ravengurl13

1:44am: i'm going to continually walk through life looking for someone to say i love you and mean it. forever.

8:27am: last night
r: please help me
a: with what?
r: i want to cut soooooo bad
a: why do you want to cut?
r: the pressure in my head won't stop
a: what pressure?
r: my head feels like it's going to explode and everyone keeps talking
a: take a walk
r: i can't it's two in the morning
r: i have to be up in 6 hrs
a: why can't you?
a: just walk around the house and clear your head
a: sitting up and not sleeping isn't any better than walking around and not sleeping
r: there's no house to walk around
r: i'll just listen to music and hope it goes away
r: i just feel so dumb cowering a corner of my bed from something i do to myself
a: well, walk up and down the street a bit
a: it really helps babe

10:38am: i love how my english group is probably envied and admired while being completely reviled as the slacker group. for example, today the class (in groups) were asked to write a riddle about a body part. i guess it was chip's day to be productive, so i leant a line or two, and everyone else put in their random ideas, then we sat around and waited for him to write it, while the rest of us laughed and joked. this may seem cruel to you until you realize that really these polar positions trade off on each assignment. we had the neck to make a riddle out of. and it turned out to be the best one. and i had fun laughing at girlfriend stories and dysfunctional relationships which actually seem to work, while mine doesn't at all. i actually want to be single now..i'm so tired of dating someone whose answer to everything is the silent treatment.