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| Friday, April 25th, 2003 |
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| man im really bored. im kinda mad right now b/c frank told on me. yes he told on me. my mom called and she was saying how i need to be good and help him out. i havent been any different that when shes here. maybe quiter and more independent but he told her im annoying him. a 38 yr old told my mom that a me, 14 year old was annoying him (hes probably not 38, but u get it). before that i took a short walk, played basketball for about 5 mins(gets boring by urself quickly), and then just layed on the driveway and listened to my cd player. all at about 10:30; so.... frank thought i was mad or something, but i just like going outside by myself sometimes. from now on (i doubt it will happen) but im just gonna leave my room to go bathroom, drink, eat, or leave the house and im gonna do whatever they tell me to, then they cant complain about me. no they will say something b/c i tried that before. they said i was doing "bad things" in my room. yea...u know me...always doin SOMETHING bad. another issue is "repsonsiblity"-a word i really hate. the only responsiblity at home i said i had was garbage, picking up my stuff around the house, and laundry. bad choice of words, they set frank off. he said some stuff, but basically he said thats all im willing to do and thats why im doing so bad in home ec. and then he went on about how i dont cook or anything. hes so dumb. im doing bad in home ec b/c i sewed my apron wrong. BECAUSE I CANNOT FREAKIN SEW IF MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. but of course my irresponsiblity is the cause of everything isnt it? yes im exxagerating with some of this probably and if u dont like it QUIT READIN!!! and about the stuff around the house most of the crap every where is brandon's (who i wanted to kill today-another stupid reason....yes, he is 6, im pathetic). nothing of mine is outside of room except maybe some socks no one feels like organizing by the dryer. about the brandon thing- well lets start out about how i like to go places. and i like to b/c i like sitting in the front of the van with the window rolled down (dont ask). so steve was going somewhere and i go out there and guess who wants to come? my lovely most wonderful brother brandon. so he runs out there, doesnt even bother putting on shoes-just wearing socks, and gets in the front. i said "well then im gonna sit on ur lap". frank comes outside and starts yelling about how brandon is always in the front so i didnt wanna go. AGAIN IM PATHETIC. so i shut (no-slam) the door and brandon does this smile...a VERY evil smile saying "haha, got my way again". i wanted to rip the door off the van and yank him out of it and sit in the van and do the smile back. that thought lasted about a milisecond-literally- i know this entry will surely give everyone a good laugh (especially Sunny n Mavis; if they read it). the moral of this story (which is true) is: I HAVE ISSUES | ||||||
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| Thursday, April 24th, 2003 |
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u know whats weird?...how everyone chooses the same night to go to sleep early. its strange to me. usually theres at least 10 people on right now but NO one is on. well ashley is on but shes got her away message sayin shes sleeping. i got my homework done early b/c it was easy tonight for once. on my progress report i got 2 A's, 1 B, 2 D's n a scholarship warning for HOME EC! frank talked to my mom and told her and she was a bit disappointed i think but she didnt ground me she just said i need to go to school and pay attention, so that went well. frank said "good job, kalina and laughed... anywho-im so glad tomorow is friday!! end of the week already. today i saw marissa in her dads car and she saw me and she started waving like crazy, it was funny to me. i waved back too (im so nice). i played basketball today with my cousin, brother, and his friend. my cousin is a ball hog so i really didnt play too much i just stood there and got the ball sometimes but only like 5 times in 3 games. then i skateboarded with brandon and i tried to teach him again but hes afraid to fall. kristen is grounded again. she was off for about a week. she got grounded b/c she pierced her ears again. hey, it coulda been something else, but her moms like that and got mad so shes grounded yet again. umm..let me think of anything else i can say... we got this poetry book thing due next friday (havent started) n we have to read one out loud i think. if u know me then u know i HATE reading/presenting in front of the class. in front of anyone. i should write a poem about how much i hate that class and the teacher and read it out loud (of course, not being direct, but giving enough information so everyone knows what im talking about). im not gonna do that though. maybe not. this substitute we got all week is so dumb. he defines every word with more than 5 letters in it while he was reading. and he yells every other word like AND...oh and when theres a part with @!#% meaning the guy in the book is swearing he says "boomboombambam" or "bambamboomboom" it was the funniest thing in the world to me. no one was really laughing except sunny n mavis, but not as much as me. he says prankster a lot too. its annoying. no one really listens to him, the only person i really noticed caring about what he says was neda. everyone else was reading ahead in the book. i tried the skip a line thing like sunny does but i didnt wanna actually skip line b/c it would make it to big so i just pressed enter after the thing (no one probably understood that, but thatss alright) well, thats about all to write about. sorry to anyone who read it. cya later alligator |
