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A friend [22 Apr 2004|01:49pm]
When the weather is bleak
I turn to you
When ends don't meet
I turn to you
When grey skies roll by
And cover my perfect blue sky
I turn to you.

It seems that you're always there
Within reach, always willing to share
Holding my hand and pressing it against your heart
Gives my bad day a brand new start.

Turn to me
Sometime, when you feel bare
Turn to me
Sometime, when you feel the need to share
Turn to me
Sometime, just like how I'd always turn to you.
Always you.
(*gimme a cheese!*)

check this out if you want.. [12 Oct 2003|08:15pm]
i'm chasing my own tail, i'm turning in circles.

if you want my updates, find me here:

http://www.nocturnalmouse.blogspot.com

yeah. that is mine. not sure how long will i stay there though.
(1 cheese | *gimme a cheese!*)

a wave of time.. [06 Oct 2003|06:52am]
I'm changing my style of writing. Like it or not.
And as the title of blog goes...Fictional Reality.
It's at your risk if you want to believe half the things I jot down here.
(*gimme a cheese!*)

it is only a matter of time... [04 Oct 2003|03:24pm]
....Before I abadon this blog for something else which I deem better to investigate and tinker on with the limited youth that I have left remaining.

Feverish thoughts usually cause nasty use of grammar. My shivering hands just keep typing but words that swirl around in my head makes so sense.

The screen keeps flickering while my eyes keen to flutter shut. Yet I kept awake while I battle with the evil, three eyed monster called the assignment.
(*gimme a cheese!*)

increasingly complex [25 Sep 2003|03:08pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Why is it that it is so hard to put oneself in a social context and be 'ourselves'?

If I were to be friendly to a male pal, some would look at me as a flirt. Even worse, some would think that I'm desperate and a hypocritical two timer. If I were to be cool and aloof, many would look at me as hostile.

If I were to laugh at every lame joke people tell and be agreeable,some would view me as lack of character and personality. If I'd be down in my own world and try to bring in my ideas into a conversation...some would think I'm otherworldly and belong to a different channel.

So how is it that I can achieve a fairly decent behaviour in a social circle without being condemned into the two extremes?

Most of the people that I've came across advised me to be myself. But what is it exactly is myself? The 'myself' which is so astoundingly unique and interesting? Is it a play of representations of the society which I act out most comfortably yet in reality...it's nothing more than a repetition of behaviour which is copied from the media??
Do we really have innate personalities...that is just so 'us'...that we tend to carry it around in every encounter within the social circle?

Will people like us for being ourselves??? Or must we constantly change to adapt?

It's just one of the days where the issue of humans are social creatures truly confuse me. I've got myself acquainted with so many people that their response towards my company are utterly nerve wrecking. One day, conversations can sound like friends who have known each other for decades while the next day, it could just be the direct opposite.


On a lighter note--my life is turning into an awful mess. Work and procrastination do not go well together. I hate to admit that I've been skipping classes(two in fact!) due to lack of sleep.

It's horridly annoying that my lack of discipline is interferring with my academic and social life.

I desperately need a schedule to keep myself in check. Work is work and play is play. The boundary between the two is blurring fast.

I had Emily and Esther to plan out the rest of our activities for the upcoming break next week.....yet...I haven't got around to create a solid fun-proof assignment schedule for myself.

I'm seriously freaking out.

(*gimme a cheese!*)

la la la about nothing [22 Sep 2003|03:03pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | dave grusin-night lines ]

There's a mighty lot of wind going around these days. It's a mistake to be caught wearing just a thin knitted long sleeve blouse and just a scarf tightly wrapped around my neck. Damn it! I should have brought my waterproof jacket along.

Sorry for this unplanned hiatus. One week gushed by without me knowing where the time went. I played, I studied, I partied, I indulged in food and altruism work(that's what my tutor: Blair calls it) and so much more.

I managed to lend a hand to the International Students Committee of Curtin during the major Multicultural Week Event which was the Pasar Malam. It was heaps of fun though the weather was threatening to rain with huge overcast of clouds. Nonetheless-none of our spirits were dampened.

