| 3:08p |
moving forward...
No one said it was going to be easy and it hasn't been.
I'm feeling the financial crunch of starting over (thank God for the people who've had my back from the beginning), the stress of the relatively new job and the almost-comical confusion of adjusting to a new relationship.
But no one also said it was going to feel this good.
I'm feeling so blessed realizing how many people are there for me. Even my mom, who I never got along with, has offered her assistance. My family and friends have been so great. My girl is simply amazing. I may not be rich materially, but I am certainly wealthy in so many other ways.
Emotions I've long hidden...anger, sadness, pain, happiness, sheer bliss, love, jealousy...they're coming in waves. After what felt like forever, I'm finally feeling again and I no longer see the need to hide what I feel. I no longer see the need to cut off my emotions for fear that I'll get hurt.
I've stifled the best part of me for so long and it's been dying to come out. But that's over now.
I am finally allowing myself to take big risks for a shot at true happiness.
At 30, my life has officially begun. |