Jaimee

5:29pm: I still believe, someday you and me, will find ourselfs, in lovee again<3 - Mariah Carey
Today i went bowling for the third time. I did a lot better than last time, and i beat ally lmao. jen just did my hair and it smells really really good. im so bloated, i ate to much today. today was my last day of pigging out though. im working out tonight still but im gunna start watching what i eat again and work out every day for half n hour to an hour. im getitng fat. and uglier everyday. i need to go tanning. i need hair extensions, i need to be skinny.. i guess i want to be perfect lmao. ive been so sick latelymy boobs are gigantic. i need a better bra. steph needs to cut my hair. i need new hair. i am so exhausted. i havent been getting any sleep. i have major bags under my eyes. i keep getting songs stuck in my head and singing ar ound my house like a looney. well i am. well im gunna go finish my homework and exercise. hopefully i will lose more weight and not be so gross.

6:49pm: Sleeping Later Than 6am = Good
Well this morning i woke up at 6:09 and went and asked my mom if i could sleep in alittle later this morning since i go to school everyday. so i ended up going into Math late and missed Biology but thats alright. haha. made the day go by faster. I havent been feeling that good lately and its not cool. English today was freaking physco bc me and kayleigh we going physco and i was blurting out random things. "pstttttttttt smokeeee". lmao., you gotta be there to see me go crazy. People wouldnt stop looking at me when i was giggling. Amy & Kayleigh helped me accesserise with my barny gloves and my lovely scarf. i looked so cool omgg. haha. lunch is always interesting on day 1s with mallory and sam. they make me laugh. i saw ashley today in lunch and gave her a hug because i love her and shes my bffl. i still need more sleep, i can never get enough. i want to go up to gouverneur this weekend and i have a feeling it wont happen. but theres a bigger chance i will the next weekend. the weekend after that i have a 3 day weekend. and the day before that we have a 15 minute early dismissal. how sexy. i love my friends and making new ones. im doing so much better in school then i did last year. my overall average is a 90 for now. i have basically all As. Last year i had like 70s-80s bc i never went and did stuff and now im going to school everyday. im proud of myself. the more 100s i get .. the more money my daddy gives me. so the harder i work. im talking to miguel on AIM and omfggggggg SPIDERS. we are talking about fears and effing ugh spiders are disgusting. any size scares the heck out of me. grr. I love phone calls. i just dont like it when people dont have anything to say to me or i have nothing to say to them. haha. taking pictures is awesome. i just dont like it when pictures of me come out crappy lol. i wish i was beautiful. gorgeous. all that. i wish soo much i was. i hate being ugly. i love tic-tacs and gum. my skin is retarded and is always dry. im putting lotion it 24-7. my lips get so chapped in the winter, i have to put my blistex infusion shyt on them 24-7 too. winter just all around sucks. and i need to go buy more clothes. i found out i usually cetch myself in a sweatshirt and jeans or a pj shirt and jeans to school. i guess its bc i really dont care what other people have to think. idk why i even bother attempting to get ready for school when i end up looking like shyt anyways. im obsest with jewerly. mostly earings and knecklaces. idk why. i dont really like rings and braceletes unless they were givin to me by somebody important. belts are another must. and shoes. i love shoes. but in the winter i always wear my sneakers. idk why i just do. lmao. i need to start working NOW so i can go buy another cell phone bc ive been lost without one. i need to be talking to somebody 24-7 or else i feel sucky. i wish i had better hair. its gross. thin and gross. once i get my job, im getting extentions and all that shyt. to make it fuller looking. i wish i was skinnier and my breasts were smaller. i wish a lot of things. doesnt everybody? i just wish it could come true. if you couldnt tell i have low self-esteem. i dont like me. at all. i like to hear other people love me and they think im awesome but for some reason, i dont feel the same way. i get yelled at for it all the time. i hurt from bowling the other day. HOLY SHYT was that fun. i broke some of my finger nails from it. and my arm hurts bc i had such a heavy ball but i was gettin good points. i even got some strikes in. heck yess. Friday i go again. yessir. i love paintings. i have one hanging in my family room that was done by my sister stephanie. i want just my room filled with artwork. i love acting. its so much fun.. idk why but i like being somebody else. i love dancing too. thats probably why im in Performing Arts hahah. im thinking about taking that class next year. or maybe taking Buisness Law or whatever bc i want to get into the whole Real Estate thing. my dinner was good tonight. and im random. and im crazy. and IDK im different. and weird. idc though. thats me and i guess ill have to accept that haha. i need to go exercise. im gunna start doing that again everyday starting tomorrow. im getting fatter and fatter. all i wish.. IS TO BE SKINNY AGAIN.