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| Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003 |
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| yesterday i made two new friends. one is tara (almost 8) the other is marissa (just turned 5). for some reason people think thats funny. and i dont think im good w/kids (sunny -read ur journal). me and my little brother (6) were attempting to skateboard and we ended up sitting on the ground b/c he wouldnt learn. so we were rolling the skateboards to each other and tara asks 'can i try' i said sure and rolled one over there. (im not gonna say 'no! this is my skateboard and u cant touch it!") it wasnt even mine anyways. about 10 mins later tara was on one, marissa (her little sister) was on one, and me too but brandon went inside -i think he was intimidated b/c he cant ride and tara could-. i was out there at least an hour with them and it wasnt that bad either. i didnt see them today but i also didnt go outside today. well thats all about my friends i might write some more later..bye | ||||||||
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| Tuesday, April 22nd, 2003 |
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| guess what REALLLLLYYYYYY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!! im MOST LIKELY not going to see lp in orlando (sanitarium). the floor tickets are sold out, i have NO WAY of getting there, and...yea this sucks. i looked on ebay to see how much the floor tickets were b/c i knew people would buy them for 75 then go around and sell them for more and guess how much the cheapest ones are...$150!! the other seats (idk if sold out or not) are sitting seats n are far away. so good luck in seeing if u havent bought tickets yet (for orlando, fl). oh, and im not in school b/c my bus decided it wouldnt come today so i stood out there for almost an hour. my stepdad thinks i left late and purposly missed my bus. i havent been to school in a week....im gonna have lots of work to do when i go back, i cant wait!! my mom went to tennessee today and she wont be back till next wednesday (30th). frank is nicer when shes gone so theres a good thing about it...i saw 2 movies this past weekend. malibus most wanted and holes. i didnt really wanna see malibus most wanted but i was outnumbered..and i saw holes w/ashley on sunday. it was good to me and i read the book too. well i dont have anyone to tell about the sanitarium thing so i wrote it in here. i still got warped tour though and thats in jax not 3 hrs away!!! eh..im mad about that....but dont worry, ill get over it by august..j/k only july 27th...tehe. (trying to make the most of the situation can ya tell?) yea, well im gonna stop writing in here. ashlie, i probably will never finish the letter. sry. and um...dont got anything else to say so c-ya | ||||||
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| Monday, April 21st, 2003 |
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this is my friends really good poem: lord please help me, on this day, be my anchor as i drift away. keep me safe in the middle of the storm, as my love for him takes on a new form. take my hand, and hold me close, and help me see what matters most. for i am blind, and cannot see, the source of what is killing me. i need your guidance, and your strength, i need to filter out this hate. i need you now, more than ever before, cause i just dont think i can take anymore. lord please help me on this day, be my anchor as i drift away. for i am blind, and cannot see, the love and hate inside of me... Sunnydayzdragon (6:54:11 PM): i like that! and it rymed! (if u want me to take it off let me know) |
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| Saturday, April 19th, 2003 |
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| i got a headache..its alright. i realize asprin are only temparary help, like all medicines. someone one told me that a long time ago and i didnt know it (they told me medicine doesnt make you better, just helps the symptoms). its one of those things that stick with u. like an inside joke, which i have to many of; mainly with myself. lol. im still kind of tired i think. idk why. i mean, i only went to bed at 4:30 am! and i ate breakfast this morning and i feel sick. thats why i dont usually eat breakfast, i get sick. i really like writing in this lately. kristen is not home, well she probably is but her phone just rings and rings and rings. i thought that meant she online but i guess not...cause shes not. or she left. brb | ||||||||
