||Alkaline Trio - Fuck You Aurora
fredo = Well .. fredo. Katja = pissed off ex-girlfriend ... let's watch.
fredo (7:04:22 PM): terrible person? what the hell is wrong with you?
Katja (7:04:43 PM): It's the truth, how could you say "what the hell is wrong with you"?
fredo (7:04:52 PM): i typed it
fredo (7:04:54 PM): easy enough
Katja (7:05:08 PM): Of course, but it lies deeper than that and you know it. Don't be smart.
Katja (7:05:47 PM): If you can't see how you're a horrible person after doing this to some feeling being, then you're even more gone than I think you are.
fredo (7:06:25 PM): i told you i would talk about it when i was ready, but no. you kept nagging on and on. the reason i wouldn't IM you is because i knew you'd just keep nagging me and all that would do is ENGRAGE me
fredo (7:06:40 PM): yet you didn't seem to understand
Katja (7:06:46 PM): Of course I understood
Katja (7:06:49 PM): It was obvious
fredo (7:06:50 PM): no no
fredo (7:06:53 PM): i don't think you do
fredo (7:06:57 PM): because apparently
fredo (7:07:00 PM): i'm a horrible person
fredo (7:07:07 PM): who has a spot reserved on satan's throne
Katja (7:07:31 PM): I believe that you aren't right for what you did, and you are horrible in the actions that you took.
Katja (7:07:53 PM): How could you expect me to stand back and watch something that I've built upon for years fall away with not so much as a reasonable explanation?
fredo (7:07:54 PM): or maybe you're just stupid for not lettiing down and not giving me a chance?
Katja (7:08:04 PM): Stupid?
fredo (7:08:05 PM): and i don't need roy mcfagahan
fredo (7:08:11 PM): up in my biznatch
Katja (7:08:41 PM): I brought him into my business, and that's my choice. He's a confidant to me, something that you wouldn't even stand to be.
fredo (7:09:08 PM): oh my god
fredo (7:09:15 PM): do you have shit in your eyes
fredo (7:09:18 PM): do you not see what i type
Katja (7:09:34 PM): Yes, I saw what you said.
Katja (7:09:46 PM): But it doesn't change the fact that you weren't a confidant.
Katja (7:09:49 PM): That's the truth, either way.
fredo (7:09:58 PM): do you have aids in your brain? i told you that i'd tell you but i needed some time to mysel;f
fredo (7:10:01 PM): myself
Katja (7:10:45 PM): Do you feel the need to type derogatory comments about me, is it really necessary? You could start to be a mature human being
Katja (7:11:07 PM): No, I do not have aids in my brain in whatever sense you're saying that in
Katja (7:11:21 PM): You obviously don't understand feelings.
Katja (7:11:29 PM): I know you needed time.
Katja (7:11:33 PM): It's not about that.
fredo (7:11:48 PM): no, it's all about kim
fredo (7:11:53 PM): because she's a victim
fredo (7:11:56 PM): guess what
fredo (7:11:59 PM): it wasn't all about you
Katja (7:12:09 PM): I don't think that it's all about me at all.
fredo (7:12:09 PM): i understand you needed help
Katja (7:12:15 PM): Of course not.
fredo (7:12:17 PM): but i could not supply it
fredo (7:12:21 PM): and that's it
Katja (7:12:56 PM): You're only looking at the surface of things.
Katja (7:13:35 PM): It's not about me at all, I cared about how you were what you were doing.. what you were feeling. It is more than obvious that I was a victim, and you surely weren't. You didn't have to feel any pain that I had to, and if you did, I couldn't even imagine it.
