Birthday blues   
07:52pm 04/11/2003
  Today is my birhtday and basically i didnt get to see anyone i really wanted to...Casper got kicked outta tartars house b/c tartars a anti social scumbag who likes to make ppl angery all the time...Basically ifeel that im never going to see casper again and my chances with him are shit outta luck...and that i basically am wasting my time with this because now hes gonna go hang out with his "girls" now i bet ya a millon bucks..and he didnt even really try to hang out with me today which knda upset me b/c i wanted to chill with him....but ya know..i start my new job tomorrow and i figure why stress something if he isnt gonna stress it..ya know..what sense does that make at all..i can go backto being my working ..having money but no friends deal that i had before..YAY..umm NO...i wish that i couldjust be secure that i konw that I'll see casper just as much as i always did...and behappy with that...but im insecure bout that shit..so..i dont know..Maybe one day i'll see that i dont have to be...

-Mary-
 
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Birthday blues   
07:52pm 04/11/2003
  Today is my birhtday and basically i didnt get to see anyone i really wanted to...Casper got kicked outta tartars house b/c tartars a anti social scumbag who likes to make ppl angery all the time...Basically ifeel that im never going to see casper again and my chances with him are shit outta luck...and that i basically am wasting my time with this because now hes gonna go hang out with his "girls" now i bet ya a millon bucks..and he didnt even really try to hang out with me today which knda upset me b/c i wanted to chill with him....but ya know..i start my new job tomorrow and i figure why stress something if he isnt gonna stress it..ya know..what sense does that make at all..i can go backto being my working ..having money but no friends deal that i had before..YAY..umm NO...i wish that i couldjust be secure that i konw that I'll see casper just as much as i always did...and behappy with that...but im insecure bout that shit..so..i dont know..Maybe one day i'll see that i dont have to be...

-Mary-
 
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