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| Friday, April 18th, 2003 |
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im typing this b/c i think its a realllly great song. and yes, im typing this strait from the book so i get it all right. i want to take the bullet, the one aimed strait for your heart. i want to meet the wolves halfway and let them tear me apart. but thats not the way they do it here. i want to lay on the tracks, feel hot steel screaming at me. expose the bones on my back, let me show you what i mean. yeah, its a different kind of love. i want to climb barbed wire fences, and warm our hands in blood. and this is my gift asking you to fix my ruined hand. its a gift that keeps on giving, and right now its all i have to give. i want to write the perfect song, and play it just for you, while u are tangled up in sleep. i need you more than i'll ever know. until i stop breathing my lungs will take you for granted. i love that song and its even better with the music. please hear it. |
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| well today was ok. i talked to ashlie on the phone for a while. i havent talked to her in a long time so that was a good thing. i wish we were gonna go to the same high school or something b/c i never see her anymore...o well i guess. somehow we still manage to be best friends its weird. anyways the rest of the day i didnt really do anything till 7 i went to a play at kristens friends church. i havent been to church in a LONG time and it was weird. i didnt feel right there and i didnt like the pastor guy. then we came back to her house, watched tv, ate pizza, and then i left her house and here i am. when i came in our house i heard zach-6 (ashlies little brother...long story) and his sister hannah (shes 2 or 3 i think...) so i figured we were watching them for veronica and royal. i was out there a little while with hannah, but then i came in here. now im just listening to thrice and typing here. i might finish my letter to ashlie...but i dont feel like gettin it. im so lazy; its annoys me. i dont think im gonna go to my dads tomorow b/c he hasnt called today. i wanna go see house of 1000 corpses or holes (i think i said that yesterday). maybe kris can go w/me.....well, ill see tomorow. (for some reason im in a good mood-and i have been for a little while-i think its the no school or maybe since i talked to ashlie-that probably sounded gay...o well-i can write in this parentesis for a long time...isnt that cool? i thought so too, bud-not buddy-) okay...im gonna go, not much else to say. c-ya....lol i remember that...or was it see-ya? guess i dont remember then huh | ||||||
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| Thursday, April 17th, 2003 |
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| well i got lots to type b/c i actually did stuff last weekend. friday night i stayed at ashleys moms with her and her friend kristi. we took a walk to this store and got candy then later we went to al's pizza. on saturday we went to the mall and me, ashley, and kristi looked at all the pins and i bought 6 (1 for ashlie, 3 for me, 2 for kristi). ashley got some too but idk how many. then her friend went home and me and ashley went to my house and we picked my mom up from the airport. later we walked to the amaco and got more candy. then...sunday ashley went home and i dont really remember what i did sunday. but we saw anger management that night. monday and tuesday i went to school, but i stayed home on wednesday and thrusday b/c i was sick...today is thursday and we dont have school tomorow or monday. yay!!! i dont think im really doing anything this weekend but i wanna see holes and house of 1000 corpses (i think thats what its called). ashley wont be here all weekend though so MAYBE kristen can do something this weekend. i hope so. i still to get and give mavis and sunny their good friday presents...i forgot. i also need to get my pins from van. i let her borrow them monday and i want them back:( im tired, but im trying not to go to sleep. this weekend i might also go to my dads on saturday for a while b/c my half brothers birthday was monday (he turned 5). my aunts birthday was also monday but idk how old she is. i cant wait till this summer! 