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It's so odd, you know. As I'm sitting here, I'm dead tired and about to go to bed. It's Saturday, I might add, and only 11:58 PM. Shock, shock. This is quite rare for me, as those who know me know.
To be completely honest, I'm not really feeling that great. I've been neaous(sp) for the past couple of weeks for some odd reason and it seems like my body is in this sort of weird I-have-to-pee every hour. Add on the fact that I have been so horny lately, and you'll see why if I were a woman, I would taken pregnancy test by now.
I'm assuming, or at least hoping, it's all psycological. How do I know this? Look at me. Heck, look at my life! I can't maintain a positive balance in my check account. I'm uinsured, so if something drastic were to happen, it would bankrupt my family. I work at the same job with two bosses I hate, one I highly respect and one I really like, but is never there. The same job, I might add, that I've been working at since high school. I'm overwieght, to boot, and look six-seven months pregnant (continuing the theme from last paragraph). My girlfriend is 450 miles away, and hearing about her problems can be pretty hard sometimes.
As for school . . .
God, I really am a failure. One stupid semister and I FUCK MYSELF OVER! My meeting with Kent on Friday went horribly! He told me I had to go BACK to Kent Stark, and then TRY to get up there! What the hell kind of bullshit is that?! I have to go to a school I HATE to go to a school I LOVE.
And don't get me wrong. I seriously hate Kent Stark. I get bored, nobody talks to me, it feels too much like high school, I'm still at home . . . I just want to leave the FUCKING HOLE!
Fuck this, I'm going to bed.
I really am a failure.
~W~
To be completely honest, I'm not really feeling that great. I've been neaous(sp) for the past couple of weeks for some odd reason and it seems like my body is in this sort of weird I-have-to-pee every hour. Add on the fact that I have been so horny lately, and you'll see why if I were a woman, I would taken pregnancy test by now.
I'm assuming, or at least hoping, it's all psycological. How do I know this? Look at me. Heck, look at my life! I can't maintain a positive balance in my check account. I'm uinsured, so if something drastic were to happen, it would bankrupt my family. I work at the same job with two bosses I hate, one I highly respect and one I really like, but is never there. The same job, I might add, that I've been working at since high school. I'm overwieght, to boot, and look six-seven months pregnant (continuing the theme from last paragraph). My girlfriend is 450 miles away, and hearing about her problems can be pretty hard sometimes.
As for school . . .
God, I really am a failure. One stupid semister and I FUCK MYSELF OVER! My meeting with Kent on Friday went horribly! He told me I had to go BACK to Kent Stark, and then TRY to get up there! What the hell kind of bullshit is that?! I have to go to a school I HATE to go to a school I LOVE.
And don't get me wrong. I seriously hate Kent Stark. I get bored, nobody talks to me, it feels too much like high school, I'm still at home . . . I just want to leave the FUCKING HOLE!
Fuck this, I'm going to bed.
I really am a failure.
~W~
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