1:42pm: Sundays suck.
Well i didnt do to much this weekend. Friday i went to Amanda's Dads house. Watched Law & Order, which is amazing and i pretty much past out at like 9-930 lol. Saturday, i was suppost to go to the mall with my sister but she was a wench face so i ended up getting ahold of Kevin and he met up with me. I bought a new necklace and earings for like 16 bucks, then spent 8 bucks total on a frozen lemonade and a milkshake. haha. theni had my mom pick kevin and i up and we went back to his house till like 11pm. hes pretty much my best guy friend in liverpool because everybody else sucks. haha. i can tell him like anything and he will listen. but he can be a jerk face hahaha. my dad needs to hurry up and pay me the rest of my money so is can go buy a new bra. i need new shoes too. i probably should of bought some.. but they were kinda exspensive.. well the ones i wanted were anyways. haha. AIM and myspace are starting to get boring. my life is pretty much boring in liverpool. i cant wait till i go back to gouverneur and see my friends.. its been since december. ugh. talk about parents torturing me. lol. i need clothes. i always need something new. im ugly. i hate looking in the mirror. because when i do.. it only makes me think about the things that need to be done with my face to make me look somewhat better. my body, i hate the most.. im surprised im not anerexic. i wont ever go anerexic but with the way im concerned with my body is like physco. i hate me. i really do. i dont see how i have friends. or why guys like me. or even why my boyfriend is in love with me and thinks im beautiful. Im cold and i should be making sure all my homeworks done but im way to lazy.. i mean come on its SUNDAY. i start bowling tomorrow. how amazing is that? leaving school for like 80 minutes or whatever and going ot the FLAMINGO and actually going BOWLING and just having fun for gym class. YEAH im pretty much EXCITED. thats the only reason i want to go to school tomorrow. then i wanna leave. i hate it there. grr. LIVERPOOL if you couldnt tell, just all around sucks. MARK. what can i say about mark AND PAIGE. they are amazing. they are always there for me. they listen to me. they make me feel good inside haha. they make me feel like im an actual person. talk about TRUE BEST FRIENDS riight? i havent seen them both is forever. i havent seen mark in almost a year and paige since december and im dying without them haha. i need to exercise. i feel wicked fat right now considering im bloated. When my sister stephanie getsback home on thursday shes gunna cut my hair so im excited. idk how im gunna get it done yet. i have all week to think about it though. well music makes me feel crappy. sad music anyways. so bye.

p.s. i love aaron.

3:44pm: HOLLLER PART 2
OK so now break is over. and ive gone back to ALL my classes now. this sucks. i have a unit test in math tomorrow. and im suppost to start my period like tomorrow. lmao yeah YOU ALL SHOULD KNOW im very opened. DEAL with it. alright? uhm i totally love my best friends. i miss paige alexander and michael bailey. i hope i go to gouverneur this weekend with beth poo and see marky perform. i will friday though cuz hes playing in Oswegoo mannnnnnnnnn. im so excited. i havent seen him since last APRIL. ehh i hate little girls in gouverneur that run their mouth. and GUYS there.. not mentioning any names who are total AHOLES and need to go die. haha. but oh well its cool. i havent been feeling well lately.. AT ALL. so i havent been exercising. i was hoping i would today but i have a huge-o headache so i guess ill see how tomorrow is. this morning was horrible. the weather was GROSS. LIVERPOOL makes me wanna die. i hate it here. take me awway from here. i hope i go to florida for spring break and go stay with my aunt terry. its been so cold lately. specially in my house. brrr. my sister is crazy but i love her. im tired 24-7 and i wanna drop out of school. considering im 15 i really cant. and i wont. but haha. im excited for JUNE to come thoughso i can turn 16. my mom is trying to hook me up with a part time job with her at work were i can make some MONAYY and im gunna try to find a job somewheres eles too. BUT NOT MCDONALDS. i dont trust myself working there. id sneak the food and everything and just get fired anyways so i see no point. lmfoa. but have a good day.


oh and p.s.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY PALMER.

