Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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2:15 pm - Take on the whole world.. fight with the young girls.
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Earlier today we had an assembly and mr. king talked about dudes hormones with the chicks in skimpy clothes and stuff. and it got me to thinking. mine and emilys hormones are now starting to take effect. moreso with me. i can be talking to emily and in the middle of a sentence a hot dude will walk down the aisle and i'll just stop talking and get into a kind of daze. then after they've passed i'll realize that i was talking to emily and forget completely what i was saying and emily has to tell me what i said before so i can finish my thought. and i have a fondness to dudes asses. they are very nice. so khaki pants is my distraction. its funny.. i told my mom about that and she laughed. well. not about the asses. but the other thing.
current mood:  awake
current music: "Kiss Me, Diss Me" by Homegrown
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11:02 am - But I know as they hammered those nails into your beautiful hands.
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Your eyes they tried to search for mine. But i look away.
Last night my parents ripped at me about my grades. i had incompletes in all of them except for PE. and right when i calmed my mom down and explained to her how im making that work up and am going to pass by the end of the quarter, my dad would come in yelling about how i cant go to emilys after school, im grounded forever and shit. then my mom told him to f off so he left and my mom was all angry again so i had to fucking calm her down again and try explaining again about the work i've been doing and my dad comes in yelling that if i have to go back to putnam. and all that would do is completely screw me up since i have gotten used to this schedule and id be all confused so that's total shit. my mom wouldnt make me change schools though. my dads a dick. then after about an hour after they left me alone my mom told me that she had bought cucumbers and asked if i wanted any. i told her i did and when i walked downstairs my mom made a joke that my dad had been replaced by the cucumber and it was funny.. then my brother brought out ddr, the dancing game, and me, my brother, and my dad played that. we're weird that way. one minute we're fighting, the next were perfectly fine. my grades are gonna be fine by the end of the quarter.. so its all good.. isallgood..
The singer of blindside is hot and emily got tickets to when they come here with pod. our plan is to stay in the front during the openers, including blindside, but when pod comes on.. fuck that. pod suck. so we'll move back and.. iono. see if any band members come out to the merch table. it'll be good times. i just have to convince my mom to let me go. tom delonge is hot and he has such an awesome voice. i love that man. back when i was obsessed with blink182 in 7th grade.. good times there. me and emily are attempting to collect 1000 mountain dew caps to get a shaun white signed snowboard. lol. it wont happen but its worth a try.
I went on launch.com and played the blindside video and now im just letting it go through its list of videos. now its bad relgion - american jesus. that song is awesome. i saw them perform that song. it was cool.. that song is my ringtone on my shellphone.
current mood:  exanimate
current music: "American Jesus" by Bad Religion
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Monday, March 8th, 2004
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12:33 pm - Why would she put me through such torture? I would've given my life for her..
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I love you so much
I would never break Your heart
No, I looooove you
I would never fuck my boyfriend
There's a live video of Billy Talent - The Ex and its awesome. that man is so beautiful. if you can't tell the songs about his ex girlfriend that was a total bitch. i feel his pain.. well not really but i'll say i do.
The stupid ass vending machine got my mints stuck in them when i bought them and i only had 50 cents left and that was for cheetos at lunch. but i had to use it and get the 2 mints. that vending machine's a stupid ass bitch. its gonna burn in hell.
Well, I heard she's great and her new boyfriend's lame,
She can go to hell I'll never be the same!
current mood:  hungry
current music: "The Ex" by Billy Talent
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Friday, March 5th, 2004
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9:11 pm - Kids just love to tease.. who'd know it put me under ground at 17..
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I finished my house project today. watched the new dropkick murphy dvd that zach got early. it was fun. i saw ben. his hair is longer than hell. i was worried that he was gonna cut it for his woman. but he didnt thank god. i miss ben. he's very nice. it was a good day even though emily wasnt there. she was getting her hair dyed. the cool half red half black thing. at lunch me and adam went out to the dugouts like usual and he was trying not to get his mohawk wet. it was funny. he'd walk behind me and we joked that when we got back in the school i'm dripping wet and he's spotless. the side of one of the dugouts was wobbly so we attempted to take it down. last year when me and adam skipped we went in the dugouts there and tore apart the bench. good times.. but it didnt work today. i miss the khaki pants.. me and emily are still waiting for our holiday. jake has pretty hair.. why should i stay a prisoner of today?
