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i saw donnie darko tonight and it blew my mind.
i have this disease where i think too much and i need a cure before i go insane
and to that effect, i've stopped thinking, trying to escape it by having it not exist at all.
it's not working, even if i'm at a cool place that really has no beginning, end, or plotline
to that end, anything that enhances the blankness REALLY WORKS FOR ME
recently it's been dancing. like going to the hockey house or the dirty frat and just letting go and not giving a shit how bad i am or who sees me. or how fat i am and how much of it jiggles.
it's also been excersizing for hours on end (which somehow amounts to nothing in terms of actually losing weight) and not giving a damn about the pain.
somehow running away faster prompts two things.
1) my demons to speed up chasing me
2) my homework not to get done
SHIT
i have this disease where i think too much and i need a cure before i go insane
and to that effect, i've stopped thinking, trying to escape it by having it not exist at all.
it's not working, even if i'm at a cool place that really has no beginning, end, or plotline
to that end, anything that enhances the blankness REALLY WORKS FOR ME
recently it's been dancing. like going to the hockey house or the dirty frat and just letting go and not giving a shit how bad i am or who sees me. or how fat i am and how much of it jiggles.
it's also been excersizing for hours on end (which somehow amounts to nothing in terms of actually losing weight) and not giving a damn about the pain.
somehow running away faster prompts two things.
1) my demons to speed up chasing me
2) my homework not to get done
SHIT