12:51pm: About to get Ready
Well the other night, i spent the night at Shylas house. I had lots of funn. we took a lot of pictures. he cousin Kimmy was there. Shylas mommy even bought me slipper socks that are WINNIE THE POO. omfggg i was so happy haha. i miss shyla.. i wish she didnt have to move from liverpool. but atleast shes not to far away that i cant go see her. Anyways, i slept in till 11 THIS MORNING. thats late for me. im usually up by 8 or 9. Now its taking forever for my stuff to dry bc i tried to do laundry when i first woke up and now im trying to get ready to go to ashleys to visit her and danielle for alittle bit. when i woke up my sister stephanie wanted me to go to the store with her quick so i grabbed on jeans.. and my pants ripped kinda.. in the crotch. nice huh? favorite jeans haha. oh well its not to noticable unless i spread my legs lmao. im about to get in the shower soon so then once my jeans are done dryingi can just hop into them and go to ashleys. im kinda hungry// ill probably eat first. im talking to aaron right now on AIM and hes at school so im talking to him b4 i have to get ready. well... im gunna go eat && then get in the showerrr...........


P.S. IM EXTTREMELYY EXHAUSTED.

1:49pm: Montel Wednesdays
Yess today sylvia browne is on montel. she is every wed. and thats when i usually watch montel haha. shes my favorite. i love people who can talk to dead people and predict the future. i believe her 100% and idc what anybody else has to say. it comes on in about 10 minutes so i have that much time to write in here. its my first time using blurty. its mid-winter break so no school for a whole week. its getting to the point where its almost over. so far during break my plans have been : Friday-Sunday i was with Amanda, my first time ever hanging out with her, i love her haha shes a good person to talk to. Monday-Tuesday i was with Ashley, one of my best friends EVER in liverpool, she makes me laugh so hard. and today is Wed. and theres nothing to do today considering i woke up at 5am with the worst migrane ever, making me feel like i was going to throw up. i went back to sleep thankfully till 12pm. haha which is the latest ive slept in for awhile. i usually wake up early like 8-9am. my headache isnt as bad as it was, just when i go to bend down for something or turn my head, my head throbs bad and my stomache gets upset. NOT FUN. hah but i have to clean my whole house for my sister since shes coming home for the night from College. Wells College. you know, that college that was known for lesbians because it was an all girls school? haha well shes not a lesbian i dont call it that usually but its co-ed now AND she has a boyfriend shes been with since highschool and shes graduating college this year. And as for me? I MISS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE CRAZY considering he lives all the way in MICHIGAN and i dont see him very often. The last time i saw him was in the beg. of January. I probably wont see him till he graduates this year which will be sometime in May. We're going to be together for 2 years on April 11th, woot woot. Fun stuff. Im kinda in the mood for going to gouverneur and visiting my sister and her husband and kids but my mom is a bum and wont drive me up there. i would like to see paige (my best friend) in gouverneur too but shes all the way in tenn. for another couple days. Im not sure whats up for the rest of the week. Me and shyla plan on hanging out sometime this week, maybe tonight, and im suppost to go to the movies with beth sometime. Oh shyt i have like 2 minutes to finish writing something till my show is on haha. Its freezing here right now and i wish i was in Florida. oh talking about Florida, im suppost to go there for my Spring Break for the first time ever and go to disney world! im super excited for that. My family like NEVER travels. I cant wait till my dad pays me back for my good grades sincei have like almost all A's. so far he owes me like 50 something + more. YESS. im thinking about either saving it for a new cell phone or something. i was planning on making a savings account for a laptop but i dont see that happnening bc i always need to spend money when i know i have it haha. WELL MONTEL is on. ill ttyl. LOVE YOUS.