| Monday, July 21st, 2008 |
| 7:16 pm |
i say something and im in shit but i dont say something and im in shit.....no idea what im supposed to do anymore.....im sick and tired of being sick and tired this waiting shit is starting to drive me fucking crazy
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Trapt-The Game |
| Thursday, July 17th, 2008 |
| 10:54 pm |
just when things start looking up everything comes crashing down all over again...sick of tired of being sick and tired
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Motorhead-I Aint No Nice Guy |
| Sunday, July 6th, 2008 |
| 10:46 pm |
The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
No I can not grieve anymore.
For what's inside awaking.
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and oh I can not give anymore.
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Korn-Here To Stay |
| Thursday, July 3rd, 2008 |
| 11:26 pm |
and this thing we are trying is good for me how exactly?
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Cold-Suffocate |
| 12:10 am |
Why do these desicions always have to be so hard?
Current Music: Crossfade-Cold |
| Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008 |
| 12:12 am |
"theres no easy way out,theres no shortcut home,giving in cant be wrong"...can it?can for once deciding with my heart instead of what my head and everybody else tell me is right?can for once the supposed "wrong" choice actually be the right one?
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Rocky IV-No Easy Way Out |
| Wednesday, June 25th, 2008 |
| 12:01 am |
i have no idea what im supposed to do....this hoping for things to go back to the way they were doesnt seem like its anything more than a pipe dream.....its like its not overly fair that she i feel like im making all the sacrifices and nothing is happening .i feel so second rate its like she only talks to me when its convienent for her and she not around anybody but she had no problems talking to other ppl when she was around me ever...its like im really in a lose-lose situation.i feel like a car in the garage that needs work but its still a good car and its like after shes text driven every other one and didnt like them then it would be back to fixing the old car again...if you wanted to have me in submission then you got it.If your reading this then YOU tell me what im supposed to do.as rude as it that all sounds it seems im being jobbed out into the same spot aaron was in
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Three Doors Down-Going Down In Flames |
| Monday, June 23rd, 2008 |
| 11:56 pm |
just when things seem like they couldnt be more wrong,it gets worse.i dont know what to do or say or anything anymore,im sick and tired of being sick and tired.for ONCE could something feel right again?
Current Mood: blank |
| Friday, June 20th, 2008 |
| 4:48 pm |
why does it seem like one step foward two steps backward with everything lately?
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Ozzy-Back On Earth |
| Thursday, June 19th, 2008 |
| 12:04 am |
fuck
both groin muslces pulled,knots in my back,shoulders,biceps and forearms and one in my heart and im still going...sometimes i wonder what keeps me going..the thought of being back with her seems to continually cross my mind...
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Crossfade-Starless |
| Sunday, June 15th, 2008 |
| 11:38 pm |
...
i wish today never happened...i want to try to be friends with her but in my heart i know i cant....it seems like i think were going to be "just friends" from here on out and thats really it.I wish things went back to the way they were before this mess started and soemthing like this never has to happen again.If this is what a heartbreak is supposed to feel like then i would rather die than suffer another one but i think ive felt it for a couple weeks already...are things ever gonna be as good as they were before?
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Creed-My Own Prison |
| Tuesday, June 10th, 2008 |
| 4:51 pm |
pulled right groin muscle for the 3rd time in 4 days...my leg feels like it has a basball in it grr.....still dont really feel like myself but itll pass eventually
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Breaking Benjamin-Dance With The Devil |
| Monday, June 9th, 2008 |
| 11:12 pm |
cant wait for the weekend to get here and its only monday ugh....things can only get better from here...this spending more time away from each other should work....at least i hope it does.she says she wants me to be happy....but im happiest with her...i dunno what else to do but hope that it works itself out
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Tupac-Changes |
| 5:00 pm |
your all that i want your all that i need your everything......every wrong feels right when im with you
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Lifehouse-Everything |
| Sunday, June 8th, 2008 |
| 11:54 pm |
are things ever gonna get better?
Current Mood: sad |
| Thursday, May 29th, 2008 |
| 11:34 pm |
fuck
today was one the worst days of my life...anybody who can say theyve been called more than a selfish conceited asshole that only looks out for himself and cant do his job right and whine and always get their way.....all in the one day feel free to try and beat that....
Current Mood: cold |
| Wednesday, April 16th, 2008 |
| 12:13 am |
ive had nightmares better than the last couple days...at least in a nightmare you can wake up and its over...eecol has to the be the worst place to work that ive ever seen..cant wait to get out of there and find something else
Current Mood: irritated |
| Saturday, March 22nd, 2008 |
| 12:18 pm |
probly gonna buy a 360 in april sometime...best 10 months ive ever had
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Higher-Creed |