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[28 Mar 2004|02:24pm] |
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jesus christ i feel like i've stumbled into the twilight zone. everything is fucked. but in a very calm way......how odd. i think i've come to the mutual agreement with a close friend of mine that we have outgrown each other. hence my previous post....which unfortunatley was a drunken rage.....
but now it's ok...life is so fucked right now and for some reason this is the first time in so long where i feel like i'm figuring shit out.
so that's my story.
good day
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[28 Mar 2004|02:04am] |
ok, so here's my take on it
i realised tonight that all the people who said they were my "friends" and all the people who gave a fuck about me...it's all a bunch of fucking bullshit.
i know who my real friends are now. so fuck it. fuck all of you. i don't give a shit anymore. i fought for way too long and cared way too much. and for what. fucking nothing.
fuck you.
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[26 Mar 2004|11:40pm] |
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whoa.....well i decided last week i'd cut down.....and of course it's friday and i say fuck that. it's so very early...we started at like waht.......6? 7? i don't even remember/
fuck everything.......after all these months of thinking about what i could do with my life to make me happy....i say fuck everything. nothing is worth it, i might as well drnk myself into a stupor until i don't care anymore.
fuck you.
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[24 Mar 2004|10:39pm] |
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so my dad is buying another house...what's that, 4? i don't understand how this works.
in other events, he also may be getting sued from the assholes at ed video. yay i'm gonna live in a box! but that's ok, i'll find a big one, like a fridge box. then i'll dress it up nice and pretty like a fort, just like the old days. comon you remember box forts!
why isn't the week just over already! i wanna go to the show.
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[20 Mar 2004|07:56pm] |
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i went to the dayglo abortions show on thursday, and it was fucking awesome. only they had these little girls up on stage dancing around without and shirts on. i was slightly disturbed.
then yesterday i saw dawn of the dead!! ahhhhhhh zombies! zombies are so funny....
i hate wanting something so badly and not being able to have it. story of my fucking life.
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[16 Mar 2004|02:44pm] |
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so i haven't updated in quite some time. here's a run down.
binge drinking....i love alcohol. i can't stress this enough. i'm covered in buises, but how did they get there? i've been living off fucking nothing due to my healthy diet of malt liquer. uggghhhhhhh gonna vomit......
last night i sat in joshs living room for a good part of the night talking to people, watching them do lines off his coffee table, and dancing alot for some reason. then i was upstairs helping this chick whitney puke. we thought she was done and put her to bed......2 seconds later she runs into the bathroom. so we're trying to get in and somehow........somehow she puked under the fucking door, and all over our feet. i stopped helping there.
i then passed out in a bed with 2 other people. whom both snored.
for some reason i'm not hungover, good because i have to work in 2 hours. but i'm finally home so i'm going to make a fucking feast and eat till i can't move...make up for lost time. i fucking love the holidays!
st pattys day is tomorrow. we all know what that means.
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[08 Mar 2004|09:54pm] |
this is a message to ben brake, if you ever come on here.
you're band website needs a guestbook, so i can send hatemail.
love, Ratboy.
ps, has anyone seen the blurty personal of the day? it looks like a woman with a beard. i'm creeped out.
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[06 Mar 2004|10:30pm] |
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"That microwave is tiny! you could only fit one baby in there!"
so.....i haven't updated in awhile...i'm apparently losing interest. i'm by myself right now....we were gonna go out tonight but we got drunk in my basement, now i'm waiting for them to come back from picking up. z
i've never been drunk by myself this early before....ahhh....i'm gonna go for a walk. hopefully kristen doen't get here when i'm gone.......
what a horribly, pointless entry........i hate drunk university students......i hope they wonder into traffic........ok goodbye
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[28 Feb 2004|05:55pm] |
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No one ever let me drink that much again!
so.....the decay played pretty decent last night. bahamian rum kicked my ass! we went to bens house after that and had alot of really long and drunken conversations with a bunch of differnt people i didn't know. i vaguely remember walking to the house...and then that's where the whole memory thing stops. for some reason i didn't puke, but i woke up wrapped in a sleeping bag on the bathroom floor. how confusing......
i need to sleep.....get rested for tonight. i have to finish that 40....show it who's boss.
ok. everyone go to steves tonight....or perish.