The singer of billy talent is dare i say.. sexy?
You'd have to see them live. he. touched himself..
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days dont seem to change
There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And i can't fight the pain
Damn the hidden in plain view picture for not working anymore..
current mood:  amused
current music: "Nothing To Lose" by Billy Talent
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8:58 am - And I know, you should have known. times you looked to me. brace yourself. she falls gracefully.
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Costa wasnt joking.. he put a restriction on my computer so i cant use windows media player. but i have a cd player and websites that i can play songs from so i just cant watch music videos. and well. my background is a field of yellow tulips.. what can ya do..
Frostbite on my heart.
This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know.
current mood: content
current music: "Twenty Below" by Hidden In Plain View
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Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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11:10 am - Just wait and you'll see you're everything i want. dont take this from me.
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I love this song.. you should too.
I cant see them with allister and it fucking sucks..
http://www.purevolume.com/hiddeninplainview
This puzzled look you stare to me says
"Put me back together"
Her head's down, she waits impatiently
Scattered in my heart, torn up and ripped apart
It's ripped apart...
And I know, you should have known
Times you looked to me
Brace yourself
She falls gracefully
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
And don't take this from me
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now
Wind strong in my face, I'm still staggering through
I'm closer to the ground than I will ever get to you
Dirt deep beneath my fingernails, I'm gripping to the floor
Searching through the world, always looking for something more
Just wait and see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me
Just wait and see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now
And these cold winter nights, without you next to me
It feels like twenty below
Frostbite on my heart
This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know
Does it feel like, feel like twenty below
current mood: blank
current music: "20 below" by Hidden In Plain View
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10:22 am - And that's what you get for falling again; you can never get him out of your head.
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God damnit. fuck me. i didnt turn in my house project and its due tomorrow by the end of the day. and i havent done shit on it. and we have to walk home today after school again. yesterday we went to fred meyers and got the pictures. pretty awesome. theres a creepy picture of emily. and a funny one of amanda handing her gum to a chick for her to hold. its funny. every check from my last paycheck i blown it on you.
Today I changed
Too late, cuz everyone stayed the same
I'm gone so long break out cuz I'm better off on my own
current mood:  aggravated
current music: "Pretty Girl" by Sugarcult
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
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2:19 pm - Yes they will..
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i am very amused..
gotta love sugarcult..
current mood: amused
current music: "Hate Every Beautiful Day" by Sugarcult
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2:09 pm - Pictures?
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will they work?
current mood:  curious
current music: "My Eyes Burn" by Matchbook Romance
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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
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7:47 pm - First day of the rest of our lives i miss you already.
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Last time i see that look in your eyes i miss you already.
Finally, i will write about the Senses Fail show. It was almost 3 weeks ago, but that's okay.
Emily's mom picked us up around 2:30 and we went to our houses and got ready. We got to the venue at about 3:15 and it looked like there was no one there. it looked like the workers for the venue werent there yet. me and emily walked around to find a store that sold film cause we only had 1 roll. we found a plaid pantry and bought the film there. then we walked back to the venue and still no one was there. it was really cold. we were standing for a little bit but eventually sat down. at maybe 4 or so emily said that she had seen a van with a trailer behind it but i was looking down at the time and didnt see it. a few minutes later another van drove past us and turned left down the side street. we knew it was a band but we thought that they would unload their crap in the back so we were kinda bummed. then 3 other vans drove down that same street, one that was black and we thought that it was senses fail's. we saw band members go into the venue but no one from senses fail. a couple walked out to smoke. then the black van pulled out of the side street and stopped to talk to one of the dudes standing outside. and i freaked out cause i realized that it was dave in the van talking to the guy. then the van turned right and stopped right in front of the venue and in front of me and emily. emily freaked out when she saw sean the guitar tech step ot of the van. the rest of the band came out too. it was awesome. they unloaded their trailer with their people. me and emily didnt bother them. so they probably thought that we were dumbasses and didnt know they were the band. i caught eyes with mike a bunch. and garrett and dave a little too. buddy went over and ate at the deli. it was awesome cause no one else was there so as emily said we were the only ones that saw senses fail do manual labor.