All volunteers gathered at the John Curtin Forum as early as 11am to arrange the tables and chairs, filled water barrels and basically set everything up for the big event. Funny how people can be amazingly friendly-just when you thought that the whole world hates you. Vincent the Maritius guy was pretty cool-engaging us with jokes and his out going personality, Clara-smart and articulate while William-a third yr student but an exceptionally talented professional photographer. And it's even more ironic that William is my classmate yet we never talked until I met him during the preperation of the event.

Emily, Esther, Su Vee and I were in charge of garbage disposal. It's not such a dirty task actually. We just need to check the bins and if it's full, we'll just change the bags and throw away the filled up ones. It was pretty easy except for the fact that when it gets too full, we're forced to pick up the trash and cram it in.

Pasar Malam was a blast! The array of international food, performances and accesories riled our senses. I almost went berserk looking at the choices of food available...from Japenese's yakitori to Indian Tosei and Australian's kangaroo meat sausage buns!
There were lion dances, break dancing, live bands, indian dance, fashion shows and so much more!!! Everyone was just so pumped out and were having fun like nobody's business.
I almost didn't want it to end.


Anyway-I wouldn't write everything down in this post. I don't think I wish to recollect the past either. Just to let you know that I'm keeping myself busy and having a great time.

Will be attending Russel Crowe's concert this weekend. Pray that the weather would be good. I hate it when I can dress up for special events and eventually have to resort to heavy jackets and sneakers for defense against the nasty weather.

Goodness please-it's spring! Let us enjoy it lah...

(2 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

type type type [15 Sep 2003|06:47pm]
I SO WANT A BROADBAND CONNECTION!!!

Yes, typing this from my library's PC evoked my yearning for a broadband connection once again. It's so unfair that I'm stuck at home with a 56K dial up. Not only that, I'm sharing the line with 4 other PCs...

ARGH.......

will someone spare me my agony and contribute some funds so that I do some fast connection?
(*gimme a cheese!*)

there's is so much more i do not know..... [14 Sep 2003|02:04am]
'98 Valedictorian is an All-Around Ace from http://www.jmu.edu/montpelier/issues/summer98/valedictorian.html
Story by Teresa Brumback

Even before he came to JMU, Mohamad Zakir Abdul-Hamid was an all-around actor, ace and adventurer. When he finished at JMU, he did so as an all-A's college student.

At the May 9 commencement, the 29-year-old Singapore citizen was recognized as JMU's first international student to finish his study as class valedictorian.

He arrived at JMU as an accomplished military pilot and a famous TV star hounded for autographs in Singapore. He has scaled the 20,000-foot precipice of Mount Kilimanjaro, hiked the forests of Malaysia, hitchhiked through the United Kingdom, and did military flying in Africa, Indonesia and South America. He was also chosen as an ambassador to Chile on Operation Raleigh Expedition, an adventure-packed project for youth worldwide. His family was nominated to the Guinness Book of World Records as the first family to have all four children qualify for Operation Raleigh.

At JMU, Abdul-Hamid majored in mass communication and geography and minored in Asian studies, concentrating in Chinese.

After graduating, he returned to his job in the Singapore Air Force, where he grabbed headlines for being its first Malaysian minority pilot. He won the prestigious Sword of Honor as Best Officer Cadet-Elite Infantry Guards Brigade in 1989.

Abdul-Hamid was a childhood actor, beginning at age 5 in a children's television workshop. He grew into a young soap-opera star, and at age 22 performed as host of an MTV-type show, Night Rage.

In the JMU communication program, he was exposed to the other side of the TV camera and to American broadcasting. "I learned computer graphics and scriptwriting," Abdul-Hamid says. "I was very glad to have done scriptwriting here. In Singapore, I usually got the script. This time, I got to write them.

"If there is an opportunity for me to see and learn, I'll take it," Abdul-Hamid says. "You give me an opportunity and I'll go."



this is my friend zak. i just co-incidentally found it off the net. now i really don't know what to say or to believe. there is indeed so much more which i do not know.
(*gimme a cheese!*)

He's leaving... [13 Sep 2003|10:02pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | time after time-eva cassidy ]

Zak's leaving for US as he's posted there by the Singaporean Military air force. Again. He's going away for good I guess. I'll never see him again unless fate permits our paths to entwine.

