: A Realization
Ephiany.
Sometimes events happen that bring them on.
Sometimes nothing happens, but they are still reached.
And sometimes it's a little bit of nothing and something that brings one to this point.
Something and nothing happened to today. Something and nothing that I can't quite describe because I'm still reeling from it's existence. I'm not how to describe it, really, but it's something and nothing. A non-event. But that doesn't matter. It just doesn't.
What matters is what I realized today. Something I've known and felt for some time. Something that has become a part of my heart, a part of my soul, that I didn't even realize it was a part of me. A group of words that I've meant every time I've said them, but really struck me today in a manner I've never really thought possible.
"I love you."
Tricia Nicole Clem has been a part of my life for some time. When my heart was broken after Jill left me, she was the one that came to me and brought it back to life. She was the one who was there for me that awful summer night. And it wasn't because she had a crush on me. It was because she was my friend. She put those feelings of love behind her while I lamented on her shoulder about how upset I was because my girlfriend left me.
I fell for her completely that night, and when I kissed her two days later, we were together. Two weeks later, we were offically going out.
The kiss was like walking on air. It was deep, passionate and ressonated throughout my entire body. I remember the feeling of our lips connected, my heart beating, everything fading around us. I love that moment and I wanted to live in it. I was so happy.
I still am.
Three years have come and gone since then, and we've been through so much. There was too much PDA at my church, she was getting yelled at up and down for having her leg up on mine. I kissed another woman, she was accused of stealing school documents. I was kind of kicked outta school, she was kicked out of the house. We're both now 450 miles away from each other, under stress.
BUT, in that time, we've stuck together. Holding each other, growing from these experiences. Becoming stronger, better and falling deeper and even more madly in love with each other. It's been a long time since I've held her hand, hugged her, kissed her soft lips - but I've realized now that's not the only thing that binds us.
You see . . .
We've been saying "I love you" for so long. The words convey our feelings for each other, as they have for such a long time. But I think, now, they mean something more. "I love you" means I love you, Tricia. Everything about you.
EVERYTHING.
Every little thing that you do, every thing you say, everthing, just everything! I love you for you. I want to live with you, be with you, grow old with you, have children with you, marry you, fight with you, make up with you, have sex with you . . . because YOU are the ONE I LOVE.
Never - ever - ever forget that. No matter what, I love you. Despite these miles, we are bound by heart and love. You are in my heart, Tricia, and I never want you to leave.
My sweet.
My heart.
My dearest Tricia.
My love.
Ephiany.
Sometimes events happen that bring them on.
Sometimes nothing happens, but they are still reached.
And sometimes it's a little bit of nothing and something that brings one to this point.
Something and nothing happened to today. Something and nothing that I can't quite describe because I'm still reeling from it's existence. I'm not how to describe it, really, but it's something and nothing. A non-event. But that doesn't matter. It just doesn't.
What matters is what I realized today. Something I've known and felt for some time. Something that has become a part of my heart, a part of my soul, that I didn't even realize it was a part of me. A group of words that I've meant every time I've said them, but really struck me today in a manner I've never really thought possible.
"I love you."
Tricia Nicole Clem has been a part of my life for some time. When my heart was broken after Jill left me, she was the one that came to me and brought it back to life. She was the one who was there for me that awful summer night. And it wasn't because she had a crush on me. It was because she was my friend. She put those feelings of love behind her while I lamented on her shoulder about how upset I was because my girlfriend left me.
I fell for her completely that night, and when I kissed her two days later, we were together. Two weeks later, we were offically going out.
The kiss was like walking on air. It was deep, passionate and ressonated throughout my entire body. I remember the feeling of our lips connected, my heart beating, everything fading around us. I love that moment and I wanted to live in it. I was so happy.
I still am.
Three years have come and gone since then, and we've been through so much. There was too much PDA at my church, she was getting yelled at up and down for having her leg up on mine. I kissed another woman, she was accused of stealing school documents. I was kind of kicked outta school, she was kicked out of the house. We're both now 450 miles away from each other, under stress.
BUT, in that time, we've stuck together. Holding each other, growing from these experiences. Becoming stronger, better and falling deeper and even more madly in love with each other. It's been a long time since I've held her hand, hugged her, kissed her soft lips - but I've realized now that's not the only thing that binds us.
You see . . .
We've been saying "I love you" for so long. The words convey our feelings for each other, as they have for such a long time. But I think, now, they mean something more. "I love you" means I love you, Tricia. Everything about you.
EVERYTHING.
Every little thing that you do, every thing you say, everthing, just everything! I love you for you. I want to live with you, be with you, grow old with you, have children with you, marry you, fight with you, make up with you, have sex with you . . . because YOU are the ONE I LOVE.
Never - ever - ever forget that. No matter what, I love you. Despite these miles, we are bound by heart and love. You are in my heart, Tricia, and I never want you to leave.
My sweet.
My heart.
My dearest Tricia.
My love.