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| 06:41pm 05/07/2003 | ||||
sk8erpunkduck: !!!!! tReNdY dEaD FiSh: okay scott tReNdY dEaD FiSh: !!!! sk8erpunkduck: okay joelle!!!!!!!! tReNdY dEaD FiSh: okay scott!!!!!!!!!!!! sk8erpunkduck: okay joelle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tReNdY dEaD FiSh: okay scott. sk8erpunkduck: i am the weiner sk8erpunkduck: !!! Why did i fuck things up with him? I hate me. |
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| 02:17pm 05/07/2003 | ||||
Why does it seem like I drift away from people so easily? Why do I let myself let go? I should care but I don't, I'm so fucked up. My mom wanted to know why I burnt myself well I think that the fact that i don't care even when I want to. I'm sorry to anyone that I have let go that I have loved. I'm going to grow up and be alone I'll be a fat old lady with over grown eyebrows and no one will want to love me I'm missing your bed I never sleep Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, And this bottle of beast Is taking me home [1.] I'm cuddling close To blankets and sheets But you're not alone, and you're not discreet Make sure I know who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again There's not a word that I comprehend, Except when you signed it "I will love you always and forever." [2.] Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs And sit alone and wonder How you're making out But as for me, I wish that I were anywhere with anyone Making out. I'm missing your laugh How did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending. [1.] I am alone In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home I'm missing your bed I never sleep Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and This bottle of beast is taking me home. [2.] Your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities And taking its wear. |
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| 07:51am 05/07/2003 | |||
 You represent... loneliness. Always alone and always sad about it... unlike angst, you don't have to look for a reason to be miserable. You want to be in the company of people but aren't sure how to act when you're with them. Sometimes you have to make an effort. You can't always wait for others to come to you. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla  PUNK ROCK : Like a revived species of nearly extinct salamander, Punk Rock Asian Girls are a rare type, but slowly climbing up to existence again. Your passions are mainly music and anime and you've probably dyed your hair some odd color of the rainbrow. And if you haven't, you probably will. You often feel like you are misunderstood, but don't worry. Just think about thongs. Very funny. What Asian Girl Are You? VISIT HTTP://JEALOUSY.TK  Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno anytime soon. You seem to be really into the whole "love" thing...romantic sex with perfumed sheets and candles all over the place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You value sex and respect your partner too much to do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3 What kind of porno would you star in? brought to you by Quizilla What kind of typical high school character from a movie are you? brought to you by Quizilla  I am a sniper/professional killer. Which cat that thinks it's human are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 11:32pm 01/07/2003 | ||||
I <3 him so much. Every moment I spend with him makes me happy. Ya hear me! I cry happy tears when you say those things to me! I want to be with you right now but you need sleep so SLEEP! I'm going to smoke some pot and pass out now. I love you all. The world is being good right now, i like it. |
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hungry| 04:15pm 29/06/2003 | ||||
-01. Fallen for your best friend? Yes but I have never done anything about it. -02. Made out with JUST a friend? haha yes.. -03. Been rejected? I have never asked anyone out...it always...just happens. -04. Been in love? i don't think so... -05. Been in lust? yeah, Jake. -06. Used someone? Not that i know of. -07. Been used? yes...Jake. -08. Cheated on someone? fuck you. -09. Been cheated on? yes..Jake. -10. Been kissed? yup yup yup -11. Done something you regret? I wish i wouldn't have been such a fucking ditz with Scott when I had the chance.. Who was the last person... -12. You touched? haha a Drag Queen at the Gay Pride Parade. -13. You talked to? My mom, she asked if i wanted a burger. -14. You hugged? Vi -15. You instant messaged? Kelsey -16. You kissed? Vi -17. You had sex with? heh... -18. You yelled at? Some people on the street -19. You laughed with? Kelsey and Rissy -20. You had a crush on? Vi -21. Who broke your heart? Scott Do you... -22. Color your hair? BLACK -23. Have tattoos? nope -24. Have Piercings? Nope -25. Have a boy/girl friend? yep, Vi -26. Floss daily? NEVER! -27. Own a webcam? yep -28. Ever get off the damn computer? To hang out with Vi or take a poo. -29. Sprechen sie deutsche? ichs wuwg veill zeitchf gast? ....0_0.... -30. Habla espanol? a little. Have you/do you/do you have... -40. Considered a life of crime? Vi and I thought about insurance fraud a