Receiving his sms about he wanting to sell his car, informing me about his departure next month and about him passing me some car ads to tack it on my uni's boards made me feel dizzy. There was too much information to swallow within such a short time. My heart was tipped with a tinge of sadness, regret, and a sense of loss. It's the same feeling which haunted me when I said goodbye to Chiat and gang before I left for Perth. Yes-the same dodgy feeling which seem to penetrate through my heart, like a dagger.

It's funny how you can feel for a person so much, even though he's just a new found friend. Not just any hee hee ha ha friend, but someone whom had affected my life so deeply, yet still remained as mysterious as ever. There's just so much I don't know about him-yet he's taught and shared with me unconditionally. Only until yesterday, I managed to learn his full name and his date of birth.


No, he is not my school mate and we do not see each other everyday, yet his influence was profund, so much more than the 'friends' I call in school.

I still remember the day we met and how our friendship grew after the brief meeting. Despite our huge age gaps and personality clashes-we went on being friends. While he indulged in my youth, my spontaneity, my clumsy nature and my knack of being very silly at times, he returned with stories and inspirations to share, jokes galore, different point of views and knowledge of many other things which I'd never dreamt of.

I can still remember how we laughed over the icky pastries which we got, the jazz concerts and the live band gigs which we attended and that was where he taught me with all the musical knowledge that he've got, how we indulged in huge servings of seafood but weren't able to finish it, how we watched sunset along the coast as we drove past it, how he taught me to to read the stars and let me have a glimpse of Mars through his telescope, how he'd yanked the street directory off me while he was driving coz I was unable to read the road maps at all, how he'd spent me on chocolate coated strawberries,how he'd explain to me about his experience of being a major in the military air force and his students' crazy antics, his road trips through out US and UK while he was 18, how he convinced big companies to sponsor him and so much more.

There were times when I laughed in delight, and times when I quietly learned from him. He was never truly personal and our conversations was never a spill of his history but in subtle hints here and there, I learnt about his character, his motivation and his strength. I also discovered his cons and his weakness which he never admitted yet it never really did matter.


There were times when I thought I was infatuated with this incredible youthful 30 yr old guy, yet it just didn't feel right. My heart is still with very much with Andrew, yet as a friend and as a big brother, Zak is the one. All this for a platonic friendship. Most people don't see it that way but who cares? I'm just inspired. Inspired by a friend who held no conditions in the friendship;who earned nothing but gave away plenty of time, knowledge and companionship. Someone who'd always fetch me regardless of distance and someone who'd never complain despite having to endure every possible juvenile adventure imagined.


I'm not sure of what to give him before he leaves, but definitely something from the heart and a grateful hug.

I'm glad that the Russel Crowe's concert tickets are my treat.

(4 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

Dishevelled and messed up.. [09 Sep 2003|04:19pm]
[ mood | busy ]

My room is in a freaking mess....!! Shirts strewn all over, books topple over one another, spirit markers scattered colourfully on the carpet while piles of architecture mixed with media and information notes stack up in the most inconvenient places.

If only I have a digital camera, I would take a snap shot of it and let you judge for yourself. I'm not a very tidy and organized person by nature, yet I'm not THAT messy either. I don't know how the mess got so out of control. With all my work piling up, coming back to a pig sty feels like shit you know. Can't blame Andrew as well since he's constantly busy with work. URGGHHH.....somehow this weekend is gonna be spring cleaning time regardless of thesis, work and what nots. And I'm going make him dig through the pile of mess too...

Just came back from my Film and TV lecture. The screening today was grand, I should say. Thelma and Louise really kick men's ass! I really like the way how the show brings out very honest character potrayals of the two very different women. Like all buddy and road movie shows go, they start out on a journey with different mindsets and viewpoints, something happened along the way and they are never the same again. Their spirit was infectious and I found myself jigging in the dark lecture theatre to the twangy country music...ooohh yeah!

On the way home, I was mentally reviewing my academic performance through out this semester. Somehow, my effort put in wasn't all that great. I found myself wasting more time than ever, leaving my work to the last minute and didn't really do proper research before typing out my assignments. The 'cincai' and tidak apa attitude is eating me up again. I really hope that I wouldn't dissapoint myself and my family this semester.

I usually wouldn't bother about it but they are really counting on me. Really really.

I'm also counting on myself.