2 reasons mainly: sanitarium and warped tour. also b/c im gonna hopefully stay at my grandmas house for a while and get a job there then come back here and get a job here. i already know a place here but idk if they'll still be hiring by the time i get back since its summer. im hoping i dont have to babysit too much this summer even if i get paid. i dont really enjoy that too much. im typing a lot.....i wonder if anyone is actually gonna read all this...oh well. it keeps me busy. im trying to think of something else to say. im gonna count my money and ill tell u how much i got. alright, i got about $30.50. i finished reading a book today called flipped. it was pretty good, but i wish it was longer. everybook i read that is long is not interesting but then the ones i want to be longer always seem to get cut off. i guess ill talk about the job i can get here(jacksonville). its on penman and its at a place called Gene's Seafood. all i'd be doing is picking up the dishes n stuff but i get paid and its better than doing nothing. i could most likely get it b/c my moms friend works there and she was gonna hire my brother when he was 14 and her son worked there when he was 13 so i dont think the age thing really matters. i would get it know but summer is coming up and idk where im gonna be when school gets out and i already told my grandma i'd go there for a while. oh yea...i might get a guitar too. i went to this music store when franks dad was here (my grandpa i guess) b/c he plays guitar..and i want a guitar. i want drums more but my mom already said no. the guitar i'd probably get is the beginers one by fender called squirer and it comes with a little amp. its $200. but idk, i dont think my mom knows i actually want it since i havent really acted like i wanted it before. but we'll see. well...im gonna stop typing here now (wow-i typed a lot) bye (who am i talking to?) | ||||||
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| Saturday, April 5th, 2003 |
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| today was tiring....i woke up at 9 for some reason, and i went to bed at 2 something. but i took a 4 hour nap yesterday when i got home so that may be why i gout up at 9. my fingers hurt..today at around 11 i went outside and started doing work in the backyard. it was hard to do, then the sod got devilered, and i layed down a tray of it and took a shower. it all ended at about 2:45. the backyard looks better now wth grass aroun the pool though. i think we might be going out to eat tonight b/c my mom is leaving to go to texas tomorow until tuesday, then leaving again thursday and she'll be back saturday. in about 2 weeks she is leaving to go to tennesse for a week. all for work i guess. well im gonna go maybe take a nap or something. bye | ||||
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| Thursday, April 3rd, 2003 |
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i dont remember when i updated but i REALLY didnt wanna do my algebra homework so i decided to type here. life is boring!!!! theres nothing to do ever... my friend @ school is becoming suicidal or something like that, ashley likes someone that doesnt like her(she thinks), ashlie is grounded, kristen is grounded, everyone else at school is the same,but i laugh more b/c my group in math is funny but everything still seems to be BORING. oh the bands for warped tour has kind of changed the bands are: 7th Standard,AFI,Andrew W.K,Atmosphere,Bowling for Soup,Brand New,Dropkick Murpheys,Finch,From Autumn to Ashes,Glassjaw,Less Than Jake,Mad Caddies,Mest,One Man Army,Plain White Ts,Poison the Well,Rancid,S.T.U.N,Simple Plan,Slick Shoes,Story of the Year,Taking Back Sunday,The Ataris,The Starting Line,The Suicide Machines,The Used,Thrice,Tsunami Bomb,Western Waste,n Yellowcard. someone just came to my house but it was some preppy lookin 6th grader who was skateboarding [4 my brother]. great huh?...sure. no one really talks to me anymore (online) except sunny and mavis. better than no one though. i need minutes for my phone, it wont even turn on. i hope that has to do with no minutes. oh! i got all a's on my report card! haha! i think its b/c im really quiet and no one really notices me. sunny thinks thats really funny for some reason. oh well, doesnt bother me. all this week we have to sit boy-girl in the cafeteria b/c the 8th graders made a mess. i think thats dumb b/c no one is sitting like that, theres still a mess, and in high school u can do pretty much whatever u want during lunch (they-teachers- love to say they're preparing us for high school; thats why i point that out) well...nothing else happening so im gonna go...bye ¤kalina¤ |
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2003 |
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| i havent actually written anything in a while. sorry, i let all u people down. well, unfortunatley, i made it back from washington. it was ok there i guess. we didnt really stay at washington all the time. most of the time we were in virginia. i was with kristin, emily, amanda, and bianca all of the time except in the hotel. we went to the mall there on saturday, it wasnt a good mall, it wasnt even a mall, but oh well. the best store there was a cd store and i got the AFI cd (sing the sorrow). then when i got back i stayed at my dads house and slept, listened to music, watched tv, and went online a lot. i took lots of quizzes thats why i have all those things on the entry for last friday. i never did my health project so i probably either have no grade or a bad grade on my report card. then in home ec. i got a 34 on something i was supposed to get an 85 on but "the computers were down" and the thing i had to turn in