After that, band members would walk in and out every once in a while. and i would freak out every time dave came out cause well.. he's a sexy beast. since we were sitting on the ground, i began to recognize people by their asses. there was a really hot guy that came out a lot. dave came out a lot to smoke. emily called him a chain smoker. one of the times he stood a little to the left of the door and when he was done with his cigarette he tossed it so it was right in front of the door and went inside. i nudged emily and told her i was gonna grab it. she laughed, thinking i wasnt serious. but i leaned over and got it. if people saw me they'd probably think i was crazy. but how many people can say they have a cigarette butt of dave's? the venue had stairs that went into the basement and i leaned over and was watching dave walk up them and he caught eyes with me so i freaked out and sat back up (i freak out a lot as you can tell. lol). i know that emily loves sean so every time he walked by i would pretend to be her and reach out to him saying "i love you sean....". there was a nice guy who every once in a while would walk out and he'd say something to us. he tripped over me once.
When they opened the doors me and emily were the first ones in. the nice guy said "first in line, first inside" to us. we were right in front in the middle of the stage. a kid from my class was there and emily envied him cause he got to see a static lullaby the night before and she couldnt. he said that he was where we were the night before and it sucked cause you get crotch-in-face. we were talking about how cool it would be with senses fail right in front of us. but well.. that didnt happen. cause everyone smashes you when you're in the front. it sucks. but before the show had started sean was up on the stage walking around and emily told me that it'd be cool if she could shake his hand. so i called his name and he kneeled down to talk to us. emily said that she was sorry about what happened at one of their other shows a few nights before. he said "shit happens". seans the best.
Boys Night Out played first. and the hot guy from outside ended up being their drummer. so that was really awesome. they were good. i watched the hot guy most of the time. and there was major crotch-in-facewe got smashed a little but not too bad.
A beautiful mistake played next. they were a good band but it sucked being in the front. because the stage is so low that you'd have to lean over it when everyone pushed you. some crazy fan moved emily out of of her spot and took her place. i planted my feet for the first couple of songs before i realized that it wasnt a very good idea and it felt like my knees were going to pop backwards. it wasnt too fun. and the muscles in my legs were getting squished. i tried to back away from the stage and let someone else be in the front between songs. but i couldnt move and the next song started playing. so i had to stay. it was a fucking long song too. i was leaning over the stage for most of that song. then after that i moved back. and emily was having an anxiety attack so we went back towards the merch. and watched the rest of the set from there.
For moneen me and emily moved to the right of the crowd close to the wall and as close as we could get. they were good. emily knew a song and i had heard her play it a couple of times.
Before senses fail played, the band had to walk through the crowd and mike was nice about it putting his hand on your shoulder to let you know hes there then walking by but dave shoved right past the people and he went right to the left of me. it was awesome. thay played a fucking awesome show. bloody romance and 187 as their last songs. they played a couple of new songs. buried a lie, bite to break skin, one about a pirate and another one i didnt know. freefall without a parachute which is such an awesome song. i was watching sean the whole time cause he was sitting on the side of the stage on one of the amps. he knew i was watching him and would look over at me every once in a while. it was funny cause i'd usually be staring at him and he'd look over and i'd look away. but one of the times i looked over at him and he was watching me and he looked away when i catch eyes with him. it was funny. sean has the coolest hair ever. the way he messed it up in the back. i love that man.
