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[16 May 2004|07:22pm]
umm...i think i'm gonna stop using this. for real this time. having more then one journal is confusing.i bid you farewell.
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[13 May 2004|07:20pm]
[ music | jimmy cliff - draw your breaks ]

look i'm doing a quiz.

eat shit )
ok so yeah wasn't that fun? i saw sarah downtown today. i was waiting for my bus it was weird. it was like seeing a boyfriend for the first time after breaking up with them. i actually got butterflys. i miss the good times..but the good times were so very long ago...years almost. how did everything fall apart, and so quick. i wish people could just get along.
i got some bad news today. i guess i've known it all along...

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[12 May 2004|07:37pm]
[ mood | scared ]
[ music | slackers - wasted days ]

I was just in my backyard taking pictures...and i think i stumbled into the twilight zone. i came to this little arangement of trees, and the first thing i noticed was someone had painted them white, along with random stones and whatnot. then..over to one side was three little beds, two desks put together as a table with chairs on either side, and a sofa. what the hell! who's living in my backyard.
anyways i took a bunch of pictures of it, and decided i would develop them and post them on the trees. then kristen came up with the brilliant idea of, after posting them, waiting for these people to come back and take pictures of them discovering said pictures. then we'll post them on the trees with a note that says "i'm always watching you."

i'm creepy.

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red like a lobster. lobster boy. dun dun dun [11 May 2004|10:41pm]
[ mood | aggravated and hungry ]
[ music | defiance ]

i was talking to this girl today about depo, and here's a nice tidbit of information i had never heard about it. why was i not informed? one side effect - hair loss on your head, and abnormal hair growth on anywhere but your head.

i don't want to have to join a circus.

i have a v shaped sunburn on my back. i'm way too pale to be out in the sun, ever. i'm sick of school. and we're screwed for the house. oh...and i'm doing a photoshoot. i need models. volunteer and i'll give you money. or pay you in other forms. do it.

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[10 May 2004|09:33pm]
[ mood | bored ]

we got a rat. her name is mrs. bojangles. she's pretty.

i'm bored. i've been working out. let's fight.

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[09 May 2004|10:27am]
[ mood | ow ]

last night i got in some much needed partying. fuck that was so much fun. there were so many people crammed into that tiny basement..anyways andy's birthday party everyone got plowed. ben kissed me after DRINKING SALAD DRESSING that was pretty gross......
we took a cab home (me kristen and brake) and while turning onto victoria ben says "oh you guys are going home?" gets out of the cab and RUNS towards downtown. not towards his house...or back to the party...but downtown. WHY!? it was so very confusing.

ahhh i can't think of anything the fucking phone woke me up i have a headache and i'm shaking a whole lot. fuck you hangover i have to go to a family dinner today. good day.

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just like every cowboy sings a sad, sad song [05 May 2004|12:18pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

oooh shit. last night i very randomly saw the unseen...we went downtown, and tried for like 3 hours for someone to get us fortys. finally some crazy old man bought them for us, because we were such "nice looking people" (what a weirdo). so we got on the bus to TO at 4:30 and took turns drinking in the bathroom. i was drunk for like 15 minutes. damn you tolerance!

anyways, we got there, found the pheonix and all was well. the unseen played fucking amazing....although their set was really short. they started with police brutality and ended with a cover of haloween by the misfits. i was satisfied.
after that it was kinda boreing, the next band were horrible! there was some guy with a huge beard jumping around and playing his microphone stand the entire set. WHAT WAS HIS PURPOSE! i don't understand... other then that, the highlights were meeting those guys and invited them to our first house party, and getting the pamphlet about swearing. i can now say cunt in 7 different languages. oh toronto.
every muscle in my body hurts....uuuughhhhhhhh........i still have to walk back to school........good day.

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[03 May 2004|12:26am]
[ mood | amused ]

there's a scorpian on my kitchen table....

