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June 21st 2003 @ 10:36pm |
Gasp! So..I am alive. :)
I've been really busy. I've had a show pretty much every night. It's really tiring. I'm not complaining, though. It's a lot of fun and ya know..I'm doing what I love so..what CAN I complain about?
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So. I have nothing to say. Rachel might be coming on tour with me for like..a week. I'm excited. I've missed her. <3
:\ Crappy update, I know but, forgive me..I can't think clearly right now.
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June 10th 2003 @ 05:01am |
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*frowns* Where is Joel when I need him? >:O I need to talk to someone and..well, I know other people are here to listen but..I don't want to talk to anyone else about it. :\
Stupid things first...
I'm not dating Jordan Bratman. ... Fanfiction scares me..especially when they pair me up with Eminem and Fred Durst, k. The only good ones are when I'm paired with Justin, Brit and/or JC. People need to get it through their thick heads that I'm not dating Justin. Colin Farrell needs a journal so I can jump his jock like white on rice. I need a new layout. *makes a face*
On with the emoness...
It feels like something's missing. I don't know. When Josh hung out with me after the show a few days ago we were in my dressing room, sitting on the couch and we were all snuggled up. .. Of course, it was in a completely friendly way..*quirks an eyebrow* It'd be a little too weird if it were any way else beings he's my best friend and all. Anyways, it felt nice to have arms around me, ya know?..Being held. I really miss that. And, when I went to the hotel and I was alone...well..*frowns* I just felt..alone. So..I laid on the bed and I was just..thinking. I started crying. I ended up crying myself to sleep. *tucks her hair behind her ear* I'm lonely. I hate it. .. I'm not saying I want anything serious right now. .. I really don't think I'm ready for that. I just want someone to hold me and kiss me and make me feel important, ya know?...Maybe not even a relationship but hell..I just want someone to make me smile and feel good (emotionally, physically..etc). *grumbles* Maybe I just need to be laid. *shrugs a shoulder*
*muffles a yawn* Christ. I need sleep. Night.
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| Are you happy now? |
June 5th 2003 @ 07:24pm |
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Are You Happy Now? :: Michelle Branch |
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So..the tour kicked off last night. Personally, I think it went really well. I went out on stage first and did my thing. The crowd seemed to like it. It felt great out there. I walked out there and saw all those people and it gave me a big rush. Hearing them cheer and sing along made me feel like flying. :) Justin's show was amazing. He can really rock the stage without the other guys.
Jayce was suppose to be there. ..... *shrugs a bit* I guess he forgot about it. :\ I can't say I'm not dissapointed. *frowns* I was really looking forward to him being there. He promised he'd be there and I just..*trails off*... I haven't even talked to him recently. *sighs softly*
Well, anyways..I have to go. I'll be around.
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June 2nd 2003 @ 01:26pm |
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The Jump Off :: Lil Kim |
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New icons. *points to her default icon* We're hot, don't hate. :P
Tour kicks off on Wednesday in AZ!!! :D I am realy excited. It's gonna be awesome.
And, since they're rushing me off..I have to go. Bleh.
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| Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money!! |
May 26th 2003 @ 05:53pm |
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hahaha. wtf. i can't stop laughing. the video for "boys & girls" is friggen hilarious. i was dying when i watched it. joel, you have to teach me how to dance. ;p
uh. yeah. that's all i have to say.
..wtf did i not use caps in this post?
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May 24th 2003 @ 08:05pm |
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Remember Me This Way :: Jordan Hill |
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I figured I'd update..
I don't really have anything to update, though.
*bites on her lip* ....
I feel crappy. *sighs* I think I'm just gonna give up on trying to be happy. *shrugs a shoulder looking around* Who cares, though, if I'm happy or not? ... I sure as hell don't. Why? Because as soon as I start caring things are gonna blow up in my face. I know it.
Sometimes life happens when you're not ready for it.
( I'll make a wish for you.. )
Anyways. I'm gonna go play some video games or something and see if kicking the guys asses will make me feel better. :\
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May 22nd 2003 @ 12:48pm |
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Lapdance :: N.E.R.D |
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Well, I'm with Joel and the guys. I decided to tag along for a while and just hang out. It's been pretty fun. I think I'm gonna head back home tomorrow, though. .... I have some things to do and..there's..someone else I wanna make plans to see.
