: worries
hey hey hey, its me again. Oh man, so tired. School is stressing me out something fierce. Like I slid into my Erudite meeting today after missing one, and it wa slike chaos exploded. Well not really, that's a slight exaggeration, but I felt so out of the loop. There were so many new people and the submissions were all wacked out and we have no money (which I knew before). I stayed after til like 4 today and probably the same amount tomorrow trying to get everything together. I'm mad that we're not getting any money like we have in previous years. Selfishly, this was supposed to be my year, but oh well. We have 1000 dollars but need 3000 more to maintain the same standard as last year. Mr. K. is already talking about how to pare down the magazine, such as no color, less pages, simpler fonts, etc. I will make the best with what I've got. But I'm still worried.
And I'm worried about my mother. She had her surgery on Tuesday and I'm now her semipermanent slave until she gets better. I really want her to make a full recovery because she competely depends on her wrist for work. I mean money is already tight and we certainly can't subsist on my Target salary. Tried for a month, not pretty. I keep getting the feeling that if I didn't have my job, we'd really be up shit creek. I kno the last month has been rough, and I wasn't working. ikes.
I'm worried about my friends as well. My friends are the world to me; they mean so much to me. I don't think they realize it half the time. I don't know what I'd do without them. They mean more to me than my parents pets, bro, etc. But sometimes...like now some of my friends have tried to assert themselves in unusual ways. They're having sex with people they dont know or just met. That's upsetting in itself. Maybe more so because I tried it once and wasn't pretty. But the thing that gets me the most is that they're not using protection. I mean after 6 years of sex-ed class, at least the word condom would be imprinted in the brain, right? now one thinks she might be pregnant. And I just don't know what to do besides lecture. And that sounds mean and vindictive coming out of my mouth. :-( I'm lost on what to do. I mean I know what I would do, but they're not gonna do that. So I guess I can just be there for them. Maybe they'll let me do that.
peace love magick,
raVen
hey hey hey, its me again. Oh man, so tired. School is stressing me out something fierce. Like I slid into my Erudite meeting today after missing one, and it wa slike chaos exploded. Well not really, that's a slight exaggeration, but I felt so out of the loop. There were so many new people and the submissions were all wacked out and we have no money (which I knew before). I stayed after til like 4 today and probably the same amount tomorrow trying to get everything together. I'm mad that we're not getting any money like we have in previous years. Selfishly, this was supposed to be my year, but oh well. We have 1000 dollars but need 3000 more to maintain the same standard as last year. Mr. K. is already talking about how to pare down the magazine, such as no color, less pages, simpler fonts, etc. I will make the best with what I've got. But I'm still worried.
And I'm worried about my mother. She had her surgery on Tuesday and I'm now her semipermanent slave until she gets better. I really want her to make a full recovery because she competely depends on her wrist for work. I mean money is already tight and we certainly can't subsist on my Target salary. Tried for a month, not pretty. I keep getting the feeling that if I didn't have my job, we'd really be up shit creek. I kno the last month has been rough, and I wasn't working. ikes.
I'm worried about my friends as well. My friends are the world to me; they mean so much to me. I don't think they realize it half the time. I don't know what I'd do without them. They mean more to me than my parents pets, bro, etc. But sometimes...like now some of my friends have tried to assert themselves in unusual ways. They're having sex with people they dont know or just met. That's upsetting in itself. Maybe more so because I tried it once and wasn't pretty. But the thing that gets me the most is that they're not using protection. I mean after 6 years of sex-ed class, at least the word condom would be imprinted in the brain, right? now one thinks she might be pregnant. And I just don't know what to do besides lecture. And that sounds mean and vindictive coming out of my mouth. :-( I'm lost on what to do. I mean I know what I would do, but they're not gonna do that. So I guess I can just be there for them. Maybe they'll let me do that.
peace love magick,
raVen