(2 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

Sometimes you don't have to go very far... [08 Sep 2003|10:43pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Mombasa-Tommy Emmanuel ]

A lot of people whom I came across commented that I must be crazy to have chosen Perth as a destination to further my tertiary studies. Must be boring with such a slow pace of life...most said.

Half a year ago, I couldn't agree more with them. I cursed and gritted my teeth when boredom sets in. My hectic lifestyle back home generally caused me some obstacles during my process of settling in. Even novitiate programme( a two week retreat in a temple where you get to experience life as a renounced(monk/nun) one) didn't prepare me for the dreary and slow hundrum of life here. As much as I value the relaxing moments and the people who actually take time to smile and talk to you (because they have all the time in the world and not in a rush to be in somewhere else all the time!!), not having supermarkets open after 6 pm and on Sundays, and basic services like banks which only serve you 5 times a week were simply too much for me! Some busses don't even operate on Sundays for goodness sake!

Besides-I never had any kaki close enough to hang out with(other than Andrew whom I see 24/7!) or any other interesting activities to keep myself busy other than school. It was just simply depressing and I was on a constant fight or flight mode. I wanted very much to escape from everything else because I just don't belong. Being an outgoing and a very sponatneous person, Perth was just hellish. Dullsville.

"You can't wait for things to happen, you've gotta make things happen," Zak once told me over the MSN.

I've always admired his strength and determination when it comes to getting things done. Driven by self-motivation and an optimistic outlook of life, his 30 years were filled with huge experiences which are interesting enough to regale it to his grandchildren in the future. He once climbed Mt Kilimanjaro with Raleigh International, surf decently, was a drummer in a premier band back in Spore, modify guitars and sell it for a few thousand bucks, plays golf, a jet-flying instructor, ex-sailing instructor, speaks multiple languages, takes up astronomy and celestial navigation and a hundred more other things which he hasn't got time to share. Often, I complained about how my life is not working out the way I want it to be and how I wish I have more money, more friends, or in a better place..etc etc. I questioned about his efforts and how he managed to undergo so many exciting things in life and how he come about to realizing his dreams. Some people have all luck, was my excuse to justify why my life wasn't as happening as his. And also why so many of my dreams are still left as dreams.

"Look Ying, I'm just as ordinary as you are and my amount of luck is probably the same that you've got. You just got to make things happen. You just got to know where to look for opportunities and sometimes you don't have to go very far......" the guru(self adopted) said.

And so I just did what he said. Every second of my life, I'd try to look out for precious chances to do what I really like to do, to further explore my interests and expand my social circle sincerely. Why crawl when you can fly, I told myself over and over again. Yet sometimes I face dead ends, wondering where the hell are all the opportunities in Perth? The conditions of my dreams require me to be in a busier place, a livelier place, and a 'happening' place where things happen all the time.

Then again, he said you don't have to go very far...I know the grass is usually never greener on the other side but for my case, it must be exceptional, I thought. Yet I was determined to challenge the stereotypes and the awful destiny which I thought was written out in the stars. Ying-doomed to lead a predictable lifestyle.

Now that I've known a couple of good friends like Emily and Esther, things began to look up. Excessive enthusiasm became a positive trait amongst us. Just do it was no longer just a popular tagline for Nike. Just do it is our positive reinforment so that we get our bloody lazy asses to just do whatever we truly want to do! Perth or not....no excuses. It's not denying..it's embracing.

My photography assignment then came in as a blessing in disguise. Having been to Freo(Fremantle) so many times, I concluded that my shots wouldn't vary much from what you get from postcards and tourists' snaps. Yet-revisiting Freo with Emily and Esther last week proved my pre-assumptions wrong. I was more than wrong. I was just being unfair.

There were so many things to see, to do and to explore. It was an experience of the senses. Everything was so colourful and beautiful compared to the black and white which I imagined before. I remember poking our noses into every shop, walking along the shore and feel the fine grains of white sand under our feet, exploring the yummy seafood other than the conventional fish and chips, enjoying the busking culture, chat up with some locals, sip coffee along the cappucino(al-frescos) strip and simply just watch people while jazzy strains of sax and guitar fill the atmosphere.

