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31st October 2003

2:44pm: Just a few things on my mind today . . .
TRICIA - DO NOT READ MY BLURTY TODAY! I DON'T WANT TO START ANYTHING AND I CAN'T MY "MORE OPTIONS" PAGE TO LOAD.



Hi all. It's me. The K-Man. (I use to call myself that back in 6th-9th grades - I was a pretty cool guy)

Just a few things in my head today. I'm on lunch right now and so far, having a much better day than the past few days. So far, of course. Knock on wood.

Me and Trish had this big stupid thing last night. I dunno. She was upset because we haven't had a lot of deep conversations lately. Which, I suppose is alright, but I think we're just really boring right now.

She gave a bit of a 'tude last night because I had like 3/4 of a 1/3 of a glass of wine and then drove out to Borders. I'm going to say this here because I want to and I have a right to. Tricia, don't read this. It'll just bring out old demons.


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Okay. It upsets me when she and Kyle tell me how much a LITTLE alchol can impair one's judgement. It doesn't upset me because they care about me. It's not that at all. If anything, I deeply appreciate that. No, it's the fact that neither of them have HAD any experience with alchol. Granted, okay, they've seen the bad and ugly side of it. Yeah, okay.

But neither of them have ever had any drinks - not a beer, not a mix, not anything - to know just how LITTLE your judgement is impaired after one drink. They don't know and I don't really see why they feel the need to lecture me or gave me an attitude about it when they don't even know what they're talking about.

It took me SIX drinks to get me drunk. SIX. And even then, I was still sober enough to say "no more." 3/4 of 1/3 of a glass of wine isn't going to screw me up. I know what I'm doing.

I'm just so tired of these two treating me like I'm some sort of alcholic and the minute I get the slightest alchol into me, I'm going to be instantly screwed up. That's not how it works.

And you know, I know all about the bad side of alchol. I do. If you don't believe, ask me about my Mom's first husband sometime.

Trust me. I know what I'm doing.

Okay. I needed to get that off my chest. Lord knows I'll be hearing about that all day tomorrow, but it's the way I feel. I'm not a child. I'm not stupid. I drink - and rarely, I might add - because I'm adult and I can do it and I like to do it every now and then.


Anyways, I was going to work on my story right now (I'm on my lunch), but I'm swiftly running out of time. I'll get to it later.

~W~
9:28pm: Happy Halloween!
Happy Halloween!

I rented lotsa movies today! "Treasure Planet" because I've been dying to watch it all week. "Hulk" because I haven't seen it in a while (note to Tricia - they lightened up the night battle scenes! It's 100 times better! EEEEE!). And "Cowboy Beebop: The Movie" because it's a Halloween movie and, damn it, Tricia or no Tricia I'm going to watch it!

On that note, I'm very very sorry about what I went on about earlier. It was quite unfair towards Kyle and Tricia. I was upset and said somethings that weren't really nice and I'm very sorry and feel so bad about it I could just about cry. And I'm not getting about that.

I . . . I just wish they would be a little more open-minded and trusting towards me.

But I know they're just worried about this new adult phase in my life and that's understandable considering they've only seen the dark side of alchol. And I sometimes take that concern for granted and I'm sorry about that. I know they love me (Tricia) and care about me (Kyle) and just want me to be careful.

I understand and I am deeply sorry for throwing that back in their faces. (Though to be honest, I only did it a blurty entry that Tricia hasn't read yet and Kyle won't read, so they probably don't know that I threw it back in their faces).

I am very fortrunate to have two very good friends. Maybe at some point, they can understand and trust me a little more when it comes to the hooch - but even if they don't, it's always nice to know I've got two really great friends (and lover(s)) out there.

Thanks and I'm sorry.

Now . . . enough with all this. It's Halloween!

Halloween Dance, Halloween Dance . . .!

~W~
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