was on a disk. we get report cards tomorow...the regular classes are a's or b's. i need about $30 to have enough to go to sanitarium. then i need to find a way to get there. last sunday..the..23rd..i downloaded the LP cd so i didnt buy it. my cousin got it yesterday and i read all the words and looked at the book for it. my favorite songs on there are 'lying from u' and 'faint'. today everyone (mostly) at school went to NASA, but i forgot about the trip so i didnt go and i stayed home today b/c we're not really gonna do anything today. my brother and cousin stayed home too. my cousin is 20 though. i might go swimming later if it gets hot outside. the song 'faint' reminds me of 'goddess' or 'my goddess' by the exies....oh yea, i also made a new friend named john that i need to redraw because he went away when i went swimming yesterday. sunny says john will only last a little while :( i was gonna say something else but now i forgot what it was. o well; im bored so im gonna go. i feel better now that i wrote something..bye -poopoo- | ||||||
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| Sunday, March 9th, 2003 |
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| alrighty im gonna type even though i picked a pretty bad time. well..last week we had fcat pretty much all week long. most people dont like it b/c its pointless and a waste of time but isnt everyday?? i like it because all the normal classes are shorter and we didnt have to go to language arts 2 days this week. i hate that class, but we're starting to learn about poetry now so maybe it will be better. i hope my teacher doesnt make us write something then read it out loud. she always does that with essays. tomorow is the last day we have any testing going on and it isnt fcat its some other worthless test. the language arts part of fcat was reading and answering question. the math part was really easy and on the science part i didnt really know much...mr.d didnt teach us too well. right now im doing my fcat portfolio for algebra. its taking me forever ill probably be up till 1 tonight to finish it. i needed to make my health project too but im gonna do that tomorow b/c i dont have enough time. this is weekend was pretty good. i got deftones and korn cd and lots of snacks for my d.c. trip. on wednesday im going to washington d.c. i really wanna go. the only bad part about it is that im gonna be sharing a room with 3 other girls idk but ill live. i get back from dc on sunday and then spring break is that week. so i got 2 more days of school till the 24th. im so happy. right now i got lots of homework and nothing is really great about my life but im happy. probably b/c im not thinking of much and im listening to korn. i cant wait till the sanitarium tour (i think thats what its called). its gonna be metallica, LINKIN PARK, limp bizkit, deftones, and mudvayne on july 13 in orlando. i really hope my dad can get tickets. then august 27th is the warped tour! well im gonna get this portfolio done. bye. | ||||||
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| Friday, March 7th, 2003 |
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| i been lazy lately....maybe ill write sometime this weekend.....byebye | ||||||
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| Tuesday, March 4th, 2003 |
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Isn't it weird how someone can fill all your thoughts and determine whether your day is good or bad or how someone's words can mean the world and make you wonder if they're really happy or sad don't you think its strange how one person can change how you feel and make you see everything in a new way or how that person can make you want nothing more than just another day ---------------------------------------- Well, today was FCAT and it was reading I didn't like it but tomorrow's math so it should be easier. I'm sick, I cant taste anything or smell anything, it hasn't been a bad thing. I'm really bored, frustrated, confused and.... I'm not exactly sure. I'm kind of tired but not really. I went to bed last night at 9:30 but I woke up lots of times and restarted my CD player. I went to the library yesterday too. Tomorrow will probably be exactly like today but instead of home sec I'll have health. I'm glad we don't have language arts. If anyone reads this can you leave a comment or let me know I just wanna see if anyone actually reads the stuff I write in here. Looks like I'm gonna miss out on Disturbed, Chevelle, Taproot, Unloco, Brand New, and The Used :'( grounded...I'm gonna go Bye ---------------------------------------- |
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| Sunday, March 2nd, 2003 |
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| Monday, February 17th, 2003 |