Katja (7:14:11 PM): It's not all about me
Katja (7:14:23 PM): It's about our relationship that you were constantly feeding lies to me in.. don't you see?
fredo (7:14:48 PM): OH MY GOD
fredo (7:14:51 PM): HOW WAS I LYING
Katja (7:14:53 PM): Don't you remember towards the end where I was just getting a feeling in my heart that you were going to leave me and I confronted you about it?
fredo (7:14:57 PM): i meant it when i said it
fredo (7:14:59 PM): but things change
fredo (7:15:00 PM): accept it
Katja (7:15:09 PM): I've accepted this
Katja (7:16:00 PM): I don't accept you saying that "things change" after everything as strong as what happened between us was imminent
fredo (7:16:13 PM): well, learn to
fredo (7:16:15 PM): because they do
fredo (7:16:21 PM): no matter what the circumstances
Katja (7:16:25 PM): Maybe in you, and maybe to you
fredo (7:16:43 PM): it's not just me
fredo (7:16:46 PM): it happens in life
Katja (7:16:51 PM): Yeah, maybe things happen in life
Katja (7:16:56 PM): Sure, people change..
Katja (7:17:02 PM): It's inevitable
Katja (7:17:22 PM): However, to me, when it comes to love.. it never changes the way I feel about someone. Ever.
Katja (7:17:39 PM): And that's where we're different. Everyone's different, but some hold the same view.. I just made a mistake in thinking that you did as well.
Katja (7:17:58 PM): I've accepted this.
fredo (7:18:08 PM): well i could say if you REALLY loved me, you wouldn't be on roy's nuts right now
Katja (7:18:31 PM): I just absolutely despise the way you just worded that, Alfredo.
fredo (7:18:44 PM): i'm sorry
fredo (7:18:47 PM): i'm a horrible person
Katja (7:19:23 PM): You did lie, and when someone lies... that's just horrible. Especially about something that is so wonderful
fredo (7:19:55 PM): i didn't lie
fredo (7:20:00 PM): think it all you want
fredo (7:20:03 PM): but i didn't lie
Katja (7:20:30 PM): Alfredo, you said that you would "always be in love with me." What does forever mean to you? Maybe you felt it at the time, but that doesn't excuse anything. Not when you go that deep with words.
Katja (7:20:35 PM): That is a lie.
fredo (7:20:56 PM): it's not a lie because at the time, even i believed it. it's more like i got ahead of myself.
Katja (7:22:46 PM): It's not even that. It's not right either way, Alfredo. I'm sorry.
Katja (7:22:52 PM): It's just not.
fredo (7:23:09 PM): in your opinion
fredo (7:23:13 PM): because you're still stuck on it
Katja (7:23:27 PM): I'm still stuck on it? That's rather arrogant of you to say
Katja (7:24:20 PM): I realize that there is someone in this world for me who isn't going to "get ahead of himself," or "lie" in any sort of way--whatever the reason.
Katja (7:24:31 PM): I'm better than this.
Katja (7:24:44 PM): I can deal with this, I'm not going to let it ruin me anymore.
fredo (7:24:52 PM): k
Katja (7:25:45 PM): And for your comment on how if I really loved you I wouldn't be on "his nuts" right now..? Even that is a horrible thing to say, depicting your horrible attitude.
Katja (7:26:31 PM): I don't really think you know what I'm feeling.
fredo (7:26:32 PM): it's an expression
Katja (7:26:41 PM): I know it's an expression, but just the way it is so vulgar.
Katja (7:26:47 PM): So not true.
fredo (7:26:50 PM): i'm sorry kim
fredo (7:26:57 PM): suck it up
fredo (7:27:04 PM): it's not going to hurt you
Katja (7:27:45 PM): No, it doesn't hurt me.
Katja (7:28:09 PM): It's not about hurt, it's about your attitude and it justifies my comment that you seem to be so opposed about.
fredo (7:28:41 PM): most people would agree i have a great attitude
Katja (7:29:00 PM): Most people who haven't seen the way that you are to me.
Katja (7:29:03 PM): You're not like this to other people.
fredo (7:29:12 PM): because they haven't given me as much shit
fredo (7:29:14 PM): why should i
Katja (7:29:38 PM): Wow.. now I gave you "so much" shit.
Katja (7:30:07 PM): Excuse me Alfredo, for desperately needing to know answers.
Katja (7:30:37 PM): Excuse me for not thinking straight, but I let my heart rule me in too many cases and it completely messed with my ability to see the real situation.
fredo (7:30:56 PM): you're excused
..i want to cry..from laughter.