couple of times.. -41. Considered being a hooker? haha onyl when I'm with Khanh. -42. Considered being a pimp? I'm the OCG pimp. -44. Split personalities? yes -46. Obsessive? over my art -47. Obsessive compulsive? thats my mom. -48. Panic? not often -49. Anxiety? yes but people probably can't tell. -50. Depressed? It comes and goes. -51. Suicidal? no -52. Obsessed with hate? i hate hate...yet i use that word so often. -53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? I dream happy. -54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? yes -56. What would you be doing? Being less ugly. -58. What are you listening to? Modest Mouse-Never Ending Math Equation -59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? I can do things with my feet that I should only be able to do with my hands. -60. Chicken or fish? chicken. -61. Do you have a favorite animal? Deer ---------- Current -Current Clothes: Pink roxy shirt that i only put on because my cat got my other shirt hairy, my brown cords. -Current Mood: BLANK -Current Taste: burger. -Current Hair: 10 different kinds of gross. -Current Annoyance: an itch i can't scratch -Current Smell: Nag Champa -Current thing I ought to be doing: cleaning my room...again. Or calling Vi because i don't all enough...I HATE THE PHONE. -Current Desktop Picture: Riff Randells -Current Favorite Group: The Postal service..or Loudermilk, Loudermilk -Current Book: The Second Summer Of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants! -Current DVD In Player: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles -Current VHS In Player: Nothing -Current Refreshment: Pepsi -Current Worry: Does Vi have less feelings for me? How am I going to look in a bathing suit when I finally go swimming? Why am I all itchy????? -Current Crush: Vi -Current Favorite Celebrity: uhh...i don't feel like choosing right now. CURRENT FAVORITE... -Food: food is the enemy -Drink: Jones, cherry. -Color: turquoise, bright blue. -Shoes: the turquoise converse i don't have and mt brown cord ones. -Candy: swedish fish -Animal: Deer -TV Show: I don't watch much TV anymore. -Movie: a lot. -Dance: The Freddy -Vegetable: egg plant! -Fruit: star fruit, peaches, oranges. ARE YOU. -Understanding: if it is justifiable. -Open-minded: very. -Arrogant: if people make me -Insecure: sometimes. -Interesting: people say i'm predictable....no? -Hungry: not at all -Friendly: people think i'm a bitch when they first meet me. -Smart: no.. -Moody: very -Childish: very -Independent: on some things -Hard working: no -Organized: certain things, yes. -Healthy: no...i'm fat and i have bad eating habits. -Emotionally Stable: Its like a rollercoaster -Shy: sometimes. -Difficult: very -Attractive: People say I'm pretty but i think i could improve a lot...i look in the mirror and see a project...a project i never work on. -Bored Easily: no -Thirsty: for pear juice. -Responsible: for somethings -Sad: a lot of the time....my family thinks i am completely stable.. -Happy: sometimes. -Trusting: with certain people.. -Talkative: If I feel comfertable, yes. -Original: i try to be but no one can be completely original -Different: I am half Polish...thats kinda different. -Unique: Of course. -Lonely: yes, i don't know why. WHO DO YOU WANT TO. -Kill: 0_0 no. -Slap: only Scott when we are doing out handshake -Look Like: Kelly Osbourne. -Be Like: me only less stupid. -Talk To Offline: Scott On You... -Hair color: artificially black -Birthday: nov. 30th -Eye Color: brown -Righty or lefty? righty -What's your sign? Sagi. On Dating... -Long or short hair? long..? -Dark or blond hair? doesn't matter -Tall or short? taller but short works too if they are cool enough -Dark or light eyes? irrelivent -Pierced or no? doesn't matter to me -All American, homey G, or grunge? whoever they want to be -Accent or American? Accents are cute but i don't care. |
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blank| 04:01pm 29/06/2003 | ||||
. First real memory of something: as a baby i would pull around my turtle and look up at my grandma...i actually do remember that. . First car: HA! . First date: Jay, he was in the 5th grade and i was in the 3rd. . First kiss: 7th grade, Kyle Dewey, ew. . First break-up: Jake, i was 14 he was 17...I said i loved him and he dumped me and a week later he asked for me back...i said no.. . First job: With my step mom at the Taste of Washington. . First screen name: jewjewbee44 . First self purchased album: Weird Al...the micheal jackson one.. . First funeral: haven't been. . First pet: Cocoa, my dog. She is now old and fat and lives in Seattle with ym dad. . First piercing/tattoo: I had my ears pierced but i took them out when i was little...now i'm a boy. . First house/flat/apartment: still with my mommy . First credit card: I got a pre paid one from my dad for my last birthday. . First love: I have yet to feel what being in love is like...i think. . First enemy: Reana... . First big trip: Pft..i never go ANYWHERE, ever. I went to Canada. . First play/musical/performance: kindergarden, sang about a Gooney Bird that had seven chicks. . First musician you remember hearing in your house: Micheal Jackson, i grew up around him and i love him if you hate him i hate you. he is a beautiful person and i don't belive shit about him molesting children...he never had a childhood so he is making up for it...i understand why he wouldn't want to hang out with adults..he has helped hundreds of dying children. How could anyone be so cruel to someone with such a good heart? I'M DONE... |