After the show me and emily walked over to dan and dave and got our pictures taken with them. i look so damn happy in the picture with dave. biggest smirk. looks like i think im the coolest person ever. but holy shit. dave's arm was around me. me an emily stood there for a while cause neither of them had a pen so they were passing mine back and forth signing stuff for other kids. thats my awesome pen. rufio faught over it at warped tour. then we met sean nelson. it was an honor. and the rest of senses fail. the singer of moneen. and the hot dude from Boys Night Out and for his picture he put his arm around me and did a thumbs up and when he saw that i wasnt doing it too he looked over at me and i did it too. that's an awesome picture. but you can see the braces. garrett was scary as hell. a couple of girls borrowed my pen to have him sign something and they turned around and were talking after getting their stuff signed and he still had the pen so he was trying to get their attention to give it back. and i tried to reach out and get it from him but he didnt know it was mine so he mustve thought that i was some loser kid trying to steal someone's pen so he jerked it away from me. an angry jerk. and it scared the shit out of me. and in the drive-thru dvd when he kicked the door down.. garrett is scary, and you know it..
Then we went outside, called emilys brother and got picked up. he was going to go to the show but he hadnt tried to buy the ticket until like the night before and by then they were sold out so he couldnt go. but he was in a rush and didnt want to get their autographs.
That's it.. it took me 2 1/2 fucking weeks to write that, how lame am i?
Well, tomorrow i will for sure write the billy talent, mxpx, sugarcult, and simple plan one. i'll end up finishing it at home but i will do it damnit..
current mood: relieved
current music: "First Day of the Rest Of Our Lives" by MXPX
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10:26 am - Read your book while i make some hot tea. i love it when you fall asleep on me.
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Today im gonna finish the senses fail entry. finally. over 2 weeks late. god i suck. then when i get home im gonna do the mxpx, sugarcult, senses fail, and billy talent one. hopefully. the singer of billy talent is hot. i love tom's singing. but i havent found a song that he sings yet. he sang 'should i stay or should i go' at the show. it was awesome. today on the bus from putnam some dude was sitting a seat in front and to the right from me. he looked back and was staring right at me trying to get my attention. when i saw him i paused my music and he said 'what's your name?' and i told him it was megan and he said that he was chris and shook my hand. then later on he did the same to another chick. he's an odd one.. last night my brother got dance dance revolution. at first i didnt wanna play cause i felt like a dumbass dancing and shit. but after i had tried it for a while it became fun. my dad's funny when he does it cause he does his old songs and there was a long note when you have to hold the left and right down so my dad put his arms out and got all into it. it was funny. it looked like he was surfing. yearbook crap is due in 2 weeks from yesterday. we still have to do the 'best..' crap. me and emily have to make sure its okay with mr. king today at lunch. yesterday was a good day. luck was on my side all day long. had a fieldtrip. that was fun. it was kyle day! so we saw kyle. i love jake's hair.. and after school we got picked up by emilys dad and we got starbucks. and we went to (i hate emily) starbucks. it was cool. damnit! on sunday i finally made my birthday cake. my mom never had time to do it so i made it myself. and my goddamn brother ate fucking half of it in one day. fuck him.. him and his cake-stealing ways.. when i saw it i freaked and started screaming at him and shit. me and emily might have a hot stalker..
First day of the rest of out lives, i miss you already.
You're not alone anymore. nothing will be like before.
Today's the day you're leaving and tomorrow you'll be gone.
I heard the road, it was calling my name. i walked towards the light and i ran towards the flame.
On the outs, when she don't like you anymore
On the outs, your picture's shattered on the floor
On the outs, your clothes are scattered out the door
On the outs, when things just don't seem like before
current mood: irate
current music: "You're Not Alone" by MXPX
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
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10:02 pm - When i wake up here tomorrow things will never be the same cause i wont wait. cause you wont change.