***


Emily and I indulged in Kaili's seafood platter which consisted of oysters,half a lobster,salad, tiger prawns, fish and plenty of chips. Good food were scarce so what the hell-it's only once in a lifetime experience. Later, we had coffee and cheesecake as desert. It costs an awful lot of money, yet our cravings were satisfied and we've done it! We then had fresh chocolate coating strawberries which were bought from the Freo Markets.

As we walked along, we came across this quaint and yet magnificent bookshop. It is an arts bookshop which has shelves stacked with topics like local creative talents, philosophy,art, architecture, travel, photography, religion...etc. It was a haven for booklovers or even for the mere public. As one good thing leads to another, it was also in the New Edition bookshop where I found out about the 12 week philosophy course which is offered by the School of Practical Philosophy. The deal was too good to be true ever since my interest in philosophy peaked after reading works by Jostein Gaarder. What is even more cool is the fact that practical philosophy isn't about history of philosophy or a comparative study of philosophers. Known as a non-dualistic philosophy, it is applicable in daily life-that truth is limitless and there's unity underlying diversity.

At first, I shook my head as 9.30am on Saturday mornings are lousy ways to start a weekend and money is also an issue as well. Just as I was about to chuck the piece of information to the rubbish bin of my brain, I rethought about the priority of my interest and how I'd regret for not being brave enough to make the first move. The just do it tagline breezed through my head again. It is now or never.
This Saturday would be my first lecture.

***




Just do it took over me again today when I summed up my guts to sit down and chat with Blair about the advertising industry so that I can gain more insight to it. I was rewarded with two free Campaign Brief periodicals, extra knowledge, and an acknowledgement of my invisible existence in Creative Ad Theory 291 class.

For the next few weeks, I'll be joining the Curtin Volunteers for an outback experience where we'll help the rural community to run a couple of errands and truly embrace their culture.

Say--now Perth isn't such a bad place after all, is it? Been in and out a couple of live gigs, jazz concerts, experienced sunsets along the Sunset Coast, yum char by the Swan River as day turned to dusk, had plenty of pig outs whenever we want to, meeting new people at unexpected places, signing up for courses which I've always longed for--this is even better than all the Friends, Dawson's Creek and Gilmore Girls put together! I've experienced so much diversity which I never did back home or in any of the big cities which I've visited. So much spontaneity enhances the innate sense of adventure.





It's not the place which determines the flow of the story, it is the people living in it.

Freedom of Words domain
(3 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

Possibilities... [07 Sep 2003|10:59pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Call me, Call me---Cowboy Bebop ]

It's confirmed-I'm going home end of this year, but not for long. Pa called me up this morning to give me a 20 minute long lecture over the expensive international phone call about why I should go home but only for a month. He ardently believes that I'd be spending more money when I get back than if I stay here.

"Yalah..later you lepak here and there.....need money what. You better stay in Perth and work longer..." were his exact words. Dear Pa....yes lah...you never seem to change your perspective towards how your only daughter spends her money.

I wonder what would happen when I get back. It's been a year since I last saw everyone.
Would Choon Ling still accept me as her crazy old buddy, without any harsh expectations that I would and should stay the same? Will she embrace me with tears of joy instead of akward hostility during conversations?

Would dear old Chiat, Kah Fatt, Jowynne and the rest regconize that this is the same mouse that has left and returned?Only this time, a little wiser, more matured and more confrontational instead of shying away from relentless teasings?

Would my IACT and HELP college mates anticipate on my return, hoping that we can catch up when I get home instead of ignoring the friend who never was and never truly belonged?

Would my bed still hold of the wonderful treasures of comfort and security, with everything in the same place since the last time I saw them? Would the underwater glow in the dark fishies still glow and the private glories embedded within the trophies still gleam?

Would Pa and Ko wait for their precious youngest member to come back and complete the circle of bond and love? Would Pa still think of me as an airhead kid? Will Ko still not let me touch his precious PC? Will I be able to accept the presence of my stepmother without any form of denial and apathy?

Would my aunties and uncles and grandparents think of me differently, now that I'm an overseas university student? Will they gossip about how I've matured or how 'sombong' am I? Would my cousins still treat me as one of the them-the feminist gang who'd stay up and talk about anything under the sun during the heat of Chinese New Year, regardless of my lack of presence during important family functions?


