Melissa's Blurty

will it ever go, will it ever go my way..
hey there.. I'm feeling better. Still a little bit congested, but I can breathe finally. Hopefully that will last till I decide to go to bed, but I have a feeling that when I'm ready to turn in for the night I'm gonna have trouble breathing. Well my Valintines Day was ok.. started out pretty sucky, but then Jay invited me over to hang and watch movies, so thats what I ended up doing. It was fun.. hes pretty funny, so it was enjoyable. Then last night the sinus infection went crazy and practically beat the living crap out of me.. It was horrible.. I hardly go a bit of sleep in the past few nights.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately on some subjects, and especially one in particular. I need to tell someone improtant and very close to me how much he means to me and how I feel. I've been so afraid to do this because I am afraid of losing one of the most important people in my life. I'm really not good with confrontations, and I get too emotional sometimes.. therefor I'm sure I would not only ruin things but make a fool out of myself.. I decided that its something that needs to be said though so I have to do it, and now I'm just waiting for him to come around again. It figures though.. when I finally get the courage to go through with it hes not around and I dont here from him.. so now I'm just wait for him to call back.

Oh man.. I need to go to the eye doctor because I need a new perscription. I also have a bunch of other doctors that I need to go see such as the endochronologist because of my thyroid problem and what not. For those of you who always wondered how could I possibly eat so much and not gain any weight.. its because I have an overactive thyroid.. which means my metabolizm works in overdrive.. but I have to get my levels checked and what not. However.. my insurance company dicided to drop me, and now in order to get put back on I need to go through getting proof that I'm a full time student and all that wonderful stuff again.. even though I did that all last year.. so now I can't see a doctor for like two weeks until they add me back on.. thats why I haven't gotten any medication to help me get over this sinus infection. Oh well.. I guess I'll manage somehow.. :(

Chris had a bit of a car situation. That sucks. I hope he feels better!!! I haven't hung out with him in a while. hmm..

well.. I'm exhausted so i think I'm gonna attempt to go to bed.. wish me luck, cause I'm gnna need it.. fuckin nose!

**~And now you've got me watchin your eyes
(got me watchin just to see, watchin just to see)
You got me waitin just to see
(if you'll ever look at me)
If it goes the way it never will
(but will it ever go, will it ever go my way)
Your eyes are watchin me.~**
~Good Charlotte~

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