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My dad works at safeway. he works with a really hot dude. he's blonde. blue eyes. he goes to gladstone high. and.. he drives a bmw. wow. i love bmw's but would never think a teen would own one.. its amazing. he's like.. the perfect guy. when i told my dad about it he told me that he was gonna tell him. so i said "yeah, tell him that your daughter freshman thinks he's pretty.. he'll be flattered." then he told me a story about how they were taking a break and some young girl walked up pointed at him and said "you're hot!". kids these days.. maybe when the new safeway is done since my dad's gonna transfer there he will too. then when me and emily walk home we can.. stop by there. i'd love that. but i guess he wouldnt cause he's in gladstone. love him still the same.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: "I Don't Wanna Think About You" by Simple Plan
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10:30 am - So quit your life and stay with me. we'll order in and watch tv. we'll paint the house. and wash the
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Ahh. it sucked. i think out loud. i knew that some day it would come to haunt me and it did. i said 'good looking man' out loud when the dude was still in the room. it sucked. emily laughed at me because i had told her about how i do that but she didnt understand until then. it just.. sucked. we got an energy resource project in costa's class. im partnered with joey. he's my buddy. we were friends in elementary school. we went to kacey and katey's birthday party in like 2nd grade. and in 7th grade i was friends with him and would talk to him in class but when people started making fun of me for it i was a hosebag and wouldnt talk to him anymore. but now i dont really care. joey's cool. people just dont understand him cause he explains things too thoroughly. hes like my brother so im used to it. tomorrow is the concert. me and emily are probably gonna go to the mall then be dropped off at the crystal around 2. me and emily have seen mxpx before but we were pretty far away. i met mike. well. not met but got him autograph. he was nice. well i really should be doing some work. so i will be off. goodbye.
Oh fuck yeah! i asked my mom about the hot worker from meadows and she said that he was "definately itialian". so he is deron's friend. looks like me and emily need to go up with adam some time and meet this awesome man.
current mood:  envious
current music: "Quit Your Life" by MXPX
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
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2:14 pm - I want you to know that i miss you.. i miss you so.
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Emily's mom has a new job so she can pick us up from school less and less. which really sucks cause that means more walking. mr. king was amazed at how far we live away. but it isnt that far if you think about it. we just take the longer way because other people walk home the shorter way and if we start walking their way it'll be.. iono. stalkerish and i'll feel bad. and that way we'd have to go either by the highway or fred meyers. and i hate traffic. we dont have school on friday which is our concert day. emilys mom has to go to work at 2:30 so she's gonna drop us off at that time. so we'll be there really early like senses fail. and hopefully we're there before the bands again cause that was awesome. i still have to write about that concert. almost 2 weeks past the date. meh. we have a diversity meeting today. its like GSA but with more topics like race, religion and shit. it sucked cause when me and emily were in the counselor's area around 1:30 to help ms. rau some more but she wasnt there yet. so emily went to sit in the chair against the wall but saw something down the hall and went back to the bean bags. i didnt understand that a group of dudes were sitting at the office table. so i went over and sat in the chair. when i looked down the hall a couple of them were watching me so i freaked out and put my hands up a little and said "oh god" and ran to the bean bags. screw that. groups of people i dont know scare me. me and emily are the master filers for ms. rau and now ms. glickenhaus. we're the senior advisors on the yearbook staff. and im wondering what the diversity club thing's gonna be about. that's what takes quite a bit of my work time away. people probably think that me and emily are slacking off cause we're always gone out of out seats and in the counselor's area. but no. we're working our asses off. well. i guess not working our asses off but we are working. go us.
current mood:  anxious
current music: "Letters To You" by Finch
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10:36 am - Today it fell. it felt better. just knowing this matters i just feel stronger.
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I just got out of class for a break. we were talking about the amendment to ban gay marriages. people are ignorant as hell. i was getting pissed because people were saying that its wrong and shit. but i dont talk so i didnt say anything. i mean, i may not be gay myself but people who are against it piss me off so much. when someone said that being gay is a choice not your genes i got totally pissed cause that is not true in any fucking way. in the putnam GSA we talked about how if you talk to any gay person that they hate being made fun of and they'd do anything to be straight but its the way that they are. this is a subject that people dont understand and they'll just believe the stupidest shit. well. i learned who the dicks are in my class and i think they should all burn in hell. robyn's a total bitch. she should be shot along with bush.
current mood: pissed off
current music: "Box Full of Sharp Objects" by The Used
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8:58 am - Its not okay. i made dinner here for 2 and its not okay. ive got candles lit for you.
