Melissa's Blurty

..starting to fashion and idea in my head..
HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY dudes!!!!!!!! Hope your day was crazy fun. I had an ok kinda day. I did so much baking and cooking and what not. My dad(step-dad) is very Irish so he says we have to have the traditional dinner some day close to St. Patricks Day, but this is the first time he was actually home to have in ON St. Patricks Day, so I made some pretty awesome food. I guess if there is one thing that I can do right, its cook.. and bake. Oh man.. I made this cake with this homemade chocolate glaze thing.. oh man.. it was killer. It was so freakin good I'm surprised I was able to whip up something that freakin awesome.. but it fuckin kicked ass. Things have been pretty mellow lately. I haven't heard from Chis in like the longest freakin time, so I don't know whats going on with him. I haven't heard from Jenn either so I dont know how she is. As a matter of fact I havent really heard from anyone lately. I guess lifes just been so freakin shitty that I feel like its probably best to keep my distance from as many people as possible therefore I will not be able to drag anyone down with me. I dont know.. maybe the wrong way of thinking.. but i dont know.. I still dont know whats wrong with me.. I dont know.. I'm just me. Maybe its the fact that I am just not willing to change anything about myself to fit into a too uptight-to matierialistic stuck up world.. but hey.. whatever. Or maybe its that I am just too damn invisible to even be noticed.. hmmm.. that seems like a possibility. I don't know.. what do you think..
Well.. I guess for the remainder of this vacation I will try to make the best of it.. I'm hoping that I get another chance when I get back.. most of you know what I'm talking about.. and this time I'll make sure I don't let it pass me by.. haha.. loser. Well.. everyone.. I'm gonna go, so have a good night, and sleep tight.. nighty night all!!!

**~But for now, I'll look, so longingly. Waiting...for you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice...me~**
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