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10:03pm 06/01/2004
 
mood: sad
music: As Dawn Falls - From Texas With Love
I don't know what to think.I'm inlove with Chaz one minute and the next I feel like killing him.

I know I haven't been the nicest person to him lately..or anyone for that fact but I've been going through alot and I know I shouldn't complain because it's not much but I'd like some apprechiation once in a while.

If he does care about me so much..then why does he keep acting like all he wants is to get laid?

Fuck this shit.I'm done.		  
     
 
*sigh*   
06:34pm 06/01/2004
 
mood: distressed
music: plain white t's : leavin'
I'm starting to really like Shawn.And I really do doubt he feels the same way.He told Lena he doesn't want a girlfriend.Ahhh.I have no clue why I like him either.

Brittany is realllly pissing me off.I know she doesn't mean to but damn..I'm starting to get aggrivated at her.Plus her make-up's like..eck.

Samantha called me pretty then slapped me.

We ate lunch in the cafeteria.I didn't even know we had one.Laith and the twins and Ryan were playing Magic.It smelled like boater and dry milk..ew.

I got my pay check.100 woohoo!I hafta go cash it in soon.

Mid-terms are next week..and I have no clue on what's going on.		  
     
 
[oh man]   
10:33pm 04/01/2004
 
mood: confused
music: thursday : understanding in a car crash
I really don't know what to do about Chaz.I love him to death and he means everything to me but I don't think I can be with him anymore.I told him..er tryed telling him how I felt today.All he could tell me was 'I don't want to loose you, and I can't'.*sigh*
I don't know anymore.Maybe I should just take a break from him?Ahhh.Fuck it.

Tomorrow I get to go back to school.I haven't seen Laith and Ryan for a while.And I think I should buy Nadia a late x-mas present.*shrug* I don't know if I should though.

I spent friday night and most of saturday with Lauren.We went shopping at Southland.Whoa the boys there are so pretty.And I think I seen Chaz there but I wasn't sure.But I seen Sheep and his friends there..buttt I didn't talk to them.

Haha Lauren -- Courtney is the THE BIGGEST Strokes fan!		  
     
 
 
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