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Last night i went to sleep around 11:30. that's earlier than shit for me. and im tired.. it sucks. im not tired when i go to sleep at 2 but i am when i sleep earlier. very strange. the fish had more babies. 6 this time. my mom wants me to get another female or my tank will be an incest pool and they'll end up being deformed. but my water's shitty cause i suck. so i have to clean it a couple of times before i can get more fish. last night i had a dream about the hot dude in my school. it was weird. i called him burrito boy.. i dont know.. i was thinking inside the dream that he never eats burritos so its gonna make me sound like a dumbass, but i said it anyway.
Me and emily went snowboarding on saturday. for my birthday. and it was our first time so we kinda sucked but it was fun. there was a really hot worker. he reminded me of the guitarist from matchbook romance and kinda the one from eve 6 too. he had long black curly hair and green eyes and was kinda tan. i think its cool when dudes have black hair and blue or green eyes. but yeah.. me and emily were kinda following him. and i think he could tell. i would just stare at him cause its not like im every gonna see him again. he was snow-skating and it was cool. just staying in place and doing tricks. i kept on whispering to emily that i love that man. he was really hot though.. i told adam about him and deron is friends with an italian dude that looks like that and works up there. they get free lift tickets from him and i think that italian people are tan. deron's my hero. he has hot friends and he's hot himself. and he plays he bass and bassists are cool.
I've never missed a day of school. there was that one time that i was really sick and i couldve but i didnt. that's all thanks to the hot dudes at my school. i told my mom about that this morning and she said "its amazing what good lookings guys can make you do".
I have quite a bit of work to do today. im behind and it sucks..
Awake at ground zero,
Another day wasting away,
Nothing seems to matter,
'Cause nothing's ever changed.
California dreamin',
Has never meant that much to me,
When living in this nightmare,
Comes so easily.
current mood: aggravated
current music: "Tomorrow" by Homegrown
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
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7:29 pm - My eyes burn from these tears. You think you'd learn over these years good things wont last forever.
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So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things that I couldn’t give to you
And you had it all anyway
So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place
Such a great song. i havent updated in forever. last wednesday i got my braces off. i probably already wrote about that. eh.. my dad picked me up from school. got my retainer. went to subway after that and both of the workers were hot. it was awesome. went snowboarding on saturday. saw a really hot worker. i have a half written entry i left at school so i'll hopefully finish that tomorrow. its long.. mainly cause of the hot guy. i got cable internet on friday. for my birthday. and i got a cell phone. simple plan and mxpx concert on friday. that should be cool. amanda's going to it. she was my best friend in 5th and 6th grade but she got sent to another school cause she has adhd and couldnt concentrate and our principal was a bitch. i hated her. she got mad at me because i wasnt telling amanda to do her work when she'd slack off. that woman's evil. but i havent seen amanda in like 2 years. me and her were text-messaging each other today cause she's in my brother's class at putnam and she was using his cellphone so that was cool. i got all excited when i saw it was her. well. i shall play warcraft now. im such a video game nerd.
Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I can’t expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment
current mood: pleased
current music: "My Eyes Burn" by Matchbook Romance
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Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
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5:42 pm - Taking Back Sunday
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12:18 pm - Cause i lost today. i'm not okay. heartbreak. a fake smile. and 2000 miles.