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[01 May 2004|02:02pm]
[ music | last resort - king of the jungle ]

i really, really wish it didn't affect me like this...

went to a show last night. black maria were headlining, they were fucking horrible. i hated the singer. a few of the bands were alright...stress alright. meh...
i can't stop thinking about the house...i'm so pissed hodgson cant' move in till july. that means we need someone to fill for him and pay rent for a month. who the fucks gonna do that! no one...i really hope we aren't screwed. the house would be the perfect change.
what the fucks the plan for tonight assholes? someone buy me a forty. the whole sober thing really isn't doing it for me. i don't remember the last time i was so fucking angry.
good day

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just know that it's not stronger then you... [29 Apr 2004|07:52pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | toots and the maytals - i need your love ]

georgia's really funny. she said she wants to stab ben in the neck so she can go to jail, where there will be lots of chicks. there are a lot of chicks everywhere.
warm weather is finally here. it makes me happy. i'm ready for school to be over. i miss krista. i want to move out soon. every night when i go to bed i get this sick feeling in the bottem of my stomach and a headache.

my cat is meowing very loudly. more so's really weird. anyways i really only wanted to tell you all about georgia. she called me "little buddy." it made me really angry. i seem to have calmed down an awful lot since them. um.......hi. it's a nice feeling when you realize that it's ok to be alone.

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wow [18 Apr 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | cranky ]
[ music | misfits ]



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ranting [18 Apr 2004|12:15pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | defiance - no future no hope ]

i had a really ellaborate dream about zombies last night. it was really fucked up.

my weekend fucking sucked. i don't want to live my life day in and day out waiting for it to start. this is my life, and the days just pass by and i don't even realise it.
everything bad happened at once. to everyone. i can't sleep, i can't get out of bed, i can't fucking do anything latley. i can't believe this is what i've turned into. i want to go back to work, i want to get my shit together, but i have no fucking ambition. before this didn't bother me. i'm so sick of going through this mundane routine every god damn day. this isn't life.

i need something to help me forget that life in this horrible fucking city is a god damn joke.

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[17 Apr 2004|12:37pm]
i really need to get the hell out of this town. i need a change of surroundings before i go fucking crazy. i can't stand waking up and seeing the same god damn thing every day. i want out.
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[13 Apr 2004|04:42pm]
[ music | anti-nowhere league - streets of london ]

there ain't no future and there ain't no hope.

i don't post about anything anymore. i'm so bored. i'm waiting for something. i don't know what the fuck it is. i thought i was getting out of this rut but apparently i'm just digging myself in a little deeper. if i cared then maybe i could change it, but where i am and life i just couldn't give less of a shit. something happen...anything.

my missing knuckle is really gross.

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[11 Apr 2004|03:26pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | desmond dekker - shanty town ]

my entire family came over today for dinner. 3:30 is not dinner. they ate all our food, yelled and drank alot, then left. my dad forced me to do an easter egg hunt.

theyr'e crazy. kristens mom bought me a 40. i now love her.

another show tonight. show's have been my life latley. i'm having so much fun...minus that little nagging feeling in the back of my head. i'm much too impatient.

do i miss you, do i miss you,
i don't miss you at all. brother just threw a bean bag at me......god damnit.

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[31 Mar 2004|11:46pm]
i'm making this friends only. there are some people i really don't want reading about my life.
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[31 Mar 2004|01:48am]
i'm pretty sure shows are my only source of excersise...i'm so sore. and exhausted.

i ended up going to toronto today to see the distillers show. and it was good. brodys a piece. if i was a dyke, i would definatley jump her bones.

these italian cigarettes i'm smoking are like cigars. my lungs hurt. but i'm generally pleased......and sleepy. goodnight.

We are different kids with the same heartbeat
We got one pulse running through the streets

I am part of this
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[30 Mar 2004|10:36am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | desmond dekker - shanty town ]

i missed my bus...3 times this morning. wooo..
well i was supposed to go see the distillers tonight, but some stupid cunt decided she'd take my ticket instead. oh well, i guess i wouldn't want to go anyways.

it's truely sad when some people are so insecure they have to hold onto everything and control it, and if the slightest thing changes it sets them off. change just shows them how little they are growing up i guess. i don't hate...i'm never going to hate, i've been through too much to do that. but i seriously wish the best, because it really is sad.

well i've been talking alot about this latley, but for the first time i can finally step back and see who these people really are without a biased opinion. and no i'm not pleased with what i found.

and in other is good now. i'm going to go catch my bus.......hopefully. hehe.

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[29 Mar 2004|12:52pm]
[ mood | happy ]

jesus christ i feel so fucking relieved. i feel free, finally. no more manipulation, no more pressure, interrogation, no more bullshit drauma i have had to deal with for so long.

i guess it's good i realised this...i'm growing up, i'm not in fucking junoir high anymore. and a huge part of growing up is realising that you outgrow some friends.

god damnit i am FREE!

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[28 Mar 2004|09:17pm]
[ music | defiance - no future no hope ]

ok i have to ask.

what is the deal with inny nipples? can someone explain them to me?

like......if they are erect do they go inwards moreso? i'm so baffled.......

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