just me and him. :)
Tonight this chick MEL is having a party at dania beach. Im going with joey chris and dana. Then dana and i are staying over chris house. Shall be fun.
Havent really talked to Sandra. MIss ya VANILLA! Holla at me some day.
Well thats about it. My step dads b-day just pasted i forgt to send him a card. Oh Well. he doesnt send me SHIT.
this somg is sorta like that. I miss him.....::tear::
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Im out.... *Barah*
current mood: calm
current music: Weezer- Buddy Holly
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| Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
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10:09 pm
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WOW - i havent updated in a while. Umm lets see Jamie got switched into my Spanish Class! YAY! Thats FUN as Hell. I got switched outta Geometry. Me and Dana are now in Medical Skills.
Theres like these really two cute guys in two of my classes. Oh gosh cuteness.
Uh still doing the same old shit. Partying LoL and just chilling. Going to We Bled Victroy practices. Getting free ice cream from Joey and Sam. Oh SHIT that explains why im getting MORE fat. FUCK you sam and joey. HAHA j/k.
I stayed over chris house with dana and kt the other day. that was fun. Fucking BARREL! LoL.
Damiens Gay...LoL. JAYKAY! LOve YA! x0x0x
current mood: mischievous
current music: weezer-buddy holly
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| Monday, August 25th, 2003
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9:06 pm - ........Tell all your friends, you got a gun to my head.
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HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today was the FRIST day of SCHOOL. And JAMIE was there!!! It was cool to see everyone again. Some i didnt want to see. (jena, sara, monica....etc....)
My Schedule-
1st hour- biology (with Stanley)
2nd hour- spanish 1 (with donna and some other kids i know from past classes)
A Lunch w/ MEGAN and Dana. Also Sam and others. Its nice.
3rd- Algebra 1b (with JENN!!!!!)
4th hour- Geometry (w/ DANA and robert estest)
but im getting switch out of 4th.....so yeha.
my backpack hasnt come in yet. So i have nothign to use for school yet. Or my Shoes, OR my bed thingy. Damn.
My last week of summer was totally great. Went to masons like 2 nights, Chris house on Friday night. Damn what a good night. I "bonded" in a special way with one of my friends. LoL. Shhhhh, Megan! Stop telling People. Chris and CHAD were SO drunk. LMAO.
Chad beat up Megan. And Chris was Just wasted.
"Ill make out with you if you buy me dennys"
LMAO. Chris. hes SO great. Its so cool to have met him and be friends with him.
Saturday was KTs B-day!!! So me and JAime stayed over. and others came buy to chill and shit. It was fun. Ther was Bacardi! yum.
We all played Telephone, megan GOT DISQUALIFIED!!!! Anas Stupid cant remeber shit. And Jamie and Damien were the ones most talke about. Jamie and the BIG BLACK COCK. And Damien and His uh never mind.
After everyone left, Mat and Damien stayed fro a while. We chilled in Mathews van. (no bugs and AC) Me, damien, kt, and Mathew played truth or dare for a long time. But then Damien HAD to make a rude comment so we left.
Sunday i had to go to my Grams for dinner. It was good. Nice to see family.
Ok but im outtie now. Tired, must SHOWER and sleep.
x0x0x
Sare-Bear
PS- big party coming up soon. Its for my pal Joeys b-day, dont matter if you know him just go. if you wanna go leave a comment and ill give you the info and shitz.
current mood:  restless
current music: brand new- seventy times 7
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2003
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6:04 am - ive finally reached the pot of gold....
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OMG!!!!!!!! Ive been working o nthis journal for 4 hours now.
THANK YOU JESSICA for helping me. I love my journal! Im not changing my journal for a long time!!! i love it! :D
Anyways, todayw was fun. i chilled at "mexico" for a while, keeping joey company. Pj was also there most of the time. Kevin and Damien were showing up every once and a while. I left with them to go to Masons house. we chilled then FINALLY kevin took me home. It was boring i was sober. not fun. everyone was all bared up and shit. ugh. Mason was really drunk. Im tryingt oconvince him to take me to school next year. im on the way if you go the long way. lol. ill get him to take me. hopefully ::crosses fingers::
I miss you JAMIE!!!!! I cant wait till were in school together. your like the coolest girl ever!
i feel so complete in life, i have MEGAN!, and jamie man shes like the coolest girl ever, i have my two favorite spics (ana and stephanie), and i got my guys, ( and i still have my past friends, who are like gold to me, these peole HAVE been there for me...sandy, charity, rachel, kt, and a few others) these are like the only people i need in life. FUCK everyone eles and your stupud bullshit and lying. i dont need it. ive finally coem to realize who and WHAT true friends are. and i finally found my pot of gold.
SANDRA man i miss you too. whne you coming back!??! you better call me as soon as you get in and are ready to PARTY!
JOEYS the band bitch. hahahahahaahhaahahahhahahaahahahha. Dont belive me?.... www.webledvictory.com <~~~go there youll see for yourself!
Ok im out. i need to sleep. its like 6 in the morning and im still online. its offical im not waking up tomorrow morning. hehe.
Ok TOODLES! (shut up joey)
Sarah*
current mood: peaceful
current music: brand new - mix tape
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| Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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8:41 pm
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last night i saw freddy vs jason. its a typical horror movie. but it was good. i had to sit next to kt. OMG.
I talked to Damien on the phone till 5:30 this morning, so need less to say today i woke up at like 5:00 pm.
well im on my way out soon. so ill catch you on the flip side. toodles.
P.S.-
*Mosquito repellents don't repel. They hide you. The spray blocks the mosquito's sensors so they don't know you're there.
*Dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least 6 feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush.
*The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as substitute for blood plasma.