So many unnecassary and unwanted questions of fear and issues of belonging.

I pray everything turns out well when I get back.

I MISS HOME.

Back to Freedom of Words' domain

(6 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

[07 Sep 2003|02:10am]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | HELP ME!-yours truly ]

I think I'm fat. Really. No, this is not some joke or a taunt at horizontally challenged people. Many would never believe that my stick thin figure is finally gaining some fat. I myself was shocked to see the amount of flabs that accumulated over the months since my stay here.

I have to admit that winter is the time where I started indulging like nobody's business especially when I stay up to do work till late night(or rather morning). While working, my mouth never seem to stop craving for something to munch or bite. Hence, Indomie and chips became my best friends. Or sometimes even bread, ham and cheese. Basically anything consumable within the reach of my hand. Scary huh?

Not only my stomach became extremely vulnerable to these additional unnecassary junk, my cheeks are puffing up too and my chin is cloning a second layer of the first. ARK!

Today's diet was also an example of food madness. After a late lunch of Hungry Jack's(equivalent to Burger King in everywhere else in the world), Andrew, Genesis and I pigged out in 24 hour pizza palour. We ordered two huge plates of sphagetthi and 12 slices of seafood pizza. While Genesis and Andrew can't eat beef, I had to finish one plate of mince meat by myself! How awful can that get?

When we reached home, there were loaves of cinnamon buns and treacle rolls everywhere. Apparently, the next door Auntie came over and gave every house a package filled with bread. I was extraordinarily full yet couldn't resist the urge to take some bites off a cinnamon bun.

Later, after the watching Runaway Bride on Channel 7, Yessy, my housemate cut a large slice of Fruit Pavlova(some excruiciatingly sweetened cake)for me even though I didn't want it. Urgghhh..I practically had to force the raw sugar wannabe cake down my throat. I remember gulping glasses of water after that.

Now that it's two a.m., I've yet recover from the ordeal. The seams of my shirt feels as if it's about to burst.

ARGGGHH....

(*gimme a cheese!*)

Silly girls... [06 Sep 2003|06:00pm]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | Tommy Emmanuel-Since We Met ]

Today was simply a day of shopping. Having agreed to shopping with Emily is like signing a contract to allow myself to be dazzled by the wonders of Perth's city shops. We managed to unearth some nice goodies which were on 50% sale. We walked from shops to shops, poking in and checking out every interesting item which we can get our hands on. Kookai,Krazy Teez,Sports' Warehouse, StarSurf...you name it.

The minimal funds in my account would not allow me to try on the sale items just in case I like it. However, due to some unforseen circumstances--I found a white short cotton skirt which looked irresistable and the price was additional temptation to lure me into getting it. Figuring that maybe the size wouldn't fit, I decided to give it a go, It was an honest assumption but alas, life has a funny way of giving you kicks when you least needed it. It was a perfect fit and Emily was screaming that if I don't buy it- I'll be cursed not to find another one again.

Damn-the battle of desicions within my mind took quite a while. In the end-I succumbed to materialism. The post evaluation of my desicion was filled with mix emotions. One hand was swinging happily a white paper bag while the other was clutching at my wallet painfully. Oh well-in life, you can't have everything eh?


***



Anyway-the initial intention for a walk in the city was to purchase tickets for an upcoming gig which will be held on the 27th in The Lookout, at Scaborough Beach. Over looking the Indian Pacific Ocean, on a nice and warm Spring Saturday evening, what could be better than that?

Time for the golden question...who's playing? It's none other than 30 Odd Foot of Grunt which is also popularly known as Russel Crowe's band. Right after playing in Chicago's House Of Blues, TOFOG will only be in Perth for a one time performance. Even though I'm not much of a Russel Crowe fan, I'm pretty excited that I'm going to hear one of the more famous people playing instead of the nameless local band gigs which are held here. Of course, that is not to imply that the local Perth bands aren't of any good. It's just that having a band which has toured at least a considerable amount of places(US and Canada and Australia) and promises full house for their gigs lend them extra credibility. I have not had any experience with Crowe's music but his genre tend to fall somewhere between blues and folk rock, and that's cool with me. Besides, many reviews assured me of Crowe's sexy husky voice....how can I miss that?