Someone else..hhm. *smiles to herself* He's a really great guy. It's weird, though, because when I talk to him I get so darn shy and quiet. .... That's not me at all. I'm not a shy kinda girl..I'm crazy and outgoing, you know. I don't know why I act that way around him. ......... *blinks* It's weird.
i still need to get laid I need help. :\
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May 18th 2003 @ 07:23pm |
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Superman :: Eminem |
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( i stole it from chester )
So, yeah. I'm reading my friends page and shit and all I see is drama and talk about this guy and his boyfriend. ... WHERE ARE ALL THE GOD DAMN STRAIGHT MEN!?...I need to be laid and a horny girl not getting sex is not pretty, ok.
It's weird that whenever I talk to a guy I get all shy and quiet. :( *laughs* I'm not a quiet girl! Ask anyone! .. Geez.
Anyways. Wango Tango. Great fun.
EDIT :: .... I was just thinking about..when I met this guy..and..how I liked him and..*trails off and looks around* I let him get away. ... I'm just damned, huh? ... I suppose it's all good now because..there's..yeah. *coughs*
[[yeah. so..Christina did Wango Tango. Stupid me didn't know and was reading her LJ friends page and someone posted pictures of her from it so..yes. She did WT and..that's where she's at blah blah.]]
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May 18th 2003 @ 01:46am |
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Come Away With Me :: Norah Jones |
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I've been doing a lot of thinking and..I was gonna do this whole..lecture thing..or..whatever but..I decided no one wants to hear me run my mouth.
I hope everyone gets their issues resolved. You all deserve to be happy. And none of you should have to deal with any shit. but, then again that's life, right? If any of you want/need to talk..IM me sometime.
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May 13th 2003 @ 10:34pm |
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The Red :: Chevelle |
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*sighs*
I give up.
--I feel like nothing I say and nothing I do is good enough.
--I feel like Christina Maria Aguilera is good enough for anyone.
--I feel that when someone meets the REAL me it's not good enough.
--I feel that I'm starting to lose my friends.
--I feel that I can only get attention of any kind if I'm taking off my clothes, singing, dancing, posing for a picture or complaining.
--I feel like a bitch for posting this.
I'm so sick of feeling this way. I'm a 22 year old woman with an amazing, if I do say so myself, career and loving friends and family. I should be happy. But, seriously, I'm feeling like shit. ... No one talks to me anymore unless I talk first. No one seems to care. Nothing.
I'm feeling really lonely in the love department. ... I haven't had a boyfriend in..2 years or so..? I'm ready for a relationship. I've had my eye on pleanty of guys before but they're taken, not interested or gay. ... I really liked this one guy...but me and my stupid self didn't say anything when I had the chance. I said it way too late. I like this guy now but..he doesn't seem interested. .. I mean..what the hell is wrong with me!? .. Anyone wanna answer??
*sighs* I'm just so tired of feeling this way.
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May 11th 2003 @ 08:28pm |
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From Loving You :: Mandy Moore |
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Well, I was thinking about how lucky I am to have all the friends I have and..so..
To My Friends:
I want to thank you all for everything. You guys mean so much to me and I seriously don't know what I'd do without you. Whenever I need something I know that I can always go to one of you and you'll be there just to listen. That's all you have to do and it makes me feel better. I know you guys can't always take away my pain or wipe my tears but you are a big part of the healing process. I love you all so much!
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the one I won't forget.
And if I die Before you do
I'll go to heaven
And wait for you
I'll give the angels
Back their wings
And risk the loss
Of everything
Just to prove
My friendship is true
I'm thankful to have friends like you.
Anyways. I'm still lonely. I still want to be held and I...yeah..other things. Beh. :(
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| It's another... |
May 10th 2003 @ 03:19am |
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Low :: Kelly Clarkson |
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There once was a guy..
Who made me want
To lay down and die.
I know. My poetry blows you away.
*sighs* This sucks.
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May 10th 2003 @ 02:19am |
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Sick of Bein Lonely :: Field Mob |
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I really..don't know what to say. And I think it's better that way due to the fact that I won't stir up..anything.
I want to be held...*looks around*....
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May 8th 2003 @ 07:49pm |
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Superman :: Eminem |
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Well. The tour kicked off in Europe. We come back to the states on the 24th. And blah blah.
..Yeah. I don't know. .. Just..yeah.
I need to be laid. .... Any takers??
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| Grr! |
May 6th 2003 @ 12:46am |
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Screamer :: GC |
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My "come ither" icon won't work when I try to comment people with it!
*kicks icons* Work, dammit!
And I'm still not getting enough comment love. :(
EDIT!--It wasn't working when I updated with it, either so it's now my default cause I like it more.
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