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Dude! concert was fucking awesome! we got there around 4:15 and there were only 2 people sitting there. and they had 4 other friends with them. then later a chick wanted to get up in the front of the line to be able to get her ticket from inside before her boyfriend or whatever.. so they let her. then she brought fucking 15 of her damn friends along with her. but before that it was just emily, i and the other chicks and they saved our spot so we could walk around the block. and as we were turning a corner we walked past someone that looked familiar, but i couldnt figure out who it was. then i realized it was nick from mest and just stopped. then i looked at emily and she had figured out who it was too. i wanted to go and follow him but emily said that we shouldnt cause he was on his cell phone so i didnt. but we walked around the rest of the block and we saw nick again just sitting there talking on the phone so i walked up to him and said "sorry to bother you.. but can i have your autograph?" and he asked "are you really sorry?" and i said no and he laughed. and holy shit. he handed me his cell phone and said "here, talk to aaron". so i talked on nicks fucking cell phone to fat guy the co-webmaster of mestcrapp.com. that is soo awesome. and he signed a piece of paper with my pen. wow. me and emily walked around a couple more times and we saw tony playing the drums and i took a stalker picture of that. and when i took the camera away from my eye i caught eyes with tony. he's so pretty.. then we walked by nick again and i wanted a picture with him, me and emily and when i asked him emily didnt want to get in the picture. i know that she feels like she was invading his privacy but she'll thank me later. yes you will, wont ya emily? there was a dude standing outside in the line behind us and he was really hot. he looked like a mix between brice and deron. it was weird. he had hair kinda like brice's and was skinny like him but had acne like deron. lol. but he was really hot.
Dinamite boy played first. they were okay. from texas. their bassist had very nice... pants. yes.. pants.. he doesnt have a hot face though. and cause he was on out side of the stage and he would put his foot up on the.. thing. dunno what its called. the speaker thingy on stage. yeah.. but it was nice cause i was right in front of him. the first time he threw his foot up there i thought he was gonna kick me. they were an alright band.
And there was a hot dude that every once in a while peeked his head from behind the curtains on stage. the chicks behind us were calling him curtain boy. and they were all into matchbook romance and they didnt recognize him as the guitar player. they were crazy. they like.. groped emily to try to get her spot. and they were annoying as hell. matchbook romance played next. i kept on staring at the hot dude and cause he was on our side he would look down at me every once in a while and get eye contact. he has the cool eyes where they're really dark and they look black.
Fall Out Boy was a really good band too. dude. their guitarist is so cool. he freaks out on stage and does this awesome spinning thing. and he'd just be running all around the stage kicking in the air and it was just.. awesome. and during their set tony was peeking his head out of the curtain so i stared at him then back to the cool guitar player the whole time. they're a cool band. oh wow he's hot.. (hot dude just walked by me). woah. and another. that's spazzy.
I bought cheetos and i cant chew them cause my teeth still hurt. so i have to like.. soak them and shit. its weird. but back to the concert. Mest was the best. i had a perfect view of tony. he's the hottest man ever. at the aladdin theatre they dont have a paracade so you're right up against the stage so people that crowd surfed got to run around on stage until the stage dude grabbed them and brought them behind the stage and then back to the crowd. and some chick went up on stage a couple of times. the first time she squirmed out of the bouncers arms and gave matt a kiss. and then jeremiah the next time she got on stage. and after a while she went up on stage again and she gave tony a kiss. and tony was in the middle of singing and at a part in the song where it pauses singing for a second or two tony said "fuck you" and then the chick jumped back into the crowd. i dont think she heard him. it was funny. tony's the best. and some chick came on stage in the middle of a song and she was running to the back of the stage and tony started calling her back. but she didnt hear him so tony just stopped playing. and the rest of the band stopped too. and she was already back at the side of the crowd so tony told her to come back on stage. she came back and tony talked about how the shows with no barricades are cool cause people can come on stage. then they started the next song and she jumped back into the crowd.
Between songs when tony was talking some dude crowd-surfed onto the stage and tony jokingly made fun of him for crowd-surfing when theres no song. then he told him to stay on the stage and jump in the crowd when they start the next song. it was funny cause the guy was kinda stupid.. he walked to the side of the stage almost backstage. and tony wanted him to be right in front of the drums. and he had to explain it to the guy a couple of times cause he didnt understand. then tony said "he(nick) is going to count to 4 then we'll start playing, then you jump your white ass into the crowd," making fun of the guy. then he said, "so it'll be like 1..2..3..4.." and the guy started running towards the crowd. and tony said "no no no no" and stopped the guy. then tony said to the crowd "yeah.. and when he jumps in.. you guys will split and make him hit the ground *laughs*. no i'm just joking." but when they did start the song and the guy jumped in i looked back at him and i saw his feet for a second and they went down. and i saw some chick that put her hand over her mouth and was laughing. so i think that the crowd took what tony said seriously and really let the dude drop. emily didnt see it though. that guy was funny.