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this weekend was the most eventful for the past month.... friday-kristen was allowed outside finally so we walked around the block sort of and i stayed the night at her house.we went to blockbuster and got halloween resurection and jay and silent bob strike back. we were up for hours pretty much just laughing saturday-i had to leave her house early b/c she had to do chores then she could go outside again...i havent seen her since that morning. i went to this acrobat thing downtown with my mom, brother(brandon), cousin(travis), and stepdad. it was ok. i got the all-american rejects cd after that. when i got home i called ashley and i ended up staying at her house. we went to blockbuster(again) and got the 2nd blair witch b/c i never seen it. i burned most of the brand new cd and 1 homegrown song at her house.....that took a while sunday-me and ash asked everyone who could drive if they would take us to see riddlin kids, homegrown, and all-american rejects(it was that night at 8)....no success. so we werent very happy yesterday. we went to the library and stayed there for a little while then she called her mom and we went to my house. ashley spent the night. i tried for at least 3 hours to burn a cd and i couldnt but i got so close and the computer kept freezing so i just got mad and turned it off. me and ashley were looking at my old yearbooks and laughing at all the people..it was fun monday-i burned a cd finally not with a lot of songs on it but its good enough. im probably not gonna do anything today but clean my room, laundry, try to finish Holes, do the venn diagram for language arts, i think thats it...im bored...im gonna go |
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| Tuesday, February 11th, 2003 |
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| im still gonna use this journal...im bored. i got the letters from stanton n paxon today & both accepted me but idk if im happy about it. i have lots of homework for algebra i should be doing and its hot in here. today we had the fcat writing test and my topic was to write an essay about what my school should spend money on, it was stupid but i think i did pretty good. tomorow i have an exam in algebr. And i dont think anything else 4 tomorow. today was boring and i dont like this weather b/c its starting to get hot. i have nothing to say....i like this song on now by sloppy meat eaters....its called "escape" i think. now im listening to unzung zeros but idk what this song is called. man im so bored. well im gonna go now...bye ·¤·kalina·¤· | ||||||||
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| Monday, February 10th, 2003 |
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Thrice "The Beltsville Crucible"
true friends stab u in the front
keep u from getting what u want, one more fix could kill u
they help u realize that ur more and less than u 1st had belived
you've so much to give and theres so much u need
shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
3 thousand miles just to learn, all thats gold does not all shine and helping words arent always kind
one more kiss could kill u
they help u realzie that ur more and less than u 1st had believes
you've so much to give and theres so much u need
shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
3 thousand miles just to learn.............
how to let my guard down, accept the fire that has spread among us
and if ur feeling alright you've got to play it again, you've got to, you've got to play it again, play it again.......
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| its about 1:20am and im supposed to be sleeping..yeah i got school tomorow.....i cant figure this thing out but i really wanna do it by myself cuz ashleys friend said its gonna look like crap unless she does it so im gonna do all by myself cuz im just like that......i didnt even finish my history project yet i need at least 2 more pictures im not even tired which really sucks. most normal people are probably asleep. well tomorow stanton n paxon are sendin out the letter well actually today so ill tell u how that goes. my mom is also leaving tomorow for work and tuesday we have fcat writing...yipee. oh crap i need to do laundry too.....remind me never to wait till sunday to do all the stuff i gotta do. i want my font to be smaller then ill be happy. friday i went to see papa roach, blindside, unloco, and some other band. papa roach was really good and so was blindside n unloco even though i never heard of it. it was pretty fun for goin basically by myself. i wanna go to sum 41 on feb 26 w/no use 4 a name and the starting line**. when i told my stepmom bout papa roach she was saying how i should of called her...i wonder if anyone will read this. ashley will...hi ashley tiffany said i was stubborn cuz i wouldnt let her make my page.....hi tiffany if u read this sorry but i wanna say i did my page and not be lying. n hi freakdude if u read ths but ur probably talkin to me now anyways......anymore hi's?....nope......well if anyone else somehow finds this then hi. well im gonna go do SOMETHING (@ 1:28am what fun) cya ill write tomorw if i can get on ~kalina | ||||||||
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aggravated.
energetic.
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okay.
sleepy.
depressed.
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