*No piece of paper can be folded in half more than 7 times.
*Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes.
* You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.
*Oak trees do not produce acorns until they are fifty years of age or older.
*The first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.
*The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache.
*A Boeing 747s wingspan is longer than the Wright brother's first flight.
*American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating 1 olive from each salad served in first-class.
*Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise.
*Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
*The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.
*Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin.
*The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer.
*Michael Jordan makes more money from Nike annually than all of the Nike factory workers in Malaysia combined.
*Marilyn Monroe had six toes.
*All US Presidents have worn glasses. Some just didn't like being seen wearing them in public.
*Walt Disney was afraid of mice.
*Pearls melt in vinegar.
*Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are already married.
*The three most valuable brand names on earth: Marlboro, Coca-Cola, and Budweiser, in that order.
*It is possible to lead a cow upstairs...but not downstairs.
*A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why.
*The reason firehouses have circular stairways is from the days when the engines were pulled by horses. The horses were stabled on the ground
floor and figured out how to walk up straight staircases.
*Richard Millhouse Nixon was the first US president whose name contains all the letters from the word "criminal." The second was William Jefferson
Clinton.
*Turtles can breathe through their butts.
*Butterflies taste with their feet.
*In 10 minutes, a hurricane releases more energy than all of the world's nuclear weapons combined.
*On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year.
*On average people fear spiders more than death.
*Ninety percent of New York City cabbies are recently arrived immigrants.
*Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.
*Only one person in two billion will live to be 116 or older.
*Women blink nearly twice as much as men.
*It's physically impossible for you to lick your elbow.
* The Main Library at Indiana University sinks over an inch every year because when it was built, engineers failed to take into account the
weight of all the books that would occupy the building.
*A snail can sleep for three years.
*No word in the English language rhymes with "MONTH."
*Average life span of a major league baseball: 7 pitches.
*Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing. SCARY!!!
*The electric chair was invented by a dentist.
*All polar bears are left handed.
*In ancient Egypt, priests plucked EVERY hair from their bodies, including their eyebrows and eyelashes.
*An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
*TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.
"Go," is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.
*If Barbie were life-size, her measurements would be 39-23-33. She would stand seven feet, two inches tall. Barbie's full name is Barbara Millicent
Roberts.
*A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.
*The cigarette lighter was invented before the match.
*Americans on average eat 18 acres of pizza every day.
*Almost everyone who reads this email will try to lick their elbow.
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| Monday, August 18th, 2003
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4:19 pm
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Hey everyone. i know it seems as if i havent updated in a while. but i have. but they were friends only type entrys. (even some people feel the need to tell other certain people what i write about, not mentioning names ::cough:: jessica ::cough::) but anyways. i went to the factory for the battle of the bands. i went with Ana, Stephanie, Damien, and KEVIN! its was SO much fun.
God damien is such a dick to me sometimes.
We Bled Victory was SOOO friggin good. Better then the oasis show. I was so like amazed, they did SO good.
OH OH OH OH!!! im friends with Bryan AGAIN! he came up to me at the show and was like hey no hard feelings yada yada yada. i got his number saw his nips and yeah all is well now. :D
His band, CURE FOR CANCER, did awesome. We all got them to strip down. WHoOo it was getting hot in theer. Bryan was down to NO clothes. For all of you how didnt go, you missed one hell of a show. so HA!
Today im cleaning my house. i gets money. YAY!
Ok im out. i have to finish cleaning.
)-Sare-Bear-(
current mood:  working
current music: 40 mins NON stop ZETA
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
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3:33 am - Mr. Cheeks is the MAN!
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TONIGHT WAS FUN!!!!
I went to the OASIS to see WE BLED VICTORY! they were fucking awesome!!!!
sad note: Micheal leaves tomorrow. damn i miss that kid. :( we have So much fun hanging out together.
OMG i saw Tool kid tonight, what a gay. lol
OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!
the HOTTEST guy in the world was talking to me tonight!! wanna know who it was...... take a guess, youll never fucking guess it. Ok heres a clue, hes a drummer, not yet ok his band is SIMPLEKILL!!! Yup, it was JON mutha fucking SPERRY! what a fucking HOT-ASS kid! he came up to b/c i was WEARING a Simple kill shirt and was like "nice shirt" i was like "do i know you"....haha (im SO dumb) and he was like yeha im their DRUMMER! i was LIKE OMG your JON! (duh!!!) but yeha we just talked for alittle and i gave him a flyer to the next We Bled Victory Show which is.....
So anyways, Jon gave me flyer to his next show which is....
ANOTHER kick ass SHOWWW! im So there!
But yeah then afterwards i went w/ Kevy and damien to Allens house. Joey gave me a court for FREE! yummy. I was late coming home i hope my mommy isnt mad at me.
I think charity lied to me tonight. w/e dude, if she EVER wants to chill shell have to call me, i tried of trying to chill with her and she backs out the last minute, i dont know. But i saw rachela nd i wasl ike i thought you and charity had to stay home tonight to "bond or some shit with lisa" and she was like NO. so thats how i know she lied. w/e dude im not gunna fret over it.
w/e my other friends dont lie to me about stupid shit, if she didnt want to chill no need to lie about it.
i love you jamie, megan, ana stehpanie, kevin, damien, chris and joey. My fucking drunk crew. :D
im outtie.
Sare-bear
x0x0
current mood: blah
current music: you've failed - we bled victory
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| Monday, August 11th, 2003
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1:20 am - boo-cocka!
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uh......
tonight was fun.
it was stehpanies going away party.
uh lots of pepole and beer.
love ya stehpanie and ill miss ya!
im out
sare-bear
ps - jam i love you man. your my best friend! im always here for you!
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