After the show emily got me a mest shirt for my birthday and i got myself a shirt and a poster. nick came out by the merch table and did a little rap thingy. but i thought that we had bothered him enough earlier so we left him alone. then we walked over to the matchbook romance and fallout boy merch and there were a couple members from bands. the hot guitarist from matchbook romance, the awesome guitarist from fallout boy and the drummer of fallout boy with the awesome hair. but my attention was on the hot dude from MR. we stood behind him for a bit but i felt bad bothering him cause he was talking. emily bought a matchbook romance messenger bag and she tipped the dude $3. then someone asked the hot guy for his autograph so i thought i would too. i was standing behind him so he couldnt see me so i got to poke his shoulder. he was tall.. kinda like way back when when i poked pierre's shoulder. but i got his signature and i asked to take his picture and he said ok so i took one, then he asked if we were gonna get in it or not, so we got a second picture with him. he put the cool arm with the tattoos around me. then the merch dude walked by and he said "these lovely ladies tipped me $3". it was cool.. the guitarist of fall out boy was standing to the side of the merch table and was talking to a chick. it was funny cause he would look over at me and emily every once in a while cause we were waiting for a long time. and he knew that we wanted autographs but the chick kept on talking. but i heard him saying that hes addicted to final fantasy and that's an awesome game so he's cool. but after a while he said that he was sorry for us having to wait and he signed our stuff and i asked if i could take my picture with him and he said i could so i went next to him and gave the chick he was talking to the camera to take the picture. emily was hesitant again but i told her to come in and the dude put his arm out and made space so she could stand there for the picture. then she came in.
Emily walked up to the drummer of fallout boy and said "not to be weird or anything.. but you have cool hair." and he said that it wasnt a weird thing to say and the singer of FB was just walking in the room and cool hair man said "hey, i have cool hair" so the singer walked over and said "yeah, you do have good hair. especially when if has that curl in it. but its not so good when you wake up and it's all crazy." and they started talking about his hair. it was cool. then emily left cause the security dudes were telling everyone that they had to leave. but i stayed and got the bassists of fallout boy and matchbook romance's autographs. then i asked the guy from MR if i could take his picture so i took one and he asked if it was good cause he's not used to taking pictures by himself. and they started talking about how weird it is to be by yourself so he grabbed the bassist of fallout boy and took another picture. it was cool they had their arms around each other. then we left and emily called her house and her parents were already outside waiting for us so emily was really ticked cause we couldnt go to the back of the place and get mest's autographs.
matt's playing kyle's mom's a bitch and its cool.
current mood: happy
current music: "2000 Miles" by Mest
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
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12:37 pm - would it be okay if i left today? took my chances on what you said was wrong..
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Light...like the flutter of wings
Feel your hollow voice rushing
Into me...as your longing to sing
Mest concert tonight! sooo excited. and i get my braces off next wednesday. im gonna look weird with no braces.. me and emily arent leaving too early cause the earliest my mom can get off at is 4. so we will leave at 4. and sit outside for a long time in the cold. im still contemplating if i'm gonna wear my sweatshirt or not.. normally concerts are the only time that i dont wear a hoodie but its gonna be really cold so i dont know.. holy shit. tony lovato. tony. fucking. lovato. he'll be right in front of me. i'm gonna freak out. and if they walk by before the show. again.. holy shit. mest is such a good band. i had kinda forgotten about them as the new bands came in. but i've been listening to their new cd and destination unknown lately and they're awesome cds. and i brang the mest dvd to school today and i've been watching that. i dont do much work in school anymore. its not good. the new taking back sunday song is awesome. im trying to listen to my music more quietly so i dont completely screw up my ears tonight. my something corporate video is screwing up a lot and its pissing me off. buffering every 5 seconds cause its from offline and its a piece of shit. i hate the world.
if i could be your first real heartache
i would do it over again
if you could be my punk rock princess
i would be your heroine
current music: "Punk Rock Princess" by Something Corporate
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