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[24 Feb 2004|02:46pm] |
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Hi...
you would not believe where i am right now.
well probably..i'm in the upstairs of a library, doors open to a balcony which overlooks the..ocean.
it's so hot here. i love it.. i never want to leave although i'm horribly homesick. i miss all of you and i miss guelph.
yesterday we went to hudson island and i layed on a beach all day. i met someone from toronto and he was my main entertainment for the day. ordered drinks and my skin WILL NOT TAN!! i have been outside for...4 days now? i'm still pasty. what the fuck is going on.
anyways...i'm having so much fun. bars don't ID..there's beaches everywhere, the ocean is warm and so clear and the people are so fucking nice. this is just what i needed. a vacation. from everything.
my dad has just told me it's minus 2 right now in canada. guess what it is here?? just guess...
whoever thought of sucking the meat out of conch shell and eating it? honestly...
well, i've been sober all week with the exception of a few beers at a bar the other night, and i havne't had a cigarette in...well since i got here. i figure i'll just quit. sounds good.
i have so much to say..but i wont waste any more of your time. i'm taking lot's of pictures so if you care ask and i will show them to you.
so i was also thinking last night that he (you know who) is thousands of miles away and i do'nt miss him. somehow this seems worse then how it was before....but it's good right? other then that i've been having wikid crazy nightmares. being here makes up for them though.
ok...i guess that's it. i'm sad i missed the kegger, i hope you guys had fun! i love you all and i'll see you friday.
i'm very happy. the bahamian men sing to you when you walk by their houses...they sit on their verandas drinking beer.
the end.
oh yeah..i get paid the day i come back. i need to make up for the kegger. who's with me? (and yes i'm really only expecting jenni to reply to this)
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[15 Feb 2004|03:08pm] |
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yesterday i was wished a happy V.D. hahaha.
so i went to the party last night very upset because i'm broke ass and i was the only sober one there except for debra. somehow......somehow i got trashed. i went to the bar for the first time (brendans friends with the bouncers and he told them i could kill them if they said anything).
johns dog is named wilson and i swear to god every 5 minutes all i heard was people screaming a cast away impression. the dog was so fucking scared.
WILSON!!
anyways........i was reading this article today about peter gabriel teaching moneys how to play pianos. and there was one part where the ape said in sign language that she would only play the piano if she got jello. i had no idea that fuckin monkeys could converse and play instruments! i want one! i'll never be lonely again.....
"who's going home with me? anyone? anyone? nicki?"
...buehler.....?
i'm going to rent that movie today...
how the hell do you spell his last name?
ok i'm just going to stop.
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[11 Feb 2004|08:24pm] |
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hey assholes,
haven't been updating this thing much....nothing has been happening exciting enough to write about. went to the trash for a bit on sunday cause it was matts birthday. of course the bands sucked though so we left. the trash fuckin sucks now.
my new semester is really easy. i have a 3rd spare again, which is good because i'm finding it hard to deal with school when not stoned. i'm guessing i should hang in there for now since i leave in a week...for a week. actually going to classes is hard. somehow i did pretty good last semester though. it doesn't make any sense.
oh shit i just ate so much chinese food. all chinese food reminds me of drinking..becuase in a typical night of drinking we eat suns suns. now i'm thinking about missing the farewell kegger.....which i guess is worth it but jesus christ...i'm pissed.
i'm so fucking tired. this city is boreing the hell out of me latley. there's nothing to fucking do, and come march there will be no more house. which means no hang out place, no where to drink...no where to crash on weekends...man i love that house. so many good times.
what's with all the fucking snow! why isn't it summer already. fuck.
anyways....pay day tomorrow. it's gonna be a fun weekend.
the end.