Of course, there's plenty who wouldn't even pay a buck to see Crowe much less attend his concert(which many assume that they got famous just because of Crowe's Hollywood status)....but these people are also the ones who have not heard of his songs. I reckon that's simply unfair since it undermine the rest of the group's talent...after all....a band is not just about the lead singer, it's a bloody team work affair which requires every band member's contribution.

However, I'll still leave some room for benefit of doubt. I'll give you a verdict after I attend it.
***



My artistic side is coming back to me again ever since I met Emily. As much as Zak is willing to accompany me to Jazz gigs and music events, he's not as enthusiastic as Emily in the whole of the performing arts sphere. Alas-I found myself an arty farty kaki who's just enthusiastic about almost every performance or event. I met Emily during the volunteer briefing of the Multi Cultural Week and has been firm friends ever since. Sharing similar interests, over-the-top enthusiasm and even geographical background(both KL residents and hometown co-incidentally in Ujong Pasir, Malacca), there's a delightful bond of familiarity in our friendship. We clicked from the very start when we expressed how much we enjoy the arts scene.

Anyway-after purchasing the tickets from His Majesty's Theatre, we got even more excited. The ticketing booth was filled with posters and pamphlets of performaces. There was a childish delight when we filled our paperbags with more information so that we're constantly updated about ballets,jazz gigs,live bands,broadway musicals, theatre...etc.


The Italian Film Fest is coming soon......so hurrah!! My Italian Film and TV tutor, Antonio, will knock himself out marking my film journal.

Freedom Beyond Words' domain
(*gimme a cheese!*)

unintelligible rantings at 3.57 AM [06 Sep 2003|03:56am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | the monotonous hum of my dying CPU ]

Tomorrow's going to be an early start for me..even though it's a bloody Saturday morning!
But that's not the point.

The question is...what the hell am I still doing here?

Until now..the amount of bullshit rhetorics which I spoke never cease to amaze me...

PS-I'm going to get some gig tickets tomorrow...guess who's playing?

(3 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

who says i can't cook?! [05 Sep 2003|09:19pm]
[ mood | full ]
[ music | Stephanie Sun-My desired happiness ]

YIPPE-I managed to cook a nice western meal, complete with juicy marinated diced lamb, cheese and pepper pasta and Chinese cabbage to go, for dinner! It seems like a weird combination but overall, it's worth an eat. Haha-of course, the fantastic marination came from the Master's Mustard,Mint and Herb sauce which I've just bought.....but still, to stretch the taste by adding a touch of peri peri powder and real mixed herbs is completely my creativity at work. Besides-the fusion between the East and West requires some originality. Give me some credit lah!

Funny how I developed cullinary skills only after I got here. Back home, there's no reason for me to cook. When our maid stopped her service, my mum took over like before and has been cooking since. Since my mum has always been a wonderful cook, why would anyone in the family want to trade her for me? It didn't strike me that one day, I'll have to take her place.

After mum's passing, pa took over instead. The catch is, Pa has never really cooked anything in his entire lifetime. He'd cook simple stuff like steamed vegetables and fried fish or sometimes steamed chicken, but the variety stops there. Koko(older bro in Mandarin) and I used to complain about pa's cooking-how tasteless the soup is and how dry the fish feels in our mouth yet none of us took the initiative to take over from poor Pa.

It was only when I started going out with Andrew where tables started to turn. Andrew would cook up a storm when I'm over at his house and sure enough, I was impressed. It didn't dawn me that it's so embarassing that a guy could cook and I couldn't. I never had much practice except for cooking rice and instant noodles. Much to my horror, I was forced to receive lessons from him so that I can eventually cook a proper meal for survival(or so he says.)

I started off by frying noodles for him each time he's bombarded with work. And as I got the hang of it, I started adding more stuff into the noodles to create different flavours and taste. I was hardly a competent student and usually ended up with too much salt, too dry or overcooked soggy stuff. Hahaha....thinking about my past attempts really cracks me up. However, Andrew was patient and was confident that I could do better. He wouldn't permit me to watch TV while he slogged his ass off in the kitchen. rolls eyes GEE!