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chipper| 01:44pm 27/06/2003 | ||||
2] Makes you happy: the postal service, Pedro The Lion, Loudermilk 3] Reminds you of an ex-lover: Linkin Park? 4] Reminds you of an ex-friend: One Carper Green 5] Makes you cry: The Most Depressing Song by The Get Up Kids 6] Makes you laugh: Spared No Expense, Blink 182? haha 7] Makes you ponder life: Postal Service, Loudermilk 8] You never want to hear again: nothng 9] You once loved but got sick of: nothing 10] You love [ band/artist ] to hate: Holy Molar 11] You sheepishly admit to liking: Yellowcard 12] You'd do anything to see played live: Loudermilk, Postal Service 13] Reminds you of your childhood: The B52's Love Shack 14] Sums up your teenage years: Blink 182, haha, all the pop punk stuff..... 15] Most people like but you hate: Avril Lavigne, Good Charlotte 16] You love the lyrics of: Loudermilk, Postal Service 17] You used to hate but now love: Pretty Girls Make Graves 18] Is best played in the car: At the drive in, Postal Service, anything! 19] You like to fall asleep to: Loudermilk (97 ways to kill a super hero) 20] You like to wake up to: the distillers 21] You like out of your parents record collection: My mom's.... 22] You love that you wouldn't know if it wasn't for a friend: Loudermilk, Postal Service 23] You love the video more than the tune: Whitestripes, Seven Nation Army 24] Is good to listen to whilst holding hands: postal service 25] Makes you think of sex: the postal service.. OCG, haha 26] You love to hear at clubs: i'm a loser 27] Is not your "typical type" of style but you love anyway: Michelle Branch...! 28] You can sing really well: Garbage-I'm only happy when it rains and cherry lips |
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blah| 01:05pm 27/06/2003 | ||||
Lets see....3 more hours till we leave for the show....My mom got her car fixed so I think I should have her take us really early to get a good spot....oh well. We have a racoon around our parts now...my brother was feeding it out of his hand. He is such a dOrK he says "Its touched me!" haha, dweeb. My room is infested with ants!!!!!!!! DIE YOU LITTLE RAT BASTARDS! AGH! Vi gave me the "If you need space just tell me" talk...I think he suspects that I am interested in other guys...i hope he knows that I love him and that if he ever left me i would be heart broken. He is my one and only. I know it won't stay that way forever but right now it's the truth and I live for the moment. |
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| 11:15am 27/06/2003 | ||||
god all i want to do is wriet down Postal Service lyrics for some reason last week I had the strangest dream where everything was exactly how it seemed where there was never any mystery of who shot John F. Kennedy it was just a man with something to prove slightly bored and severly confused he steadied his rifle with his target in the center and became famous on that day in november don't wake me I plan on sleeping in again last night I had that strange dream where everything was exactly how it seemed no concerns about the world getting warmer people thought that they were just being rewarded for treating others as they'd like to be treated for obeying stop signs and curing diseases for mailing letters with the address of the sender now we can swim any day in november don't wake me I plan on sleeping in Postal Service is the best band ever...maybe not ever but i love them. I'm going to have their babies. I stink...i should shower now. |
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dirty| 11:10am 27/06/2003 | ||||
and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company? I can't accept that it's over: I will block the door like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter of a tied-game of rivalry So just say how to make it right and I swear I'll do my best to comply Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better then making you my bride and slowly growing old together I feel I must interject here, you're getting carried away, feeling sorry for youself with these revisions and gaps in history. So let me help you remember. I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear. I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave So please back away and let me go I can't my darling I love you so... Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures I admit that I have made mistakes and I swear I'll never wrong you again you've got a lure I can't deny, but you've had your chance so say goodbye |
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tired| 10:00pm 26/06/2003 | |||
 Ichabod Crane: He may be a bit nerdy, but he sticks by his beliefs. Doesn't always fit in, but is extremely intelligent. Which Johnny Depp character is your ideal mate? brought to you by Quizilla |
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