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[04 Feb 2004|09:39pm] |
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so i thought i had strept throat again, luckily it just turned into a fever...then a cold.
what is with the lack of shows latley? has anyone else noticed the abundance of crappy bands playing latley? well, i'm gonna go to bandwars sunday crappy bands or not. it's been far too long. that and it's matts birthday and i haven't seen that kid in forever. i'm also thinking i'll drink a forty to make the night interesting...haven't done that in awhile.
15 more days till eluthra yes i'm counting down. although...apparently getting caught with weed there i'll end up in jail....with no chance of help from canadian lawyers and whatnot. so no dice.
shit.....i just realised i am going to be here for the last kegger....i think. is it still next weekend? i'm confused.
fuck this....i'm bored of this journal.
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[02 Feb 2004|02:10pm] |
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I can't say anything without it coming back at me. Latley, if i feel like i can trust someone and tell them something, somehow, for some reason, people like to extend the truth and share it with others. i'm sick of this circle of talking behind each others backs, and then the crazy accusations that come after it.
i have done nothing wrong. so why do i constantly feel like i should be guilty?
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[30 Jan 2004|07:10pm] |
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krista and i have come up with the best plan ever. i want to wait for sarah and kenz to graduate to move to toronto (so they can move with me), but that means i'm gonna have to wait around this shithole working. so, we figured, sometime after next year when i finally graduate, we're going to travel. she's got 5000 bucks saved up, so i have alot to catch up on. i'm not sure exactly when this is going to happen, but i feel i need to do this. we were talking about it just now and i got myself all worked up. we're going to backpack it around europe, i plan on getting trashed in youth hostels with the locals, see where my family came from, whatever. i'm fucking excited.
james is coming down tonight, it's jenni's birthday party, and i have beer. this is turning into the best day ever.
the movie seven gave me the worst nightmares ever. *shudders*
i need a new job!
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[28 Jan 2004|06:14pm] |
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hmm, so anyone know some good ways to smuggle drugs over the border? unless i want bahamas weed, which i'm not sure i trust.
haha what a stupid post.
ok, i have to go study for my exam tomorrow. ciao!
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[28 Jan 2004|10:36am] |
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fuck you, fuck you, fuck you........you're cool.......fuck you.
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[24 Jan 2004|06:19pm] |
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ahhh shit kegger tonight i'm gonna get so fuckin drunk. kegs are being tapped in 3 hours i have think of something to do untill then.
here's what's on my mind
-i hope kate shows up so i can put my boot in her face
-i hope i DON'T puke
-the show better be good
-kenz volenteered to beat up chase. haha she could do. fucking little shit.
anyways..the kathedral is in toronto right? the adicts are playing there on september 30..or so says the riot 99 website. their biography ends with "then we went on tour etc etc i've gotta take a shit. get fucked". hahaha ok bye.
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[23 Jan 2004|04:08pm] |
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ok. let's have a vote. if you're dating a girl (or guy), would you ask their best friends older sister(or brother) to "go home with you" and expect NOT TO GET CAUGHT!?
jesus fucking christ, i hope he gets hit by a truck. i put so much effort into that relationship and it meant nothing.
someone kill him.
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[22 Jan 2004|05:53pm] |
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so it turns out we're driving down through the states and taking a plane to the bahamas. my grandparents have a cottage there so it'll be cheap to stay there. we were just going to take a plane for the whole thing but it's too expensive. otherwise, i'm fucking excited! bahamas! warmth!
this will all happen the first few weeks of feburary.
well...not much has been happening. we're on exam break now and the kegger is coming up. i'm excited minus my "problem" i've been having latley. we all know i'm gonna puke, i should just accept it.
well i'm bored and just taking up time before i go out....so good day to you all.
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