Eventually, I got better. I even took effort to learn from Ah Ma(paternal grandmother) some of her greatest seret recipes. It was like a spectacle, to watch how her deft fingers spin the ladel and work back and forth to add in the correct spices. I could never accept the fact that she never touches Brahim's curry sauce or Continental's Terriyaki Sauce to create the RIGHT taste. Every ingredients that go into her pan are purely herbs, vegetables and raw spices. Until now, I'm still unable to adpot her style, due to lack of experience and skills.

Today, I'm proud to declare that I'm capable of cooking something decent, if not, delicious!!After all, I've got a hungry boyfriend to feed daily. One who refuses to cook once his apprentice got proper education. For better or worse......

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PS-At least now, Andrew is able to list my girlfriend's cooking as one of his favourites.


Freedom Beyond Word's domain
(2 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

the sun is here to stay... [05 Sep 2003|02:22pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Acoustic Alchemy-Nouveau Tango ]

The sun is absolutely fantastic. After 3 months of enduring blustering winds and icy, cold nights-nothing feels better than a sovereign sun ruling in the skies above, showering us with its glorious blessings.


I'm feeling rather lazy at the moment, without needing to go for classes today. The week has been pretty hectic with two assignments due and a test to get through. Yesterday was a personal achievement and challenge of time, where I raced through the hours trying to write out a decent summary and critical analysis of the academic Law and Policy readings which were given. I didn't manage to thoroughly explore Foucault's theory of Discipline and Punish but through wonders of technology, I somehow got hold of the simplified and analyzed version of the originals. Hence, instead of ardously going through the Foucault's rah rah rahing about power, which basically looked very much like Greek to me, the simplified version has provided me the key concepts which I need to know within a glance or two.

To tell you the truth, I only started the assignment at 1am, after being dragged to supper in Northbridge by my Han's Cafe colleagues. I can't believe the guys have so much to talk about and so many secrets of Han's Cafe to unearth. It's amazing how much the new waitresses like me, do not know about.

Anyway-due to my profund lateness-the price to pay was heavy. I didn't sleep a wink through the wee hours and finally got to print the assignment of 1350 words(which only carries 15%!) at 9 am and then forced myself to study the four heavy chapter of my Advertising Principles book for the second test which was held at 2pm.
After the Creative Ad theory class finished at 5.30pm, I was utterly beat and felt a persistent tendency to collaspe.

But when I finally got home-I got myself going till about 1am when I finally got proper sleep.

How bad can a student's life get? Of course, I'd say it's my fault for having procrastinating my assignments for so long-yet, while I wasn't doing THOSE assignments, I was doing the others. From the way I see it, the unit-coordinators are simply having tonnes of fun making students' lives hellish. Not a exactly a great way to remember campus life by-but the irony seething behind the agony is-I'm blardee enjoying myself!

Talk about excessive enthusiasm eh?

(2 cheeses | *gimme a cheese!*)

Starting new.. [04 Sep 2003|01:33pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | acoustic alchemy-a different kind of freedom ]

Sometimes I think I'm trying too hard. Yet sometimes I think that I'm not making things happen.
Whatever it is, I hope to live my life the best I could-even if it's measured by great achievements-it's no where on par with the rest.

I started of with lj, but ended up crawling into hiatus for whatever reason which I've yet to confirm. I guess it's probably the fact that I've been writing too much for others to read rather than for myself. I cracked my head for some creative juices and usually, I'll end up with a headache and an empty space on the screen.

I guess I've fallen into a trap of deceit where extravagant features started to cloud the real me. I really want to be honest with myself. I can't really cope up with the superficial personas that I've created anymore. It's just not ME.

Writing for the world to read is another thing. As noble as it seem to be, it's not that easy. It's hard to cater for everyone's reading buds. Over here, I can pen all I like without anxiously waiting for comments or complimentary words. I can retell and reaffirm my feelings over and over again without needing to justify it or worry that people might get sick of it. Anyway, it doesn't matter so much to me anymore. I'll have to learn to let go the craving for limelight.

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I really hate kicking off with a splendid introduction of my personal life, about who I am and what I do. As much as I enjoy flaunting my talents and giving people an insight into my life, it's just too much trouble retelling the worn out tales. If you're lucky, you'll get to know me better as I continue with this blurty. If I'm still as mysterious as ever behind a dark hood, after say...10 years later?....then, that's just too bad.
(*gimme a cheese!*)

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